i can't sleep.

in the past, whenever i woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to sleep no matter howhard i tried, i'd text you. you once told me before tht you are up at 4 AM every morning, no matter what.

there was a period where i couldn't sleep for a few nights straight, i kept waking up, and it all started on my grandmother's 69th birthday. on the morning of tht day, its wee hours, i was texting you. i told you i had a nightmare.

i think you tried to comfort me. you told me it was just A dream, like any other normal person would. i listened to you, so i tried to sleep again. but then you texted me, so my phone rang and woke me up.

i rmb ur text.. you told me you missed the day when we were at PRP together. the day we first held hands and hugged and all tht. i think i smiled to myself in the darkness... you made me miss tht day too . so i said to you one day we can do tht again. you immediately asked me when . it was like you were so eager to do all tht with me again.

i spent the next hour thinking of tht day too, re-enacting everything in my head. until my alarm went off and then i got ready for school.

in the evening, you told me you were slacking with the 3/1 guys nearby. i told you i was gg to slack too, and then you asked me if you could join. i said sure why not, and then you said tht you were alr at my void deck. i rmb thinking to myself, "WTH, so fast ?"

i rmb the exact place you were sitting at. when i met up with you , i noticed you spiked ur hair at the back, which was very rare.. i rmb saying tou once before tht day tht you'd look better if you were to spike ur hair.

as we walked, you started talking as usual , and then at one point when you went silent, i said, "i kept playing over and over in my head what happened on tuesday.", which was the day at PRP. when you said to me "what happened on tuesday?",... you kind of disappointed me. i was quite sad when i heard tht.

we passed by a carpark, and carparks being my fave place, i asked you if we could go up to slack there for awhile. i rmb what you were talking abt as we climbed the stairs up to the rooftop. you were talking abt "Billionaire". yeah, tht song.

just Nice, as we got to the other side of the rooftop, where the other flight of stairs were, it started to lightning. we sat at the stairs, and i was looking at the sky when a flash of lightning suddenly appeared, so i was shocked. i looked down.

you immediately placed an arm around me. lightning continued to flash, and when it finally stopped, you still didnt let go of me. i said to you, "uhm, there's no more lightning." your exact words were, "it's okay, i like hugging you. ...i dont know why, but i like hugging you."

but you released me when i told you directly tht i wasnt who ur stead was then.
"i'm not asleah."
i said tht.

i forgived you really quickly though. you still placed an arm over my shoulder after tht, and this time i didnt say anything. i held ur hand. you grabbed my other hand which was nearer to you, and we stayed like tht for a long time, in silence. i closed my eyes.

i WAS sleepy. aft all, the night before, i didnt get enough sleep. so i fell asleep right there and then. i heard your heartbeat in my dream, and i woke up to realize tht i was on yr chest. i looked at you. and you smiled.

you told me what happened, you said tht i was leaning in towards you, and my weight was pushing down on you more and more. you said you had no choice but to lie down, cos the edge of the staircase step was hurting ur back.

at first i was embarrassed. but then eventually i got really happy.

we both had to go after tht. we stood up, and i was walking in front of you. you pulled me into a hug. i dont know how long we hugged. your embrace got tighter, so i had to hug you with tht strength too. you were kissing my neck, and i was, again, smelling ur scent on urs.

eventually i released you. or maybe you released me. i never made the first move, but i also never made the last move.

when we were out of the carpark, i told you i was gg right. but you were sadly gg left. so i said goodbye and started to walk off . again, you pulled me back, and you hugged me once more. this time, you whispered to me, "love you." i released myself and i actually said "huh?" and then i said, shyly, "love you too.." and then i turned and walked off.

of course, every few steps, i looked over my shoulder and took a glance at you.
until when i turned to look at you again but you were alr gone.