class chalet day one has been uploaded !
editted out a lot of stuff bcos of the time limit. but still a lot of crap editted in, dont worry.
currently editting day 2.
so please dont disturb me, imma blog later ok? love you guys, heh.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
the very3 cheem reason for changing Wrister back to E'esa.
the story behind the name Wrister.
first things first, i almost slashed my wrist with the excuse of wanting to 'live up to my name'. come to think of it, tht was firetrucking brainless, and i dont even rmb the reason what made me think of it.
my next reason is, 'wrister' was a personality i created for myself.
the name Wrister came up in abt november last year, which is one year ago. originally it was Wrister Bashad, but i shortened it to Wrister. if you were to go into my account, you should see the drop down menu of my past FB names in the account settings.
so what does Wrister Bashad means? 'Bashad', was created during the time tht i was damn angry with irshad cos he left me for the second time. 'Bashad' is short for 'bash shad'. there was tht time when i so badly wanted to beat the crap out of him =.=
the truth is, i used to be sorta like attention seeker. some examples would be my public behaviour, my fb statuses, the way i speak/type, the topics i talk abt with people. yes, i used to be a very open person. you can ask siying.
many weeks aft irshad like left me, started ignoring me and all tht, i told myself to withdraw myself from everyone. idk la, i really couldnt take it sia. i told myself to totally change my attitude. i told myself. i decided on it.
i totally changed the way i dressed. i used to be running around in tees and bermudas, but i started wearing hoodies and skinnies despite the hot weather. i started walking more often. i didnt go out with friends or family. even if i did, i hardly interacted.
i didnt smile a lot. i kept quiet abt everything. this was the first few weeks of my 'new personality down syndrome' =.= seriously i was gg damn crazy. i was upset. i really was. i felt so alone. so damn alone. haiz.
well anyway. lets not sidetrack from the main topic.
so now, my point is, 'Wrister', is just someone i created. she doesnt exist. i dont need her anymore bcos i have irshad now. and, uhm. MKI did open me up when i was with him. but not open enough for others to come in.
now, with irshad, imma open up this door again. i'll make my way to the crowd again. i dont need 'wrister' anymore. i had E'indah E'esa. and she'll be who i am, and i'll be who she is, forever and always.
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but then again, i've gotten used to the hoodie and skinnies get-up. and i like walking, i love it. and i dont mind certain keeping things to myself. and i wouldnt like everyone's eyes on me, i dont like attention alr. ok. nvm. but im still E'indah E'esa !
and these are just a few photos to show you how i was like last year. just bloody sombong giler babz, according to cousie. during all the camwhores i didnt bother acting cute or cheerful or all tht shit like how i used to uh -___-
k. you get what i mean. i feel damn embarrassed talking abt the moron i was. (then again, i still am a moron) kk. ya get what i mean!
all you lans are damn privileged to know the story behind Wrister. oh, yeah, one more thing. i took the name from the word writer, and it means 'to rise through'.
first things first, i almost slashed my wrist with the excuse of wanting to 'live up to my name'. come to think of it, tht was firetrucking brainless, and i dont even rmb the reason what made me think of it.
my next reason is, 'wrister' was a personality i created for myself.
the name Wrister came up in abt november last year, which is one year ago. originally it was Wrister Bashad, but i shortened it to Wrister. if you were to go into my account, you should see the drop down menu of my past FB names in the account settings.
so what does Wrister Bashad means? 'Bashad', was created during the time tht i was damn angry with irshad cos he left me for the second time. 'Bashad' is short for 'bash shad'. there was tht time when i so badly wanted to beat the crap out of him =.=
the truth is, i used to be sorta like attention seeker. some examples would be my public behaviour, my fb statuses, the way i speak/type, the topics i talk abt with people. yes, i used to be a very open person. you can ask siying.
many weeks aft irshad like left me, started ignoring me and all tht, i told myself to withdraw myself from everyone. idk la, i really couldnt take it sia. i told myself to totally change my attitude. i told myself. i decided on it.
i totally changed the way i dressed. i used to be running around in tees and bermudas, but i started wearing hoodies and skinnies despite the hot weather. i started walking more often. i didnt go out with friends or family. even if i did, i hardly interacted.
i didnt smile a lot. i kept quiet abt everything. this was the first few weeks of my 'new personality down syndrome' =.= seriously i was gg damn crazy. i was upset. i really was. i felt so alone. so damn alone. haiz.
well anyway. lets not sidetrack from the main topic.
so now, my point is, 'Wrister', is just someone i created. she doesnt exist. i dont need her anymore bcos i have irshad now. and, uhm. MKI did open me up when i was with him. but not open enough for others to come in.
now, with irshad, imma open up this door again. i'll make my way to the crowd again. i dont need 'wrister' anymore. i had E'indah E'esa. and she'll be who i am, and i'll be who she is, forever and always.
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but then again, i've gotten used to the hoodie and skinnies get-up. and i like walking, i love it. and i dont mind certain keeping things to myself. and i wouldnt like everyone's eyes on me, i dont like attention alr. ok. nvm. but im still E'indah E'esa !
and these are just a few photos to show you how i was like last year. just bloody sombong giler babz, according to cousie. during all the camwhores i didnt bother acting cute or cheerful or all tht shit like how i used to uh -___-
k. you get what i mean. i feel damn embarrassed talking abt the moron i was. (then again, i still am a moron) kk. ya get what i mean!
all you lans are damn privileged to know the story behind Wrister. oh, yeah, one more thing. i took the name from the word writer, and it means 'to rise through'.
currently at library. got damn sad with the fact tht mommy called me stupid even aft helping her with her fb stuff. there's more, but i dont wanna go into details. yet.
well anyway. walked here, dropped off The Black Cat, came in and turned on lappy to blog a bit. i really wanna tell my shady everything. but i cant seem to find the right time. he's someone tht i really wanna tell EVERYTHING. even the problems tht i have with him, if any.
in my previous relationship , tht person will always go into a tantrum whenever i confide in him a problem tht i had with him. thts why i dont bother to tell him anymore shit, cos when he's unhappy, he vents in on the world.
so anyway. i know it's bad, but ive been comparing irshad to khairul. and i know its horrible, but ive been blaming irshad for all the suffering i went thru under the 'care' of khairul. i kept repeating in my head, over and over tht it's irshad's fault, it's irshad's fault.
i know. im a monster.
so well anywayys. my eyes are actually real sleepy now. im cold, despite being in my shady's hoodie. oh yes! ive not blogged abt last night's dream. ok, since ive nth else to talk abt for now, lets go!
hmmm , as always i dont rmb positions.
it was grad nite! i rmb everyone was in their fancy get up and all. and i was wearing a dress. i recall gg to sit on this stair step. them twins suddenly came, irshad sat on my right and 'irfan on my left.
idk what happened, but there was smth abt dragons. (once upon a time, in 2009, i had a dream abt a pair of dragon twins)
suddenly a big fat orange cat came outta nowhere. he got onto my lap, and i got into a shock but then i just patted it uh. and then irshad placed another orange kitty onto my lap, announcing; "here! this is __!" (i cant rmb what he said)
another part, was at work. at idk what station, this station doesnt exist in real life at EK. but i was there with syahirah and danish of EK, and surprise, irshad. he was wearing EK uniform :3
weeeell. there was one part where he and i got real close and was like talking to each other in really soft voices, almost seductive. i rmb saying, "are you sure we can do this with kids present?" like WOW, i wonder what we were doing :3
hm then what? oh yes, fruits basket. "i know ive placed yuki on the cover before, but he changed the most thru out the story, i just HAD to put his changed self onto the cover." -natsuki takaya. k, i know most of you wont get it. but it means a lot.
hmmmmnnnnmn what next? i only rmb these uh.
ok, me hungry. but still wondering if i should borrow a book or not. hmm. and what should i eat? decisions, decisions. we make them every day.
will blog abt my 'very very very cheem reason for changing Wrister back to E'esa' once i get home. fowoo, we really blogged a lot these days didnt we? shall get gg now, wanna go hunt for chemicals.
well anyway. walked here, dropped off The Black Cat, came in and turned on lappy to blog a bit. i really wanna tell my shady everything. but i cant seem to find the right time. he's someone tht i really wanna tell EVERYTHING. even the problems tht i have with him, if any.
in my previous relationship , tht person will always go into a tantrum whenever i confide in him a problem tht i had with him. thts why i dont bother to tell him anymore shit, cos when he's unhappy, he vents in on the world.
so anyway. i know it's bad, but ive been comparing irshad to khairul. and i know its horrible, but ive been blaming irshad for all the suffering i went thru under the 'care' of khairul. i kept repeating in my head, over and over tht it's irshad's fault, it's irshad's fault.
i know. im a monster.
so well anywayys. my eyes are actually real sleepy now. im cold, despite being in my shady's hoodie. oh yes! ive not blogged abt last night's dream. ok, since ive nth else to talk abt for now, lets go!
hmmm , as always i dont rmb positions.
it was grad nite! i rmb everyone was in their fancy get up and all. and i was wearing a dress. i recall gg to sit on this stair step. them twins suddenly came, irshad sat on my right and 'irfan on my left.
idk what happened, but there was smth abt dragons. (once upon a time, in 2009, i had a dream abt a pair of dragon twins)
suddenly a big fat orange cat came outta nowhere. he got onto my lap, and i got into a shock but then i just patted it uh. and then irshad placed another orange kitty onto my lap, announcing; "here! this is __!" (i cant rmb what he said)
another part, was at work. at idk what station, this station doesnt exist in real life at EK. but i was there with syahirah and danish of EK, and surprise, irshad. he was wearing EK uniform :3
weeeell. there was one part where he and i got real close and was like talking to each other in really soft voices, almost seductive. i rmb saying, "are you sure we can do this with kids present?" like WOW, i wonder what we were doing :3
hm then what? oh yes, fruits basket. "i know ive placed yuki on the cover before, but he changed the most thru out the story, i just HAD to put his changed self onto the cover." -natsuki takaya. k, i know most of you wont get it. but it means a lot.
hmmmmnnnnmn what next? i only rmb these uh.
ok, me hungry. but still wondering if i should borrow a book or not. hmm. and what should i eat? decisions, decisions. we make them every day.
will blog abt my 'very very very cheem reason for changing Wrister back to E'esa' once i get home. fowoo, we really blogged a lot these days didnt we? shall get gg now, wanna go hunt for chemicals.
GRAD NITE 2011 !
last night was the time of my life !
let's go thru the whole day first. met up with siying at tamp at noon, to shop for a sorta-like-blazer. there were many nice but expensive ones as always. went to topshop and then dorothy perkins and then esprit and then we made our way to tamp mall.
walked around randomly and then finally found one! the price was alright if you were to compare it with the previous blazers tht we saw. but on its own, it's still considered expensive to me. BUT, better be grateful. not like i buy those kind of fancy shit every day anyway.
took mrt to pasir ris , made our way to aries cos siying wanted to buy some accessories. at one point siying dropped the earrings and then it landed somewhere, completely disappearing! k i know you dont get it but tht was damn funny sia!
hm what next? went to mac's to wait for asleah, who arrived many eons later when siying was off to buy her food. blah3, then asleah and i bought our food. a guy wore a shirt with 'pearl' at the back, and then i told asleah, hey try to spot pearl over here.
she couldnt find her anywhere of course! ahhahaha. funny sia. when she finally found out eons later tht i was just referring to letters on somebody's tee, she got so fed up and smacked me as always.
took my time eating, and then suddenly asleah started rushing siying and i. so hurriedly ate before making our way to watson's. tht was the most boring part ever, i just stood around staring at them looking for make up and all tht stuff.
walked around outside watson's on my own while waiting, but when i got back they still werent done -____- close to 3, siying had to go so she went off, leaving just me and asleah, who was still not done with her make up search.
weeeeeeell. many eons later she was finally done. and then she suddenly started panicking tht we didnt have much time left til grad night. i was like, who was the one who spent so much time searching for make up -_-
parted at interchange, and then i stopped by roots to get my fringe cut. just a little bit la. not much difference.
got home and started packing all my grad nite stuff and made my way to sab's house, reaching there at like 4.30. sabrina was sho shweet, she helped me with everything sey! she gave me advice, she did my hair and make up , she adjusted the dress for me, and most of all, she entrusted her most precious necklace to me.
but damn funny sia, i cannot angkat the make up part. seeing her face concentrating on mine, seriously very amusing, i couldnt help laughing. eventually she got annoyed of course, heh.
hmmm what next? i got irritated with asleah, pearl and siying cos they werent replying , and pris had been waiting at the bus stop for eons. and i was mad at myself too cos i was taking my time as well. so i tried to rush. and rushed everyone else as well.
