I don't love my niece the same way I did when I first saw her.
She isn't as cute anymore. She can't compare to you.
I'd sacrifice my own parents just to be with you if I could.
I am working so hard for you but you're gone.
You're dead and I only have a black and white picture of you.
A screenshot from my first and last ultrasound scan of you.
I gave you up for people who couldn't care less about me...
I am the ugliest person on earth.
You were the only one who could have gone your whole life believing I was the most beautiful.
I threw you away.
For people who couldn't care less about me.
I have three photo frames of many different people looking down at me,
and none of them are even here for me.
It hurts in my chest, physically, and I wish it didn't.
My breathing gets harder each time.
And when I say something, my other half only laughs and mocks me for it.
I'd sacrifice him to be with you if I could, too.
Every song reminds me of you. Every night I hear you. Every dream, I see you.
I miss you so fucking much and I'd burn the world down just to be with you if I could.
And no one understands.
I am this close to putting myself into oblivion.
I don't do it because the only thing still pulling me together is my job.
"You're not alone", but really, I am.
Because who else could be there even if they wanted to?
Just fucking kill me already.
