it's true.

once he leaves, i would have nothing.

been having lots of family problems these days. they all aint here for me... my parents work too much. they work everyday from morn to night! maybe.. maybe one reason why i dont wanna go sch is cos i can send them off to work. cos, every sch day, i would leave home quietly without seeing any of them...

and you guys know abt my older bro alr. but now, the younger one is saddening me too. he doesnt wanna go out with me, he doesnt wanna play ps3 with me, either cos he lazy, wanna play with his friends or wanna play ps3 with his friends. and he said so himself tht he doesnt wanna spend time with me sia!

and my grandmother's the only one who would always be next to me whenever i am damn sad. why must she move out ?? why did she have to move out???

and my friends... my seven best friends. none of them texted me to ask why i didnt come sch. asleah was so damn despo for her compre only, and siying cant be bothered alr as well. and the rest have been gossiping abt me i heard, like as if they understand what's been gg on with me. they hardly ever talk with me alr. they cant just talk ABT me like tht.

and then there is cousie. yeah i know she's like damn busy with her Os but i made an effort to text her during my Ns to ask how her studies were gg. cos i know she was stressed, i watched her cry and i listened to her whine. why cant she do the same for me..?

not to forget the love of my life. dont wanna talk abt tht one.

sigh. no more. no more. i cant take it no more. guillemard's the only place where i feel loved. my grandmother, my aunt, the cats there. all of them love me to bits. they're the only ones who still love me.. i wanna live there sia. i really wanna live there. i dont wanna live in pasir ris anymore. i dont wanna go sch at prcs anymore. i dont wanna go to family gatherings at my father's side anymore.

no more. no more. no more crying.
my throat hurts... ok. no more crying eindah. dont cry already !!!!!!!!!!