alas, how stupid of her!

God ain't gonna make the people whom you love love you back if you ain't gonna love the people who love you. 

a portal is in front of me now. it's been opened since i stepped into this weird place. it's always been open, even when i had power all along to close it. i chose not to close it, because i thought i'd come back and go through it again, to return where i came from.

this place where i had came from; it was where i had been before i met anyone of them. all i was, was a girl in secondary school, who dislikes studying like a regular 13-year-old student but still going on strong for the sake of her future.

the portal was opened when the little boy next door with the bandage made his appearance. this girl jumped in, and before she knew it, three years had been gone just like that. all had been stripped of her; happiness, innocence, her soul.

now she has the chance to jump back into this portal, to go back to normal.

but nope.

she chooses to remain in the world she had jumped in; she had chosen to continue searching for the boy who had came into the portal with her. she doesn't want to leave him behind. she wants to leave the strange place together with the one who had gone in with her.

alas, how stupid she was! this boy had already jumped back through the open portal a long, long time ago. he had his own power to open his own portal, to return to his former life, to before he had even met her. how stupid this girl is!

she doesn't know all that, of course. nobody is around to tell her. she believes with all her heart that the boy is still somewhere, lost in this strange dimension, and she's determined to find him. she firmly believes that he is waiting for her to save him.

how stupid of her...

my stomach churns and i exhale.

i look at the portal one last time, before turning my back against it.  i know it will take a long time to find it again, but...


but.