GO FUCK YOURSELF

Before I get to it, here's the root of the problem; why I'm so pissed off at the time I am writing this.

Ever since I started school again, I'd been sleeping in my parents room. So we have an extension plug in the living room which I bring into the room every night so my dad and I can both charge our phones and use my bedroom fan at the same time, because we don't have enough sockets in the room.

On Monday morning, as usual I didn't put it back outside because dude I was rushing for school? You just had to make a big deal out of it, like it's gonna take so much effort to bring it back outside to the living room yourself.

The faggot snapped on family Whatsapp, to which Dad said it was him, and that he was sorry. That just pissed the fuck out of me, why should he say sorry? He didn't do anything wrong, it's just a goddamn extension plug which you can bring out yourself. And he ain't your servant to have to say sorry for not doing what you asked.

So I retaliated by pointing out how you sometimes don't put things back to their original spots too. Take note that I'd said it so calmly with no sign of malice. I was just stating facts, and I also added how you'd always turn on the fan and television outside, only to go back into your room 5 minutes later, leaving everything on outside. Just a reminder for you too, like how you'd reminded me to put back the extension plug.

Not my fault you couldn't accept my goddamn suggestion??? Right after I said this, the faggot said, roughly translated; "Eh don't be so extra, so kpo for what. Jangan balik ah gi berambus." Like dude? 1. I'm not being extra, you're obviously talking to me about the goddamn extension plug. 2. No need to say that second line, it's so unneeded, like I didn't say anything like that to you.

I know you fucking hate me, and I know I'm not part of the family anymore ever since I got kicked out years ago. I totally don't need you to rub it in my face. I don't need ignorant fucks to be acting all smart and telling me something I already know.

Getting straight to the points about the tweets things.

1. You're both getting riled up over the word 'stupid'. That's pretty much it. I never said anything else, nothing more offensive than that. And I'm not literally saying your girlfriend is stupid; I wanna go into an English lesson on my usage of the word 'stupid' here, but you'd be too slow to catch what I mean.

2. You should know by now that I hate your girlfriends on status, not by person. Whoever your girlfriend is at the moment, I'll always hate her whether or not she's nice. And it's been that way since your first one. And I don't care if you think it's immature or whatever because I know it is.

3. Your ex girlfriend was nice to me, and she's honest and real with me, that's why I really liked her. It's not that she got closer to me to use me or whatever. I just finally agreed to be her friend when she wasn't with you anymore. Because see point 2 you faggot.

4. I don't want your 'attention and love', I just hate your attitude/behaviour.

5. What's that you said bro? You thought that I'd 'change' now that I'd returned to you guys? What the hell do you even know about me? Whether or not I changed, trust me you wouldn't know. You never knew me in 2013, you never knew me in 2012, you never knew me in any of the years before I left. You stopped getting to know me about 10 years ago now.

6. God knows why you hate me, no matter what I do. God knows why you even stopped talking to me. I still remember that one time during your parent-teacher meeting, when you were carrying our little brother and happily talking to him and shit, but when I tried to join in you wouldn't let me. You snapped at me, "Sana lah, sibuk je!" just because I stood next to you. Idk why but I've always remembered that. And even then, I didn't know why you were such a dick to me.

7. I've always tried to be nice to you. I've always let go of the fact that you're an asshole to me for who-knows-what reason. I hate you a lot now because I gave up on that. Because no matter what I do, you're still a dickhead to me.

8. I give you my love and you don't react. I send you a little bit of my hate and you retaliate like shit. Like fuck you bro.

9. I ain't the only one who thinks you're not treating your family right. I don't give a shit about the fact that you don't regard me as your family. I don't want to fucking care, but I have to because you ain't treating them right at all. Sure, you give them money from your salary, but days later you're asking them for more money for 'allowance'. Like whut?

You spend your money on your own things, and on your girlfriend. And honestly, Dad's the one who's been talking to me about you, regarding this. You had some vouchers shit which you kept to yourself and didn't share with them, some shit like that.

And really, I highly doubt family is your priority at all, whether or not I'm in the picture. You don't make time for them, be it shopping or grocery shopping, or whatever. If anything, the family puts you as priority while you take their presence lightly. I can see you stepping all over their heads all the damn time, and it just fuels my hate for you.

You throw a tantrum when Mom is too tired to fry you your goddamn hashbrowns or nuggets. You sulk about how you're only eating bread all the time when Dad is too tired to cook goddamn maggi for you. That's right, you don't even know how to make your own meals. McDonald's kat bawah je, susah sangat nak pergi beli sendiri.

You can't wait to fuck off and start your new family? Don't hold it against me, but you have my fullest support for that. I can't wait for you to suffer independently, considering the fact that you can't even do shit for yourself right now at age 23.

Maybe I know why you hate me now. It's because you can't accept facts. You hate how there's someone who dares to stand up against you, and that it's your fucking little sister.

"Sorry aku popular and kau tak, sampai kau kene dengki dengan hidup aku."
That line just blew my mind. Who the fuck wants to be popular like you? Sure, I want people to know my blog because it's just a step for me to be known for my writing. I want to be a writer, and I'm starting with this blog. But I don't want to be 'famous' for hypocritical tweets like you.

And who the fuck tengah dengki dengan hidup kau? Definitely not me. I don't even give a shit about your life. God knows who the fuck possessed me to bother making you that card for your girlfriend on your monthsary, UGH. A rare time I'd made effort to make you happy, when you've never done that for me. [and you even took all the credit]

I'm fine as who I am bro. You should know from last time about how unpopular and nerdy I am. I'm worlds apart from you and maybe that's another reason why we don't get along. I don't fucking care about the fact that you're popular, I'm mad only because your popularity is feeding on your non-existent love for the family.

Your world revolves around you and your girlfriend, and that's it. I swear to God that's how you see things.

I don't know shit about you really, because I stopped knowing you since like a decade ago. But that's what I can fucking see, and I fucking hate you for that.

If anything, you're the one who's envious of me for having a non-existent and peaceful social life. I don't have many friends in poly, and I know not many people notice/like me. But I'm fine like that. I don't give a single shit. At least I know my family's feelings for me are real. At least I've been through shit which taught me to stand up on my own two feet, unlike you.

And the house was peaceful last time because you never made the effort to talk to our parents and little brother. You think they like it when the house is quiet as fuck? You think Mom is happy when both her sons are always too lazy/busy to go out with her? And I've heard of the way you tried to buat kelakar with our little brother. You sounded like a nenek talking to a teenager, I just had to laugh.

With all this said, I highly doubt you'd understand a word of what I just said. Judging from your chronic Malay typing, I don't think you'd be able to read this whole blog post really. And that's just gonna frustrate you more, I know, and it's also just gonna make you retaliate more. That's pretty funny actually.