a very stubborn patient.

this song is with me.

so. looks like i had the strength to get up, and i'm even on the comp right now. what happened to me ytd, you ask? come, let's go thru friday tgt first.

woke up in the morning to a very horrible stomach ache. i didnt want to move at all, or not the pain would get to me. stayed in bed til 645, when my dad came in and was like, "eindah, wake up, you're late..." so i told him abt the pain and he was like k, better not go sch.

fell back asleep til like 9 plus i think? irshad texted me, asking how i feel, cause he knew i was damn unwell the day before. told him i didnt go sch at all , he was like why so i explained the shit i felt in the morning.

i kept gg to the toilet to puke, but nth much came out. didnt really see the colour of what came out, cause i puked into the toilet bowl . but could taste the vomit in my mouth.

the night before, i dreamt tht i played the swings. so asked irshad if he could accompany me go play. surprisingly he even allowed me to, with me being nauseous and all. see, he's so damn awesome la.

but he told me to go doctor before playing swings. BUT, unfortunately the clinic was closed. soooo didnt go clinic at all.

when he was texting tht he's like otw to my place, i suddenly got damn pissed as to why he must fetch me all the time. i suddenly had this mindset of "does he think i cant walk to the swings place by myself tht he has to fetch me?"

but in the end i did allow him to fetch me. walked to prp , otw there he was like asking me why i so quiet. at tht point i got pretty irritated too, cause usually he's the one doing most of the talking whenever we're walking.

reached the swings place, it was empty apart from a few sch girls who were hogging the swings, so we sat and waited. eons later two of the swings were empty so we went, and i got super excited.

irshad kept laughing to himself on the swing , i liked tht so much. and i went higher than him! but halfway got a little nauseous. yes i played the swings when i'm sick. and then he got up and pushed me , tht was damn fun.

went to remove our shoes and played by the beach. as always, i drew in the sand with my feet, wrote E + I, and then i went to draw one side of a heart around it, hehe. then irshad drew the other side, awwww .

sad tht i didnt bring cammie! so i only used my phone to take pic.


then we went to just look at the sea aft tht, next to the heart. our shoes were also tossed next to it, so we must have looked tumblrish from afar, in my humble opinion. and i super loved it when he hugged me from behind .

sat down and talked awhile, liked it when he had his palm against my tummy. so we just sat there, with the wind blowing our hair around, under the heat of the sun, his arm around me. if only time could be stopped.

eons later went to the toilet. walked on the soft sand, i was walking in front irshad and he was behind me laughing to himself, hahahaha . cause of the sand i think. so went toilet to wash the sand off our feet and put on our shoes.

then , went to sit on breakwaters. when we were walking i kept feeling like wanna vomit, you know tht little feeling of something wanting to come out your mouth but last min retreat back into ur throat? yeah, tht suckish feeling.

lied down, and it seemed to stop tht little feeling. so i lied down most of the time, on z shady boy's lap. and i did sleep at some points too. it kinda helped. the tummy pain wasnt there when i was lying down.

irshad said we gotta go at 6. at 6:05 i was like, uh huh, 5 more mins....... and then i fell back asleep. i think he had a real difficult time wakin me up?

but eventually i did wake up on my own accord, but i was still lazy to get up, and he had to force me up. made our way out, and most of the time irshad was talking, but im so sorry. i wasnt really listening most of the time sia, my perut was hurting again.

this time i told him it's ok, he didnt have to send me up, so he didnt. and when i was back in my room, teros tidor.

didnt have any dreams, scarily. woke up around 9 i think. woke up to have tht pain tht i had when i was walking/standing/sitting. i was like, nono shit, dont tell me it wanna attack when im lying down too, when lyin down is like my only source of comfort. get it ? yeah, was so pissed.

and then i started crying. yeah, i cried a lot last night. tht's the thing la, when im very very sick, i tend to cry a lot. come on la, i aint the only one who's like tht right? to make it worse, i missed irshad so much, cause earlier on he was there when i woke up back at prp. but back in my room, he wasnt .

i seriously cried a lot sia T.T

called my younger bro , asked him for thermometer, my temp was 37.8. and then everything which was supposed to be white, was green. so i was like k confirm im havin fever as well .

irshad was texting me, but his replies were late. and then benna helped me search for replacement for my shift today, and she told me to take care. awww.

i couldnt find any comfy position to lie down in sia, which made me really cry all the more. and i was SUPER BORED , and yet i couldnt sleep, only slept this morning from like 7 i think? to 9.

irshad's like super worried. dunno, he says im never this stubborn when im sick . cause i die die didnt want go doctor, or eat smth, when he kept telling me to. and he said im like super cranky. haiz. all i can say is, thank you for worrying abt me .