one second i was doing some stuffs abt bonding singapore. and the next, i was being shaken very hard and asked if i had eaten. my father told me tht it's alr 11 in the night, hours aft buka. i said i hadnt eaten anything when he asked .

i checked my phone first, cos i knew khai would have texted me. he spammed me like shit. texted him before slowly gg thru my inbox, then went to find food. i seriously couldnt rmb anything sia. just Ss stuff.

khai is pissed at me cos i made him wait for nothing... sigh. i dont wanna say sorry anymore . cos to him it doesnt mean anything. all i can say is thanks for worrying, cos i appreciate ur care and concern.

i've not punched the wall for an extremely long time. the last time i did , khai saw and made me promise never to do it again . i'm glad he's such a caring boyfriend and i'm grateful tht he was concerned.

but now i found a new way to anti stress, and tht is to throw things around , and make a mess out of things. idk which is worse.

but thanks for caring khai !

this is for khairul . i'm sorry .

i'll update u lans on my life later. feeling lazy right now. fell asleep and missed tuition , and for tht i was automatically deemed hopeless . i hate it when she calls me hopeless. in fact i dislike the word altogether .

i dislike many things . i dislike many simple things , but the reason is always complicated.

omg! smth black just Flew past my head. it hit my head and flew off . like a bat sia! but the scary thing is tht, my windows closed sia ! and i'm in my room!

k now i'm outside, haha. ok, i dont feel lazy alr. let's update on my life ok?

khairul didnt come sch ytd. i was looking forwarde to him giving command. spent like the whole day in sch texting him . and then, ms poh piss me off again! but idc tht , then what? k i dont rmb alr.

and then today , started off the morning with khairul irfan my wonderful boyfriend . slacked with him awhile before sch , then blah3... aft sch went home with him pulak. i watched him walk until he completely disappeared.

i hope i only meant tht sentence in one way.

so very the scared. tryna have the positive mindset, but still cant help feeling scared tht he'd leave me someday ...

and i'm damn jealous tht he's called someone else 'baby' before, tht he's held someone else before, tht he's hugged and kissed someone else before, and tht he's loved someone else before me. yes, im very jealous of tht , though it's the past . sigh, idk . ive not felt like this before.

many dreams in a night? or was it one long one?

last night i was in a sort of candy shop with the girls from the clique. i rmb trying to avoid eye contact with pearl and priscilla while i was walking around with asleah and siying. so realistic... i rmb the background song being a Daughtry song, though idk which one.

i walked out of the place with siying, i think she bought something but i dont rmb... we were walking out of the shop when i saw a kind of underground chamber which was on sale, and i rmb wanting to buy it but then i was like, "nah, save money!"

it was a sort of mrt station, when we were walking towards an escalator i kinda saw khairul's 2nd brother. then siying laughed and pointed to him and said, "hahaha, his brother!"

when we were gg down the escalator, siying suddenly took my hand and held it in hers. i rmb scolding her, i said, "eh can dont hold my hand anot? i'm khai's." then she giggled and released my hand. then we continued walking.

and this the scary part, we were passing by a shop tht was selling clocks. at this point idk where siying was alr, but i knew she wasnt there with me ah. the shop was damn noisy, there were cuckoo clocks, the kind where a bird comes out from the door and goes all "cuckoo! cuckoo!" every one hour.

there was a man standing outside the door and he was telling me tht the clocks gave accurate timing, so i looked at the one tht he was holding. wait, i think it was purple. it was either purple or yellow, i dont rmb.

the clock's hands were moving really quickly. i asked the man, "are u sure this clock is giving accurate timing?" he was like, "yes, yes! all my clocks give accurate timing! take a look urself!" so i looked at the other clocks in the shop ah.

all the hands of the clocks were moving damn bloody fast, and their speed was increasing the more i stared at them. at this point the shop was getting really noisy with the tickings, and there were flashy lights all over.

