bursary !

so today, i was in my uniform all day. first was to sch to get my freaking application form for sec 5. waited some eons cause some ppl were talking to mr ng. blah3, finally he saw me and gestured for me to go over.

and then he passed me z application form! filled it up really quick before passing it to the office staff and makin my way back to bus stop. went to mac's, met up with my lil bruh. while eating, irritated the shit out of him, as always.

then went home, cause he still needa put on his uniform. then daddy came home, so we all just siap siap and made our way to bus stop and then to paya lebar mrt station.

ok ah, i still remembered the place, cause ive been there once last year. so i led the way, which always makes me happy. found the place, so many balloons sia!!! then registered, and then we stood around eating the little snacks before making our way into the auditorium.

when my bro went on stage, his face seriously like one nerd sia. i was like, pffffffttttt in my seat, the girls on both my sides were like O_________O

then, when it was my turn on stage pulak, i saw my dad's face in the audience, also like one nerd. i grinned my way onto and off the stage sia! which was good la, or not i would have just looked like one freaking grinch.

o yeah, the bloody presenter was the same as last year's. tak tau cakap nama melayu. irritating firetruck sia, serious. i dont like when ppl pronounce my name wrongly, esp if they are saying my full name, with the nadhirah and my dad's name.

well anyways, aft tht, during the little buffet, i ate a lot. played with the balloons, so damn geram sia!! wanted to bring home, but my dad was like NO . T.T o and i loved the cream puffs! aahhh. how i love cream puffs.

met up with mommy aft tht. ate waffles at the waffle factory, talked abt our workplaces while eating. my parents are damn lively ppl, they add so much colour to their respective workplaces, hopefully i can be like them in da future!

took da train back to pasir ris, and then blah3 , played with kuskus a little while before makin our way home. and then yeah, i am home.

so tmrw, faris wanna have a little talk with irshad and i. i dunno for what also, i thought i alr pwned z SK? still unhappy isit? tiffany conceicao fb chatted me up, she was like, "why is shahirah so irritating?" heheheh.

she sez tht SK is just using faris to make irshad jealous. weeeell, i dont think it's working ?

anyhoos. hopefully i dont do anything stupid during da talk tmrw. i hope i dont raise my voice or do some physical assault or smth. dont wanna get punished, shady sez he'll make me stand far away from them if i do smth stupid T.T



i kinda like this pic, haha.
my daddy and i . (':

and this:



dont you just love smosh? i love smosh. ok, goodbye! i shall think of a word to represent goodbye like how heidiho is hello.

some random shoot.

i like orange. it's the colour of my work uniform. then, i wonder why do i never like the colour yellow, when it's the uniform of my sch? or, isit the colour of the uniform of my sch, tht's why i dont like it?

anyhoos, i am here again, as you can see. hope you dont get tired of my face. i wanna blog to share some random funny shit between maya and i which happened, tht i forgot to blog abt .

on da day tht i fell asleep aft i came back from MUB : i woke up to see maya sweeping the floor at my feet. i stared at her. she stared at me. then i realized tht i had drool all over my chin. i wiped on my hand and was like, shoved my hand towards her direction .

she looked at me like =_________= and was like,



tht woke me up, i laughed like shit sia!

and yeah, tht's it for now. december is ending soon, imma post pics of 2011 very soon. and holy firetruck! i needa get started on L2G . like, asap. o btw, i still cant go to sec 5 tho ive finished make up bridging, cause i stupidly forgot to pick up my application form.

sooo most probs hafta pop by sch tmrw to take it. dammit, i lazy wear uni sia! and lazy to listen to his lectures as well. and ive got some ceremony thingy tmrw. lazy go sia.

i still rmb, when i was still with z MKI. there was tht one morning when i got so damn pissed at him and started throwing tables around in 4/2 classroom. the twins were outside the classroom when i went out, banging the door and stuff.

later on in tht day, was walking to mt classroom when the twins were walking in my direction. irfan was like, "what was wrong with you, angry or what? bang here bang there." i just smiled and walked away without saying anything.

but actually, when he asked tht, i wanted to throw myself onto their arms and cry to them everything abt how mki was treating me. i really felt tht. but during then, i was so hell bent on being in 'love' with him, tht i just held in tht little feeling of wanting solace in the twins' arms.

little confessions. just little confessions.

syazana once asked me, "why do you like irshad and not irfan?"
my answer is, i just dont feel the same for him? irshad's the one who makes me really happy when i'm with him. ive never had tht feeling for irfan before la. simple.

and then timothy asked me, "how do you tell them apart?"
my answer is, i can tell by their voices i guess? but mostly is the level of attraction. idk, like, i feel more chemistry/attraction for irshad than irfan, when i look at the faces.

hmm..... anymore questions? kk, should stop blogging alr i guess.

heidiho! dont you love my new skin? glad tht ive not lost the touch of making blogskins. i dont use photoshop to make my skins tho, i just type out/edit the freaking codes.

well anyways. today is thursday. a boring thursday, til siying texted me, forwarding our meeting from 3.30 to 3. so, i rushed like firetruck, which made the afternoon much more less boring. but, i still ended up meeting her at 3.30, cause my rush wasnt quick enough.

we had sarpino's, we both had the double pepperoni. siying paid for it while i paid for our drinks from cup walker's. while eating, caught up on each other's lives. today is gonna be her last day of working!!! and timothy's, cause "the manager is like crap".

went to central and slacked at sns , waiting for asleah and timothy, cause they were working too. played with the little kitty , whom ive not seen for a really long time cause i barely pass by. then met up with the other 2 ppl.

we all chatted while they ate their food. and, as always, laughed. was telling them abt SK, then asleah was like, "sigh. normal tech." then i was like, "eh irshad pandai ok!" i liked her expression when she said, "i didnt even say anything!"

yeah, laughed a lot with them too. i like the combo of siying-asleah-timothy and me, as well :3 like so fun la. altho i am the odd one out cause im the only one from EK.

walked to bus stop, saw their 12 , asleah was like running for it while the three of us were like chillax. they missed the bus -_- so, sempat ambek gambar.



we all kept pestering asleah to get a boyfriend, just so we could go on a triple date. siying was just telling me, back at sarpino, tht one of the dudes from MFM wanna confess to her tonight at their chalet, and tht siying and tim are like helping him.

me: go get a boyfriend la! so we can triple date. or go get a random guy.
asleah: O.O !!!!

slip of the tongue sia, i meant to say, get a random guy friend. the three of them were so shocked when i said tht ! talked abt many random shit, they're all so awesome. then many eons later, my bus came, and so did theirs, trailing behind mine.

nobody was home, as always. damn saddening. o well.

i am way behind schedule for Letting 2011 Go sia! deadline was ytd, but i extended it to day aft tomorrow. if i dont do anything abt it now, imma have to extend it til next year sia, which is so not nice.

i snapped, i replied one of SK's tweets. she keep calling my shady jerk and asshole, and kept calling me bitch T.T all along, ive kept quiet, but when i finally said smth, there she goes, runnin away. so damn penakot.

anyhoos, like my new skin? and where is z shady boy?

walking around with z twins .

i forgot to intro you guys this song. it's a christmas song from TFT, but it's not talking abt santa or jesus or whatever christian stuff (i have no christian readers), instead, this song is abt wanting heat during the cold winter tht christmas time comes in, and this warmth comes in the form of a loved one. imho la. shall analyse this song one day.

anyhoos! heidiho everyone. now all of you are firetrucks! not lans anymore.
how was my day you ask? let's go!

today was my last day of make up bridging!!! i was the first one to reach today. syazana bought me a bun, sho shweet T.T guess what, we all fell asleep from 830 to like 930 today. and when i woke up, i had a horrible tummy pain.

i love my tummy, so i went to the toilette . why must the npcc peeps be havin their stuff right outside the girls toilet, dammit.