yadda yadda blah, finally i was walking towards sch with asleah and siying. made our way to tower, met up with pearl and timothy, signed our names, went to hall, walked on the red carpet, made our way to 4/2 tables, sat with priscilla and hafiz and daniel.
first thing i saw when i sat down was irshad. so handsome! kk we all sang sch song so loudly and proudly, although the pride died down halfway thru. then we listened to mrs woo's speech, and then our class speeches, and then dinner/show of grad nite vids.
told the girls abt the fact tht they aint showing mine cos amirah and jingyu made one without my consent. then i started getting sad.... i thought i was prepared. but when i saw their vid being played during 4/2's turn, it turned out i wasnt prepared aft all.
got up, and started walking out the door, with muka gembeng. siying pulled me back to our table and then she was like, "eh you really crying ah?" then i broke down T.T
wow, tht was my most horrible cry EVER. in fronta lots of ppl, and i was gg all uwaaah and all tht, non stop, and according to asleah my bawling was damn bloody loud. she followed me outta the hall, sat at the stairs next to dnt room crying my eyeballs out T.T
and then i heard irshad's voice, and then he wrapped his arm around me and tried to comfort me, telling me it's alright and all tht. i was like shit, confirm he was eating sia.
asleah brought me to toilette, where i washed my face. then went to hide at the shower section forawhile. i heard amirah's voice, and tht was when i suddenly started to have this little feeling of dislike towards her. and jingyu.
it really meant a lot to me, to have a video of mine shown on the sch screen. it would really have meant a lot to me. i spent hours making tht vid... wanted it to be a surprise for the 4/2 kids, cos i love them so much . haix, nvm. yes, im still sad abt it uh.
ok. nvm. when we got back we started eating alr cos hafiz was nice enough to take food for me, and then blah3, let's just fast forwarde to the dance segment!
everyone pushed the tables and chairs to the sides of the hall before making our way to the middle to dance our butts off. wow tht was damn bloody fun sia! priscilla is one hawt dancer haha!
ocasionally i joined, then i saw irshad and talked with him awhile, had to yell into each other's ears cos the music was loud.
joined the crowd, i wasnt really dancing, just jumping and hopping abt. was damn hyped up sia! everyone looked drunk and were all high giler babz. people were dancing and jumping and camwhoring. and then halfway thru, the lights went out!
tried to search for irshad, but i failed. thought of wanting to kiss him in the dark, but couldnt find him.. o well. then i just continued jumping abt with priscilla la :D
speaking of camwhore, here are some pictures from last night ^_^
i told you they looked drunk.
these were the girlfriends of mine who made it last night: pearl, asleah, siying, and priscilla. shushan had a personal problem at home, while farizah and sabrina didnt wanna come. 5 out of 8, i cried abt it but we still had a lot of fun didnt we?
and this is the handsome boyfriend named irshad . this is the second last time i would be with him in sch. the very last time, will be our n level results.
at the end of it all, walked down with priscilla and irshad. said bye to pris, siying, asleah, pearl, and went out the gate with shady. bumped into some of the 4/1 dudes, been awhile since i talked to them.
made our way to sab's block, where he waited downstairs while i ran up to grab my stuff. walked to dte, walked thru the usual route, it was dark, and we sempat kissed a little :3 THAT made the night eons more wonderful ! amazing ending wasnt it?
cried myself to sleep over the vid thing =.= but now it is a new day, and i shall just laugh over the fun shit tht happened on the dancefloor instead. and i blacked out, didnt go to work though i was supposed to. ive got one no-show offence alr, damn.
the time now is 5:03. it took me 3 hours to complete this post.
let's go thru the whole day first. met up with siying at tamp at noon, to shop for a sorta-like-blazer. there were many nice but expensive ones as always. went to topshop and then dorothy perkins and then esprit and then we made our way to tamp mall.
walked around randomly and then finally found one! the price was alright if you were to compare it with the previous blazers tht we saw. but on its own, it's still considered expensive to me. BUT, better be grateful. not like i buy those kind of fancy shit every day anyway.
took mrt to pasir ris , made our way to aries cos siying wanted to buy some accessories. at one point siying dropped the earrings and then it landed somewhere, completely disappearing! k i know you dont get it but tht was damn funny sia!
hm what next? went to mac's to wait for asleah, who arrived many eons later when siying was off to buy her food. blah3, then asleah and i bought our food. a guy wore a shirt with 'pearl' at the back, and then i told asleah, hey try to spot pearl over here.
she couldnt find her anywhere of course! ahhahaha. funny sia. when she finally found out eons later tht i was just referring to letters on somebody's tee, she got so fed up and smacked me as always.
took my time eating, and then suddenly asleah started rushing siying and i. so hurriedly ate before making our way to watson's. tht was the most boring part ever, i just stood around staring at them looking for make up and all tht stuff.
walked around outside watson's on my own while waiting, but when i got back they still werent done -____- close to 3, siying had to go so she went off, leaving just me and asleah, who was still not done with her make up search.
weeeeeeell. many eons later she was finally done. and then she suddenly started panicking tht we didnt have much time left til grad night. i was like, who was the one who spent so much time searching for make up -_-
parted at interchange, and then i stopped by roots to get my fringe cut. just a little bit la. not much difference.
got home and started packing all my grad nite stuff and made my way to sab's house, reaching there at like 4.30. sabrina was sho shweet, she helped me with everything sey! she gave me advice, she did my hair and make up , she adjusted the dress for me, and most of all, she entrusted her most precious necklace to me.
but damn funny sia, i cannot angkat the make up part. seeing her face concentrating on mine, seriously very amusing, i couldnt help laughing. eventually she got annoyed of course, heh.
hmmm what next? i got irritated with asleah, pearl and siying cos they werent replying , and pris had been waiting at the bus stop for eons. and i was mad at myself too cos i was taking my time as well. so i tried to rush. and rushed everyone else as well.
yadda yadda blah, finally i was walking towards sch with asleah and siying. made our way to tower, met up with pearl and timothy, signed our names, went to hall, walked on the red carpet, made our way to 4/2 tables, sat with priscilla and hafiz and daniel.
first thing i saw when i sat down was irshad. so handsome! kk we all sang sch song so loudly and proudly, although the pride died down halfway thru. then we listened to mrs woo's speech, and then our class speeches, and then dinner/show of grad nite vids.
told the girls abt the fact tht they aint showing mine cos amirah and jingyu made one without my consent. then i started getting sad.... i thought i was prepared. but when i saw their vid being played during 4/2's turn, it turned out i wasnt prepared aft all.
got up, and started walking out the door, with muka gembeng. siying pulled me back to our table and then she was like, "eh you really crying ah?" then i broke down T.T
wow, tht was my most horrible cry EVER. in fronta lots of ppl, and i was gg all uwaaah and all tht, non stop, and according to asleah my bawling was damn bloody loud. she followed me outta the hall, sat at the stairs next to dnt room crying my eyeballs out T.T
and then i heard irshad's voice, and then he wrapped his arm around me and tried to comfort me, telling me it's alright and all tht. i was like shit, confirm he was eating sia.
asleah brought me to toilette, where i washed my face. then went to hide at the shower section forawhile. i heard amirah's voice, and tht was when i suddenly started to have this little feeling of dislike towards her. and jingyu.
it really meant a lot to me, to have a video of mine shown on the sch screen. it would really have meant a lot to me. i spent hours making tht vid... wanted it to be a surprise for the 4/2 kids, cos i love them so much . haix, nvm. yes, im still sad abt it uh.
ok. nvm. when we got back we started eating alr cos hafiz was nice enough to take food for me, and then blah3, let's just fast forwarde to the dance segment!
everyone pushed the tables and chairs to the sides of the hall before making our way to the middle to dance our butts off. wow tht was damn bloody fun sia! priscilla is one hawt dancer haha!
ocasionally i joined, then i saw irshad and talked with him awhile, had to yell into each other's ears cos the music was loud.
joined the crowd, i wasnt really dancing, just jumping and hopping abt. was damn hyped up sia! everyone looked drunk and were all high giler babz. people were dancing and jumping and camwhoring. and then halfway thru, the lights went out!
tried to search for irshad, but i failed. thought of wanting to kiss him in the dark, but couldnt find him.. o well. then i just continued jumping abt with priscilla la :D
speaking of camwhore, here are some pictures from last night ^_^
i told you they looked drunk.
these were the girlfriends of mine who made it last night: pearl, asleah, siying, and priscilla. shushan had a personal problem at home, while farizah and sabrina didnt wanna come. 5 out of 8, i cried abt it but we still had a lot of fun didnt we?
and this is the handsome boyfriend named irshad . this is the second last time i would be with him in sch. the very last time, will be our n level results.
at the end of it all, walked down with priscilla and irshad. said bye to pris, siying, asleah, pearl, and went out the gate with shady. bumped into some of the 4/1 dudes, been awhile since i talked to them.
made our way to sab's block, where he waited downstairs while i ran up to grab my stuff. walked to dte, walked thru the usual route, it was dark, and we sempat kissed a little :3 THAT made the night eons more wonderful ! amazing ending wasnt it?
cried myself to sleep over the vid thing =.= but now it is a new day, and i shall just laugh over the fun shit tht happened on the dancefloor instead. and i blacked out, didnt go to work though i was supposed to. ive got one no-show offence alr, damn.
the time now is 5:03. it took me 3 hours to complete this post.
Friday, November 18, 2011
were you trying to stay in the past forever?
hey... so there you are. what are you doing here? isnt it dark in here? the sun is right there you know... or do you just prefer to be in the shade?
do you just wanna be alone? or are you in the shade bcos you ARE alone and tht you have no strength to look at the sun?
hey.... why are you keeping quiet? you aint alone now arent you? im with you now. regard my presence as your hope please. there's a lot of hope for your strength and your happiness. come on now... get up will you...?
i cant go into the sun myself... but you, you have to bask in its radiance. go now will you? stand in the light now would you...? please? there's still hope...
yes, tht's it. come on now, stand up properly. walk there, into the light. come on now... you can do it. you're a really brave person arent cha? you're a very very brave person. i know you can do it. there we go. stand up straight now. have pride.
look there. it's your shadow. you're a few steps away, come on now... you've alr gotten your shadow. step out further into the sun now would you...? the people are gonna see your shine.. they'll come to you...
smile would you? you're in the light now. lit up your face so it'd match with the radiance of the sun will you ?
you've made it this far... you're a very very brave person! i'm sure you can go further. the rest is up to you, i cant stay in the sun for long... i have to go back to the shade... just remember, as long as you're in the sun, you must always smile... and you will not be alone...
i'll be going now...
insomniac.
i cant sleep.... but had a little nap earlier. from 12 to like 3 ? around there. and yes, i dreamt.
weeeell. i dont rmb their positions though. but many things did happened, like a tv series abt those 3 kids at guillemard; halia, tilda, tanda. the younger half of the 6 of my aunt's cats :3 i rmb smth abt kenduri ...
oh, at one point irshad came over my house and talked to my grandma . and then she made milo for us, which is like a childhood thing. she always made me milo when i was a child, when she was still staying with us. now she makes different kinds of drinks when i visit her at guillemard.
one part, i wanted to go down the escalator tht links dte and ehub, but it was gelap giler babz. then i saw ms adimah and was like, "cher, would you walk down with me!? T.T " and then she was like, "yeah sure!" like she always is.
oh yes, there was one time where many ppl from our sch were there. like graduating classes. ok, it felt kinda like grad night except formality wasnt necessary, cos i saw many ppl in tees and jeans i see the place in my head now, but idk how ta describe. very nice place though. like the airport.....
i was talking to jingyu , when i heard someone calling me. i turned and there he was; the love of my life. said bye to the whole group who was with jingyu and then i walked down this escalator with irshad.
oh! THAT was when he came my house. yeahh.... and then we kissed a bit before he left. soon aft, he texted saying, "we would have been able to continue if we were at 500A." yes, i remember '500A' so very the clearly in tht text.
hmm what next? i dont wanna talk abt the old woman at 11:42 thing. it's scary.
well, tht's all i rmb so far. and now, we shall move on to talking abt, 17th november. woke up, slacked in bed awhile, texting and the usuals, and then i got up and wondered around the house. was alone at home.
gave a black face and texted shad abt it, and then i started stoning and thought of all the grad night stuff. around 1 or 2, idk, went down to buy mac's. funny thing, i thought i heard keys but when i went around the house, nobody was there.
was hardly 10 mins when i came back home, to see my mommy on her bed. how come i didnt see her before i left!? tht was all tht i was thinking of.
