Met up with Siying two days ago, probably my last drink til whenever. She challenged me to go one week without drinking a drop of alcohol, and I took it. I'm gonna do it!
But guess what? One day in, and I'm already dying. I went yesterday without that shit, and I think that in itself is a pretty amazing thing. I know that once I'm addicted to something I won't be able to go that long without it, but hey I can do this.
It isn't as easy as it seems though. But I know I gotta stop this shit before it makes an impact on my future blablabla *insert some lecture about the impacts of alcohol here* kay.
So here I am in school, it's programming now but I can't help getting distracted. I've no choice but to take the ring out of my nose in class, so that I can fucking breathe. But I still have to push it back in at other times, because I can't deny I look stupid with it.
[When I say push it in, I mean push it up my nose because it's the only way to hide it. Pull it out is displaying it, if you get what I mean. I can't remove it, because I don't want the hole to close. It cost me twenty bucks kay] [I can hear you say "Siape suruh pierce?" shut up.]
Honestly, I don't know what's in it for me. I don't drink for one week, and then what? What do I get? A chance to get back with you? I wanna hope so, but my brain tells me no. But my heart tells me to just try, because I never know. Sigh. Sigh x1000.
Just a rant. Get back to you soon, I have someone special to write about later.
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