syafie kept passing by today, he threw away my can of chrysanthemum tea and rummaged thru my bag sia, how rude! cause i'm a girl, he doesnt have the rights to bongkar my belongings like tht, am i correct?

well, slept a lot today actually. then some time later went for a little breakie with syazana. told each other ghost stories, told her abt ahboy. then made our way back, seeing the class list and the sec 1 list, as always.

saw a dude with a really cool name. then syazana was like, wanted to say, "eh he's malay!" but then realized tht the M stood for male. should have seen her reaction! i laughed like shit. then, in the midst of my laughters, saw another thing tht made me laugh more.

but damn busted, cause it's like making fun of ppl's name. but syazana just had to make it funnier sia!!! [inside joke inside joke]

omg, i laughed a lot with syazana sia, not only today but the 4 days of make up bridging . fyi, she's actually my childhood friend. for 13 years? think so. all i can say is ive known her since at least kindergarten days.

she wrote me a really sweet note. sad tht i dont have anything for her. will try to hang out with her some days when sch reopens!

went home to have a nice shower, before gg to ws to meet up with z shady boy and his twin. and guess what, i wasnt wearing hoodie! didnt bring any either. arent you all proud of me? anyway, we were planning to go shopping at bugis :3

alighted at bugis but we went to this place called sunshine plaza first. walked around damn a lot of rounds before finding the shop tht they were looking for. then, went to withdraw money at a posb machine. irshad dashed for it when it was empty, and irfan was just like chill. so silly, heh.

then went back to the shop before gg to hunt for chemicals. shared my kbw, then aft tht as always irshad suggested mac's so tht was what we got. walked to funan for the maccy d there, he mistakenly ordered just a mcspicy.

talked while eating, then in the midst there was suddenly this really long silence. everyone was focusing on their food, so cute. and i liked when shady suddenly sang "if you're sexy and you know it, do the wiggle." i laughed like shit sia.

then laughed a lot also, over the slightest little things. then made our way to, where did we go aft tht? o yeah, penin. walked around, visited the shops tht i visited with maya on saturday. i heard tht they were looking for shoes.

walked around a lot, but we didnt go MOC, o well. not getting anything anyway .

we passed by the shop where the chairs were short, i kept remembering the time with maya and i couldnt help smiling to myself! then we went to the building next to penin, and there was a memory too, so i couldnt help it, i kept giggling to myself ! none of the twins saw i think.

then we walked to bugis, i led the way but they didnt seem to believe me when i said tht bugis was on the left instead of the right. walked around inside, and they were like saying why the hell is everything girl's stuff.

weeeell, all i can say is, they should have asked me shit, cause i always go to bugis, i know where the stuff is... but they didnt, so nvm. then went to the other side, and walked around some more.

you know aye, during the whole outing, the three of us kept tripping each other. as in, send the person flying but didnt really fall down la. yeah, irshad used to do tht to me when we were still just friends, back in early 2010. he was the one who taught me tht trick :3

damn fun ah, i liked when we kept tripping each other just now (x at one time i tripped shady, then irfan was like xD i liked when we are like tht, like so best friend-ly T.T

well anyway, we took 12 from bugis street. irfan was like walking to the wrong bus stop, so i was like, "no it's from the bus stop opposite." they were like, "are you sure?" and i'm like, "yeah la! trust me la, once in a while i lead the way!" T.T

k so we had a long journey. irshad fell asleep on my shoulder, he was having headache. i was pretty sleepy as well, but i decided to stay awake to have the little feeling of being the protector. got a little restless tho.

irfan alighted at central and went home first cause irshad was to send me home. alighted at dte with the intention of walking thru the park. but aft his call, he got silent, and i actually felt quite scared. was too afraid to say anything at all.

well, walked thru da park in silence. many eons later reached my place, kissed goodbye and then when i saw tht the house was damn silent, decided to go back down for awhile. blah3, i am home.

had a lot fun walking around and bonding with z twins. been a while since it was the 3 of us, the last time was like on the 21st of sept at prp, which was damn fun too. they piggy backed me, i rmb tht so clearly, heheh!

the wonderful past few days .

missed me? come, let's share with ya my past few days.

but warning, there's damn a lot of things, so this post is damn long. and, once you start reading this next paragraph, you better read this blog post til the end. dont be rude. lets go baby!

was over at cousie's over the weekend, with a little bbq/camping trip on the sunday. was supposed to go swimming in the morn, but it failed because we didnt wake up on time. the night before i was like saying "I'll put a metal song as the alarm tone at volume 5. dont worry, i am in charge of waking up."

when we woke up to realize tht it wasnt 7am anymore, maya stared at me and was like, "what happened to your metal !?!?"

in the car otw to prp right, i was like seated between maya and cik chai (her mommy/my aunt) , then i was like staring at maya ah. she pointed out the window and was like, "shady." i was like -_______________________- !!!

when we were all carrying the stuff to the pit (which was really far from the parking lot) , cik ipin dropped the rice!!! O: we were all damn shocked, but the reactions were priceless. and abt the rice... a few grains didnt make it.

on the way to the pit, emi and rashdan appeared on roller blades. made our way, then placed my bag in the tent and started bbq-ing :3 i tell ya, so many things happened. the laughters, i love my family so much.

but at night, i made my grandmother cry. my father's side btw, the grandmother at guilley is my mom's mother. maya is from my dad's side. yeahh. and i made her cry because of some shit between me and my father. only have one thing to say: no matter what, i LOVE my parents.

ran away from the pit aft tht part, i ended up gg for a little walk around prp. it was like 8 at the time, or was it nearly 9? k, 8 to 9. i listened to music on me earpiece, it was damn dark and empty, and at this one bend, a dude on a bike came right up at me, i thought he was gonna kill me!

but he was asking for directions. so i gave him, and he was like thanks mate.
and i really thought he was gonna kill me.

at dte, thought i'd get a coke. but then maya kept rushing me to go back to the pit, so i just hurriedly went. all was fine, then i went to the pit next to ours to write under the lamp post. realized tht my pen ink was finishing, and to make it worse, i only brought one.

got damn desperate for an inky pen, im so sorry for the attitude cousie. ended up, i rushed out of prp, to the bus stop, waited for bus. it was like 11 alr. got stuck at the interchange cause the bus rosak keper, idk la.

eons later, reached home. it turned out tht my maternal granny had been sleeping over the whole time i was away sia! got damn pissed at my mommy, she didnt tell me anything sia!

so stayed to chat with my beloved granny. talked abt my weekend, and talked abt the future. around 1145, i left home yet again, only with a fully inked pen. ran all the way to the bus stop, didnt see them mcriders, almost got knocked down.

all along, i just kept repeating in my head: the things i do for a pen.

reached the pit, and then reunited with the paternal relatives. mommy was there too, she just came aft work. she actually bought me a pen, because she heard tht i was complaining to my bro abt my pen ink running out. see, my mommy can be damn sweet when she wants to. just tht she's got pride. yeah, now you know where i got this personality of mine, right?

played taboo with nazriq, maya, rashdan, emi, with aidil and asyraff joining eons later. it got crazier and crazier with each round. and then , eons later, when we were all changed alr, we were abt to sleep when we noticed tht group of foreign drunkards. drunk foreigners.

they kept singing and playing guitar. their pit was like damn near ours and their voices were really loud, and we couldnt sleep. us cousies were so damn fed up sia. and also the sleeping guy on the bench, tht was priceless!

damn, the memories. what would i do to have it all recorded.

i shall just let the pictures do the talking for the 25th of dec, 2011.








anyhoos, i only managed to sleep at like 4 plus? woke up again at nearly 7 , a few mins before shady i think. went to shower at the toilette, its cleanliness wasnt tht bad. but the water was freezing!!!!

survived. then we packed up. yeah, everyone was super cranky so i didnt dare do/say anything. blah3, eons later, i was salam-ing my aunts, saying goodbye to the cousins, slamming the car door shut, and making my way to dte, alone.