shit. my goosebumps all standing up alr sia...

when i woke up i didnt immediately rmb it, but when i did i teros shiver like mad sia. texted khai straightway, luckily he was awake. in fact he spammed me. i was damn scared sia.

k then like idk what time later, i went back to sleep again. this time dreamt of sch. i rmb it was geog n levels, cos i rmb having a convo with mr singh, he was like "where u gg!?" then i was like, "i gg my geog n levels!" then he was like, "oh combined humans ah!?" and i nodded.

i was actually on time for the paper, but i was in pe, thts why the teacher who was there told me to go change. the toilet was damn crowded with cca ppl sey. oh yeah, i think it was like during cca time, cos i saw many UGs at the parade sq.

i rmb having a convo with farizah and sabrina , who were at the toilet. yeah they wished me luck, or smth like tht ah.

when walking back to my classroom, i saw my khairul irfan. walked over to him and we talked, but i cant rmb abt what. in the midst, a classmate/friend of his came along.

i cant rmb who. maybe i dont even know who lah. k, the guy was like, "eindah, nak lepak?", smth like tht. i didnt make eye contact with him then i just Looked at the floor and shook my head. then he asked again, "oy, nak lepak ketak?", smth like tht.

tht was when i looked at him and was like, shaking my head very very hard with a frown. i looked at khai, then he was like, took me via waist and pulled me closer to him. then he smiled and said, "no, she's alr mine."

the guy was like, smiling i think. k they both gave evil smiles at tht point in time. yeahh tht's it ah.

oh, and another part. my classmates were telling me tht syafiq (my class one) was upset cos i got credit for smth tht he did. a lot ppl were texting me telling me to let him have credit. k tht one idk ah. haha. damn random.

hm k then what else? i dont rmb alr. not yet lah. thanks for reading ! love u baby. and u lans also :D

buka with khairul !

ytd evening was awesome (:

when i got home i actually wanted to sleep awhile, but i ended up playing a few rounds of resident evil with my adik. like abt 6 plus, went to shower, just Nice when i was done with it, khairul texted me.

blah3, met him at the cc to pass him his tee before gg off to domino to buy the pizza i owe him. met him again at the carpark aft he bought the drink and aft i got the pizza. yes, his bag was super heavy, poor thing sia he.

hm k then what? while waiting for bang , we chatted awhile. then finally could drink/eat! oh and before we ate we kissed first, cos we have been waiting for tht, hehehe. yes, i'm glad we could finally kiss, cos we missed the chance on ndp.

khai drank alot sia, kesian sey... i'm so grateful tht he still found time for me despite being tired aft cca.

k then i made him upset for awhile. and i was being a spoilt brat by asking him for more and more rounds of kiss. i'm so sorry for being so childish khai /:

i notice he kept running his hands up and down my mid riff , haha. then he was like, "....eindah, you're hot." i shy sey, hehehehe.

there was a cat which we were playing with before we kissed, and then while we were kissing tht feline was like watching us. hahaha, so cute sey. and it was damn manja. (i didnt see whether it's a female or male)

aaahhhh.... ytd was awesome. i love u khairul irfan !

P.E with my 4/2 ♥

hi ! my day was great so far. had a little bonding with my beloved class 4/2 during p.e. , although alot of ppl were absent today. watched and recorded the guys playing soccer, using khai's cammie. i could capture so much details sia! hehe.

cant wait to edit the footage. right now WMM is preparing the footage for better playback quality. aft tht, i can start editting alr. oh and later on, imma be breaking fast with my khairul irfan. i cant wait, although im worried tht he's not feeling well...

takpe, he strong lah he.
here's some pictures from today!








as you can see via my tone, i'm in a bubbly mood today, haha. im just Glad tht i managed to spend time with 4/2 peeps today. although last night was unpleasant, i still look forward to the following day.

