so i had a minute/minute [get it?] memory loss upon waking up a few minutes ago. i couldn't remember what day or year it was, and i could've sworn i was back in those days where i had everything. everyone.
then my memories started to hit me again, and so here i am, miserable little asshole as ever.
what if all these were a dream, though? what if, one day, i were to fall off a carpark rooftop only to wake up to find myself back in 2010? what if i'm at my sec 3 mid year exams right now, dreaming through my english paper 1?
what if i woke up and was able to tell my clique, "hey i had a dream where i left you guys over something stupid. and then i started getting myself into a lot of trouble all the time,"?
what if i woke up and was able to tell syazana, "hey i had a dream where we got closer over make-up bridging and we spent a lot of time together when i left my clique and you were the most awesome childhood friend ever,"?
what if i woke up and was able to tell the boy from 2/2, "hey i had a dream where we became god-siblings and eventually a couple when you confessed to me and we fought a lot and you sure were a mofo possessive boyfriend,"?
what if i woke up and was able to announce to my classmates, "hey i had a dream where we won the cheering comp twice in a row and i was the videographer through-out the year, always capturing the moments for you guys to watch over and over again,"?
what if i woke up and was able to tell the younger twin, "hey i had a dream where we got closer as god-siblings and shared our first kiss a few months later, and you left me when i asked you to be my baby after that and got yourself another girl as your girlfriend, leaving me shattered. i got myself a boyfriend after that but it ended up in disaster and i came running back to you and this time you accepted and boy was i so god-damn happy, but we ended up kissing and doing lots of shit together and one day you left me again, suddenly,"?
would any of them have believed me, i wonder? back in 2010, if i were to say all these, it would have made me look stupid, and crazy.
but here we are in 2012. and look.
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