ok uh, work wasnt tht bad. who was on shift eh? cant rmb, but none of the fun dudes were there. yong heng was there tho. o yeah! we were short of staff. cause two didnt turn up. so i had to juggle three stations at one go. wasnt tht bad, but AH was a prob uh.

o and i got scolded by the new DM, her name is pash or smth? think she's damn iffy abt MP, which was one of the stations tht i was juggling. but what to do, three stations at one go sia. k nvm, then many eons later the mid ppl came.

work ytd (monday the 26th) wasnt so fun actually. just tht, during my break, talked with mazni, and then with zafirah, who are both GROs. talked with the latter more. she said i look so damn genuinely happy when i talked abt shady. *blush* (x

then, aft dismissed from work, went home, then went out again. i played swing!!!!! i went so high sia!!!! then, i went library to borrow a book called one hundred and ninety nine steps. then, met with daddy mommy and bro and went nex.

i cried when we were eating prata. cause we were talking abt da future. dad wants me to go to jc, but i dont want to. and then mommy makes it worse by telling me tht the competition in the family is tough. isnt it, maya cousie? you know what i mean.

eh, tak ingat sey, aper lagi yang terjadi semalam. ok, we move on to today.

had make up bridging in da morn. i realized tht my three days of bridging, i came from different ways. on the 22nd, i came on the 17 from ws. on the 23rd, i came on the 17 from tamp. today i came on the 358 from home. heheheh, cool kan.

i was second today, aft syazana. weiwen came some time later, and when it was 9, syazana was asking, "do you think wanxuan will come?" i was like, "yes." she was like, "i doubt it." i was like, "dont worry. i believe in her." then syazana was like, ".........wow eindah, im speechless."

you know aye, i made her laugh like firetruck sia just now. i do know why, but i lazy explain. but she really laughed like shit sia. she couldnt stop, and when she finally did, she was like, "wow, tht was the very first time in a long time tht i laughed tht hard in sch."

aw. im special.

at one point, mrs woo came out. she told me to clip up my hair and she was watching me taking my time when she suddenly just left and straightway went for the staff toilette. i was like, "dah tak boleh tahan kencing ah tu."

then, syazana took out her phone. she just unlocked it when we heard the click-clack of mrs woo's heels coming around the corner. syazana was like, "oh, oh, oh, oh." omg, tht was funny shit. i laughed like shit sia.

which, obviously, got me into trouble, cause mrs woo walked out and i was still giggling my shoulders off. she called me from the distance to have a little chat. talked abt my hair, she was like, "next year, sec 5, i do not want to see you with your hair down. or not, i ask mr singh to send you to ite." and im like, okaaaaiii.

went back to my desk. o and here's a picture of it!



yeah, it's a very special place. and tht is syazana's hand -______________-

today, i studied a lot. irshad seems to be telepathic or smth, cause he met with me today aft sch. truth be told i didnt study much the past 2 bridging days. not as much as today. he walked me home and then i changed and everything before making our way to dte.

slacked at mccafe before he sent me off to work, as always. he was like, "have fun." i was like, "uh huh......" then he was like, "why so not looking forward to work??" i was like, "cause i lazy go work...." i liked when he said, "yeah, lazy lazy, tapi in the end ooh i had so much fun today!" omg, tht was funny sia!

kk, today not many fun ppl. but there were damn a lot of funny shit! i lazy type actually, and im sure you lazy read and imagine too. so i shall tell ya when ya ask me when ya meet me. hhahahahaha. funny shit.

i annoyed yong heng the most today sia! he was at entrance. i kept gg over, cause the trainee was covering my station. so i took chances to merayap (ala ris nurul who was at BP) . then i kept playing ninja! selit between the walls and hiding under the gantries. was damn bored !!!!

then he gave me choco mints. asked me to take a lot! hahaha, he gerek la he. then i found a ball at the entrance, took it and played with it. back at MP, the trainee was asking, "saper nyer bola tu?" i wanted to say bola kau, tapi macam kurang ajar, so i just told him it's a ghost's ball.

which is half true, cause yong heng was saying it's ahboy's ball. which is the main character of the stories tht have been passed down from batch to batch.

o and this.
yong heng: tht's ahboy's ball. and you seem to be enjoying it.
me: tht sounds so wrong.

o yeah, pash confiscated my diary. i also dunno why, i wasnt even writing in it. well, when i was clocking out, i saw it on a table so i just took it and dashed off. then i walked out with jing hui who was also mid shift, and went to hunt for my chemicals.

reached home to see tht the house was empty.

and this: maya wanted to see this, so i shall just put it here.



imma be changing my blog URL right now. if you are here, means you have gotten the new link alr, congrats to you. which is siying, irshad, maya. love you all so much. thank you for gg thru this long post with me! ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((':

heidiho! today was supposed to wake up at 7, but it failed. we all woke up past noon. in the afternoon, went out with maya cousie (((:

i was ready way before her, and when she was getting ready, i kept following her around and rushing her and just irritating her, and then in the end she snapped and was like, "why are you so jumpy today!?" i was like, "...cause ive not gone out with you for a really long time."

well anyways, we went to city hall. walked one big round, went to bras basah where we spent some time looking at this huuuge guitar shop, looking at all the instruments and stuff, then went to the popcafe to get a waffle with ice cream.

some weird dude was like yelling abt the government. maya got so freaked out.

walked back, then went to penin. otw, walked thru this other place, i couldnt take the smell either. then made our way to penin and finally to MOC !!!

spent some eons looking at the tees (me) with the sales dude looking at me all the time, which is quite irritating actually. but he was a great help with the sizes, in the end i got two nice ones from there. the boss was nice as always, he even recognized tht the tee i was wearing was an MOC one!

walked around some more. then maya and i got a band tee each (x got damn a lot funny things ah. haish, so long no go out with her sey!

she laughed like shit when i pointed out the short ppl at the little eatery. the chairs they were seating on were really short, so they all looked so small. i was like, "keciknyer orang ni semua." she laughed like shit sia!

made our way back to city hall, walking thru the place where the smell was unbearable. holy shit, tht felt so much like a survival video game. ho the memory.

alighted at simei and took 9 back to 201. then blah3 we are home.

it'll be difficult to share all the funny moments. but it doesnt mater cause the memories have all been recorded into my heart.
and my wrists are tired anyway!

goodnight, love all of ya. shall blog more tmrw morn while cousie is swimming :3

i was floating in slow motion and moving in the wrong direction when This World Cant Tear Us Apart started playing. i just listened to it, because i love the song.

turned out to be my alarm, and i thought of gg back to sleep aft i turned it off. but then i was like, holy shit! as always. so yeah, got up, showered, and then dried and tied my hair before sitting on da couch chatting with maya.

at 730, left her place and made my way to sch! cause i still had make up bridging =_= today i was the second to arrive. o and mr ng says tht if he catches me with my fringe down one more time, he will hafta consider abt letting me go to sec 5 or not.

ate nasi ayam! with the other three make up kids, cause the makcik specially made for us :3 while eating, chatted abt Buy One Get One Free (heheh) with syazana, we sure had a lot of opinions. and most of hers, i did agree! shooo proud.

once again i kept laughing for no reason. syazana was like nak layan tapi malas, and she kept wanting to laugh also, i saw her face! but she did get annoyed la of course. tho seriously, i couldnt stop laughing at the most random things ever.

you know kan, i have a picture of irshad and i in my wallet. and at my desk outside the HOD office, i opened up my wallet and placed it at a little corner ah, so tht pic is on display. (think imma snap a pic of my bridging desk someday and show you guys)

i kept laughing and disturbing syazana, then at one point i started daydreaming. she was like, "eindah, study la eindah." i showed her one muka kesian and was like, "cannoooot. how to study, irshad keep staring at me!"