hi ! so , how was my evening ytd and my day today? ytd evening was spent with my baby at cc, before my maths tuition. i like to kiss his neck! but then ytd he tak geli, oh well. and i seriously didnt notice tht mole on monday sey.

went off at like 6, cos i couldnt bear to leave. khai asked me if i was tempted to kiss him, which i so was! and he kept sticking his tongue out when i was looking at his mouth, and then he gave me a peck on my lips. damn bloody tempting sia!

but managed to control, cos he could do it. so of course i also can. (macam faham)

and today marks the end of prelims! had art today, sadly i didnt see khai pass by. oh well . went home aft the recess bell rang. pretty tired... had a short nap. it's satisfying (: k dah, bye!

baby i'm sorry.
but her name really scares me.
i know i'm unrelated
but there's still the guilt conscience.

sigh .

one thing i dislike abt sleeping back is tht , the nice dream tht i had earlier will turn into something unpleasant. dont really wanna talk abt it.

k i've no sch today! cos i've no papers. but some ppl still got lit and poa, so all the best to them. my last prelim is tmrw, which is art. i must admit, i lazy practise. so whatever marks i receive, i deserve it lah huh. unless i get good marks, then tht means i dont deserve it lah. k idk what i crapping.

ytd oh ytd ! ytd is over, and we're in a new day now. but let me just Update u on ytd's happenings lah.

went to sch with khai again, yay! made my morning. yes , i always cant help smiling when i see him. i didnt wanna study my maths , and he kept scolding me for tht haha. for some reason i didnt smell his Morning Smell ytd ):

alighted at es paris as always, and walked to the main gate from there. otw talked alot, as always. i laughed alot i think, but cant rmb why. slacked at friday table, and i called him baby :D k i felt so proud of myself, but still very shy. hehe.

been seeing orange post its around alot lately. hm k then what? paper 1 maths was fine i think. glad tht i had asked khairul to teach me factorizing, cos i was able to do tht question. oh then before my paper 2 started, had time to walk around with my khai awhile.

a few mins still make me happy.

hm k then what? i aint so confident in my paper 2, but i gave my best. let's just Pray and hope for me ok?

aft dismissal for us, went home straight, and then slacked awhile. was damn bloody tired. around 530 went out again, went to bazaar with asleah, before gg to play with cats awhile. then khai texted, slacked at es paris awhile alone, then walked to ish bus stop.

the trip home wasnt so pleasant. when he walked away i wanted to punch the wall but i alr promised him tht i wouldnt. so i didnt. my hands were almost uncontrollable, but i managed to hold them back.

and when i got home, i suddenly thought of it and got angry at myself. i ran out of the house and all the way to the cc bus stop where he was at. told him i was sorry . cos i was.

i didnt want to lose him. my mom was yelling, asking where i was gg and trucks were horning but i was just Focused on getting to him before his bus does.

chey, now tht i mentioned it, i actually went thru all tht just To get to him uh. wow, awesome.

and yeah, k dah.
i've really got to brush up on my attitude.

friday, weekend, monday .

i'm quite sad at the fact tht my khairul still thinks i've got smth to do with douchebag )): i dont even rmb the last time i talked abt him to asleah , and tht was smth we did alot last time.

k takpe, let's update on the past few days !

where did i stop uh? oh yes, friday. went to sch with my khai , then slacked at friday table before walking one round to mt room, which is becoming like our normal fridays routine. blah3, i like the part where he randomly snapped his fingers then the bell rang right aft ! laughed like shit sia! his face was priceless!

i dont rmb any other funny stuff from friday. as in during sch hours. cos i was upset . hm k then what? oh yeah, went to central with asleah and siying aft physics remedial, to buy food to buka during night study.

like around 615 i think , went to sch again. sat at a table near npcc room, then told asleah and siying to leave me alone awhile when the npcc ppl were dismissed. cos i wanted to see if khai would approach me anot, he was mad at me at the time.

yeahh, i really told the girls to leave me alone cos of tht .

