unstability .

okay, i am home now my dear firetrucks. let us share today now shall we?

HOLY FIRETRUCK, HOLD ON! my brothers helping me kill the lizard in my room. hahaha. here i am staring with my mouth open. jap jap .

kay i am back . wor kelakar per. okay, where was i ? yeahh, today.

in the morn, walked to sch with timothy. saw nicholas jude at spc, joined him and then we all walked tgt, talking and catching up on each other's lives. when tim and i got in the sch gate, i had this feeling, idk what intuition shit, and then i turned around.

guess who i saw? yes, the most handsome boy in the world. the colour in my black and white. the Love of my Life. somehow, he happened to turn around slowly too , and laid his eyes exactly on me. tht was a really pretty moment ((x

got so damn happy. and then tim was like holding thumbs up cause i was so damn happy. and then, i tripped him on the way to the classroom. he fell for it, (get it?) and then i was like laughing my heart out.

he was like =____= his face was like, he must have thought i would have been better off an emo bitch. hehehe.

SIYING BOUGHT ME MATHS TB !!!!!! T.T cause i lost mine. she was there when i was so damn upset and searching the whole classroom for it. she told me she'd get me one, but i was like NO. but i guess she can be pretty stubborn when she wants to, too .

i didnt want to tell irshad abt my maths tb cause i was afraid he'd buy. in the end, siying still got it for me. thank you so much ! and then she was like, "now tht ive gotten you your maths tb, you better get your A2 for maths ok?" T______________T

had test during chemy, on metals. good thing i still rmb some of the stuff from last year, so i could do it pretty well. did my best. had maths, where i did my work cause i had a tb :3 and then it was english, slacked with siying, timothy and jiayao.

during recess, i was like walking around the canteen aimlessly. and then i saw asleah and timothy so i joined them in the queue. and then fedex gf was in front of us -.-

somehow, i found tht an awkward moment. she's my ex's gf, and just a few months ago she was my bf's ex. hmmm . a complicated relationship between us, and yet we have never talked to each other before. tht's why ive never mentioned her name, cause i have no rights to say it.

WAHLAU MY FOOD 1.80 SIA . i knew it. shouldnt have bought from tht stall, always end up so expensive. dammit la, i'm just gonna starve myself, and sleep during my break tmrw at work.

during mother tongue, i did my work. hey now tht i think abt it, i think i was being an extremely good girl at sch today. i suspect it has smth to do with seeing tht boy in the morning ^_^

when the 12.20 bell rang, everyone teros kecoh!!! cause today we were dismissed earlier, heheh. waited at canteen with asleah and sab , for the chinese girls. but apparently they all went on ahead without us, so the three of us just went home too .

walked sab to her place, halfway thru i started talking abt jubo when sab was like, "jubo tu aper?" xD splitz at her house lift before making my way to central bus stop to take bus from there.

good thing i did, cause at the next stop, a drizzle of loyang students boarded. the stop aft tht, a flood of greenviews. and then, the next two stops, a whole tsunami of prcs -.-

slacked at home awhile, only naqib was home. and then around like idk-what-time, decided to go for a walk. was barely getting emotional when my mom texted asking me to go airport meet her. so i made my way to bus stop with 53.

i missed the bus, and guess what? the next one only came like 35 minutes later. idk why. halfway thru the waiting, the rain got heavier and heavier, and it got horrible. good thing i was wearing hoodie. i appreciate the rain. but it does not mean i like it .

o and when the 89 came, a girl in prcs uniform suddenly came at me and hugged the shit out of me!! guess who it was, it was my dear childhood friend .

i was like, "oy you skip school !?!?" syazana was like, "NO! i went to take my english homework!" and she was with her boyfriend. somehow it felt nice to be meeting a childhood friend's boyfriend.

when i arrived at terminal 1, i was alr freezing my ass off so i sat outside to warm up a bit. my mom came eons later to fetch me, and then we made our way in, and to take the skytrain to T2 cause i wanted to eat .

we ate swensen's, where i got the chicken baked rice . usually i'd get the fish , but, just thought i'd try new things. since the things i like somehow taste horrible, i'll take the chance to try things i usually dont eat. take advantage of your misery .

and yes, as you can see, my appetite has gotten better. i even asked for ice-cream, tho i didnt finish tht, which is a rarity ...

1 NEW MESSAGE!
....oh it's not z shady boy. *shoulders slumped*

took train back to pasir ris, where mommy and i splitz cause i wanted to go to the library but she was lazy to follow me. so i went on ahead, felt kinda sad at this point of time.

borrowed this book abt a girl who's always gg into other ppl's dreams. interesting aye? to me. as you all know i take my dreams very very seriously, tho idk why . borrowed two books, tht one and another one which is a teen romance. yeah , ive been reading tht a lot alr.

went to popular to buy a B2P for my diary. mom gave me money to get her a calculator, but there wasnt the one tht she wanted so i was like wondering what to do with her money. thought i'd use it to get me a little smth for sch . but i didnt.

still wondering when i'll get my allowance again. hmm .

blah3, i am z homie.

somehow, i feel really angry whenever i think abt the times tht irshad left me aft we shared first kiss. i dont know why. i think it's got smth to do with what i went thru when i was with khairul , i think?

i have been very unstable these days in more ways than 1. financially, emotionally, physically. and yeah, i dont even know why . it's ok though, this life is a blessing. a hexed blessing. a blessed hex .

remember how the dentist always tells us to continue brushing our teeth even when our gums start bleeding? yeah, life is like tht. just suck the blood, cause blood tastes good :B