then she laughed like shit sia. seriously, she put her head on her desk and was like shaking. then i stare at her. then i started snickering also ah. laughter is contagious.

and i drew this! it's me.



showed it to syazana, who was like, "chey, kasot nike sey." so i was like, heheh, thanks. then we went back to do our work. i did a little bit of thinking then i was like, "im surprised you could tell tht it's nike."

she took another look at the drawing and was like, "yeah, im surprised too actually." hahaha, kurang ajar! i laughed like shit sia, as always xD

seriously laughed a lot sia, ask syazana. she got so damn annoyed ! idk ah, i feel open with her too. cause aft all, she's like my longest sch mate. have been in the same kindergarten, primary and secondary schools .

so well anyways. aft sch, made my way back to cousie's place, and then i slept for awhile. and here is the dream i had :

i was at a train station with irshad. we were sitting on this stair step and chatting, when at one point he kissed me on the, forehead if i not wrong, and said he had to go, and he suddenly just got up and started walking towards da platform.

i called out to him and told him not to go, but he didnt hear me i think. he went , and disappeared. and then suddenly the area where he vanished into exploded. there wasnt any fire but there was a lot of smoke.

i couldnt see anything, and i kept calling out for irshad. then suddenly, out from the smoke, i saw ppl. except they werent alive. they were zombies.

when i woke up, i was in a daze for awhile. then i started panicking and kept worrying )x

well anyways, then went to shower and change outta my uni and then many eons later went to kfc with maya , and then i went for a little walk :3

so yeah, pretty much tht's it.

a very very very busy day !

heidiho! today was another long day, and tmrw is gonna be yet another. but i still gonna reminisce, tho idk why im neglecting my health for a blog post tht only a few readers read, if u get what i mean. ok, let's cut to the chase. (tho we all know i wont be able to do tht)

in the morn, i wanted to text my irshad. shut the alarm, and then i went to compose a new message, i was like good morning love, and then i typed in 8328. i thought i sent it to shad's number, but i sent it to his bruh -.-

didnt realise it at all, the whole time i was like =________________________= , only aft i got out from the shower and looked at the reply was i like O: paiseh sia!!

well anyway, made my way to mac's ws to meet asleah bby, cause we were gonna have breakie tgt. chit chatted while eating, told her abt the wrongly sent text, she laughed like shit sia T.T

made my way to sch, i was punctual !! sayang i was punctual !!! and then i thought i'd go for a walk, but mrs sherri was at the tower and she was like, "eindah, go back there, we have got parents coming. please hide yourself." and then she did tht shoo shoo gesture T.T

so i went back and started writing in diary. and then syazana came along, and many eons later wanxuan and weiwen too. it was damn fun actually, and funny , tho we did study ok?

to tell you the truth, most of the time i was writing in diary. i still dare text irshad "i wish i can see ya aft sch as a reward for my hard work" when i wasnt even studying. shameless.

talked with syazana as well, and then i kept getting caught for hair by mr ng and mrs sherri. as in they came along occasionally just to check on my hair. many eons later, made my way home. quickly packed all my stuff, ate a little and went off to work.

today work was ultra fun! otw , i bumped into sery who was like slacking at dte. she asked me, "pm shift eh?" and i'm like, "nope. mid. ...just a little late." she looked at her watch (it was 2:15) and was like, "ya Allah....." and i liked her facial expression when she looked at me!

so today had shift with benna, farhan, nasrul, syafiq A, and jinghui. today i was supposed to be at AH but nasrul was there so i went over to his station which was BOC. i only prefer the times when it's the pm shift ah, tht was when things got damn fun .

was at BOC when syafiq A came along and asked abt my results. he was damn shocked and was like "eh kau pandai eh!" hahahaha.

there was tht one time when i came out from the toilet , and i went to where he was. he was playing with some kids, and then one of them was like, "your girlfriend come back alr!" i laughed, then syafiq was like, "she got boyfriend alr la!" then i was like, quite awkward.

syafiq and i talked a lot today, cause our stations were next to each other. some time later i went to BP to cover benna for her breakkie. when it was empty, i did some thinking and i kinda cried. idk why, but there were a few tears which went down my cheek.

at one point in time, i turned around, and there in the cave was benna. when she saw tht ive seen her, she was like, damn! i laughed ! when she sat next to me i was like, "kau selalu nak takotkan aku tapi tak jadi eh!" then she gave me tht pout look xD

cause really! she's always trying to creep up on me but for some reason i turn and see her, so she always fails. hahah , cute la she. then she asked whether i have a sensor.

was supposed to go back to BOC aft tht, but benna asked me to stay so i did and we chatted. when lenny came, benna started squinting her eyes and was like "aku ingat DM maner entah..." and tht was when my laughing attacks came.

then i kept laughing over the slightest things sia, gosh.

there was an awkward silence aft tht actually. then benna said to me, "asal kitorang senyap je?" i laughed like shit sia!

then benna was like, "lina kau berapa tahun?" then lenny was like, "oh, i'm 16. ...lina!?" there was a little silence and then benna looked at me and innocently asked, "nama dia bukan lina eh?" damn cute sia! i laughed like shit!

there was this chinese kid who was playing in fronta us, and she was like one of those china girl... her accent. she kept talking to all of us in tht little accent, and in chinese, so we all just stared at her each time she said smth.

i got fed up at one point, i was like, irritating sey. then benna and lenny was like tryna control their laughter. we all kept holding it in while watching tht girl keep talking to us in chinese. and then i couldnt take it anymore, i went all "pppffffttttt" . and it was loud.

so from tht on, i couldnt stop laughing for no reason sia! whatever benna or lenny said, i would start laughing. then some time later, i went to AH where nasrul and syafiq were at. it was 8 alr, thought i'd clock out. but i didnt understand maya's whereabouts. so i decided to extend til 10.

gerek sey, berbual dgn nasrul dgn syafiq. the latter was telling the former his first impression of me, he was like, "bila dia first masuk, sombong giler sey." i was like, sombong? then he said ya, cause i didnt talk to him, but he segan to talk to me as well.

then he said, "tapi sekarang kau gerek ah." then he grinned. he handsome sia. and yeah he gerek also!

here's the funny thing, they suddenly asked me, "eh matair kau main guitar eh?" and ended up talking abt irshad with them. many eons later, i cabot to ops office to help the ppl inside with some paint things.

tht was fun, tho tiring. cause we chit chatted while we did our work. haryani came along, she was dg cashier. i like the part where she was like, "oh, tht avatar! the water! the fire! and air! and wind!" i started laughing like shit sia, on my own!!

benna was like, -____________- what is it this time eindah sayang? i couldnt stop laughing, in the end i managed to ask haryani to repeat what she said. then haryani repeated, "the water! the fire! and air! and wind!" like so semangat, i started laughing like firetruck !!!

continued our work. the walter (idk whats his name, but they were addressing him as smth like tht) was like scraping out the paint, benna refills the black, blue and purple, while i refill the green, yellow and white.

same process, walter pass to benna, benna pass to me, then i put in a pile. and we were wearing gloves. then in the midst of the silence, benna was like, "like factory sia we all."

im so sorry k, i did laugh like shit, benna was irritated and was like saying to walter, "this is her weakness. once she start laughing, she cannot stop," omg seriously, i really laughed a lot sia!

o, and then another part. hayati came along and started talking to haryani and walter. then she made a joke regarding our race, abt malay culture ah. then walter laughed like heck. hayati was like, "i dunno whether you understand or not, but i also dunno why you are laughing." i laughed like shit...!

damn seriously, i love the ppl at my job so much! we all walked out tgt you know, me, benna, nasrul, syafiq a, jinghui, farhan, haryani ,like one big group like tht. sho very the happy ^_^

and yeah, made my way to cik chai's place aft tht cause was gonna have sleepover with cousie!!!! was pumping excited, i forgot to bring a lot of things, like tees ....... i only brought 2, which obviously wont be enough.

