he's damn different. suddenly, he and i have so much shit in common. the things i loved from back then, he loves now. i bought him a tee more than a year ago, and he's always wearing tht tee the most of all his tees.
he remembers tht i used to love earrings a lot. tht i love prawns, peanut butter ice cream, the number 109, butterflies, just all the random little things.
i know you guys will say tht he's just making use of me and all tht shit. but somehow, somehow no he's not. i can tell tht he's not. i've looked into his eyes. somehow... his feelings are real, i can really tell...
tht time, when i was slacking at gym with asleah and siying. we were talking abt khairul . i said to them, "i love him more than i loved irshad." truth be told, aft i said tht, i felt a chill run thru my spine, like as if my body was scared of telling a lie.
but then siying said, "tht's good. tht's really very good." like she really really cared for me. teros, irshad totally vanished.
i always showed an interest in his and his ex's relationship. like, asleah always randomly updated me abt their status, and then one day she told me tht they were having problems. i asked a lot, disguised my concern as kpo-ness. and a few days later she said they were ok again, i was damn relieved.
cos, i cared. i cared for his happiness. for some reason.
tht reason, was most probz cos i still loved him. i still had feelings for him. then when khairul forbade me from having any contact with him, i couldnt understand why. i just obeyed but in my head, i was always wondering why .
truth be told, when he and the rest came over for raya, i kept standing near him. the rest were sitting on the couches while he sat at the dining table with his twin, and i kept standing in between although under the circumstances i would have stood in the middle of where the majority of the guests were at.
okay, i also dk why im talking abt all this nw. uhm, imma go off now.
but these are just little confessions.
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