had me food on my own T.T i was so sad, tht i texted naz saying "hi u suck cos u nvr be my lunch buddy". guess what, i heard his message tone, his phone was right in fronta me when i texted tht. T.T
slacked some more, and then like 2:45 plus, went down to meet with irshad. walked ahead and then he tackled and hugged me from behind, aww. i owe him a tackle from one year ago.
walked to e hub, but otw it started raining so we took 17 from interchange. went to some void deck to slack, i seriously love listening to his singing sia. and i love the faces. funny shit.
i irritated irshad like shit at the whining part i bet. he was like talking nicely to me but i still continued whining and then at one point he was like, "uuughh!!!" i'm an annoying spoilt brat i bet -_-
he gave me a hug tht i think i well deserve :3 and i kinda liked it when he adjusted my hair like tht. heh.
well then he sent me to work, when we split i was like "love you!" and then he did this smooching the air thing, bloody cute sia! but his cute always has its annoying part la. which i like.
talked with wani who was dg entrance again, haha. i got ball pool ! the other attachment kid was there, her name is farah. she's shooo cute!
well she went off at 5.30, and then i continued my job. barely an hour into my shift and i alr had to raise my voice at some annoying kids. and i pwned one annoying spoilt brat real good, aft tht she just didnt come near me at all.
i tend to be real nice cos i'm actually a mean bastard who has anger management issues. i hate it when the parents look at me like im stupid. their annoying stares, ugh. it's like good enough tht i'm keeping quiet rather than screaming at ur bloody annoying kid, cos im sure you wouldnt like tht.
halfway thru my shift when i was stoning as always, i suddenly thought of why ek hadnt called shad. i remembered danish once told me abt how the GROs always tore the application forms and threw them away just cos they didnt want any new kids on the job.
well tht was what i thought la. and the GRO who attended to shad tht day, i can say tht she doesnt like me much. idk, maybe i'm exaggerating.
today was kinda boring. i dont really mix well with the malay kids other than wani and azreenie and haryani although the others are real nice and all. idk la, maybe its just me.
but farhan EK same like farhan 4/2 sia! kept singing songs tht has my name in it whenever they see me. -___-
this time, i didnt clock out earlier! i stood at the clock-out machine thingy , staring at its 21:59. when it finally became 22:00 , a hand shot out under my nose. it was the guy who's always in the cap, his name is derrick i heard. smth like tht.
he was like, "hey, you didnt clock out earlier ah today? i thought you're famous for doing tht." -__________________________-
just nice when i was walking out of ek, irshad reached home. beautiful. i didnt feel like gg home cos shad said i hafta sleep immediately once i reach home. i didnt want to sleep, tht was for sure.
bought a coke otw home, and then i saw the little white kitty sitting alone so thought i'd play with her awhile. she's so damn pretty! the way she looked up at me, it was as if she had planets as her eyes. gorgeous.
sat there for quite some time uh. when i got up to leave, she didnt let me! i was damn worried cos i didnt want her to get knocked down following me across the road T.T and even if she managed to get the other side with me, i didnt want her to get lost following me T.T
had no choice but to push her down like literally. i didnt kick her, i cant bear tht. i would never kick any felines, young or old, good or bad, playfully or not, and the like. no siree. and whats more, them nikes are really big compared to the little kitty you know.
once she had her back turned on me, i dashed like a ninja! felt like another one of those times when i got myself into trouble and had to make a run for it.
well she didnt follow me. but she started meowing real loudly like calling out to someone. it really hurt... i had to put on ma earpiece and blast them TFT just to block out her calls... sigh. i regret tht nw, the least i could have done was buy her some food....
so anyway..
smth was wrong with my phone reception i think. received all 3 of shad's texts at one go, and he said he tried calling me but he couldnt get thru. sooo yeah. and tht was it for ytd, 17th nov.
o and i saw natasha natty addressing me as mummy eindah. i started laughing when i saw tht, like woah. mummy eindah? natasha natty? naw thank you.
weeeell. i dont rmb their positions though. but many things did happened, like a tv series abt those 3 kids at guillemard; halia, tilda, tanda. the younger half of the 6 of my aunt's cats :3 i rmb smth abt kenduri ...
oh, at one point irshad came over my house and talked to my grandma . and then she made milo for us, which is like a childhood thing. she always made me milo when i was a child, when she was still staying with us. now she makes different kinds of drinks when i visit her at guillemard.
one part, i wanted to go down the escalator tht links dte and ehub, but it was gelap giler babz. then i saw ms adimah and was like, "cher, would you walk down with me!? T.T " and then she was like, "yeah sure!" like she always is.
oh yes, there was one time where many ppl from our sch were there. like graduating classes. ok, it felt kinda like grad night except formality wasnt necessary, cos i saw many ppl in tees and jeans i see the place in my head now, but idk how ta describe. very nice place though. like the airport.....
i was talking to jingyu , when i heard someone calling me. i turned and there he was; the love of my life. said bye to the whole group who was with jingyu and then i walked down this escalator with irshad.
oh! THAT was when he came my house. yeahh.... and then we kissed a bit before he left. soon aft, he texted saying, "we would have been able to continue if we were at 500A." yes, i remember '500A' so very the clearly in tht text.
hmm what next? i dont wanna talk abt the old woman at 11:42 thing. it's scary.
well, tht's all i rmb so far. and now, we shall move on to talking abt, 17th november. woke up, slacked in bed awhile, texting and the usuals, and then i got up and wondered around the house. was alone at home.
gave a black face and texted shad abt it, and then i started stoning and thought of all the grad night stuff. around 1 or 2, idk, went down to buy mac's. funny thing, i thought i heard keys but when i went around the house, nobody was there.
was hardly 10 mins when i came back home, to see my mommy on her bed. how come i didnt see her before i left!? tht was all tht i was thinking of.
had me food on my own T.T i was so sad, tht i texted naz saying "hi u suck cos u nvr be my lunch buddy". guess what, i heard his message tone, his phone was right in fronta me when i texted tht. T.T
slacked some more, and then like 2:45 plus, went down to meet with irshad. walked ahead and then he tackled and hugged me from behind, aww. i owe him a tackle from one year ago.
walked to e hub, but otw it started raining so we took 17 from interchange. went to some void deck to slack, i seriously love listening to his singing sia. and i love the faces. funny shit.
i irritated irshad like shit at the whining part i bet. he was like talking nicely to me but i still continued whining and then at one point he was like, "uuughh!!!" i'm an annoying spoilt brat i bet -_-
he gave me a hug tht i think i well deserve :3 and i kinda liked it when he adjusted my hair like tht. heh.
well then he sent me to work, when we split i was like "love you!" and then he did this smooching the air thing, bloody cute sia! but his cute always has its annoying part la. which i like.
talked with wani who was dg entrance again, haha. i got ball pool ! the other attachment kid was there, her name is farah. she's shooo cute!
well she went off at 5.30, and then i continued my job. barely an hour into my shift and i alr had to raise my voice at some annoying kids. and i pwned one annoying spoilt brat real good, aft tht she just didnt come near me at all.
i tend to be real nice cos i'm actually a mean bastard who has anger management issues. i hate it when the parents look at me like im stupid. their annoying stares, ugh. it's like good enough tht i'm keeping quiet rather than screaming at ur bloody annoying kid, cos im sure you wouldnt like tht.
halfway thru my shift when i was stoning as always, i suddenly thought of why ek hadnt called shad. i remembered danish once told me abt how the GROs always tore the application forms and threw them away just cos they didnt want any new kids on the job.
well tht was what i thought la. and the GRO who attended to shad tht day, i can say tht she doesnt like me much. idk, maybe i'm exaggerating.
today was kinda boring. i dont really mix well with the malay kids other than wani and azreenie and haryani although the others are real nice and all. idk la, maybe its just me.
but farhan EK same like farhan 4/2 sia! kept singing songs tht has my name in it whenever they see me. -___-
this time, i didnt clock out earlier! i stood at the clock-out machine thingy , staring at its 21:59. when it finally became 22:00 , a hand shot out under my nose. it was the guy who's always in the cap, his name is derrick i heard. smth like tht.
he was like, "hey, you didnt clock out earlier ah today? i thought you're famous for doing tht." -__________________________-
just nice when i was walking out of ek, irshad reached home. beautiful. i didnt feel like gg home cos shad said i hafta sleep immediately once i reach home. i didnt want to sleep, tht was for sure.
bought a coke otw home, and then i saw the little white kitty sitting alone so thought i'd play with her awhile. she's so damn pretty! the way she looked up at me, it was as if she had planets as her eyes. gorgeous.
sat there for quite some time uh. when i got up to leave, she didnt let me! i was damn worried cos i didnt want her to get knocked down following me across the road T.T and even if she managed to get the other side with me, i didnt want her to get lost following me T.T
had no choice but to push her down like literally. i didnt kick her, i cant bear tht. i would never kick any felines, young or old, good or bad, playfully or not, and the like. no siree. and whats more, them nikes are really big compared to the little kitty you know.
once she had her back turned on me, i dashed like a ninja! felt like another one of those times when i got myself into trouble and had to make a run for it.
well she didnt follow me. but she started meowing real loudly like calling out to someone. it really hurt... i had to put on ma earpiece and blast them TFT just to block out her calls... sigh. i regret tht nw, the least i could have done was buy her some food....
so anyway..
smth was wrong with my phone reception i think. received all 3 of shad's texts at one go, and he said he tried calling me but he couldnt get thru. sooo yeah. and tht was it for ytd, 17th nov.
o and i saw natasha natty addressing me as mummy eindah. i started laughing when i saw tht, like woah. mummy eindah? natasha natty? naw thank you.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
HE is the love of my life.
in 2008, when i saw him, i dismissed the fact tht ive set my eyes on him. in 2009, he was my best friend, and tht was when i started having feelings for him. in 2010, i kept trying to deny the fact tht i had a crush on him.
im a horrible person. i lied to myself abt the fact tht i liked him. "my heart was true all along". why did i deny it? was it cos i didnt want to be hurt again? by the same person? idk. i just know tht i kept the feelings locked and was looking for a hiding place for its key all along.
all the crushes i had, they were indeed walls. khairul was the thickest wall, where the door was at. tht door led me out of the bomb shelter. i was hiding from the bombs called my love for irshad. i walked out the door, where i found irshad.
(damn ive used this bomb theory of mine for eons alr)
2nd nov 2011 was my worst day then far. i had nobody , i was all alone with very little hope of being found by someone, when you, irshad noorhalim, appeared before me. you comforted the child tht i was. the way you always did in the past.
i found solace in douche's arms.
tht was all tht was in my mind aft tht night. i still couldnt believe tht we're in a relationship, aft these 2 years of my crush on you. when i was with somebody else, every part of myself was silently calling out to you. except for my mind.
i'm glad tht i decided to have tht one day of doing things tht khairul forbade me from doing. i'm glad tht we broke up. i'm glad tht i was a stubborn bastard who refused to stop working. im glad i got the job. im glad i followed asleah and farizah to apply.
ok, you get what i mean.
well. i guess it's really all fate's doing for sure. we fell apart, and then we pulled back tgt. again and again, and again. somehow, in one way or another, we just naturally found each other again and again. hehe.
uhm. i dont wanna go all eindah wrister the philosopher now. my point is, i'm glad all tht happened, happened. i'm glad you became mine. i'm glad to be yours.
heh, i really love irshad. i cant deny it alr la. he's the love of my life. him. nobody else. no one else seems to deserve the title. everytime i look into his eyes, i just know tht he's the one.
a picture taken aft we shared first kiss.
(:
im a horrible person. i lied to myself abt the fact tht i liked him. "my heart was true all along". why did i deny it? was it cos i didnt want to be hurt again? by the same person? idk. i just know tht i kept the feelings locked and was looking for a hiding place for its key all along.
all the crushes i had, they were indeed walls. khairul was the thickest wall, where the door was at. tht door led me out of the bomb shelter. i was hiding from the bombs called my love for irshad. i walked out the door, where i found irshad.
(damn ive used this bomb theory of mine for eons alr)
2nd nov 2011 was my worst day then far. i had nobody , i was all alone with very little hope of being found by someone, when you, irshad noorhalim, appeared before me. you comforted the child tht i was. the way you always did in the past.
i found solace in douche's arms.
tht was all tht was in my mind aft tht night. i still couldnt believe tht we're in a relationship, aft these 2 years of my crush on you. when i was with somebody else, every part of myself was silently calling out to you. except for my mind.
i'm glad tht i decided to have tht one day of doing things tht khairul forbade me from doing. i'm glad tht we broke up. i'm glad tht i was a stubborn bastard who refused to stop working. im glad i got the job. im glad i followed asleah and farizah to apply.
ok, you get what i mean.
well. i guess it's really all fate's doing for sure. we fell apart, and then we pulled back tgt. again and again, and again. somehow, in one way or another, we just naturally found each other again and again. hehe.
uhm. i dont wanna go all eindah wrister the philosopher now. my point is, i'm glad all tht happened, happened. i'm glad you became mine. i'm glad to be yours.
heh, i really love irshad. i cant deny it alr la. he's the love of my life. him. nobody else. no one else seems to deserve the title. everytime i look into his eyes, i just know tht he's the one.
a picture taken aft we shared first kiss.
