heartless .

went to the library today . borrowed 4 books, very happy now .

then again, tht's just surface wise.

had sent a slipper flying earlier, and it shocked the shit out of the woman who was passing by. tht was probably the only thing which had made me smile from within today.

so anyhoos, bila mau buat video? might have some ideas for re:the world calling, without requiring anyone's help apart from a few parts here and there.

but. i'm still fearful of some places in pasir ris. esp the venue where i'd planned to film at. o well. i'm the strongest girl in the world.

i'm heartless, because my heart was taken by someone who refuses to give it back to me.

he had taken it from me, because he said it was a beautiful heart. he had taken care of it at first, but i dont know what happened.

he broke it, right in front of me. i thought he'd return the pieces back to me so i could try to put my heart back tgt again, but no. he threw them away instead.

bila mau buat video.

okay, you know what. i'm gonna pop by prp this week and start filming all the shit, all at one shot. fully focus on what's in the camera, and not anything around me. and i'd cycle down so i dont have to suck in the views with the effing memories if i walk.

stupid ghosts.

yeah sure, you guys are beautiful. but really unnecessary. forgive me, but i'm just gonna crash into you guys if you happen to be in the way, which is all the time, actually. assholes . idiot best friends. idiot brother and sister. idiot couple .

beautiful, but unnecessary . aaahhhhh i know they're just my imagination. but i still cant control myself from not seeing them . aaahhhhhhhhhh i am so sick and tired of life.

no. rmb what azreenie said. "hidup susah, tapi mati pun tanak." it's true. soooo. not yet. not yet. see what happens .