The crust, the mantle, and the core

"He only likes me because he thinks I'm pretty; he doesn't know me on the inside."

It ain't as simple as that anymore. Truth is, we not only have an 'outside' and 'inside', but we have three layers. Just like the Earth, we have the crust, the mantle, and the core.

Our crust is our exterior, what others see at first glance. Our looks, simply. Our physical perfections, the tiny flaws on your face that you were born with. Or the things we do, acts that make people do this thing called 'judge' you.

Our mantle is what's just below the surface. Approach someone, talk to them for a while, and you might reach their mantle; who they actually are. He who frowns all the time has a good sense of humour. She who is always dressed down has a flair for fashion design. Things like that. Little things that you'll grow to love and accept because it's just who they are in front of you.

And then there's our core, the innermost layer. This is where our past and dirty secrets lie. This is where it's determined who survives you and who doesn't. Only those who can handle the heat of your core would be willing to stay no matter how it hurts them.

Truth is, I've not exposed my core to anyone new as of 2014. If you'd just met me and are reading this now (you know who you are), you don't know me. Sure, you may like me because I'm a writer like you, you may like me because I share common interests with you. You may like me because I use proper language even when I'm texting, you may like me because I'm a bookworm. You may be attracted to me because I'm quote 'different from other girls', but that's just my mantle.

I'm pretty sure you can't handle my core. Heck, you're not even halfway there. The one person who made it ended up leaving, dirtying this core of mine even more. Sure, you've made it past the crust, you've sat on my mantle, but I don't want any of you to be coming near my core. Thinking about it, I think I should just push everyone the fuck away.

And yes, I've said it before but I shall say it again: I hate being caught in between. If there are two parties with equal pros and cons, heck it I'd rather pack up and move forward, and be alone.

Nobody is ever gonna put you first. That's your job; putting you as an individual before anyone else. I think I've seen Merlissa's point: I have to start doing things for myself, and myself alone, because no one repeat no one will ever see you as important. Apart from you.

So I guess I shall just keep my core to myself. Everyone else, back off from it.

P.s. I'm not a Science freak so I'm sorry if my metaphor clashes with the scientific reality. But you get the idea, right?