(:
class chalet ! and more.
heidiho! last night was a blast!
ive blogged half of ytd. shall talk abt the night now. jingyu was gg around taking pictures with everyone, and then at one point aft taking pic with somebody, i heard her announce, "yay! wo de collection complete liao!" so cute!
slacked , recorded random shit, ate (of course) , and we all took turns to go pris' lappy to play our own music. well i was complaining abt it being P earlier, but our chalet location aint half bad cos there was hardly anyone around so we were like blasting music.
all of us were sprawled around the outside, cos farhan was setting up the prank for tarmizi ! distracted him by recording him, which did a pretty good job. and then they made tarmizi finally go into the dark .......
funny shit ! damn, i cant wait to edit the shit and upload sia.
walked out with priscilla and hafiz around 1o plus, aft the prank. at home, stayed up watching rugrats all grown up til like 4 plus, where i blacked out and only woke up at 10:43. as always, i flopped back to bed when i saw the time and only went all HOLY SHIT a few secs later.
rushed like hell , had to hold pao with my teeth while i forced my feet into my nikes, said goodbye to my mommy (paos was thanks to her!) before running to the bus stop while starting on another pao ^_^
reached just in time but due to my stupidity , i clocked in at 11:31 cos i didnt turn the bloody card upside down. gah.
did entrance today! thts why i didnt text shad a lot, cos the station is like right next to office. trained an attachment today, her name is rina and she's a 3NT student. she's sho cute :3 and funny!
a lotta crap happened, as always, and then guess what !? i received my test today. the theory test. uhm, the EK playguide test. trainee test. ok idk what it's called, but it was definitely a test on my EK knowledge.
well, i only have one thing to say: i hope they understand my handwriting.
finally when it was like 5, i happily went to clock out, went to grab my stuff and then went to say goodbye to rina and haryani who were at entrance. walked to central to buy ma food, and cos of tht i ended up not walking home, cos i didnt want my food to get soaked.
reached home teros makan, totally forgot tht i had to eat medicine. at night , my older bro decided to order kfc delivery for us three siblings. hooray! and then we sat at the living room, eating while laughing at the irritating shit on tv. all three of us, me and my brothers!
i must say , i'm really grateful for both my brothers, although they've been spending little time with me. earlier on at EK, i had this convo with one of the cashiers named farah.
farah: what sch are you from?
me: pasir ris crest.
farah: pasir ris crest? my sister's from tht sch. she's either sec 1 or 2, idk.
me: whats her name?
farah: syaza.... syaza aper entah.
me: syaza nazeirah?
farah: ah yes, smth like tht la.
and i'm like, syaza nazeirah is sec 3 right ...? her own sister didnt know her age, and didnt know even her name.
i felt like crying when i thought of tht. the convo was on my mind all day.
so, well. i really love my brothers. i really really do. and all of you should love your siblings with all your heart and soul too. if your parents aint there for ya, your siblings are. bloody hell, they're always with ya... even though they physically arent, ... they're always with ya.
just imagine, if both your parents are getting into a real horrible fight. who can you hold on to in tht house, since mommy and daddy look so scary screaming at each other? right. your siblings.
so bloody fuck. love your siblings. all of you. and this is not a request, but a bloody command, god dammit. yes! im pumped up right now! dont talk to me, im very angry right now! T.T
ive blogged half of ytd. shall talk abt the night now. jingyu was gg around taking pictures with everyone, and then at one point aft taking pic with somebody, i heard her announce, "yay! wo de collection complete liao!" so cute!
slacked , recorded random shit, ate (of course) , and we all took turns to go pris' lappy to play our own music. well i was complaining abt it being P earlier, but our chalet location aint half bad cos there was hardly anyone around so we were like blasting music.
all of us were sprawled around the outside, cos farhan was setting up the prank for tarmizi ! distracted him by recording him, which did a pretty good job. and then they made tarmizi finally go into the dark .......
funny shit ! damn, i cant wait to edit the shit and upload sia.
walked out with priscilla and hafiz around 1o plus, aft the prank. at home, stayed up watching rugrats all grown up til like 4 plus, where i blacked out and only woke up at 10:43. as always, i flopped back to bed when i saw the time and only went all HOLY SHIT a few secs later.
rushed like hell , had to hold pao with my teeth while i forced my feet into my nikes, said goodbye to my mommy (paos was thanks to her!) before running to the bus stop while starting on another pao ^_^
reached just in time but due to my stupidity , i clocked in at 11:31 cos i didnt turn the bloody card upside down. gah.
did entrance today! thts why i didnt text shad a lot, cos the station is like right next to office. trained an attachment today, her name is rina and she's a 3NT student. she's sho cute :3 and funny!
a lotta crap happened, as always, and then guess what !? i received my test today. the theory test. uhm, the EK playguide test. trainee test. ok idk what it's called, but it was definitely a test on my EK knowledge.
well, i only have one thing to say: i hope they understand my handwriting.
finally when it was like 5, i happily went to clock out, went to grab my stuff and then went to say goodbye to rina and haryani who were at entrance. walked to central to buy ma food, and cos of tht i ended up not walking home, cos i didnt want my food to get soaked.
reached home teros makan, totally forgot tht i had to eat medicine. at night , my older bro decided to order kfc delivery for us three siblings. hooray! and then we sat at the living room, eating while laughing at the irritating shit on tv. all three of us, me and my brothers!
i must say , i'm really grateful for both my brothers, although they've been spending little time with me. earlier on at EK, i had this convo with one of the cashiers named farah.
farah: what sch are you from?
me: pasir ris crest.
farah: pasir ris crest? my sister's from tht sch. she's either sec 1 or 2, idk.
me: whats her name?
farah: syaza.... syaza aper entah.
me: syaza nazeirah?
farah: ah yes, smth like tht la.
and i'm like, syaza nazeirah is sec 3 right ...? her own sister didnt know her age, and didnt know even her name.
i felt like crying when i thought of tht. the convo was on my mind all day.
so, well. i really love my brothers. i really really do. and all of you should love your siblings with all your heart and soul too. if your parents aint there for ya, your siblings are. bloody hell, they're always with ya... even though they physically arent, ... they're always with ya.
just imagine, if both your parents are getting into a real horrible fight. who can you hold on to in tht house, since mommy and daddy look so scary screaming at each other? right. your siblings.
so bloody fuck. love your siblings. all of you. and this is not a request, but a bloody command, god dammit. yes! im pumped up right now! dont talk to me, im very angry right now! T.T
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
we've been down and out all day.
i am bored. so, i shall blog.
currently at chalet still. getting cosy on the bed, it's cold and my feet are freezing. ok, squeezed my feet under blankie alr hehe. hm..... well today was a fun day so far. heh.
slacked at the chalet in the morn til like 11 plus, went to get food with priscilla. wanted to buy lunch so we slacked til like noon for the cheaper mac's, i bought tix for 23:59, sadly pris left her ezlink at the chalet so i had to pay extra for the second tick T.T
just nice, by the time i bought the tix and when we walked back, it was alr noon. the mac's ppl changed the menu thing and pris got so fascinated ! so bought our food and had to wait sometime before my mcwings were ready.
made our way back to chalet, complaining tht they should have booked a B chalet or E chalet, cos why P of all alphabets , so damn bloody far.
slacked at chalet some more aft eating, chit chatted, i kinda like sweet n sour sauce better than curry, it's sad tht most ppl only resorted to trying sweet n sour and bbq sauces only aft curry was outta stock.
at 1, made my way to cinema to wait for my shady, i saw some dude who looked damn familiar, so i stared at him uh. his reaction to my stare was damn funny, haha. like a little scared. was twittering abt it and then shady arrived :3
went in, chit chatted while waiting for it to start. and as usual, the trailers before the movie started were all my type and i wanna watch ghost protocol, the hunger games and the amazing spider man.
during 23:59 , a lot of crap, i was damn scared T.T a lot of terkejut moments, where irshad kept laughing, bloody hell -_- ! at one point i seriously fucking jumped sia ! irshad must have been shocked too cos he was like "holy shit!"
quite funny also ah, hah. i bet tonight imma be sleeping in my parents room sia. i tried to be brave but i'm still pengecut T.T
aft tht, went to carpark rooftop to slack as always. irshad can really be a boy sometimes. he's so damn cute esp when he kneeled in fronta me and was like begging aaah! comel sia. yes, he's da boy whom ive crushed on for two years and finally got him as my boyfriend :3
he was so sweet to send me to the chalet , all the way to the bloody P where he chatted with farhan and syafiq before gg back to meet his cousin. then farhan talked to me abt some prank tht he's gonna be playing on tarmizi, and imma have to be the videographer as always, heh.
was kinda difficult to find a spot to place camera, and in the end i was like, ill just hold it as always like i do so all the time and then he was like o ye takye! and then it was done.
so nw, we are all slacking away and im hungry again T.T why am i always hungry, bah. but our bbq's gonna start soon, so i really cant wait for tht :3 and i like the fact tht all of us feel so homey and open and comfy with one another. i love my classmates a lot you know?
boohoo, i got scolded by pearl and irshad for not bringing my medicine here. o well. i will survive!
supposed to be editting ytd's shit but im too damn distracted.
might blog again soon. phone batt is dying.
currently at chalet still. getting cosy on the bed, it's cold and my feet are freezing. ok, squeezed my feet under blankie alr hehe. hm..... well today was a fun day so far. heh.
slacked at the chalet in the morn til like 11 plus, went to get food with priscilla. wanted to buy lunch so we slacked til like noon for the cheaper mac's, i bought tix for 23:59, sadly pris left her ezlink at the chalet so i had to pay extra for the second tick T.T
just nice, by the time i bought the tix and when we walked back, it was alr noon. the mac's ppl changed the menu thing and pris got so fascinated ! so bought our food and had to wait sometime before my mcwings were ready.
made our way back to chalet, complaining tht they should have booked a B chalet or E chalet, cos why P of all alphabets , so damn bloody far.
slacked at chalet some more aft eating, chit chatted, i kinda like sweet n sour sauce better than curry, it's sad tht most ppl only resorted to trying sweet n sour and bbq sauces only aft curry was outta stock.
at 1, made my way to cinema to wait for my shady, i saw some dude who looked damn familiar, so i stared at him uh. his reaction to my stare was damn funny, haha. like a little scared. was twittering abt it and then shady arrived :3
went in, chit chatted while waiting for it to start. and as usual, the trailers before the movie started were all my type and i wanna watch ghost protocol, the hunger games and the amazing spider man.
during 23:59 , a lot of crap, i was damn scared T.T a lot of terkejut moments, where irshad kept laughing, bloody hell -_- ! at one point i seriously fucking jumped sia ! irshad must have been shocked too cos he was like "holy shit!"
quite funny also ah, hah. i bet tonight imma be sleeping in my parents room sia. i tried to be brave but i'm still pengecut T.T
aft tht, went to carpark rooftop to slack as always. irshad can really be a boy sometimes. he's so damn cute esp when he kneeled in fronta me and was like begging aaah! comel sia. yes, he's da boy whom ive crushed on for two years and finally got him as my boyfriend :3
he was so sweet to send me to the chalet , all the way to the bloody P where he chatted with farhan and syafiq before gg back to meet his cousin. then farhan talked to me abt some prank tht he's gonna be playing on tarmizi, and imma have to be the videographer as always, heh.
was kinda difficult to find a spot to place camera, and in the end i was like, ill just hold it as always like i do so all the time and then he was like o ye takye! and then it was done.
so nw, we are all slacking away and im hungry again T.T why am i always hungry, bah. but our bbq's gonna start soon, so i really cant wait for tht :3 and i like the fact tht all of us feel so homey and open and comfy with one another. i love my classmates a lot you know?
boohoo, i got scolded by pearl and irshad for not bringing my medicine here. o well. i will survive!
supposed to be editting ytd's shit but im too damn distracted.
might blog again soon. phone batt is dying.
last night .
currently at class chalet :D everyone is sleeping apart from me, pris, pearl, shan, and zharfan. i came first and got bored so i turned on my comp and was like dadadoo. then suddenly tarmizi like ternigau like tht. he suddenly sat up, stared right at me, and suddenly dropped back down .
