which is better: abundant or lack?

blah blah blah blah.

my brothers are discussing a matter that does not involve me: Avengers.

*shuts the bedroom door*

WEMCAMWHORING TIME MY DEAR AXES.
please understand my jakonism. i love you guys.

  

so today, i'd gone to Maccy D at zee Whitesands for a little chillaxing while waiting for the designated meeting time with a certain Syamirul. we were supposed to meet at 1, but i was already there at 11.

i totally regret though. by noon, i was shivering like mad. the freaking place had totally unneededly low temperature, but the black hoodie i was wrapped up in wasn't helping. 

eventually he turned up, and talking to him seemed to have helped distract me off the cold. (i had tried writing to distract me, but it only resulted in messy squiggles that seemed to form the words fucking cold!!! all over the pages of my diary.)

so Syazim (his full name is Syamirul Azim so i shortened it to Syazim - cool kan?) and i were talking about many random things, from the people in my school to life to academic stuff.

splitz somewhere near 2.30, him to school at TP and me to the library to resume with Blood Brothers. some eons later went back before going out again, to Tamp library, where i completed the book and borrowed another called The Vanishing Game.

don't be one of the many morons who don't know how to freaking use the new borrowing machine.

so here i am back at zee humble abode.

these are the library books which i currently have in my possession. such bliss! Feral's the one i'm reading right now.

i love books so much. all things that's got to do with words, be it writing or reading. i don't think i'm good with words when using them on people, like in conversation. it frustrates me that i can think of many things to say but when it's time to release them onto the examiners, i'm stumped. must be the self-esteem.

so what's up with me? why the low self-esteem? is it really just the shame and lack of pride?

let me ask you: is it better to have abundant of something, or a lack?

when you're abundant of something, you'll always be using it, thinking, oh, "i've got plenty of it, i can use a lot of it this time, don't worry. i will not run out."

if you keep thinking that you have enough for the next time, eventually it'll just cause you to keep using it til there's none left. 

on the other hand, if you have a lack of it, you'd be like, "if i use it now, i might not have enough to use next time, and what if there's a time that i really need it? alright, i won't use any this time."

so you keep it, and eventually, there comes a time when you absolutely don't need it at all. get what i mean? for example, chocolates. if you keep saving them, eventually they'll expire and you end up throwing them away.

so which is better; abundant or lack?

tomorrow is a tuesday, and the longest day of the school week. we've got periods for all subjects apart from Humans, so. hoo. awaiting our results. i can't wait to receive back my karangan. i've already got the first person to read it in mind. *grin*