was dragged to the doc ytd and guess what? i've had gastric flu all along. when i was told tht, the first thing tht came to my mind was, he was right.

i didnt listen to him, didnt think tht i'd really get the shit. and when i went to the doc back in jan and was told i had too much acid in my stomach, i didnt eat the medicine. he told me to, but i didnt heed him at all.

and tht is why i truly deserve this.

aunt came over, she was the one who dragged me, and fed me my medicine. in the past it would be my mom. but no, ever since some shit happened between me and parents, they hardly take notice of me alr.

my dad didnt believe me when i told him i was sick in the morning. he was waking me up for sch and when i couldnt get up, he started yelling at me to get up, get up. and then in the end he was like, "i hate you ah. really." and then it was all silent again.

took my temp in the afternoon, was 38.4 . i couldnt find any comfortable position to sleep in. and i kept having weird nightmares when i slept. like seriously uber weird.

this just the thing i hate the most abt being sick. cause of the weird stuff i see in my sleep. and you all know how seriously i take my dreams.

and all along during this pity party of mine, what i had thought of the most was for tht boy to come and take care of me again. like he used to.

at some moments, i would think tht i was back in jan, where he texted me every half an hour asking how i was doing. back then, there was tht one time when i called him telling him tht the pain was really unbearable and i just wanted to cry, and he had said tht he wanted to cry too. he was yelling shit like "yes! i know it hurts! i feel like crying too!"

and he's the type of person who rarely cries. like super rarely.

haix. yeah, i am a moron for still thinking of him. why am i being like this? why am i still affected by him? i bet he doesnt even rmb all our memories even tho there's alr like a dozen by the time he steps out of the lift at his house.

are all males like tht ? there she is being so damn brought down by all the words you had said to her, and here you are going on with your life like as if you had done nothing wrong towards her.

so anyways. yeah, ive got gastric flu. congratulations irshad. you were right. and i deserve this.