well, anyways, i have not blogged abt last night and the whole of ytd. so lets go !
met up with pris and shushan at kfc in the morn, eons later asleah, farizah and sabrina came, and then many more eons later, siying arrived. so had our breakfast, sab feeding me honey biscuit, and then we all made our way to mrt station.
first, was posb card. next, was ezlink card. shushan lost these two of her cards and was like , shit wheres my card !? and then all of us were gg into panic frenzy and then suddenly she was like, "oh nvm i found it."
then the third time was her phone or smth, and then she was like, "eh wheres my phone!?" farizah was like, "you check first before making us all search again!" hahaha, bloody hell.
hm then alighted at paya lebar to transfer to circle line to go esplanade. i was smiling to myself when i watched all the girls walking. all kinds of ppl, we all so unique sia! everyone was there except pearl, who was joining us later.
the first shop we went into was topshop! sab and i kept gallivanting to the guys section. yes, i love the hoodies! so thick, so long, hoods so big! aft tht we made our way to the john little in the middle, on the way there priscilla had an announcement .
she said pearl aint coming ! i was so damn sad when i heard tht sey T.T
well we all continued walking , then at the second floor i saw a dress tht was like perfect! but it wasnt perfect abt one thing: its colour. i wanna wear matching with my shady , red and black, hehe.
weeeelll. then at the rastafari (i rmb its name bcos siying was like singing it into my face) asleah showed me a little flowy dress tht was like red/maroon/idk , i tried it on and it looks real nice... but the length was too long.
well the nice woman showed me ways to style the little dress, and i must say, she has excellent creativity. and then i did a little thingy with the fabric, and then it was perfect ...! only a little safety pin was needed la.
i told the woman tht id think abt it, and then we all went to mac's to buy some drinks/milkshakes to drink on while walking around some more. went to john little , where we bumped into more nice dresses.
then siying tried her stuff, then aft tht i went off to some accessory shop with asleah cos the rest were suddenly missing. when we reunited, pris siying and i went off to the shoe store next door to look at shoes.
suddenly i had this intuition to look outside. so i did. i saw a girl running and then i was like, "looks like pearl sia!" saw her running towards the accessory shop. tht was when i confirmed tht it was indeed pearl .
dashed out and was like omg! and then i felt like one of those bitches on american tv shows where they scream like o omg omg ive not see you in awhile, omg youre so pretty now but of cos i didnt go tht crazy la. but i was still so damn happy tht pearl made it !
then we all slacked around there some more before making our way out. dvfgrfedretfrew
pearl suggested some shop where we could like maybe rent dresses, spent a good half an hour or more searching for it. #03-321. tht is all i rmb now =_=
gedebak gedebuk, i went to buy tht red flowy dress! and a bracelet tht might match. sabrina and priscilla helped me a lot with my prom dress prep!! i really appreciate it, love them so much.
took mrt to expo where we met up with timothy and went to changi point smth , where asleah, pearl, shushan and siying went for their orientation thingy and farizah, priscilla, sabrina and i ate mac's. ate a lot cos i was like starving.
fariz and sab left soon aft, and then pris and i slacked looking at catalogues looking for blazer and then when we saw tht the sky had gotten darker, we decided to make our way back to pasir ris to go chalet. but then we stopped by cotton on and bossini , i saw some blazer but pris said it didnt really match with da dress.
saw a hoodie tht imma be buying for irshad, and then blah3, went my house to letak my barang before gg to costa sands to find the chalet. who greeted us was none other than edmund, nicholas, daniel and zharfan.
pris and i made our way to the second floor where the bed was and then we just slacked cos we were so damn tired ! occasionally zharfan and daniel came up and chatted with us, well had a little bonding.
daniel and i used to be like damn good friends in sec 1. ytd's talk was kinda like those days where we would talk abt random shit. he asked me what happened between me and khairul cos they're like tgt during ocip.
blah, around like late evening everyone started appearing. met with hafiz and frederick, and then irshad called and it got noisy so i went to the back door and talked with hafiz and rayner awhile before gg to some secluded area to call shad back.
well before i did, jiayao came and we talked. talked abt khairul and irshad, and then when he left, hafiz came pulak, and was like asking abt the same thing so i ended up talking abt my relationships.
weeeell tht talk was good la. went back inside, was greeted with tarmizi's "eh eindah!!!!!!" hehe. slacked at the stairs watching tv with the guys and laughing at their stupidity. well more and more ppl came and went.
around 945, i fell asleep for awhile, they were so sweet to put the blankie over me, but i was awakened by their noise a few mins later. they were playing a little game of bluff and kept laughing, i couldnt help but wake up just to watch them play.
left a few mins aft 10 , walked to bus stop alone listening to some new found glory, texting shad, and then blah3 i was home. and here i am now, blogging and looking at them sleep cos im like one of the few who's like alive here.
watching 23:59 with shad later. looking forward to it but im scared tht i get scared halfway heh. and definitely looking forward to bbq as well !
when timothy took this pic, i asked, "hey did you capture everyone?" he gave one smartypants look and was like, "yes." and then i counted only 7 heads.
hahahahah amirah just farted.
well, anyways, i have not blogged abt last night and the whole of ytd. so lets go !
met up with pris and shushan at kfc in the morn, eons later asleah, farizah and sabrina came, and then many more eons later, siying arrived. so had our breakfast, sab feeding me honey biscuit, and then we all made our way to mrt station.
first, was posb card. next, was ezlink card. shushan lost these two of her cards and was like , shit wheres my card !? and then all of us were gg into panic frenzy and then suddenly she was like, "oh nvm i found it."
then the third time was her phone or smth, and then she was like, "eh wheres my phone!?" farizah was like, "you check first before making us all search again!" hahaha, bloody hell.
hm then alighted at paya lebar to transfer to circle line to go esplanade. i was smiling to myself when i watched all the girls walking. all kinds of ppl, we all so unique sia! everyone was there except pearl, who was joining us later.
the first shop we went into was topshop! sab and i kept gallivanting to the guys section. yes, i love the hoodies! so thick, so long, hoods so big! aft tht we made our way to the john little in the middle, on the way there priscilla had an announcement .
she said pearl aint coming ! i was so damn sad when i heard tht sey T.T
well we all continued walking , then at the second floor i saw a dress tht was like perfect! but it wasnt perfect abt one thing: its colour. i wanna wear matching with my shady , red and black, hehe.
weeeelll. then at the rastafari (i rmb its name bcos siying was like singing it into my face) asleah showed me a little flowy dress tht was like red/maroon/idk , i tried it on and it looks real nice... but the length was too long.
well the nice woman showed me ways to style the little dress, and i must say, she has excellent creativity. and then i did a little thingy with the fabric, and then it was perfect ...! only a little safety pin was needed la.
i told the woman tht id think abt it, and then we all went to mac's to buy some drinks/milkshakes to drink on while walking around some more. went to john little , where we bumped into more nice dresses.
then siying tried her stuff, then aft tht i went off to some accessory shop with asleah cos the rest were suddenly missing. when we reunited, pris siying and i went off to the shoe store next door to look at shoes.
suddenly i had this intuition to look outside. so i did. i saw a girl running and then i was like, "looks like pearl sia!" saw her running towards the accessory shop. tht was when i confirmed tht it was indeed pearl .
dashed out and was like omg! and then i felt like one of those bitches on american tv shows where they scream like o omg omg ive not see you in awhile, omg youre so pretty now but of cos i didnt go tht crazy la. but i was still so damn happy tht pearl made it !
then we all slacked around there some more before making our way out. dvfgrfedretfrew
pearl suggested some shop where we could like maybe rent dresses, spent a good half an hour or more searching for it. #03-321. tht is all i rmb now =_=
gedebak gedebuk, i went to buy tht red flowy dress! and a bracelet tht might match. sabrina and priscilla helped me a lot with my prom dress prep!! i really appreciate it, love them so much.
took mrt to expo where we met up with timothy and went to changi point smth , where asleah, pearl, shushan and siying went for their orientation thingy and farizah, priscilla, sabrina and i ate mac's. ate a lot cos i was like starving.
fariz and sab left soon aft, and then pris and i slacked looking at catalogues looking for blazer and then when we saw tht the sky had gotten darker, we decided to make our way back to pasir ris to go chalet. but then we stopped by cotton on and bossini , i saw some blazer but pris said it didnt really match with da dress.
saw a hoodie tht imma be buying for irshad, and then blah3, went my house to letak my barang before gg to costa sands to find the chalet. who greeted us was none other than edmund, nicholas, daniel and zharfan.
pris and i made our way to the second floor where the bed was and then we just slacked cos we were so damn tired ! occasionally zharfan and daniel came up and chatted with us, well had a little bonding.
daniel and i used to be like damn good friends in sec 1. ytd's talk was kinda like those days where we would talk abt random shit. he asked me what happened between me and khairul cos they're like tgt during ocip.
blah, around like late evening everyone started appearing. met with hafiz and frederick, and then irshad called and it got noisy so i went to the back door and talked with hafiz and rayner awhile before gg to some secluded area to call shad back.
well before i did, jiayao came and we talked. talked abt khairul and irshad, and then when he left, hafiz came pulak, and was like asking abt the same thing so i ended up talking abt my relationships.
weeeell tht talk was good la. went back inside, was greeted with tarmizi's "eh eindah!!!!!!" hehe. slacked at the stairs watching tv with the guys and laughing at their stupidity. well more and more ppl came and went.
around 945, i fell asleep for awhile, they were so sweet to put the blankie over me, but i was awakened by their noise a few mins later. they were playing a little game of bluff and kept laughing, i couldnt help but wake up just to watch them play.
left a few mins aft 10 , walked to bus stop alone listening to some new found glory, texting shad, and then blah3 i was home. and here i am now, blogging and looking at them sleep cos im like one of the few who's like alive here.
watching 23:59 with shad later. looking forward to it but im scared tht i get scared halfway heh. and definitely looking forward to bbq as well !
when timothy took this pic, i asked, "hey did you capture everyone?" he gave one smartypants look and was like, "yes." and then i counted only 7 heads.
hahahahah amirah just farted.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
o yes! last night's dream.
yes, my dream last night.
i was sheva aloma at one point. in the red riding hood set up tht i dressed her in on resident evil 5, haha. i was either her, or just controlling her like i do on the ps3 la, get it?
she was on a horse! all was going smoothly, the horse was damn beautiful, i loved the swishy tail, and again, the horse was the colour of midnight. then suddenly at one point idk what happened ah, suddenly the horse galloped off the cliff.
i rmb the horse and sheva fell into the water , and then suddenly i was in a different part of the dream. i was strolling along a line of shops, mostly were little dessert shoppes, one was selling weird kinds of ice cream, and another was selling crepes.
opposite this line of shoppes was a big chalet , then i saw ryan teow and a buncha other 4/1 dudes, i was like, "hey wheres irshad?" ryan was like, "no la, he aint supposed to be here." i was like, "oh ok." and tht was the end of tht part.
and the last part tht i rmb, was walking the lane next to my pri sch. i was listening to music via earpiece, and for some reason i was breathing very very hard. very quick, long breaths and i was like gasping for air, like desperate... and khairul was walking next to me.
yes, the word is 'rimas'.
i was sheva aloma at one point. in the red riding hood set up tht i dressed her in on resident evil 5, haha. i was either her, or just controlling her like i do on the ps3 la, get it?
she was on a horse! all was going smoothly, the horse was damn beautiful, i loved the swishy tail, and again, the horse was the colour of midnight. then suddenly at one point idk what happened ah, suddenly the horse galloped off the cliff.
i rmb the horse and sheva fell into the water , and then suddenly i was in a different part of the dream. i was strolling along a line of shops, mostly were little dessert shoppes, one was selling weird kinds of ice cream, and another was selling crepes.
opposite this line of shoppes was a big chalet , then i saw ryan teow and a buncha other 4/1 dudes, i was like, "hey wheres irshad?" ryan was like, "no la, he aint supposed to be here." i was like, "oh ok." and tht was the end of tht part.
and the last part tht i rmb, was walking the lane next to my pri sch. i was listening to music via earpiece, and for some reason i was breathing very very hard. very quick, long breaths and i was like gasping for air, like desperate... and khairul was walking next to me.
yes, the word is 'rimas'.
