i got back my june 2009 today. it was found, when i lost it nearly a year ago. i'm reading on my own, reminiscing and smiling a little to myself as i recall all those times. all those times. with you.

today was the first day of school.

i was looking out the railings... when i suddenly felt like turning. and there, smack dab in my face, was yours. you were so freaking near me and your voice increased when you were there. why ..? why did i have to turn around when you were where i was about to look of all times, of all places?

and why did i turn away with tears forming in my eyes? and why did i turn around and ran off suddenly when i saw you? why was facing you so hard to do ?

i dint bring much to school today. i merely brought my three usual pens, my january notebook, my novel, my phone, money, earpiece, .....and your shoes. your old shoes. the shoes you gave me because mine were broken back then.

i've gotten a new pair of shoes, though i refused to . but my parents insisted and even scolded me for it, so i was forced to get a new pair... but i still treasure my old shoes. which were, your old shoes. your old shoes which you gave me nearly eight months ago.

those shoes were the only things you have ever given me. it'll be a real pity if choy choy my feet grew out of those one day... they've seen me thru thick and thin.. these shoes hold memories.

in may, we were with my then crush, who saw the holes in my shoes and went all, "eh, don't you have any other shoes?" when he was gone i immediately went into depression because i was embarrassed. after all he WAS a rich guy.

and then you asked me what size are my feet . and the very next week, when i had completely forgotten about it, you brought down a pair of shoes, size eight. i said there was no need but you insisted so i took them and tried them on... and they were alright. they fit.

the shoes were old and used, cos they were your old ones, you grew out of them ages ago. but i didnt mind. i liked it tht way. to me they were perfect. at tht time i was thinking about how you were SO big brotherly towards me. not just Regarding the shoes, but about the kiss on my forehead as well, which happened the day before,

a little before you asked me to be your God-sister.