i was sleepless last night, or more like this morning. was on the comp , when i went to check out what all the chaos was abt. i watched this vid, (i love deekosh) and at the end of it, i was so amazed. i had to applaude. so i did, and i ended up watching it over and over again.



and then chatted with maya :3 she was reading her blog , her old posts, and then she started reminiscing i think. i still rmb those days very clearly !

k well anyway, i wanna go straight to the dreams part. i slept around 5 i think, and then i terbangon at 1030 , and fell back asleep til 130 . and yes, many many dreams. little segments. let me just share some tht i rmb, tho not in order.

one part, i was like at nex with my bros and mommy i think. we were seated at a restaurant table , and there were glasses on it. they were filled with water, next to a jug full of smth tht looked like orange juice.

my older bro poured the orange juice into two of the glasses of plain water, and gave one to my mom, and younger bro. i said, "why didnt you pour for me?" and then he yelled tht he didnt wanna. he yelled, yeah.

and for the rest of the time, he didnt want to be near me at all. when i woke up from tht dream, i started thinking. must be a good thing of being disliked sometimes, cause i wouldnt have wanted the diluted orange juice. get it ?

there was another dream abt zorro. he was one tiny little cat with so many scars and burnt marks... i rmb thinking to myself, when i looked at him playing: "he survived one fire, had a small burn mark, and then he survives another fire and this is how he ends up."

and yeah, just so you know, zorro in real life does have a burn mark at the side of his body. it's permanent. my cousin found him under the void deck, small and trembling.

well anyway, i am not really in the mood to talk abt my dreams actually. right now, i am pretty upset. i followed irshad grocery shopping just now. but he didnt seem to have appreciated it. it was as if my wanting to help would just cause him trouble.

my mommy never allows me to carry the bloody basket, she says i cant carry heavy stuff. i rarely go grocery shopping with her. aah, goddammit. i am so pissed right now =____=

waah blogger on my phone is like an entirely different website altgt.