TODAY !
waddap my lans.
had my very first try at AM shift today! walked with irshad to ehub , what a great start to the beautiful morning. oh, and both my parents saw me off to work today, happy sia. walked to where shady was, listening to determine set on repeat.
gave him his M&Ms before leaving for work, clocked in just in time at 9:30 woah! ive never been even a minute late, and i dont wanna break tht chain. i wanna be good.
chatted with wani before gg for briefing, she was like, "why you always get ball pool !? i get bloody entrance again sia -.- !" hehehe. well i like doing ball pool area uh. soo went for the briefing, then went to set up adventure highland with haryani before gg to perimeter check my own station.
ok la, nothing out of the extraordinary today, apart from my back. went for my break at like 2, ate mac's at the staircase tht links dte and ehub. i like spending my breaks alone, but i kinda dislike the fact tht i spend the whole of my shift before my break, thinking of WHAT to eat.
when i got back from break, met a colleague by the name of danish. this dude is nice, he's like 21 and he was an NA student, so he gave me advice abt decision between Os and higher nitec.
he told me tht he went to Os, and then ite aft tht, then poly. he reminded me abt the one year tht we have to really buck up for Os. aaaahhhh i am so scared abt my Os. nono, i am scared abt my n level results first.
so well anyway, then danish went for his break, and then the pm shift came, whose name is syahirah. she looked so damn cute but she's actually 20 sey! and then she thought i'm 19 :3
she told me abt other career opportunities tht she had, like at prison. she was offered a job for smth-tht-i-forgot. then her mommy advised her abt going to the prison job and quitting EK cos it brings higher salary and is a more stable job.
it's amazing tht ive worked here for nearly one month alr but theres still so many amazing ppl whom ive not met. did you know tht danish has worked at ek for like 2 years alr ?
at 4 , said bye to syahirah and went to slack at where haryani was, talked to her awhile before gg to clock out. went to grab my bag where i bumped into danish who was returning from his break, k at tht point of time he was officially deemed very nice.
squeezed into my shoes and went up a level to meet my shady, who was applying for job. hahaha, i like the way he writes.
made our way to prp , halfway thru it started pouring and we seeked shelter for awhile before continuing our journey to the other side of prp. so many puddles! at one point , the water was like damn bloody deep for a very far distance.
i was having fun stomping my feet thru , but halfway irshad surrendered and decided to walk on the cycling path ahhahahaha. he damn cute.
sat at breakwater , talked abt random stuff tht we see , from the clouds to lightning to rain. i love talking with irshad... i really do. he's like the only person tht always talks abt damn random things, and i love listening to him.
made our way to elias , walked thru the shortcut thru the woods. he told me story abt his twin lifting up his bike over the thingy, haha! funny shit.
went to buy domino's , while waiting for my order to be made, sat outside and continued talking. talked abt driver's license, backpacking, well basically abt the future. and then we made our way to bus stop, he crossed the road and i continued walking to home.
aft eating aye , idk what i did but my effing back suddenly hurt like shit sia. i was sprawled on the floor screaming to my lil bro to massage my back. he looked at me like as if i was pranking him or smth, bloody hell. but then he saw i was serious, then he quickly came over hahaha.
i really like the fact tht irshad aint too possessive , or worried, or whatever tht makes me feel rimas. im so damn free with him sia, compared to my previous relationship where i was deprived of so much shit, tht i stupidly went along with.
o well. it's all over man. it's all over. it's all ok now. sshh...
had my very first try at AM shift today! walked with irshad to ehub , what a great start to the beautiful morning. oh, and both my parents saw me off to work today, happy sia. walked to where shady was, listening to determine set on repeat.
gave him his M&Ms before leaving for work, clocked in just in time at 9:30 woah! ive never been even a minute late, and i dont wanna break tht chain. i wanna be good.
chatted with wani before gg for briefing, she was like, "why you always get ball pool !? i get bloody entrance again sia -.- !" hehehe. well i like doing ball pool area uh. soo went for the briefing, then went to set up adventure highland with haryani before gg to perimeter check my own station.
ok la, nothing out of the extraordinary today, apart from my back. went for my break at like 2, ate mac's at the staircase tht links dte and ehub. i like spending my breaks alone, but i kinda dislike the fact tht i spend the whole of my shift before my break, thinking of WHAT to eat.
when i got back from break, met a colleague by the name of danish. this dude is nice, he's like 21 and he was an NA student, so he gave me advice abt decision between Os and higher nitec.
he told me tht he went to Os, and then ite aft tht, then poly. he reminded me abt the one year tht we have to really buck up for Os. aaaahhhh i am so scared abt my Os. nono, i am scared abt my n level results first.
so well anyway, then danish went for his break, and then the pm shift came, whose name is syahirah. she looked so damn cute but she's actually 20 sey! and then she thought i'm 19 :3
she told me abt other career opportunities tht she had, like at prison. she was offered a job for smth-tht-i-forgot. then her mommy advised her abt going to the prison job and quitting EK cos it brings higher salary and is a more stable job.
it's amazing tht ive worked here for nearly one month alr but theres still so many amazing ppl whom ive not met. did you know tht danish has worked at ek for like 2 years alr ?
at 4 , said bye to syahirah and went to slack at where haryani was, talked to her awhile before gg to clock out. went to grab my bag where i bumped into danish who was returning from his break, k at tht point of time he was officially deemed very nice.
squeezed into my shoes and went up a level to meet my shady, who was applying for job. hahaha, i like the way he writes.
made our way to prp , halfway thru it started pouring and we seeked shelter for awhile before continuing our journey to the other side of prp. so many puddles! at one point , the water was like damn bloody deep for a very far distance.
i was having fun stomping my feet thru , but halfway irshad surrendered and decided to walk on the cycling path ahhahahaha. he damn cute.
sat at breakwater , talked abt random stuff tht we see , from the clouds to lightning to rain. i love talking with irshad... i really do. he's like the only person tht always talks abt damn random things, and i love listening to him.
made our way to elias , walked thru the shortcut thru the woods. he told me story abt his twin lifting up his bike over the thingy, haha! funny shit.
went to buy domino's , while waiting for my order to be made, sat outside and continued talking. talked abt driver's license, backpacking, well basically abt the future. and then we made our way to bus stop, he crossed the road and i continued walking to home.
aft eating aye , idk what i did but my effing back suddenly hurt like shit sia. i was sprawled on the floor screaming to my lil bro to massage my back. he looked at me like as if i was pranking him or smth, bloody hell. but then he saw i was serious, then he quickly came over hahaha.
i really like the fact tht irshad aint too possessive , or worried, or whatever tht makes me feel rimas. im so damn free with him sia, compared to my previous relationship where i was deprived of so much shit, tht i stupidly went along with.
o well. it's all over man. it's all over. it's all ok now. sshh...
Friday, November 11, 2011
there was a cockroach in my room last night. straightway dashed out and took the bloody penyapu lidi. good thing i had it by my bedroom door (superstition) but by the time i got to it, the little bastard had gotten to a hiding place.
nazriq killed it in the end, tht was funny shit! i was laughing like fuck. and then, continued chatting with irshad on the comp.
we both fell asleep in fronta our comps!!! all i rmb was closing my eyes for a sec, and then i woke up to texts from irshad saying he fell asleep in fronta the comp. i did too, my comp battery died, i fell asleep on all the wires =_=
well, it was stupid of us, but still funny la. hehe. and then, i realized tht i totally forgot abt sch. so yeah, ended up missing last day of sch. and then i kept thinking it's saturday today.
the afternoon was good. curled up on the couch in shad's hoodie, munching on chicken curry paos while watching dvd with nazriq. we watched Banlieue 13:Ultimatum. damn nice, i loved it! although i didnt watch the first movie, my bro told me this was the sequel.
played a few rounds of resident evil 5 aft tht, and then around 7 plus went tamp with nazriq and mommy. bought mordern warfare 3! and then i bought a notebook :3
went century sq, otw there i saw a man running with a bouquet in his hands. i pointed him out to my bro and said, ayo he's late for his date. my bro laughed like shit sia, bloody hell !
i ate prawns :3 and then we went ntuc to buy random stuff, i bought MnMs for shady, and then my bro said a woman bumped into him and didnt say sorry. i called out "oy!" to her. then i looked back at MnMs.
my bro said the woman turned and stared at him. he was so scared to look there aft tht, and when we were paying,the woman was standing at the exit with her arms folded and staring at our area. pointed her out to my bro, he got so bloody the scared !
in my mind i was like, she might be waiting for someone la. but i just wanted to make naz feel damn scared :3
blah3, then im home. wrote in my new notebook, wrote abt 11/11/11. and now chatting with my shady and getting addicted to the soundtrack of banlieue 13.
i think i'm in a week-long dream.
yesh i still cant believe tht irshad noorhalim is really mine :3
nazriq killed it in the end, tht was funny shit! i was laughing like fuck. and then, continued chatting with irshad on the comp.
we both fell asleep in fronta our comps!!! all i rmb was closing my eyes for a sec, and then i woke up to texts from irshad saying he fell asleep in fronta the comp. i did too, my comp battery died, i fell asleep on all the wires =_=
well, it was stupid of us, but still funny la. hehe. and then, i realized tht i totally forgot abt sch. so yeah, ended up missing last day of sch. and then i kept thinking it's saturday today.
the afternoon was good. curled up on the couch in shad's hoodie, munching on chicken curry paos while watching dvd with nazriq. we watched Banlieue 13:Ultimatum. damn nice, i loved it! although i didnt watch the first movie, my bro told me this was the sequel.
played a few rounds of resident evil 5 aft tht, and then around 7 plus went tamp with nazriq and mommy. bought mordern warfare 3! and then i bought a notebook :3
went century sq, otw there i saw a man running with a bouquet in his hands. i pointed him out to my bro and said, ayo he's late for his date. my bro laughed like shit sia, bloody hell !
i ate prawns :3 and then we went ntuc to buy random stuff, i bought MnMs for shady, and then my bro said a woman bumped into him and didnt say sorry. i called out "oy!" to her. then i looked back at MnMs.
my bro said the woman turned and stared at him. he was so scared to look there aft tht, and when we were paying,the woman was standing at the exit with her arms folded and staring at our area. pointed her out to my bro, he got so bloody the scared !
in my mind i was like, she might be waiting for someone la. but i just wanted to make naz feel damn scared :3
blah3, then im home. wrote in my new notebook, wrote abt 11/11/11. and now chatting with my shady and getting addicted to the soundtrack of banlieue 13.
i think i'm in a week-long dream.
yesh i still cant believe tht irshad noorhalim is really mine :3
Thursday, November 10, 2011
today was another great day ^_^ see, it always is. every new day is always awesome. at the end of the day we say the day was our happiest so far, but it's only cos we've not met with tmrw and all tht comes aft tmrw.
well anyway, let us talk abt the today tht we had !
couldnt really come to sch actually, but i was awake the whole night, so i was like k might as well go to sch. but in the midst of the first period, which was chemy, i started getting headache, and then i got nauseous and all tht crap.
during maths, i answered a riddle correctly and mr bernard lau bought me milo as a reward, heh. ate paos during break, and then i went to persuade sab to go grad night. i was successful! but there was a catch. BUT, i know how to solve it in a way tht everyone is happy (;
had english aft break, where we did group work, very funny shit in mine, which is shushan, rayner and frederick. blah3, aft tht had another 2 periods of maths.aft sch slacked with da girls at the bus stop before gg off to where shad was, and then walked home~
changed , then made our way to central sharing earpiece and cookies. i really liked tht, so best friendly, but yet he is my boyfriend. yes, it really feels great if your boyfriend and best friend are the very same person.
and the song tht was playing was "With Me", Sum 41. my favourite song. the song of my 15th bday. ^_^ the song has smth to do with irshad as well btw !
at central we split, i went to buy the food while he went to buy da bubble tea, met back and made our way to sea shell park! so much memories. went to sit under the pavillion tht we always climbed onto in the past, and had our lunch :3
i feel very happy being fed by him sey, hehe! and i liked kissing him with With Me playing on the earpiece. yes, With Me played a lot today. set on repeat!
talked abt many more randoms as always, then made our way down, running down the stairs, tht was fun and funny! the bus came on time, made our way to elias to go clinic cos i was feverish. when it was nearly time for work, it started pouring.
jaywalked in the rain, i really liked tht a lot! i saw the way shad ran, damn bloody the cute sia haha! i was like laughing to myself while running across the road for the shelter tht the bus stop was. tht was fun sia!
yes. i really missed all those times. i dont like it when one cares a little tad too much for me. i needa have my fun too. getting the fever is the fun part too. gotta understand tht i'm still young and tht i wanna get into trouble a lot first ok? yes, im talking to you.
well, at work, chatted with azreenie and farhan upon arrival. they were concerned when i told them abt how i wasnt feeling well, so sweet sey. hehe. then i chatted with the attachment guy awhile before azreenie came along my station again.
she saw me clutch my little red notebook and was like, "hey what book is tht?" i was like, it's my diary. i answered philosophy shit when she asked me what i wrote inside. she told me to read out some things, so i read out some la.
