Don't think I don't have a clue that you still read my blog. Isn't it ironic that you shoot your mouth off about me not moving on when you're the one stalking my blog and shit? [I stalk your Twitter only when I know you've read my blog] I've had so much to rant about you since forever. Glad I have the chance now.
You, my dear faggot, have got to stop thinking so highly of yourself. Yeah, I'm friends with some of your friends, but does that mean I want you back? And who was the one who introduced us in the first place? Was there a rule stating that friends can't keep their friendship when the mutual friend isn't friends with one of them anymore?
You probably hate me because of my long blog post for you the other time, but I never understood why ya know. To put it in words, you've probably told your side of the story to your tertiary friends, that's why even the ones whom I liked so much and whom I thought cared for me, cut off all ties with me as well. [I can imagine you with your cuntface while you tell them your standard "She cheated on me twice!" *rolls eyes*]
They never heard my part but they already made their judgement that I am the villain. How fair is that? So let me tell my side of the story then, why don't you. Thus you can't hold it against me to write and let people see that post.
I don't understand why you even made me to be the bad guy. I cheated on you twice? Maybe the first incident is considered, not that heavy a case but at least I admit it was a huge mistake on my part, and I only allowed it to happen once before I talked to you about it, while the second can't even be classified as 'cheating'.
Secondly, I'd explained to you both incidents, I told you my feelings and why I'd done that. Thirdly, these two shit happened so long ago, long before our break-up even. In between you told me you were okay with me already, that you already put that all behind you. Fourthly, these two incidents weren't even the reason why you broke up with me.
Dude. From October up to our break-up I was trying so goddamn hard for you. I already saw that you were losing interest, but I still did my freaking best while I let you sit back and relax in the relationship. The few times you had to comfort me, was the few times I crumbled from exhaustion of doing my best for you.
Who was the one who left, clearly stating it was because he lost interest in me? Who was the one who coldly shrugged his arm off when I was begging him not to go, who said so casually, "I just don't love you anymore." Why am I the villain?
All the crazy things I did after our break-up; who wouldn't break down like that after being dumped just two days after the goddamn anniversary with a reason like yours dude? Who ever saw it coming? How would you feel if you're laughing with someone one minute, and the next, he suddenly punches you right in the face? Pretty sure your emotions would take over you, you can't deny it.
And put yourself in my place. What if you're the one who had no one except for the person you love? What if you're the one who literally has no friends in school, no parents or siblings to talk to, nobody except your other half? What if you had someone who knows everything you've gone through and supposedly understands why you need her so badly? How would you feel if you've done all you could for her because you only have her, but one day she just decides that she doesn't want you anymore, after you've been together for one year?
It hurts okay?
So why am I the villain? Why do you make me the bad guy? I never deserved any of it. I did wrong to you but at least I admitted my mistakes. You're still living in your fantasy that I'm 100% the bad guy of the story, you don't even admit how you've wronged me. Just... UGH. Who's the egoistic one?
One more thing I admit. It does suck to have your ex girlfriend liking your best friend. I know it's stupid that I've gotten a crush on him of all people, but even that in itself is nothing wrong. Again, me liking him has got nothing to do with my past relationship with you. I feel bummed out too with the fact that he's your best friend, you piece of shit, but still I only want to see him as him, not 'my ex's best friend'.
Again, you're the one not moving on. You've lost interest in me, you've broken up with me, you've stopped contacting me altogether. You doing all this should lead to you treating me as just another girl, thus you shouldn't see any problem with me going out with him. You shouldn't give a shit. I'm just another girl. Tell yourself that you faggot. Because I really am nothing to you.
I honestly don't know what exactly are your problems with me liking him, but whatever it is, I assure you you are wrong. If you think I've got any hidden intentions, I'll tell you what it is. My hidden intention is that I want to know more about him, I want to listen to him and I want to take care of him better than you ever would.
That's it. If you think I wanna get to him only to get back at you, fuck off. Ain't nobody got time for that. And Idk, a part of me has this feeling that you're thinking I've liked your best friend since the days we were still together. Well the answer is no, I didn't have feelings for him like that when I was still with you, and even if so, you lost interest in me months before you broke up with me, remember that, and that's no different.
And I told myself that if I want to be with him, I shouldn't try regarding you, not even any hate. Because although I will never have the chance of being his, I don't want to cause him the disservice of having his best friend and a girl fighting over him and shit. He means a lot to me, and I don't want to cause unnecessary trouble, though maybe I already am..
God dammit what else do I have to spit out at you... Just hate it if I leave out any important points even if it's just ranting ._.
Well, dude. Just wanna give you the good news that I've been out of your goddamned life since January, so you don't have to worry about that. Your friends don't equate to you, so me being close with a friend of yours or two doesn't make me still in your life, and it doesn't give you reason to be all "when will you fuck off from my life" just because you see me hanging out with your classmate.
I see all my friends as who they are, and it doesn't matter that you were the one who introduced them. They have names, they have their lives, they have no reason to be linked to you.
Also, nothing justifies you saying "holy shit you disgust me so much", because you are the disgusting one. If you still don't know why after reading this post of mine [which I've written only to stand up for myself] go look in the mirror and reflect on what you've forced me to do for you, you filthy piece of shit.
Any arguments, please feel free to fucking mention me.
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