my childhood friend.

am snacking on a strawberry roll and slurping on chocolate vitasoy to wash it down my throat. *yumyum*

aside from that, it sure is a boring Sunday night. as always, though, isn't it? i must admit, i sure ain't making use of my holidays wisely. i've been reading though; this is my current book.

 a little segment from it catches my attention, as always. you see, the Ghost, which is a high school cheerleader, keeps flickering in and out of existence when she's a ghost.

the Goth tells her to say genuine nice things, as that is the only way for her to be able to stay in solid form (although invisible to all apart from the Goth), otherwise she would disappear forever.

"Yeah, but it's also a basic scientific principle," I pointed out. "Ask any of the science club kids, they'll tell you. While you're here, you're primarily a form of energy. Being positive allows more energy to flow through you, helping you stay here. Negative energy, like when you say all those clever and nasty things about people, drains you, eating away at your ability to be here. In simple terms, it's like a battery. Being nice helps you recharge."

i like that. 

been watching so many 2NE1 videos these days, i suddenly remembered having made a video for one of the members of the clique i had been in, to an SS501 song. i remember being so damn irritated during the process because i had to keep the song in my head for a really long time.

it's too big to be uploaded real quickly, and it doesn't help that i hadn't uploaded it anywhere else apart from my previous Fb account (i'd deactivated it). it had been made in late 2010, so it pretty much consists mostly of the Wrister girl.

that aside, i kind of miss going on shopping trips with friends. or window shopping since i don't really buy anything. the times with members of the clique i had been in, the twins, or the boy himself.

in fact i miss talking with friends. kind of. the fact that i'm admitting this is actually kind of an improvement.

o well. whatever had happened, had happened, and i don't think i'm gonna be doing anything to bring back the joys of company.

least i have my childhood friend who still cares for me. nearly thirteen years since i had known her, yet our friendship is constantly on and off.

was it fate that sent us both into the same class in sec three and then make-up bridging at the end of sec four? whatever it is, i'm glad we still had had the chances of interacting with each other.

she's really the one who can make me laugh so hard, even effortlessly. as i type this all the memories i'd had with her, from make-up bridging period to the time we had gone to bugis together.

and i'm smiling on my own.

i like the fact that even after making me laugh so hard, she's still able to look away and continue doing what she was doing with an innocent expression, leaving me next to her laughing to myself like some maniac.

i like how we could look at each other and just laugh without saying anything, despite the emotionless expression which we had had before.

i like how she gets irritated with me but she still loves me very much. *grins*

most of all, i love how i would be lying down in a pathetic little ball on the floor of her house late at night and she would be there, just listening to all my whines. i like how she would scream at me to knock some sense into me after i'd be done crying. she listens first.

i like the weird nicknames she gives me, like Big Monster and Mory (short for moron, apparently).

she's my Small Monster. *grins*

well. the time now is 11:20 PM. am currently chatting with Syamirul while listening to some *cough* twentyone.

i'll blog again if i'm unable to sleep.