at one point i happened to turn and look into the npcc room , and khai was inside, looking at me. tht was dramatic, we stared at each other awhile i think , before i looked away. then blah3, i watched him walk out, and then was when i got pissed.

i seem to like throwing tables around when i'm angry uh. yeah tht was what i did , i kicked the canteen tables around until the drink stall auntie was like staring at me like O:

k blah3, ran out to bus stop , saw khai. wanted to go there but saw him talking to someone, then i was like, "sun give me courage sun." with the sun in my face . oh then the amirah was like, hi eindah! and not amirah dota, but another amirah who poked me during our sch's ndp at hall.

finally went over to khairul , blah3. glad tht tht was cleared. not fully cleared though , the haze still lingers. i think.

went to night study , realized tht asleah and i forgot to take fork and spoon for our ccr. she laughed like shit, then i asked ms ng if she's got any in her office. good thing she has! so yeah, ate with asleah and siying .

siying tahan-ed til we were able to eat, so sweet. what's more it wasnt as if asleah and i were fasting sia! hahaha!

did alot of chemistry and a little bit geog, me. asleah kept singing the lazy song , then at one point i started doing what the monkeys did in between his lines (if u get what i mean) then asleah laugh like shit! she started doing it too , which made me laugh like shit.

siying was like between us , and her face was concentrated on her book. but in the midst of my laughters i saw her face like want to tahan ketawa like tht, which made me laugh all the more! i was laughing like shit sia. aw damn.

k move on to the weekend.

on saturday, buka at compass point cos it was naqib's birthday. he's 20 now. it got me upset tht he said he had "no money" to buy me cookies. cookies only sia, it's not smth very expensive... and it's not like i ask him to buy me some all the time right??

i was glad tht she didnt make it.

went to some shop tht sells games, and omg. i want one so bad ! Alice: Madness Returns. kinda like a violent alice in wonderland.



im saving up, since ive got nth much tht i wanna buy. omg, other than a camcorder. k i'll save up for corderie aft i buy alice!

on sunday pulak, went to geylang. i took the escalator down at paya lebar, and it got me lost. tried to find my way but i got more lost, and since i was alr late i just Called khairul to ask how do i get out.

buka at arnold's, with my whole fam! all 5 of us ! tht was like my first time buka at arnold's in first batch eh. hehe.

hm k then what? ok, monday. went to sch with khai again. slacked at friday table, then asked him to write amirah dota's card. i like the heart part sia, hahaha. aaahhhh, i felt so childish. went to pass to her, and we were like looking for her padahal she was right in fronta us all along.

walked one round before sitting back at friday table. then blah3, separated. had geog , which surprisingly went quite well. and then there was physics, and chemistry. for all 3 papers, i kept sleeping halfway and then waking up suddenly to continue O.O

halfway thru my physics my khai walked past :D i heard some voices then i somehow wanted to see who it was, so i did. and it was khai !

aft my last paper, waited at canteen. was day dreaming when a piece of paper was shoved into my face. amirah dota gave me a thank you note! the sweet darling. i couldnt help smiling so damn widely aft reading it, i must have looked like an idiot. a happy idiot.

khai came along next, and then made our way to bus stop. then he had to go back do some stuff, but luckily he left his bag behind, cos it gave me a little bit more warmth than usual, it was raining.

blah3, he walked me home but then i walked him back home. k ytd was fun. main hujan, and i was gg crazy jumping in the puddles. i felt like a kid again. i always do when im with khai. most of the time lah. he's fun.

at his lepak place near his house, sempat hug. i was damn cold, i didnt want to let go. so each time he released his arms from around me i kept pulling him back. tht embarrassed me, but i'm glad i did tht . hehe.

i like being close to khai. yes he makes me feel secure and warm. ahahaha, i know his weak spot alr. i kept doing at it and he kept on laughing laughing, i love his controlled laugh, so cute! yes haha, i was so damn bloody amused i tell you.

ytd was awesome and i love him alot. sigh. i love him u know?

look! a mashup of skrillex and adele.


khairul irfan, i have posted a long blog post.
now you try!

for my wonderful boyfriend .

named Khairul Irfan :D

this was made within a few days , thts why its so simple .

i cant stop thinking of them .

the guilt keep biting into me , and its bites are just Getting bigger and bigger each day.
her name scares me.

