IMMA NINJA

this is damn unfair.

amirah dota MY daughter sia. i intro-ed her and khairul , meaning they were like father-daughter only aft we were mother-daughter. then now she removed me from being her mother like why! i bet he's been talking abt me to her uh!

i know it makes me look silly to be making a big fuss over this. but still , damn sad uh. cos i loved her a lot sey. more than khairul liked her sia, i bet. it's like the father won custody over the child just cos he's got money or smth? wtf ?

nvm la. new boyfriend, new family i guess.

so well anyways! it is a wonderful morning so far! i ate a lot earlier, and i just finished my shower ^_^ but i aint in sch cos woke up with a horrible sore throat and i was like feverish. so i woke my mom up and was like, mummy i dont wanna go sch. then she was like, ok later i bring ya to clinic so i was like ok!

irshad finished reading my oct 2010! he spent the morning getting damn engrossed in it, he has no idea how happy it makes me, tht he's willing to read abt my past :3

o hear ye hear ye, my adik is home. i'm getting kinda hungry again, maybe i should go over and ask him if he wanna be my lunch buddy.

.....................he said no.
bloody hell, his friends more important than his sister.

i really hope tht the thing tht happened with my older bro wont happen with the younger one. i really really hope. i wouldnt wanna be losing brothers to outsiders, like wth? this is just one reason why i dont want the time to go on. cos i dont want ppl to grow old.

my parents will pass on when they're old. my brothers will be damn busy with their careers/families when they are grown ups. i know i would be busy with mine too, but i know i'd still make time for them. havent i always, despite being the one who took national exams this year.?

yeah k nvm. natalee has been rather depressed these few days. she's been saying nobody cares abt her. she's so damn wrong, i care for her sey. i really do. although i dont understand what shes gg thru cos i havent been in her shoes, i can emphatize.

i saw khairul tweet abt not coming for grad night aft all. i feel relieved, cos i wouldnt wanna see his face. ive not seen it for like two weeks alr, and yes i can live with tht. in fact, a reason why i wanna go ite is maybe just cos i dont wanna see him for tht one year more.

yes, it is a stupid reason. and the reason of wanting to be with irshad at ite is also a moronic excuse, i guess. soooo ok, i'll go to sec 5.

wow ive been jumping from one topic to another. lets jump some more.

ants have been crawling all over my desk these days. no, not days, but its been happening for quite some time alr. ive tried to follow where they go but they appear to be lost all the time. so i gave up and just live with them, no matter how annoying.

o but ive got smth fascinating to share! i left shad's brownie container on the coffee table in my room, and when i did, there were many crumbs in it. but this morning there's only one left, cool kan? meaning the ants carried them crumbs. to where, idk.

im actually damn irritated and disgusted knowing tht somewhere in my room, there is a whole army of ants doing their thing, marching around and stuff. i really wonder where ants come from. the other time, a long time ago, i was walking across the hallway eating cheese cake.

i dropped a bit, and went off to my room awhile. when i got back, there was a freaking ant party feasting on tht little drop of cheesecake like woah!

and i have a little secret, i like it when ants are gathered tgt in one little group, as if discussing smth. i like it when i blow at them and they all scatter aimlessly immediately. if i could see the looks on their faces while they were crawling away, tht'd be great!

yes... this is all me.