i was damn touched when she said she really liked what i wrote. i read some more when she asked me to, and she said she really really liked my philosophy shit! tht really made my day. she's the very honest type, she says so if she does or doesnt like smth.
chatted some more, i listened to her whine abt her friends and all tht, and then in the midst she said tht she's really unneeded. gave her some advice, and then at the end of it all she stared at me with this look in her eyes and said tht imma interesting person ^_^
and then she had to go, cos her shift ended at 5. chatted with the attachment guy again til he went off at 530, and then i was alone. occasionally i went to adventure highland to chat with the new guy whose name i did not catch and megaplay to irritate wani.
she lied -.-.-.- ! she and yani and azreenie aint sisters aft all ! i fell for it, hook line and sinker! damn they got me good, bloody hell! haha.
at the end of the day i socialized with a whole lotta new ppl. bena's really nice actually, although when i first saw her she looked really frowny. (but then again tht was most of their first impressions of ME)
i felt so stupid when i clocked out at 21:58 when we werent supposed to. everyone was stnding there waiting for the clock to turn 2200 but i stupidly did what i did. then the guy who's always in the cap said, "wah fierce. you know you aint supposed to clock out til 22:00 you know. tht's why we're all standing here." i was like fff---!
haha, ok, and then i got my pay for this week ^_^
i really am never gonna quit my job. i will pause during o level period, but i dont wanna quit. ever. i like this job. i love my job. in ya face, asshole.
well anyway, let us talk abt the today tht we had !
couldnt really come to sch actually, but i was awake the whole night, so i was like k might as well go to sch. but in the midst of the first period, which was chemy, i started getting headache, and then i got nauseous and all tht crap.
during maths, i answered a riddle correctly and mr bernard lau bought me milo as a reward, heh. ate paos during break, and then i went to persuade sab to go grad night. i was successful! but there was a catch. BUT, i know how to solve it in a way tht everyone is happy (;
had english aft break, where we did group work, very funny shit in mine, which is shushan, rayner and frederick. blah3, aft tht had another 2 periods of maths.aft sch slacked with da girls at the bus stop before gg off to where shad was, and then walked home~
changed , then made our way to central sharing earpiece and cookies. i really liked tht, so best friendly, but yet he is my boyfriend. yes, it really feels great if your boyfriend and best friend are the very same person.
and the song tht was playing was "With Me", Sum 41. my favourite song. the song of my 15th bday. ^_^ the song has smth to do with irshad as well btw !
at central we split, i went to buy the food while he went to buy da bubble tea, met back and made our way to sea shell park! so much memories. went to sit under the pavillion tht we always climbed onto in the past, and had our lunch :3
i feel very happy being fed by him sey, hehe! and i liked kissing him with With Me playing on the earpiece. yes, With Me played a lot today. set on repeat!
talked abt many more randoms as always, then made our way down, running down the stairs, tht was fun and funny! the bus came on time, made our way to elias to go clinic cos i was feverish. when it was nearly time for work, it started pouring.
jaywalked in the rain, i really liked tht a lot! i saw the way shad ran, damn bloody the cute sia haha! i was like laughing to myself while running across the road for the shelter tht the bus stop was. tht was fun sia!
yes. i really missed all those times. i dont like it when one cares a little tad too much for me. i needa have my fun too. getting the fever is the fun part too. gotta understand tht i'm still young and tht i wanna get into trouble a lot first ok? yes, im talking to you.
well, at work, chatted with azreenie and farhan upon arrival. they were concerned when i told them abt how i wasnt feeling well, so sweet sey. hehe. then i chatted with the attachment guy awhile before azreenie came along my station again.
she saw me clutch my little red notebook and was like, "hey what book is tht?" i was like, it's my diary. i answered philosophy shit when she asked me what i wrote inside. she told me to read out some things, so i read out some la.
i was damn touched when she said she really liked what i wrote. i read some more when she asked me to, and she said she really really liked my philosophy shit! tht really made my day. she's the very honest type, she says so if she does or doesnt like smth.
chatted some more, i listened to her whine abt her friends and all tht, and then in the midst she said tht she's really unneeded. gave her some advice, and then at the end of it all she stared at me with this look in her eyes and said tht imma interesting person ^_^
and then she had to go, cos her shift ended at 5. chatted with the attachment guy again til he went off at 530, and then i was alone. occasionally i went to adventure highland to chat with the new guy whose name i did not catch and megaplay to irritate wani.
she lied -.-.-.- ! she and yani and azreenie aint sisters aft all ! i fell for it, hook line and sinker! damn they got me good, bloody hell! haha.
at the end of the day i socialized with a whole lotta new ppl. bena's really nice actually, although when i first saw her she looked really frowny. (but then again tht was most of their first impressions of ME)
i felt so stupid when i clocked out at 21:58 when we werent supposed to. everyone was stnding there waiting for the clock to turn 2200 but i stupidly did what i did. then the guy who's always in the cap said, "wah fierce. you know you aint supposed to clock out til 22:00 you know. tht's why we're all standing here." i was like fff---!
haha, ok, and then i got my pay for this week ^_^
i really am never gonna quit my job. i will pause during o level period, but i dont wanna quit. ever. i like this job. i love my job. in ya face, asshole.
this is the story of a girl.
she had everything. she had parents who loved her, she had a brother who adored her, she had best friends who were always there for her, she had a boyfriend who always held her. she didnt mind the fact tht she was poor and tht her family didnt earn much money.
because, she was rich in terms of love.
and then, one day, it happened.
her father passed on. her brother got married and moved someplace far-off. her best friends slowly left her out one by one. her boyfriend left her for another girl. though she still had her mother, she was devastated tht she lost so many other people. she lost all her riches tht she had.
her mother was never there for her. even when she was, she always beat up her little daughter. her loss changed her, she couldnt accept the fact tht suddenly, all of it was gone. all of the love was gone. her mother's presence was nothing to her.
she ran away from home. she lived for days at a carpark, not tht far from home, and spent the days on the rooftop, looking up at the sky. as the days gone by, the sky got lower and lower. it suddenly seemed so shallow, like as if she could almost touch it.
but she never did touch tht sky.
and she chose to kill herself.
weeks gone by, there was a funeral but not many people attended to it. her friends were there but none cried for her. her brother didnt come cos his wife had never liked her husband's younger sister. her ex boyfriend didnt bother abt it.
her mother's hands trembled.
tht night, her mother dreamt. God told her mother tht He had planned a future for her daughter. God told her mother,
"I had planned for your daughter, to have a future so much more brighter than her present. i had planned for her to go to university and to meet more amazing ppl tht can be more worthy to be considered her friends. i had planned for her to meet an amazing young man tht was gg to love her more than anything else in the world. i had planned for her brother's wife to be in need of her so she would come to the rescue and they would be able to have a better bond. i had planned for her to be able to take care of you in the future.
but it's a pity tht she had to kill herself."
and with tht, her mother woke up in tears.
so my point is, you have a choice. just because things aint gg ur way now, doesnt mean they never will in the future. you just gotta wait. patience is a virtue, and "good things come to those who wait" ...
because, she was rich in terms of love.
and then, one day, it happened.
her father passed on. her brother got married and moved someplace far-off. her best friends slowly left her out one by one. her boyfriend left her for another girl. though she still had her mother, she was devastated tht she lost so many other people. she lost all her riches tht she had.
her mother was never there for her. even when she was, she always beat up her little daughter. her loss changed her, she couldnt accept the fact tht suddenly, all of it was gone. all of the love was gone. her mother's presence was nothing to her.
she ran away from home. she lived for days at a carpark, not tht far from home, and spent the days on the rooftop, looking up at the sky. as the days gone by, the sky got lower and lower. it suddenly seemed so shallow, like as if she could almost touch it.
but she never did touch tht sky.
and she chose to kill herself.
weeks gone by, there was a funeral but not many people attended to it. her friends were there but none cried for her. her brother didnt come cos his wife had never liked her husband's younger sister. her ex boyfriend didnt bother abt it.
her mother's hands trembled.
tht night, her mother dreamt. God told her mother tht He had planned a future for her daughter. God told her mother,
"I had planned for your daughter, to have a future so much more brighter than her present. i had planned for her to go to university and to meet more amazing ppl tht can be more worthy to be considered her friends. i had planned for her to meet an amazing young man tht was gg to love her more than anything else in the world. i had planned for her brother's wife to be in need of her so she would come to the rescue and they would be able to have a better bond. i had planned for her to be able to take care of you in the future.
but it's a pity tht she had to kill herself."
and with tht, her mother woke up in tears.
so my point is, you have a choice. just because things aint gg ur way now, doesnt mean they never will in the future. you just gotta wait. patience is a virtue, and "good things come to those who wait" ...
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
IMMA NINJA
this is damn unfair.
amirah dota MY daughter sia. i intro-ed her and khairul , meaning they were like father-daughter only aft we were mother-daughter. then now she removed me from being her mother like why! i bet he's been talking abt me to her uh!
i know it makes me look silly to be making a big fuss over this. but still , damn sad uh. cos i loved her a lot sey. more than khairul liked her sia, i bet. it's like the father won custody over the child just cos he's got money or smth? wtf ?
nvm la. new boyfriend, new family i guess.
so well anyways! it is a wonderful morning so far! i ate a lot earlier, and i just finished my shower ^_^ but i aint in sch cos woke up with a horrible sore throat and i was like feverish. so i woke my mom up and was like, mummy i dont wanna go sch. then she was like, ok later i bring ya to clinic so i was like ok!
irshad finished reading my oct 2010! he spent the morning getting damn engrossed in it, he has no idea how happy it makes me, tht he's willing to read abt my past :3
o hear ye hear ye, my adik is home. i'm getting kinda hungry again, maybe i should go over and ask him if he wanna be my lunch buddy.
.....................he said no.
bloody hell, his friends more important than his sister.
i really hope tht the thing tht happened with my older bro wont happen with the younger one. i really really hope. i wouldnt wanna be losing brothers to outsiders, like wth? this is just one reason why i dont want the time to go on. cos i dont want ppl to grow old.
my parents will pass on when they're old. my brothers will be damn busy with their careers/families when they are grown ups. i know i would be busy with mine too, but i know i'd still make time for them. havent i always, despite being the one who took national exams this year.?
yeah k nvm. natalee has been rather depressed these few days. she's been saying nobody cares abt her. she's so damn wrong, i care for her sey. i really do. although i dont understand what shes gg thru cos i havent been in her shoes, i can emphatize.
i saw khairul tweet abt not coming for grad night aft all. i feel relieved, cos i wouldnt wanna see his face. ive not seen it for like two weeks alr, and yes i can live with tht. in fact, a reason why i wanna go ite is maybe just cos i dont wanna see him for tht one year more.
yes, it is a stupid reason. and the reason of wanting to be with irshad at ite is also a moronic excuse, i guess. soooo ok, i'll go to sec 5.
wow ive been jumping from one topic to another. lets jump some more.
ants have been crawling all over my desk these days. no, not days, but its been happening for quite some time alr. ive tried to follow where they go but they appear to be lost all the time. so i gave up and just live with them, no matter how annoying.
o but ive got smth fascinating to share! i left shad's brownie container on the coffee table in my room, and when i did, there were many crumbs in it. but this morning there's only one left, cool kan? meaning the ants carried them crumbs. to where, idk.
im actually damn irritated and disgusted knowing tht somewhere in my room, there is a whole army of ants doing their thing, marching around and stuff. i really wonder where ants come from. the other time, a long time ago, i was walking across the hallway eating cheese cake.
i dropped a bit, and went off to my room awhile. when i got back, there was a freaking ant party feasting on tht little drop of cheesecake like woah!
and i have a little secret, i like it when ants are gathered tgt in one little group, as if discussing smth. i like it when i blow at them and they all scatter aimlessly immediately. if i could see the looks on their faces while they were crawling away, tht'd be great!
yes... this is all me.
amirah dota MY daughter sia. i intro-ed her and khairul , meaning they were like father-daughter only aft we were mother-daughter. then now she removed me from being her mother like why! i bet he's been talking abt me to her uh!
i know it makes me look silly to be making a big fuss over this. but still , damn sad uh. cos i loved her a lot sey. more than khairul liked her sia, i bet. it's like the father won custody over the child just cos he's got money or smth? wtf ?
nvm la. new boyfriend, new family i guess.
so well anyways! it is a wonderful morning so far! i ate a lot earlier, and i just finished my shower ^_^ but i aint in sch cos woke up with a horrible sore throat and i was like feverish. so i woke my mom up and was like, mummy i dont wanna go sch. then she was like, ok later i bring ya to clinic so i was like ok!
irshad finished reading my oct 2010! he spent the morning getting damn engrossed in it, he has no idea how happy it makes me, tht he's willing to read abt my past :3
o hear ye hear ye, my adik is home. i'm getting kinda hungry again, maybe i should go over and ask him if he wanna be my lunch buddy.
