at some moments i wanna kiss the shit out of you. at others i wanna crush your windpipe with my bare hands. these bloody hands are capable of doing shit, and my current mental unstability has the will to do all tht.

i dont know what's your problem. if you had planned on leaving me, why come back in the first place?

you made me like you, and then you left and then came back and then made me fall in love with you and then left again. and then you came back again and made me believe you love me and then you fucked me up and then you left me again.

yeah, what's your problem? i am asking you .
what. is. your. problem ?

i know mine. i wanna know yours. i wanna know why you do all those shit to me, why you treat me like this.

and o God. i wanna know why God makes us meet again and again each time. why God makes our paths cross each time. no, why your path happens to intrude mine each time.

and this moron named E'indah . why the fuck she making me so in love with you, why the fuck she make me so at your mercy. bloody hell. she made me suffer because of you . both of you are in cahoots. i hate the both of you .

but then again i love the both of you. both of you taught me many important stuff, and altho sometimes i dont heed them, i do think of those memories, those lessons. she taught me many stuff which only i would have understood.

i miss you. i miss her . but what can i do? i cant bring her back like how she cant bring you back.

bloody hell. she's letting you ruin her life. my life. she's got the choice not to be affected, and she's choosing to be. and it's making me suffer as well .

i hate her. i hate you . i wish you'd just die. i didnt get to bash you the second time you left, but this time i'll do it. i'll kill you first, and then i'll kill her. it'll make my life so much better .