Being Khairul Irfan 's

aw, my evening was awesome ♥

alrightyy , slacked with khai at cc before gg for my maths tuition . both went extremely well. i love my khai so much ! but im sure he has his own problems despite tht flawless smile of his . problems tht he hides .

oh yeah , and as promised im supposed to talk abt the experience of being his gf . alrighty , here we go .

first things first , ppl are looking at us weird just Cos im older than him . isit such a WTF thing ? pfft , i dont get it. is love measured by age? really? i prefer younger guys anyways.

another thing is basically our personalities . to ppl who dk me , i am deemed as "emo" , cos my hair covers half my face and im always like looking down . and then khai is the happy-go-lucky one whom everyones knows and likes.

so he's always saying hi to ppl and vice versa when we're like at the sch bus stop waiting for the bus , or on the bus , or just Slacking around random places . it's like wherever we go, he's bound to know somebody. somebodies .

maybe it's our cca lah , cos i quit fencing in like 2009 and he's been faithful in his npcc , so he knows lots of ppl . whatever it is , im quite envious . envious tht he knows and is liked by so many ppl . compared to me .

he's like always talking to his friends while i stand aside and stare or do my own stuff . and when i'm in the mood to say hi to his friends or wave or what , they never look at me. it's like im almost invisible. so i dont bother anymore , which makes me quickly labelled as sombong .

and most of his good friends doesnt seem to like me very much . eg dan danial dan . he always looks at me and we lock eyes , but he never smiles or waves or whatever . idk ah. gosh .

yes , this is how i feel . but idk what to do. what do i do?
right. eat.