alrighty. shall blog again. damn excited :D

double date!

heidiho! guess what? i went on a date today! a double one pulak tu! with irshad, siying and timothy. shall we reminisce the day now?

told irshad to take his time but he arrived on time, as always. peeked at him from the corner of my door, cause i seriously didnt wanna leave the house!! well in the end i did, but he told me to remove hoodie, which i stubbornly didnt wanna. (yes, i wore it)

when siying and timothy came, siying straightway dashed towards me and i was like, shit. ran towards irshad but what the hell, they're on the same side -.- so in the end, there i sat, at the bus stop, in a dress, with no hoodie!

took 81, on the bus, tried to snatch back hoodie but siying and irshad berpakat -_____- halfway thru the journey, irshad suddenly was like, eh actually where we gg? when the three of us refused to tell, he was like, i feel like im being kidnapped =______=

got to nex, and then we walked to the cinema. i loved it when shad kissed me on my forehead (x bought tix for mission impossible: ghost protocol which was what all of us had been wanting to watch. it was to start 45 mins aft, so we decided to grab a quick bite.

laughed while eating, i kinda like this combination of eindah, siying, irshad and timothy. i like how everyone got along so well tgt and laughed tgt and all tht.

when shady's alarm rang, we all made our way back to the cinema, where we bought our food. then went in, watched the trailers, and as always, they were movies tht i wanna watch, tho i cant rmb the titles now. but yeah i wanna watch!

ghost protocol was awesome. damn suspense, damn sad parts also got. aaah it's damn awesome la sia!

aft the movie, we slacked for awhile at the cinema, then made our way to the rooftop placey, where we camwhored a little (x





siying loves this photo ^ so much -_________-



and i love this one ^

there was tht one part where the four of us were looking out at the view, then irshad and i were like huddled tgt ah. we were looking at each other's eyes when siying said to timothy, awkward =_=, but i heard . like funny!

they went off some time later, then irshad and i stayed back to give kiss (;

went to eat pizza hut. seriously ah, while eating, we all kept laughing sia! i liked tht a lot. and then at one point, everyone was silently cutting their pizza. i took a look at all of them one by one, and i couldnt help giggling to myself. they all so damn cute sia!

k, we should stop beating around the bush. well , today was damn fun, bonded, and i kinda liked gg out in a dress.............................

last night's dream.

i was working at some place which i have never seen before in real life. apparently it was my very first day, and when i went to the place (it was a restaurant) there was a little banner at the entrance which read: "today is EINDAH'S day".

well i dont rmb what happened at work, but during my break i stopped by this shoe store where irshad told me he was working at. it was empty, and i walked around it searching for my boy. we talked a bit abt our jobs, and then i had to go.

and tht's all tht i rmb for tht segment, another part, we were making out on my own bed in my own bedroom. yeah, for some reason ive been dreaming of making out with him in my room a lot.

k so well anyways. today, i went to have lunchey with my bro! he was the one who asked me, which is so damn rare nowadays. we ate mad jack, we had respective meals and we even got dessert but surprisingly the bill wasnt even up to 20 bucks! :3

while eating, talked and laughed as always. irritated the shit out of each other, and while sharing the tiramisu, he kept sneezing cause of the powder thing on top of the cake.

eons later, made our way to popular where i spent eons looking at notebooks (was looking for the one with the quote tht's like only 3.90, but no luck) , in the end bought a little notebook which cost only a buck, along with a silver pen.

went to the library, where i read a book on cat heroes. i actually read the book once alr, a long time ago when i was like, 12? but still couldnt help crying at the stories in there T.T

spent quite some time there, and then eons later made our way home. and then yeah, im home.



i am damn bored. why aint irshad online yet i wonder?

N LEVELS RESULTS ^_^

holy shit! i cant believe i have yet to blog abt today. guess what im doing now? im playing dress up *blush* and yeah im the doll. and guess what else? i am so ready for double date! hell yeah, bring it on bitches!

anyhoos, room is a mess right now. better clean it up soon, but aft i blog la ok? for my dear readers. ok, let's get to the point.

had n level results today! met up with siying at whitesands cause she wanted to buy earpiece. when she was gonna pay, we saw timothy, jingming and nicholas yeo, and she tackled tim til he fell onto the ipad sia!

it made a really loud sound and the staff were coming towards us, and i was like, oy we in uniform la oy! then siying went to pay, said bye to the guys and then we made our way to kfc to meet with asleah.

they bought their food, and then halfway thru siying realised we were gonna be late. they both started panicking and asked me to eat their fries, which i happily did. then we made our way to interchange, with them clutching their drinks.

17 came along real quick, and then we walked to sch~ blah3 went thru the slides and then the top students. shushan had 3 distinctions, and then priscilla had 4, and then irshad had how many, shit i forgot, shit shit.

first his twin went up stage, then the pai kias started calling my name. i was like, dorang salah orang per. then irshad went on, and then the malay kids from my class pulak, kecoh with my name. -_____- but yeah, i was sho proud of my boyfriend :D

ok, nth much to say actually. just tht i had to run abt a lot, cause first i owed the library a book (from 2008) and then had to see mr ng cause i didnt go bridging (i only went 7 days out of 15).

weeeell. as punishment (tho mr ng said it aint a punishment) , i will hafta go for make up bridging, starting from this thursday. for some reason he said i only hafta go for 4 days, cause according to his records i didnt go for 4 days of bridging. i just kept quiet abt it ah.

went to e hub with siying aftwards. decided to get pizza. on the way to e hub, saw syafiq A, who was like, ey! results amaciam? so i was like, ^_^(Y)

not bad, the pizza slice was quite big O.O and only for 3.50 . i got da cheese while siying for da hawaiian. talked some more while eating, laughed and just caught up again on each other's lives.

saw fazli having his breakkie in the distance, thought of gg over to ask if schedule is our alr or not, but like lazy. and he was done eating, he didnt walk past, he went to the lift direction. so i was like, k takpe.

went to the 5th level with the intention of camwhoring. but the little shop was gone! so we decided to head to the rooftop. wrong timing sia, a movie just ended so tht little lane was crowded with ppl.

and when we got to rooftop , it started raining and we were like holy shit!! dashed for the lift where we went down one level . to camwhore at the place where we had filming for SFS .







of course, a lotta funny shit when camwhoring too. siying knows without me saying, so let's just leave it tht way (;

went home to see tht the house was empty.

oh yeah, i got called daughter from hell. i just told her my results. tht's all. i dont even know why i was labelled tht... i cried like shit when i stood by the door looking into the house.

then i went to take my report book and my n level result slip, and compared my results. i improved sia. and i met my targets for all of them, cept for maths unfortunately. i couldnt stop crying, thinking of daughter from hell daughter from hell T.T

well, apart from that, i find it really sweet tht before i got my results, ppl were texting me all z best. and then aft, they were all asking me how was my results. so damn touched. and then my granny called ! :3 so i told her, and she was so damn happy ((((':

and irshad still doesnt know what are my results. cause he's not asked. o well.

i miss my granny T.T

bbq with EK !

so todaaay i walked around a lot. for some reason i decided to go to east point today, which was just what i did. i randomly walked around, there were a few dresses tht were nice (imho) but didnt buy anything. only food.

watched some nerds playing cards , satu satu muka irritating sia, serious. then walked around some more, before gg banquet to get ice kachang while writing. i bought ice kachang! cause i must grow accustomed to the cold.

where did i go aft tht eh? o yeah, went to buy kbw, and then bumped into this little cake shop where i bought a chocolate muffin. then headed home. a pretty boring trip.

went out again, to bbq. met with syeera and then with mazni (a gro). bumped into nasrul and jocenda on the way to the chalet.

at the chalet, slacked mostly with syeera, mazni and M syafiq. today was my first time meeting M syafiq, and apparently it was his first time seeing me too. farhan said he was like asking who am i.