1st Night Study !

night study was good. it kinda helps .
yeah tht's it. bye.







kidding ! hahahahah . damn bloody fun eh. we all buka tgt , but i ate only kbw. should be cukup uh, since yeah u know. then aft tht we continued studying . i studied alot for the whole 2 and a half hours , studied the sciences .

hm then what ? oh yeah at one point faiz tarmizi sneezed damn bloody loud , i saw the ppl at the table behind him all jump sia! hahaha! damn bloody cute sia, asleah and i saw then we both laugh3 like shit.

alot of other crap happened at the table i was sitting at too .
k, malas ah. hahahah . bye!

National Day/2nd Month !

yes, what glorious occasions it is today!

woke up to a sweet text from khai wishing me 2nd month. and then i had a nap at like 11 til like 3? i think. had a dream abt missing today , sedih sia. and then i lost all my jeans pulak tu !

k dah, dismiss tht. blah3, went off to meet khai at 4, took bus to interchange , topped up, and then took train . thought of gg to woodlands waterfront cos he's been wanting to bring me there for a long time alr.

when we were like on the red line , halfway we were like looking at the map thingy. then it's like, woodlands wasnt lighted up . it seemed as though we were thinking of the same thing , cos we turned to each other slowly with wide eyes. haha tht was funny.

but sad ! khai said it means tht the train wouldnt be gg to woodlands. terpaksa change the plans. decided to go to esplanade instead . alighted at bishan, took circle line to esplanade. so many ppl!

blah3, finally found a place to stand at to wait for fireworks. got jakonist over the aerial stuff, hahaha. waited idk how long , but at least we talked and laughed. then eons later a few fireworks were blasted.

i kept getting electric shock when khai put his arms around my waist, aw... and we held hands while walking , i felt like a little girl again , cos walk thru crowds holding the hand of someone taller than me. idk , it feels like my childhood.

fireworks damn awesome giler babz eh! when was the last time i watched fireworks? i dont rmb. they were loud ! and so many ! and alot colors! excited uh. oh and while waiting ah, saw khai bouncing , damn cute sia.

k then aft fireworks , went off to marina bay mrt, but halfway thru decided to retreat and retrace our steps back to esplanade mrt instead. it was a a long and hot walk , but it's fine bcos it was with my khai .

walk here walk there squeeze here squeeze there . then he suddenly said , "i realize tht it's difficult to find someone who is like you... bukan difficult, takde pon!" like, aw.... hehe.

i think my phobia of crowds is kinda ok right now. yupp . i guess ah. hehe. i love khai eh. did u know !?

guess what , we buka only like at 830 plus. kesian sey , i feel so guilty. he knows why. im so sorry khai ): hm then went to take mrt to paya lebar. changed trains , then slept on his shoulder awhile. cos we were damn tired , sitting down felt like hot chocolate during rainy days .

by the time we reached pasir ris it was like almost 10 . took bus, slept awhile again. penat uh. when at his stop , he went to alight uh. as i looked at his reflection when he was tapping his ezlink card... i damn sad sia.

at THT milli second i started missing him alr. eyes were tearing again ! but i didnt cry lah. hehe.

wah. today was damn tiring. but i enjoyed myself. khai is beautiful ! i love him so much .

k dah, i want sleep uh... goodnight my lans!

my eyes have been tearing alot today . and most of the time it's for no reason.

national day 2011 !

k, today is the 8th! aka the day we all celebrate national day , which is tmrw.