.....................he said no.
bloody hell, his friends more important than his sister.
i really hope tht the thing tht happened with my older bro wont happen with the younger one. i really really hope. i wouldnt wanna be losing brothers to outsiders, like wth? this is just one reason why i dont want the time to go on. cos i dont want ppl to grow old.
my parents will pass on when they're old. my brothers will be damn busy with their careers/families when they are grown ups. i know i would be busy with mine too, but i know i'd still make time for them. havent i always, despite being the one who took national exams this year.?
yeah k nvm. natalee has been rather depressed these few days. she's been saying nobody cares abt her. she's so damn wrong, i care for her sey. i really do. although i dont understand what shes gg thru cos i havent been in her shoes, i can emphatize.
i saw khairul tweet abt not coming for grad night aft all. i feel relieved, cos i wouldnt wanna see his face. ive not seen it for like two weeks alr, and yes i can live with tht. in fact, a reason why i wanna go ite is maybe just cos i dont wanna see him for tht one year more.
yes, it is a stupid reason. and the reason of wanting to be with irshad at ite is also a moronic excuse, i guess. soooo ok, i'll go to sec 5.
wow ive been jumping from one topic to another. lets jump some more.
ants have been crawling all over my desk these days. no, not days, but its been happening for quite some time alr. ive tried to follow where they go but they appear to be lost all the time. so i gave up and just live with them, no matter how annoying.
o but ive got smth fascinating to share! i left shad's brownie container on the coffee table in my room, and when i did, there were many crumbs in it. but this morning there's only one left, cool kan? meaning the ants carried them crumbs. to where, idk.
im actually damn irritated and disgusted knowing tht somewhere in my room, there is a whole army of ants doing their thing, marching around and stuff. i really wonder where ants come from. the other time, a long time ago, i was walking across the hallway eating cheese cake.
i dropped a bit, and went off to my room awhile. when i got back, there was a freaking ant party feasting on tht little drop of cheesecake like woah!
and i have a little secret, i like it when ants are gathered tgt in one little group, as if discussing smth. i like it when i blow at them and they all scatter aimlessly immediately. if i could see the looks on their faces while they were crawling away, tht'd be great!
yes... this is all me.
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
walked a lot today! with irshad. hehe. i feel so damn free, i really love walking. how could tht guy forbade me from gg walks, and how could i have obeyed him!?
k well anyway. he fetched me from home and walked with me to sch, otw, saw sab, then aft we split i joined her walk the remaining way to sch. surprisingly we werent late, in fact the canteen was still bustling with human life, so blah3 went to second floor to our respective classrooms.
first we had english, and then we had maths, where i fell asleep halfway. was seriously damn sleepy sia, and then during break, ate. ate a lot! ate paos! ^_^
had english again aft tht, was made to stand cos i slept in class. o and i got my kafka back! quite saddened a little tht it was somehow in ruins though. o well. last two periods were chemistry, where we all slacked as always.
no ah, we didnt really slack. we did do our practical shit, just tht we modified the rules a little, those little bastards haha. and we were all playing with the distilled water! irshad's hoodie got wet ))))))))))':
then then then, walked outta sch when we were dismissed, walk with a buncha 4/2 ppl, damn i will really really miss all the kids next year... slacked at bus stop with the girls awhile, made plans to go grad night shopping !
sooo it's settled ! monday, 14th nov, we all go to far east plaza. hooray!
parted aft everything was confirmed, then i met up with irshad and we walked back to my place. he looked at me run around in my house, preparing to go out again cos was gonna see my schedule to see if i was working today or not. well either way i was still gonna slack with him uh.
walked back to dte, bought cup walker on the way. even though it's almost been a week, it's still hard to believe tht this man is mine. talked abt many many random stuff as always, then went to see my schedule. hooray, had no work today!
so went rooftop to slack. hahaha, had an awesome time as always. he makes me laugh like shit, so yeah had an awesome time, i loved the looking into each other's eyes. it really makes me so damn happy tht irshad is mine!
sooo yeah, then bought prawns for botha us while he went to the toilet. when he came back, i asked him he went to the toilet for what. i like his tone when he answered, "to pee lah!" hahaha, funny!
walked home eating them prawns, damn hot! scalded my tongue and eyes were watering cos so hot! so yeah, walked back all the way home, bumped into relatives otw, cos they sent my cousin off to NS ):
oct 2010 diary is with irshad right now. he read aloud the first kiss entry to me on webcam earlier, so he still hasnt read the sad parts i guess. oh wait, nov 2010 is when the shit gets totally saddening. hehe, cant wait to lend him tht one.
wellllll he's like waiting for this post to be up right now. so here we go!
and this da very first pic we took tgt as a couple xD the last time we took pics was when he came over for raya, but for some reason faris hasnt uploaded the shit, so yeah.
and another thing tht made my day is the fact tht all 8 of us has agreed to go shopping tgt on monday! ALL EIGHT OF US. it really makes me happy like fuck i tell ya. i hope nobody backs out. i hope i dont back out. alright!
i really miss them all so much ^_^
k well anyway. he fetched me from home and walked with me to sch, otw, saw sab, then aft we split i joined her walk the remaining way to sch. surprisingly we werent late, in fact the canteen was still bustling with human life, so blah3 went to second floor to our respective classrooms.
first we had english, and then we had maths, where i fell asleep halfway. was seriously damn sleepy sia, and then during break, ate. ate a lot! ate paos! ^_^
had english again aft tht, was made to stand cos i slept in class. o and i got my kafka back! quite saddened a little tht it was somehow in ruins though. o well. last two periods were chemistry, where we all slacked as always.
no ah, we didnt really slack. we did do our practical shit, just tht we modified the rules a little, those little bastards haha. and we were all playing with the distilled water! irshad's hoodie got wet ))))))))))':
then then then, walked outta sch when we were dismissed, walk with a buncha 4/2 ppl, damn i will really really miss all the kids next year... slacked at bus stop with the girls awhile, made plans to go grad night shopping !
sooo it's settled ! monday, 14th nov, we all go to far east plaza. hooray!
parted aft everything was confirmed, then i met up with irshad and we walked back to my place. he looked at me run around in my house, preparing to go out again cos was gonna see my schedule to see if i was working today or not. well either way i was still gonna slack with him uh.
walked back to dte, bought cup walker on the way. even though it's almost been a week, it's still hard to believe tht this man is mine. talked abt many many random stuff as always, then went to see my schedule. hooray, had no work today!
so went rooftop to slack. hahaha, had an awesome time as always. he makes me laugh like shit, so yeah had an awesome time, i loved the looking into each other's eyes. it really makes me so damn happy tht irshad is mine!
sooo yeah, then bought prawns for botha us while he went to the toilet. when he came back, i asked him he went to the toilet for what. i like his tone when he answered, "to pee lah!" hahaha, funny!
walked home eating them prawns, damn hot! scalded my tongue and eyes were watering cos so hot! so yeah, walked back all the way home, bumped into relatives otw, cos they sent my cousin off to NS ):
oct 2010 diary is with irshad right now. he read aloud the first kiss entry to me on webcam earlier, so he still hasnt read the sad parts i guess. oh wait, nov 2010 is when the shit gets totally saddening. hehe, cant wait to lend him tht one.
wellllll he's like waiting for this post to be up right now. so here we go!
and this da very first pic we took tgt as a couple xD the last time we took pics was when he came over for raya, but for some reason faris hasnt uploaded the shit, so yeah.
and another thing tht made my day is the fact tht all 8 of us has agreed to go shopping tgt on monday! ALL EIGHT OF US. it really makes me happy like fuck i tell ya. i hope nobody backs out. i hope i dont back out. alright!
i really miss them all so much ^_^
Monday, November 07, 2011
let's have a little talk ^_^
he's damn different. suddenly, he and i have so much shit in common. the things i loved from back then, he loves now. i bought him a tee more than a year ago, and he's always wearing tht tee the most of all his tees.
he remembers tht i used to love earrings a lot. tht i love prawns, peanut butter ice cream, the number 109, butterflies, just all the random little things.
i know you guys will say tht he's just making use of me and all tht shit. but somehow, somehow no he's not. i can tell tht he's not. i've looked into his eyes. somehow... his feelings are real, i can really tell...
tht time, when i was slacking at gym with asleah and siying. we were talking abt khairul . i said to them, "i love him more than i loved irshad." truth be told, aft i said tht, i felt a chill run thru my spine, like as if my body was scared of telling a lie.
but then siying said, "tht's good. tht's really very good." like she really really cared for me. teros, irshad totally vanished.
i always showed an interest in his and his ex's relationship. like, asleah always randomly updated me abt their status, and then one day she told me tht they were having problems. i asked a lot, disguised my concern as kpo-ness. and a few days later she said they were ok again, i was damn relieved.
cos, i cared. i cared for his happiness. for some reason.
tht reason, was most probz cos i still loved him. i still had feelings for him. then when khairul forbade me from having any contact with him, i couldnt understand why. i just obeyed but in my head, i was always wondering why .
truth be told, when he and the rest came over for raya, i kept standing near him. the rest were sitting on the couches while he sat at the dining table with his twin, and i kept standing in between although under the circumstances i would have stood in the middle of where the majority of the guests were at.
okay, i also dk why im talking abt all this nw. uhm, imma go off now.
but these are just little confessions.
he remembers tht i used to love earrings a lot. tht i love prawns, peanut butter ice cream, the number 109, butterflies, just all the random little things.
i know you guys will say tht he's just making use of me and all tht shit. but somehow, somehow no he's not. i can tell tht he's not. i've looked into his eyes. somehow... his feelings are real, i can really tell...
tht time, when i was slacking at gym with asleah and siying. we were talking abt khairul . i said to them, "i love him more than i loved irshad." truth be told, aft i said tht, i felt a chill run thru my spine, like as if my body was scared of telling a lie.
but then siying said, "tht's good. tht's really very good." like she really really cared for me. teros, irshad totally vanished.
i always showed an interest in his and his ex's relationship. like, asleah always randomly updated me abt their status, and then one day she told me tht they were having problems. i asked a lot, disguised my concern as kpo-ness. and a few days later she said they were ok again, i was damn relieved.
cos, i cared. i cared for his happiness. for some reason.
tht reason, was most probz cos i still loved him. i still had feelings for him. then when khairul forbade me from having any contact with him, i couldnt understand why. i just obeyed but in my head, i was always wondering why .
truth be told, when he and the rest came over for raya, i kept standing near him. the rest were sitting on the couches while he sat at the dining table with his twin, and i kept standing in between although under the circumstances i would have stood in the middle of where the majority of the guests were at.
okay, i also dk why im talking abt all this nw. uhm, imma go off now.
but these are just little confessions.
Sunday, November 06, 2011
i still dont believe it. it still feels like a dream. so much like a dream.
when i saw you at the mrt station , i thought it was coincidence. but then i remembered, we WERE supposed to meet. we planned to go slack tgt, it wasnt just a bumped-into-each-other. suddenly it felt like those times, it felt like as if i was your best friend and that we had always slacked tgt.
yeah, you're right... it felt so natural! walking to prp , like last time. the same route we walked whenever we slack as siblings. and when we passed by the place tht we had our first kiss, i was wondering if you were gonna say anything abt it. i was kinda disappointed when you didnt.
we updated each other on our lives. we talked abt our exes and the problems they gave us. we talked abt all the stuff abt life. and you remembered so many things! i was kinda touched when you told me you rmb little things, all the random memories.
you said you always got flashbacks, always thought of me randomly, like so sweet uh. yes, i believe every word of it.
hm. i stop here uh, sleepy uh =.= wanna sleep first!
when i saw you at the mrt station , i thought it was coincidence. but then i remembered, we WERE supposed to meet. we planned to go slack tgt, it wasnt just a bumped-into-each-other. suddenly it felt like those times, it felt like as if i was your best friend and that we had always slacked tgt.
yeah, you're right... it felt so natural! walking to prp , like last time. the same route we walked whenever we slack as siblings. and when we passed by the place tht we had our first kiss, i was wondering if you were gonna say anything abt it. i was kinda disappointed when you didnt.
we updated each other on our lives. we talked abt our exes and the problems they gave us. we talked abt all the stuff abt life. and you remembered so many things! i was kinda touched when you told me you rmb little things, all the random memories.
you said you always got flashbacks, always thought of me randomly, like so sweet uh. yes, i believe every word of it.
hm. i stop here uh, sleepy uh =.= wanna sleep first!
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