"sadistic" .

so, today.

i am currently editting all of today's footage, so i might be distracted off this post here and there. had the 4th annual reunion with sabrina, shushan and siying today.

had told them i wouldnt be coming, but i did. at a really later time. sabrina practically shrieked when she saw me standing there by her door. i had tears in my eyes at tht point of time.

so yeah, we watched woodcock first, followed by the coraline which i'd brought. unaccompanied minors was next, before we ended off the day with joshua. all the titles of the movies we watched today kinda describe the main characters, if u get what i mean.

anyhoos, aft the whole reunion, walked to ehub with siying to pee. slacked at burger king first before making our way to the bus stops, them ghosts walking along here and there gg all dadadoo.

o before i forget, here are some pics from reunion.





before we parted, i'd told siying abt my decision. shall leave it to her to deliver the news to the rest. i just rmb tht the last thing i had said to her before walking away was "i'm not coming back."

okay, i think i shall edit the footage tmrw? shall do other stuff now, gonna get off the comp and do some papery work eg writing.

been slacking in my studies. should buck up. one thing tht's made me really happy is the fact tht my granny is sleeping over again .

take this as a journey. clique was my home, but now i am setting off on a journey to acquire smth from a far away place. as long as i aint home, it just means i havent gotten tht smth.

..................... this morning, i was awakened by the rain. i was dazing awhile when there was this really loud thunderclap , and it shocked the shit out of me.

i had looked at the time. 6.30 in the morning. the first thing tht i remembered was tht was the time where tht boy would be on the way to sch on wednesdays.

the rain was damn heavy, there was lighting and thunder, and all i could think of was his safety. tht was the only thing i had thought of, God.

my axes. if tht aint love, then what is it ?

when somebody says sorry, it doesnt always mean an end to smth bad. it could also be the start of smth bad. for example sorry is always used to patch things up with someone right? tht way it's like the end of smth bad (a quarel or smth) / the start of smth good (a rekindled friendship) . get what i mean?

but sometimes it could be the opposite as well. it could be the end of smth good, and the start of smth bad. like "i'm sorry. but i'm leaving." get it ?

i shall now set off on tht journey. hope i'd return home (clique) safe, with tht smth in tow. like seriously. i am desperate for my own reasons. i have my reasons .

hmmmm ........ maybe should make a video on this .