hurried to sch , today i didnt walk my usual route, took a long cut. but still managed to catch the 630 bus. the bus was so red, so lively. cos red represents life ! hm k then what? khai kept rushing me. then i almost got irritated cos orang tengan sakit perut , susah jugak sey nak jalan cepat .

k then i saw him , made me damn bloody happy sia. then he passed me camcorder, taught me to press this and press this to record, to stop, then he had to go. tak sempat say all the best/i love you sia...

k then i went canteen alone to slack on my own, playing with corderie before making my way up to third floor cos thts where 4/2 was supposed to be. i took my time gg up , cos still had a little stomachache. but i was still first in 4/2 , wow.




blah3, when khai was like baru start giving commands, tht horrible stomachache came back. but i endured! hahaha i strong girl . i just Stayed rooted, then before i knew it , it was like gone.

aaaaah khai so hot eh. ♥

he give commands so loud , i also got occasionally terpranjat. my 4/2 peeps kept making fun of me , disturbing me haha. cos he's my khai.

blah3, i sang national anthem and said pledge with pride u know. oh, ncc girls damn cute. hahaha. their idk what drill it is called. damn cute. and also got my amirah dota ! npcc also, my khai damn hot.

i was chanting his name in my head all along . then for one sec , for ONE sec when i didnt, he dropped his rifle. i was shocked lah sia . but then i just Continue look at him, but this time never chant his name.

he also didnt manage to do the around his back part properly uh, but i still find it beautiful :D

k then we went hall ! camwhored while waiting for stuff to start .






idk why my left antenna today like so long.

sat at the side cos i thought got possibility to sit next to khai keper. but then tak, boohoo. oh well, k then what? yes, camwhored, camwhored, camwhored. the whole class camwhoring away sia! i only record, i dont snap.




blah3, i very hyper uh. then asleah kept making me laugh! the part where mrs woo was giving speech, then she said good morning principal, hahaha ! eh i find it funny ok?

when i saw part of dhiya's video being shown uh.... i damn jealous sia! IF you were to compare us tgt , im like nowhere near him uh. duh, he use some kinda software tht needa be paid to be used.

tried to spot my khai but he was so faraway!

the ncc boys perform also nice eh. haha, like so cool. i kept gg all jakonist. then the hentak part like so fierce, i like sia.

aper lagi eh? i like the last part, i was like hyper alr, dancing abt and jumping like monyet kena belacan. then at one point saw khai. he so sweet sia, his smile! ♥ so i smile back lah haha.

blah3, went to parade sq area to camwhore with the girls, and whoever else who walkes by.












k, then when khai texted tht he's at gate alr, i told the girls tht i had to go. asleah started gg all, "oh ok lor, like tht lor, like tht." something like tht ah. i got a little bit pissed ah, a LITTLE BIT. cos i camwhore with them alr what, right? lamer pulak tu.

then another thing tht upset me was tht, didnt manage to take photo with khai in his light blue uniform sia. sigh. then he took with other ppl, i sad sia, i jealous eh. he said cos i didnt go to him. but it's cos i saw him ushering ppl then i thought he budy mah... hm, oh well.

went home with khai as always , slacked awhile and camwhored !





...and then we parted ways . the parting was sad. and then on my walk home, i suddenly remembered how i wasnt able to take pic with his light blue uni ... and then my eyes were tearing again.

yes, i know you may find it a silly reason to be crying abt, but udk how much it really meant to me. oh well. what's over stays over.

and khai so hot in this!



