this is for khairul . i'm sorry .

i'll update u lans on my life later. feeling lazy right now. fell asleep and missed tuition , and for tht i was automatically deemed hopeless . i hate it when she calls me hopeless. in fact i dislike the word altogether .

i dislike many things . i dislike many simple things , but the reason is always complicated.

omg! smth black just Flew past my head. it hit my head and flew off . like a bat sia! but the scary thing is tht, my windows closed sia ! and i'm in my room!

k now i'm outside, haha. ok, i dont feel lazy alr. let's update on my life ok?

khairul didnt come sch ytd. i was looking forwarde to him giving command. spent like the whole day in sch texting him . and then, ms poh piss me off again! but idc tht , then what? k i dont rmb alr.

and then today , started off the morning with khairul irfan my wonderful boyfriend . slacked with him awhile before sch , then blah3... aft sch went home with him pulak. i watched him walk until he completely disappeared.

i hope i only meant tht sentence in one way.

so very the scared. tryna have the positive mindset, but still cant help feeling scared tht he'd leave me someday ...

and i'm damn jealous tht he's called someone else 'baby' before, tht he's held someone else before, tht he's hugged and kissed someone else before, and tht he's loved someone else before me. yes, im very jealous of tht , though it's the past . sigh, idk . ive not felt like this before.