Just thought that it's been a while since I blogged about something simple, like a little update or whatever. Since I'm rotting in bed, we might as well.
I've been in bed for 24 hours. Yes. I don't recall the last time my feet touched the floor. Okay maybe that's exaggerating a little but really. My little brother has been my servant all morning :3
School starts in two days. Definitely not looking forward, if you know me. I no longer have my lovely Shi Hui with me for my classes, and now I'm officially alone. Dreading going for DAELN classes on my own. ...Yep, I'm retaking that module.
What's more, I'm pretty sure everyone in my classes will already know each other. Pretty sure I'm gonna be the new girl again, shunned by all of them because they're already in their own cliques. Only this time I don't have Shi Hui to suffer with. And she doesn't have me either.
Look on the bright side... Hmm. Just stared at the screen for a minute, wondering what's the bright side. I wonder what kind of videos I can make throughout my days in school though. I can't help wondering that.
I feel like I haven't been writing as much as before. I feel like I've become somewhat more shallow, that my writing is becoming nothing again. It sucks that while others are insecure about how they look, I'm insecure about what I do.
There's never an end to thinking that my best is never enough. I know my blog is nothing much, my videos aren't entertaining, but *throws hands into the air in frustration* why do I not get praised for anything I do?
If you've been reading my blog since last year, I'm very sure you know that this isn't my first time being frustrated about this.
But I think I've changed since then. I've gone through a bad break-up, one that none of us expected, I've gone through that whole I don't know which one is home episode. Can I get some spotlight on me this time?
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