my wonderful cousie.

THAT is my cousin.
my most amazing cousie ever.

i dont remember when we first talked to each other, but it was definitely the starting mark of a beautiful relationship.

my friendship with this girl has been the longest friendship in my entire life. i've seen pictures of the two of us, dating back to as far as 1996. she was born when my mommy started conceiving me, which makes me just nine months younger than cousie.

nine months younger, but just nice still in the same year. which made us a lot more closer and can talk abt things tht we can relate to.

we always went to each other first thing when at a family's gathering. whenever i arrive, the first thing tht the aunts and uncles would say, was tht cousie was in the room, or went downstairs, or etc.

first time sleepover was during P3. tht one had a lot of memories, was with another cousie, and then some funny things happened during tht time, and we still make fun of tht other cousie abt what he did during those nights.

seriously damn a lot of memories... and we always talked abt all the stuff abt our guys, our friends, our parents, our siblings. it's like no matter who we have a problem with, we'll just confide in each other.

i still rmb in p5, i drew this comic series, like fan-fiction of many different anime characters. and then i included cousie and i , as the main characters. i still have those drawings sey.

and then as we grew older, we just go out tgt more often too. we wanted to go into the same sec sch but sadly she got siglap. she was damn sad abt it and her mommy told me she cried a lot abt it. immediately i went over to my own mommy and told her to bring me to their house for a sleepover.

it wasnt a request, it was like a command. i commanded to my own mommy, just so i could be by my cousie's side, cos i didnt want her to be sad.

she was oblivious to my reasons of course. but when the days passed, i told her , tht i slept over only cos i wanted to cheer her up. i couldnt tell if she was touched or not, but i was still damn happy when she thanked me.

i still rmb we wrote letters to each other via snail mail . i was so happy when i received her letter, but i took my time opening it cos i didnt want it to be torn. and there were those times when our aunts got married and we were always the bridemaids.

and then in sec sch, our class mates were actually best friends in pri sch. me and cousie started to go out tgt more only in sec 2, around there? or was it sec 3 .

during sec 3 camp, she helped me a lot, she lent me sleeping bag and fussed over me abt whether i had everything alr or not. and then aft my camp, i went to sleep over her house, cos it was her bday but her family left her alone at home cos they had to go malaysia.

i spent her 15th birthday with her. or not, she would have been alone. she said, "luckily you slept over with me today. or not, now i would be like sulking here alone."

i rmb being upset when her clock struck twelve and i was abt to sing happy bday for her, but her friends called and beat me to it. i got damn pissed i must say, but i kept quiet thru out and aft they hung up i was like, "...happy bday! ^_^" but inside , i was fuming.

2010, was the year tht i hung out with her a lot. i always went over, she always came over, and we just talked and ate and laughed as if there was no tmrw.

i really miss those times... i really miss her a lot.

idk what happened. somehow got more distant this year. maybe it was the national exams, idk. most probz. whenever she makes plans to eat tgt or whatsoever, i would always be damn happy and i would immediately mark it in my calendar with a million smileys.

but whenever she cancels, i would feel damn bloody depressed. i cry abt it, i really do. cry a lot. and i am right now too. i really really miss her. my own bf has been spending time with his own cousie a lot these days, and im damn jealous.

and today, i bonded with a colleague of mine, and she really reminds me of my cousie.

haiz. when will she have time for me? now she's like looking for job with her friends. i'm damn jealous. and now i cant even text her cos she's busy watching movie. will she text me aft the movie ends like i tell her to? we'll see.

for now, let's just spam this post with pictures of me and her.












shit... i miss her so much sia. sigh.
ok, i am crying.