so bonded a lot ah, mostly talked with the M syafiq. he, syeera and mazni kept singing sey! then they kept singing the song tht farhan always sings whenever he sees me. the one tht has my name in it ah, but i forgot the title.

ya, they kept singing it whenever i make a sudden move, haha irritating you know!! but funny la, i love them all. the three of them kept thinking tht i play guitar. when i said no, syeera was like, "muka dia macam the type yang tahu main tapi tanak bilang!" then they all agree -_-

then seriously they kept thinking tht i do know how to play. i think ppl who keep their talents to themselves are silly ppl. if you love to do smth, you should tell the whole world abt it. (imho)

well anyway. left the place at 1130 , made my way back home~ thought i was gonna die but everyone was asleep, cept for my younger bro, who was on my comp.

i'm really tired right now. the time now is 1:47 AM. i needa sleep.



oohhhhh yeeeaaaahhhhhh . freaking n level results are tmrw. no, it's today in fact. damn. k, i shall try ta sleep.

and... i'm sorry...

a dream turn nightmare.

heidiho ! i didnt sleep til like 6 ? this morning, and when i did, i did dream, altho it wasnt very long. the first part was real nice, but then the segment aft tht was downright horrible. i hate it. and you hell know tht i rarely say hate.

well anyway, let's share the first part first.

it was, once again, my birthday! irshad was spending it with me, i rmb being in this hotel room with him eating mac's. then we were talking when suddenly some woman came into the apartment. yeah, it was like an apartment.

i saw her come in from the room tht irshad and i were in, then for some reason i quickly hid my food. tht woman came in and was like, hey ya aint supposed to eat here. i was like, yeah i know. then she pointed at shad and was like, well he obviously doesnt. cause he was eating away -_-

she left aft tht, and in the dream also irshad couldnt stop talking in the midst of eating. then when we were both eating, we started making out. we make out a lot, he was on top of me, but we didnt do anything more than tht despite being on a bed O___O

hm, then aft tht, the dream turned scary... i was on a family trip with my mommy, younger bro, and grandmother. we were crossing the road, then my grandmother was like lagging behind. i wanted to retrace my steps to follow her across the road, but then she told me it's ok, and i reluctantly stayed at my side of the road.

well all was fine, i was watching my beloved granny, and she was doing fine , when suddenly this huge truck came outta nowhere...

holy shit... she was flung some distance away... i was screaming like shit. i screamed my throat out. i ran to where she was flung to. ppl were yelling tht there's lots of blood, and i still couldnt stop screaming, and i was crying alr.

holy shit. ok. i am damn scared right now. i'll make a call to her. and maybe visit guilley as well. cause i miss her anyways. and im still damn scared...

CCP with the irshad boy !

heidiho! today was a great day indeed. see? aft the storm comes the rainbow. always like tht... every time i have one of those days where i tear for no reason, the day aft will always be so much better.

currently sitting by the doorway of my house, with the gate opened. looking at the sky, it's damn black sia, so gorgeous. altho it is freezing here.

well anyway. i was damn early meeting irshad today! i arrived before him. he said it's cause tht's where i live, thts why i am early. no honey, the next time we meet somewhere other than my void deck, imma be earlier than him.

he gave me them brownies and i put them on my kitchy table and then we made our way to ws to take train. cause shady wanted to go ccp ! when they announced "next station... pioneer", we were both like =_____= and then we were like O____O

alighted at tm and then transferred train , irshad said those kids were gg to changi airport, according to his guess, but i was like, nah i dont think so. and yeah, they alighted at expo with us, but sadly didnt make any bet.

we went to walk around, saw some thick hoodies tht are black O: but then i saw the price and im like O:

the other time i went there, it was very brief so i was still very surprised at how big it was just now. then irshad also jakon, he was taking photos away. damn cute, then walked around again before gg to the open park at the top :3

he started taking photos again, so i went and took some as well, since i brought my cammie. then went to sit down somewhere and wanted to take pic tgt but he kept aiming the cam at me! in the end we got one shot, then the idiot deleted -.-

then we got this. ^_^



siying and timothy came along some time later, cause the girl just finished work. chit chatted for awhile, me with my girlfriend siying and the guys talking tgt like theyve been friends for so damn long alr. heheh, like the double date eh .

they went off, and then shady and i stayed behind to talk some more. then we made our way down and went to walk around some more, talking, as always :3

o yeah, when we went to the value shop, irshad got so damn excited over the M&Ms. looked at chocolates some more, and then he decided to get the M&Ms, but aft we eat. so we went to eat, we went the good ole mac's...

i like shady's face when the cashier told him his stuff is 9.25 , was it 9.25? 9 smth. he turned and showed me this O: face, damn funny sia. then we went to sit at the place where priscilla said was nice when i ate there with her on shopping with clique day.

talked a lot, irshad talked a lot, which i found quite irritating actually cause he was distracted off the food. he took his time eons aft i finished mine. k next time when eating, imma be the one who does most of the talking, i dont care -.-

altho, i really do love listening to him .

he winked at me at one point, so i tried to wink also, but mine must have looked real silly (i aint used to winking i guess) cause he kept laughing -.- and then i like the bluetooth thingy! ^_^

hm what next? o yeah, went to get his beloved M&Ms . he was so damn happy to have gotten them! i liked this:

him: do they accept nets? o yes they do!
me: got minimum . 5 bucks min.
him: how much is the M&Ms ?
me: ....$4.95 .

he was like, -_________________- and then he went to go get some other M&Ms. he got the dark chocolate one! while he paid, went to throw away his sprite for him. reunited , he looked so damn cute when he smiled when he saw me aahhh .

and then we walked up and out, oo the warmth! took mrt back to pasir ris, he said door 12 was the one nearest to the escalators. but when we got to PR, turned out it wasnt tht near at all. had to take the lift, which i so didnt want to cause i had tht dream where i got trapped .

but the idiot pulled me in and i stood there staring at the floor hoping the lift wouldnt stop suddenly. in the dream, the lift stopped somewhere nearer to the lower level, thts why it was such a suspense moment just now.

but nth happened.

he walked me home, as always :3 at one point my shoe did this really loud weird sound, and then irshad was like, "what the heck was tht for !?" i liked tht tone!

arrived at my block, it was all too quick. then went to some corner to kiss goodbye. but then i asked him send me up, cause i was still thinking abt the dream. and then we kissed at my doorstep! damn, ive always wanted to do tht !

he ran for the lift , and then i started unlocking the gate only aft i heard the lift door close. decided to play comp by the gateway, i also dunno why i decided on tht. cause i wanted to grow accustomed to the cold i think.



today was a great day! we should do this more often, walking around random shopping malls. heheh! next place go to is Nex, on da double date, cause hes not been there before. the thing abt my previous relationship, he's always been everywhere. i nvr get the chance to bring him somewhere. o well.

so right now, i did a lot of thinking and i must say, i am damn grateful to have irshad as mine. heheh! he da true love of my life man. nobody else deserves the title.

and i aint saying tht just cause hes my bf now. have i said this? when i was with khairul, i never felt stupid abt labelling irshad as the loml before. but now when im with shady, i felt weird abt labelling khairul as tht. just saying...

today was just another one of those days where my eyes keep tearing up for no apparent reason.
i'm tired. i'm really very tired. goodnight to you guys, love you.

i was sleepless last night, or more like this morning. was on the comp , when i went to check out what all the chaos was abt. i watched this vid, (i love deekosh) and at the end of it, i was so amazed. i had to applaude. so i did, and i ended up watching it over and over again.



and then chatted with maya :3 she was reading her blog , her old posts, and then she started reminiscing i think. i still rmb those days very clearly !

k well anyway, i wanna go straight to the dreams part. i slept around 5 i think, and then i terbangon at 1030 , and fell back asleep til 130 . and yes, many many dreams. little segments. let me just share some tht i rmb, tho not in order.