♥
whenever he sends me a pic via msn, i just Cant help pressing the Save button.

one gossip session !

i suddenly feel like gossipping abt shahirah khair eh.

idk, i suddenly remembered aisyah A H telling me, tht there was one time she put smth abt me as her status ah. so earlier on i got bored, then i went to see friendship between her and irshad noorhalim, cos confirm he would have commented on it lah, right ?

k, then i scroll all the way , then i found it. then she said i attention seeker eh! D: i see her like more attention seeker leh. she's the one who's always putting emo statuses, all the act cute ones, THT'S what i call attention seeker eh.

then muzzy commented on it and agreed with her. sedih per, my own best friend sia. then he said what, idk what his bandmates sided me. wth? it's true sia, it's his drummer added me eh , then muzzy said i stalked him. sedih per.

then she said she hates me. i never before said i hate her tau. then she said i hate me before even knowing me. marah ah. and sedih. then she was the one who fb messaged me like not even one month ago , saying she dk why i hate her and all tht. i hate her ah ? sejak biler eh.

k dah. i lazy alr, hehe.

went w/s with nazriq earlier, terserempak with khai. idk ah, i like so damn happy to see them talking to each other :D i love them both.

i dont want to lose him either.

ok, this morning's dream! had a nap at like 7 plus .

there was a fest of some sort in the sch hall uh. then i was with asleah and siying , or was it shushan and siying ? k i think it's asleah and siying. we were all like eating (even though i rmb tht it was fasting month) , i rmb eating chocolate eggs .

hm then at one point the host told us to get up and dance uh. i rmb dancing with jingyu . then, i was like walking abt holding up a thumbs up , whens some guy slapped my hand tht was doing the thumbs up .

i straightway not happy , and siying told me to chill. i said to her , "people over here happy right?! if he not happy dont stay here lah!" then i started kicking random stuff around. i rmb taking a chair and flinging it upside down.

i saw khai , with dan and ham and dhiya i think . he was staring at me , then i saw tht he texted me, saying smth like "i saw.." then idk alr. yeah tht's it.



another part, there was a sort of flashmob meeting. i rmb all the flashmob ppl around , then we were like rehearsing or smth like tht. the MT room was the sch hall, as in the sch hall was in the place of the MT room .

i rmb slacking one corner with khai while watching someone (whom i cant rmb alr) rehearse her part. fast forwarde, i dont rmb much alr, but then i rmb us flashmob ppl gathered and seated at the lane from classroom block towards hall.

i think it was mr syafie, he was punishing us, but i dont rmb why. he told us to stay there, which we all did. then i move to khai then sempat cuddle abit :D oh and i rmb his specs frames were black! so hot, hehe.

and another part when i went to guillemard, but there was no sign of any of the 6 cats . i asked my grandma, then she said tht all of them have been sent away or smth like tht. sedih sia!!!

and yeah, tht's it.

fell asleep on my notebooks cos was waiting for khai to wake up so tht he could go offline. i spam him sampai nak mampos , cos if not his bbry battery low sey! but i feel so silly cos in the end i fell asleep myself. and my comp shut itself down cos its battery died.

phew. had 3 papers in a day today . yes, today was the start of my prelims !

went to sch with khai , he sent me to class (kinda) before the start of my second paper , and we took the same bus tgt home. hehe , happy ah!

aft sch , stayed back in class for awhile to put up ndp deco. somehow we were all so enthu haha. occasionally watched khai shout , cos he parade commander. everyone was coming to me and saying , "hey ur khai has a super loud voice uh!" then i so proud of him :D

k bottom line is i love him ok ?

oh, and i had fun staying back with my beloved 4/2. namely asleah, siying, amirah, eli, shihying, wanxuan, farhan, faiz tarmizi. hehehe . i love them all so much :D

btw , something tht happened today triggered 2 things in me. firstly, i might wanna start writing letters to ppl again . secondly , i love khai alot more now. so much more than ever before.

im gg to take care of him until it's time for me to go . which wont be anytime soon, cos i alr told myself tht i wont leave him anytime soon . not yet. sigh .

good news , i've gotten one thing off my chest. i've finally told him what i've kept to myself for months . all this while. sigh. k , i'm happy . like finally told him lah.

if just Her name was enough to make me shiver and go down on my knees , how would i react if i were to look at her face to face ?