i am losing track of time .

have i told you?

i discovered tht re'ine nadhie is a good thinker when it comes to studies.

but she's still the loner. so she aint gonna be hanging out with anybody anytime soon. and she's still a lazy person, so unless she starts putting in effort, she aint gonna have the opportunities to make proper use of her brain.

and she's still got gastric flu.

this gastric is making me very restless all the time, whether i'm lying down or sitting. the only time it doesnt have much effect is when i'm walking. it's damn irritating. but o well, i do love walking.

walking and writing is smth tht all three of us likes. the Wrister girl, Nadhie and E'indah . the Wrister girl's life depends on writing and walking but she doesnt show it, while Nadhie just seems to have a flair for it but doesnt know it.

and this E'indah, she loves writing and walking and would show the whole world what she loves.

tht's what i observe anyway.

i must admit, i'm kinda becoming a little mentally unstable. been talking to myself a lot more these days. and then sometimes i'd be like angry at this person inside me. it's like one sec i'm Nadhie, the other sec the Wrister girl.

ytd i was all three, to tell you the truth, in terms of appearance. there was the contacts of Nadhie, the skinnies and hoodie from the Wrister girl. and i brought back my style of 2009, the double hood thing. tht was so E'indah.

can you tell which is which? or more like which is who. kenya kenya ?



i am on my journey . take this bloggie as a kind of communication from my whereabouts to cliquey, cause i know siying reads this still.

and, dreamt of cliquey last night. all 7 of them . at sch. and, it was E'indah . not Wrister girl or Nadhie. how i know you ask? i just do. tht's the thing abt dreams. you just know.

i'm breaking apart. i really am . even syazie seems to have given up on me, my dear childhood friend. and nicholas as well. o well.

the thing tht matters is i havent given up on myself. tht is why i am on this journey .

i know to you all it's the wrong thing to be not giving up on. but nah. to me, getting tht smth means more than anything else in the world.

today's my maternal grandfather's 81st birthday. alhamdullilah he is still with us today, and healthy and happy.