who on earth spilled the fish?

i had the saddest dream ever last night. or more like this morning since i only fell asleep somewhere at 4. i'd written about it in my diary, but it hadn't made me feel any better.

this is Gingy, aka Halia.

Hometown had gone to the door when i was about to leave, and as i was petting him goodbye he started meowing and stood up to place his paws on my stomach.

either he wanted me to bring him out for a walk as well, or he hadn't wanted me to leave. either way it was just too adorable.

although Hometown is white, if i were to have a familiar, i would choose a black cat with green eyes. maybe red or pink if that's possible, although scary.

o! remember the cat from outside the house? the one whose name i couldn't remember. well first of all her name is Belolok, not the boplok crap my memory had came up with.

secondly, i'm gonna call her Loke for short.

thirdly, she had been eating outside earlier when i sent my aunt off to work. was walking back into the house when i tripped over the house stair step or something, and i was sent flying. Loke had gotten so startled that she just ran off to stare at me from the distance.

the funny thing was, when i looked down, all her food had been splattered across the ground, and i'm like, Holy firetruck! who did that?

til now i still have no idea whether it was my foot that had tripped over her bowl, or it was her who clumsily knocked into it when scattering away from me out of shock.what do you think? who on earth spilled the fish? *grins*

so that aside, i was just telling Syamirul last night, about how life is a piece of glass with sharp edges. that we've got to touch it all over even if we know we'll end up bleeding.

well it's what i think, anyway.

will there ever be anyone who would be privileged enough to read all my diaries? no, wait... will i be blessed enough to meet someone like that?

actually yeah. there was the younger twin.

*cough*

i've got nothing smart to say tonight. but i'm still wide awake, as you can see.

so what now?

am currently rocking out to this song. listen to its lyrics, kind of means a lot to me.

one day, i will find my white tadpole all tell him everything about the other tadpoles.
i'd be damned if the white tadpole is apparently splashed with red.

you should listen to this . you know how some songs could bring you to a certain time period of your life? well this brings me to late December, and i must say; it actually reminds me of the black tadpole more than the red.