ive been watching some old videos from 2011. i must say... it was the best year of my life so far. and im not including 2012 in the years im talking abt, cause it aint even halfway thru yet.
anyway. 2011.
1. cheering comp. for three years we've never won any shit, not even 3rd place. and then suddenly we were the effing overall champions. totally unexpected .
dammit, im suddenly so lazy to talk abt 2011.
or more like afraid to reminisce ?
it's raining. some trivium just played on my WMP . im skipping to some enrique iglesias right now. so very the re'ine nadhie. bloody bitch .
o God... my gastric area still hurts like hell. it's been a lot more painful ever since the fever i had like, last week. i ignored the pain in rebellion against Being Left Behind.
have i told you? during my escapade over the weekend, i made my grandmother lose her trust in me.
my grandmother. the one person before tht boy whom i truly truly ever bothered to care about.
whose fault is it tht she lost trust in me? yes. mine.
no, it's not mine. it's E'indah's. cause she allowed tht boy to make her do stupid things like run away from guilley, lie to her grandmother tht she was gg home but didnt.
my God. how i hate... her.
this song.
once, i was listening to it when in a conversation with tht boy. i watched the lyrics. i was addicted to this song, but i wasnt empathetic. i didnt feel for this person, because...
i had thought i wouldnt be in this state, i had thought tht boy would be with me forever. i really thought tht. i rmb it so clearly. back in november .
i hate you. yet, i love you.
"you know that when i hate you, it is because i love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul."
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