one part, i was like at nex with my bros and mommy i think. we were seated at a restaurant table , and there were glasses on it. they were filled with water, next to a jug full of smth tht looked like orange juice.

my older bro poured the orange juice into two of the glasses of plain water, and gave one to my mom, and younger bro. i said, "why didnt you pour for me?" and then he yelled tht he didnt wanna. he yelled, yeah.

and for the rest of the time, he didnt want to be near me at all. when i woke up from tht dream, i started thinking. must be a good thing of being disliked sometimes, cause i wouldnt have wanted the diluted orange juice. get it ?

there was another dream abt zorro. he was one tiny little cat with so many scars and burnt marks... i rmb thinking to myself, when i looked at him playing: "he survived one fire, had a small burn mark, and then he survives another fire and this is how he ends up."

and yeah, just so you know, zorro in real life does have a burn mark at the side of his body. it's permanent. my cousin found him under the void deck, small and trembling.

well anyway, i am not really in the mood to talk abt my dreams actually. right now, i am pretty upset. i followed irshad grocery shopping just now. but he didnt seem to have appreciated it. it was as if my wanting to help would just cause him trouble.

my mommy never allows me to carry the bloody basket, she says i cant carry heavy stuff. i rarely go grocery shopping with her. aah, goddammit. i am so pissed right now =____=

waah blogger on my phone is like an entirely different website altgt.

grattitude to the ex.

heidiho! today was yet another great day at work! left a little too early so i went to the lib to return some books, and went to search for elly griffiths, but her third book was apparently on loan. went to polar's to get a strawberry roll.

was walking past the recreation centre when i saw chingkang, chit chat for awhile before making my way to the cheers to get myself a bottle of milk tea. this bloody mazda nearly knocked me down.

strolled my way to e hub, went toilet to see my reflection, and then went to slack at where i slacked with irshad tht day before work. some ahbengs were like looking at me and laughing at one point, but idk what they said ah, i was listening earpiece.

at 11:55, made my way to workplace, farhan was doing entrance, and he noticed tht i changed uniform alr :3 went to put my bag at gr office, where yong heng came along, he was doing mid shift as well.

so we went to clock in, then went to our stations, i was at ballocity. i was the only female playguide during am. the rest were, farhan, nasrul, syafiq A, and some dude named shahrul?

o yeah! when i arrived on the scene, nasrul was throwing balls back to ballocity. decided to help him toss some in as well, so he held up the flap for me. aimed over his head, the first few shots were successful.

then the last shot, i shot the ball onto his face sia!! smack dab on his face sia, omg. i laughed like fuck sia, omg. you should have seen the look on his face!!! i laughed like fuck but i did say sorry aft tht ok.

when he went away clutching his face (it was a pretty hard hit) , i went and sat down on the stair step. then i remembered nasrul's face, and i started snickering to myself!

ok la, today was a fun day. talked with nasrul, cause he was at megaplay. then i was wondering who the hell is shahrul. he came along, and i actually started checking him out. he saw, and i got stunned so i just showed a little grin of innocence.

hm then what eh? o yeah, farhan threw paper aeroplane at me, he was at entrance. then i threw at nasrul, who was at megaplay. the three of us ended up at the benches by the party room, tht little open space, playing paper aeroplane.

tht was fun sia! then idk who said, "takda kerja sey', then we all stopped and went back to our stations, like nth happened like tht. damn cute!

i liked when hayati was like walkie-ing for derrick again and again, and then derrick was finally like, "yes, baby?" then hayati was like, "can you come over to checkout to help me with smth, thank you, baby." macam cute!

PM people were, sery, changyuan, and rifqi. syafiq A was doing full shift i think. then DM was jin. was slacking at ballocity with sery when jin came over. sery stared at her, then she stared back. then jin smiled, tht was damn cute sia!

went for my break, nth much happened tho.

then aft tht what happened eh? when sery went for her break, which was like at 6.30 , i overheard syafiq kirim her skittles. gedebak gedebuk, when i was chatting with sery aft she got back, i went over to the check out counter for no apparent reason uh. nak kacau je.

overheard syafiq saying, "eh tak baik sey! aku belom lagi bukak abeh dah hilang!" i was like, "aper dier? skittles eh?" then he was like, "O: ! yeahh!" the check out cashier, fatin was like, "ayo eindah ambek!"

i laughed when she said tht, then i walked away. syafiq teros was like, "eh busted sia eindah!" i was like, 'aku tak ambek!" then fatin was like, "yeah lah, not she, i saw some malay girl taking just now."

syafiq straightway went into panic mode. then he asked me to cover him at entrance first, so i was like ok, good luck finding your sweets. then he went to all the malay kids in the park, to ask for sweets!

went to talk to derrick and lenny, who were at check in. turned out tht fatin had taken the skittles and given to derrick, who gave to lenny, who ate them all unknowingly! haha, kesian sey.

went to megaplay to talk to sery again. there were very little ppl at tht time. changyuan was playing catching with this little boy when he fell down, i laughed like shit sia! then sery kept annoying me, i find her damn fun sia! like very open :3

well i had to go when it turned 8, sadly. went to gr office, surprisingly everyone was gathered there. everyone were kecoh-ing abt syafiq's sweets, with jin in the middle. she got fed up and was like, "can all of you go back to ur stations."

damn cute, they all obediently went, but still kecoh abt skittles. hahahaha!

took my stuff from gr office, and then wrote schedule for next next week. wrote 5 days AM shift in a row, wowee. then syafiq and yongheng terperanjatkan me , one on each side -.-.-.- said bye to wei qi and syafiq, and walked out with yongheng, cause he was midshift as well.

he took his bus, and i went ahead to shady's place. he wore his socks just so he could have reason to send them to the laundry pail.

walked to elias , i liked the part where he had his hands on my shoulders and i led him to walk with his eyes closed :3 then he urot, sedap sey!

got domino's. pizza for the boy, and the usual cinnastix for me. while waiting, sat outside and chatted abt our day, shared with him all the funny shit tht happened today. then when order was made, decided to go opposite to eat.

dashed across the road,i liked tht a lot. damn fun. while eating, chit chatted as usual. fed him a little of my cinnamon bread, which is so damn rare. then he showed me a vid of this dude eating cinammon on its own. funny shit sia tht one!

then talked abt the past. talked abt the exes, and then we started arguing abt the time tht i asked shad for stead last year. tht was quite an enjoyable argument, i must say.

decided to go at 10:40. oh, i suka when he gripped my shoulder. but i suka it more if it's the right one uh. heheh. kk, then made our way back to elias mall, kissed goodbye, and then splitz }: was abt to go get pao when mommy said we were gg changi village. so went...

and i am tired now. so we shall stop.



just thought i'd say, i really am glad to have chosen my job over khairul then. it led me to my relationship with irshad, the love of my life, and meeting with many amazing colleagues.

so khairul irfan, i would like to thank you. i'd like to thank you for making me realize tht irshad is still the one no matter what. for making me realize tht i truly am capable of wonders. for making me really wanna prove to everyone tht i can do a good job at o levels despite having a job .

for making me feel more independant by telling me not to do this3 and that3. all those stuff tht u told me to do or not to do, they sucked. but they had a positive side. they all led to what i am today. i am truly grateful to have met you too, do rmb tht.

i'm not gonna apologize for anything... i'm just grateful. thts all. i am not sorry abt anything. so, thank you, khai.

heidiho.

today was another boring day. let's go thru what happened in monotone.

i woke up. i blogged. i went to have my shower. i went to eat. my little bro was on the PS3. i disturbed him. he scolded me. i went to my room. i scroll random websites. i lied down on the floor. i listened to a song on repeat. i daydreamed.

i read. i got engrossed. i put down the book. i looked around my room. i wondered what to do next. irshad texted. i texted irshad. i went to eat. i laid random things in an artistic manner. i filmed the objects. i transferred data. i started editting shit.

