i feel like giving up already, before i've even started. i always make decisions on impulse, it seems. why did i decide to repent without considering whether i really am sincere about it? why did i decide to move on when i know i would still be affected by the past?
call this running away if you must, because it is. i found out that i still havent gotten over the younger twin, and so i decide to run away from this.
i told you i'd be trouble. i understand if you don't trust me anymore because of this, for i myself dont trust me either.
i had this dream where he came back. like i'd always had, i'm clinging on to it with hopes that it would be reality someday. i don't think i'm letting go anytime soon; i may be weak for not moving on, but i think my holding on is a sign of strength.
don't bother fighting for me because it's not gonna be worth it.
p.s. shall blog about my past few days tomorrow.
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