Notes of October.

all my life in secondary school, October was always the month where i lost someone. every year, i would lose someone who cared about me, sometimes many of them all at once. it really hurt.

i'm definitely going to lose someone this October; not being negative or whatnot but i'm very sure that someone is going to pack up and leave me very soon. i'm just not sure who it would be.

i don't have many friends to begin with, but it could be anyone.

i may or may not be prepared this year, but i never was for the past few years. i noticed this pattern about last year, and i was trying not to mess up in October 2011. but i did, and that was when i lost the MKI.

i'm not sure if i should try not to screw up this year. i don't know if this losing someone in October thing is a curse or whatever, and whether or not i should at least try to prevent it. i don't know.

if October is the month of loss, then i hope this year i lose something which i want to; something which i should have let go of a long time ago.

is your past meant to be black and white just because it's over? is it not supposed to be in colour although it was when things were the best?