Money problems!!

If there's a horror story that's shorter than the one about the last man on Earth hearing a knock on the door, it's my bank account balance.

As you may know, I've not been getting any allowance from anyone for this whole year. It was fine at first because I had a job, right to the point where I couldn't handle my lady boss anymore and quit right after I finally stood up for myself. It was also my exams period and she wouldn't allow me to work just one day a week, although she had mentioned so many times that she would understand if I had to. [Full story here or here but whatever]

Well, I managed to stock up on my finances during Hari Raya, so that went well for a while. Of course, there was something called lunch which I had to provide myself for, and I, embarrassingly, spent a lot on that. There were also movies to watch with the prince and books to read and transport fees... Don't blame me for my declining finances.

So a while back I actually discovered that I don't have to pay for my school fees anymore. My aunt had managed to apply for some Mendaki thing, so I'm really thankful for that, Alhamdullilah. Because of this, I feel bad for accepting anymore money from my aunt so that's why I decided to juggle my own finances. I'm not getting allowance from her.

My parents have obviously washed their hands off of me. I've not gotten a single cent from them for the past 9 months now. Not even when I asked, not even when they knew I was going to start in tertiary education soon. I didn't mind, really I didn't. But this is what pissed me off...

During Hari Raya, my father's many siblings had already set my envelopes of money for me. I'm not sure what the English word is, but you know 'kirim'? Yes, my paternal aunties and uncles and some other relatives had passed money to Mother, to be passed on to me as 'kirim'. As I'd expected, she decided to keep this money for herself.

I know this, because
1. I asked my little brother. Yes, he did receive my envelopes to be passed on to me.
2. Mother admitted [or more like announced] to my grandmother over the phone.
3. I know her. I know my Mother.

Where is the integrity? She's sweet enough to have denied me of allowance for the past year. And now she wants to keep the money which is meant for me. Such a sweet mother! :-)

My remaining money also went to sleeping pills, after a whole week of not sleeping. [I swear. Not a single wink] And during the time when 'Aamir and I separated, I'd spent my remaining money on alcohol. Fuck that!

I've also gotten really pissed at 'Aamir recently, for spending so much to feed his gaming. We've been meeting lesser so it's a good way to save up some money, but with him gaming 24/7... Sigh. I can't help but worry for his finances as well.

Alright, well, I've been looking for a job okay? I have an interview tomorrow, for some retail job, with my best friend Siying. In sha Allah I will get this job, because I really don't want to burden my aunt and grandma anymore. I'm so useless staying here at home so I might as well go out and look for money to support myself.

Okay that's it for now. Since I don't have any readers at all now, this new link being a secret and shit, the pressure from society is off and I can keep my posts short and sweet, whoop whoop. Though I'm still considering if I should start posting pictures in here again.