but enough abt tht boy, right? right.
maybe ive got a crush. this crush of mine, is just another silly one, many years aft my first real crush which was in 2009. all them others were just walls to help me deny my real crush for tht boy. if u get what i mean.
so anyways, this crush, i find him cute uh. and in all the class vids, he's like so awesome ah. there's one more thing abt him tht makes him damn awesome, but if i were to say it straight it'll be obvious who's this crush i'm referring to .
hmmm, who knows my blog tht knows this person ah? siying, timothy, syazana. okay, most of them are me classmates. shall i just shut up and tell you who this person is? oh but then if i shut up, how am i supposed to tell you who's he?
ok, ok. i shall shut up. and tell you who he is .
maybe ah. maaaaybe only, maybe i might have this silly little crush on zharfan.
i must admit, the very first time i ever noticed him was when i saw him sleeping in class. he looked so much like tht boy when he was sleeping.
tht made me notice him. and ever since then, i've only looked at him for the way he is. his drumming is just damn awesome.
been watching back some of the old 4/2 videos, and i never noticed how i captured him on camera so much. he's quite good looking in his own way, and when he smiles or laughs, it's like so cute. he so pendiam, yet it must be because he's got a lot in his mind. he seems tht type. to me.
during cheer it's like we had to rely on each other ah. cause, he had to listen for my 5678 before starting his beat. and then i was watching our 4/2 encore cheer, and he had looked out for my signal before making his final beat before my 5678. if u get what i mean.
then tht time when they were teaching the new moves, i didnt get it, and then he was like, "eindah eindah, like this eindah." and then he showed me them moves.
and another time when everyone was chaotic and then i was like, "oh i know i know!" cos i had suggestion but faiz didnt hear me then i was like, ok nevermind. and then zharfan was like, "eh faiz faiz, eindah got smth to say" or smth like tht ah.
but, too bad he only likes chinese girls. o well .
anyhoos. there's the camp thingy tmrw. aahhhh . and look, my earring the sharp part has been bleeding a lot lately. means my earlobe is bleeding too. ouch indeed. it's gonna get an infection. again.
you know how some ppl with the third eye wish they could just be blind instead? i feel tht way too. i wish i dont have to see them ghosts everywhere. i know it's just my imagination, but ... i cant control seeing those stuff.
i hafta stop my imagination, but i dont really know how. and,... i think those ghosts are real beautiful. they look so happy. i'm the only one in the world who can see them, so why make them stop existing?
reminds me of the time when he went to z SK right aft he and i shared first kiss. he's really the most douchebaggest douchebagic douchebag i know.
haix. but still, he's also truly the most handsome boy ive ever met.
i found a lie, and then it grew. i found myself still thinking of you. i felt so empty, and then i'm fine, but still it's burning: when will you be mine?
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