i got tired. i stopped editting. i closed the video editter. i wanted to camwhore. but the camera wouldnt focus on the ring. i got the perfect shot. i put it as my fb profile pic.



oh yeah, have i told you? ive got the new uniform at work! considerably like promotion like tht ah. (thats what the kids there consider it as) cant wait to show up for work wearing it. tmrw im working mid shift . imma be gg lib aft tht , hopefully !

and well... today was pretty much a boring day... wanted to go out, but then im like, k takpe. think i'll leave home early tmrw, i wanna go around to film some shit.

i have nothing much to tell you guys actually. just tht, i have written fully in my current diary. which means, i am moving on to another beautiful notebook as of tmrw!

but, it doesnt mean i will reject the importance of my current notebook. all the things ive written in it will mean a lot in the future to come, be it the reminiscing or the teaching. i will not throw away these notebooks. cause they are my precious diaries.

and just so you know aye ... ive been writing diaries since really young... i dont even rmb. but many have gone missing, so the earliest which i have in my possession is the one from primary 3. want me to read a few pages?

thursday 22.1.04
dear diary,
i did not go to school today. well, i dont know what happens today.

and tht was it , for this entry. O.O hmm what else... these two entries like sad.

saturday 24.1.04
this is my secret, on 2007/2008, amirul, azfar, e'indah, fatthin, haziq, humairaa, and syahir, we're gonna hang out at whitesands blah blah blah.

sunday 26.1.04
when we are all 12 and 13 years old, we could probably visit each other's house. then we'll hang out in... well you get the idea.

cause, if you think abt it, when i'm 12 , and when i'm 13, where the hell were they? we were all in different classes, and diff social groups alr. tht time all 7 of us were best friends sey, heheh... k, flashback. aaahhhh ..... i wonder when i can see them again. i have all their facebooks, but they all seem so distant.

o well, i cant be stuck here forever you know. i am in 2011 ! letting it go very soon, but still in it . i still have like 17 more days. still cant judge the year with 17 more days in tow. and there's still many important events tht are yet to happen.

first there is the ek bbq (hopefully i can go), and then there is n level results... and then there is double date.

tmrw, before work i will walk around cc to film... maybe get breakkie and eat while walking... see first if i can get out of bed early or not. and then during break , imma sit in gr office reading while snacking on smth light... most prob oreo...

is doing things for other ppl bad ? is having a good intention bad ? what if you do something good with a bad intention? is tht good or bad?



firetrucked aye ?
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k i just found a 111 questions thingy on facebook. bored, so i shall do it now -______- bear with me... if you want to.


1: Are you ready for 111 questions? yes.
2: Was your last relationship a mistake? nope, cause in the end it did lead me to my current one.
3: Do you miss your last relationship? nope.
4: Who did you last say "iloveyou" to? my bro.
5: Do you regret it? hahahaha.
6: Have you ever been depressed? yes.
7: Are you a boy or girl? GIRL .
8: Are you insecure? most of the time ?
9: What is your relationship status? attached.
10: How do you want to die? dont wanna think tht far .
11: What did you last eat? my mom's nasi ayam ...
12: Have you played any sports? rarely.
13: Do you bite your nails? i pluck.
14: When was your last physical fight? idr.
15: Do you have an attitude? hell yeah.
16: Do you like someone? yes :3
17: What is your real name? nur e'indah nadhirah bte md e'esa.
18: Have you ever read a book? hell yeah!
19: Are you gonna get high later? maybe?
20: Do you hate anyone at the moment? nope.
21: Do you miss someone? siying.
22: Twirl or cut your spagetti? cut.
23: Do you tan a lot? no?
24: Have any pets? considerably ^_^
25: How exactly are you feeling? hungry a little.....
26: Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? yeah ?
27: Ever been checked out? mmhmm.....
28: Would you take any of your exes back? no.
29: Are you scared of millipedes? fascinated.
30: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? only if i can just see my past. as in, if my past was recorded, cause id like to see tht. but if you want me to be back in my past, then no.
31: Do you regret anything from your past? i regret sexy time with ex.
32: What are your plans for this weekend? entah eh .
33: Do you want to have kids? yupp. but not now.
34: Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M? muhammad irshad.
35: Do you type fast? yeah, with one finger from each hand. i am proud of tht :3
36: Do you have piercings? left earlobe.
37: Want anymore? nah.
38: Can you spell well? W-E-L-L .
39: Do you miss anyone from your past? the old me, i guess...
40: What are you craving right now? paos.
41: Ever been to a bonfire party? nope.
42: Ever been kissed? by the love of my life .
43: Have you ever been on a horse? yeah .
44: Kissed someone in a pick up truck? nope.
45: Have you ever broken someones heart? yes.
46: Have you ever been cheated on? considerably. he was sleeping with something tht his ex gave him.
47: Have you ever made a friend cry? yeahh ..
48: Are you thinking of someone right now? my ex.
49: Would you live with someone without marrying them? yeahh.
50: What should you be doing? eating.
51: Whats irritating you right now? ants in my room ....
52: Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? irshad.
53: Does somebody love you? i hope so!
54: What is your favorite color? white and green .
55: Have you ever changed clothes in a car? yeahh.
56: Milk chocolate or white chocolate? kinder bueno white f.t.w.!!!
57: Do you have trust issues? nope.
58: Bestfriends name? Loh Si Ying.
59: 2nd bestfriends name? Nur Asleah.
60: 3rd bestfriends name? a lot actually.
61: Longest relationship? myself, for 16 years.
62: Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? yes.
63: Who was the last person you cried in front of? irshad.
64: Do you give out second chances too easily? kinda...
65: Is it easier to forgive or forget? it is easier to forgive.
66: Is this year the best year of your life? cant judge, because my life aint over yet. but so far, it is.
67: What was your childhood nickname? my mommy used to call me Nurein.
68: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? nope.
69: Favorite food? prawnnnnnssszzzxxx !! and everything else tht is edible and halal anyway.
70: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? yes.
71: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? ask irshad.....
72: Did you have dream last night? hell yeah, i always do.
73: What is bothering you? n level results.
74: Have you ever been out of state? meaning ?
75: Do you play the wii? dont have ......
76: Are you listening to music right now? yes. faktion.
77: Do you like chinese food? no ?
78: Who are you texting right now? siying .
79: Are you afraid of the dark? well i prefer the light.
80: Is cheating ever okay? no.
81: Are you mean? heartless.
82: Can you keep white shoes clean? nope.
83: What year has been your best? 1995, cause it was the very start of my whole life.
84: Do you believe in true God? i believe in only mine.
85: Favorite weather? as long as it's not rainy or cold, i like it.
86: Do you like the snow? NO !
87: Does it snow a lot where you live? nope. never does.
88: Do you like the outside? hell yeah. if it's hot.
89: Are you currently bored? nope, ive got a quiz tht is occupying me.
90: Do you wanna get married? hell yeah......
91: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? i guess?
92: Are you hungry? hell yeah.
93: Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? oh, got i think? have we, irshad?
94: What makes you happy? waking up.
95: Would you change your name? no way.
96: Ever been to Alaska? no.
97: Ever been to Hawaii? no.
98: Do you watch the news? sometimes.
99: What's your zodiac sign? virgo.
100: Do you like subway? no.
101: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? not really ?
102: Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? i will lecture him abt it.
103: Do you talk like your friends? no ?
104: Why did you decide to do this quiz? cause i am bored......
105: Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided them? not really.
106: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? my bro. (hey he's my friend ok)
107: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? my bro.,
108: Do you feel good? hell yeah, i feel awesome.
109: Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? myself.
110: Favorite lyrics right now? the whole song of what i am listening to right now :3
111: Can you count to one million? i lazy la.
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today was a boring day. was looking forward to having a proper convo with the busy man, but i guess he's just too tired. o well. ^_^