...was a success! although yes it rained, we still managed to film certain stuff from the beginning of my imagination, hehe. im sooo grateful to the girls cos they were willing to be my models.
met up with siying at bk, waited for asleah for eons cos she was taking her own sweet time, and then she came and we all bought our food. just Nice it was our recess time, aka the time tht i can eat alr .
blah3, when we were done, we went to romantic place, asleah with her umbrella and siying and i with hoodsup! hahaha. k this is a short update, i shall continue later. nak edit videos. hehe. excited!
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
my family's full names.
hm, this is difficult, cos u seem to know everything abt me. and like i said, i find it difficult to say things abt myself, ppl either ask or observe. but i shall try . oh he just Gave me smth to tell. my family's full names !
my father: Md E'esa Bin Nordin
my mommy: Nor Azlina Bte Md Arif
my older bro: Muhammad Naqib E'zuwan Bin Md E'esa
my younger bruh: Muhammad Nazriq E'irfan Bin Md E'esa
k dah. what else? hm.......... did you know tht i was last in class in sec 1 and 2? k nvm this is more towards my past. i think this is all for today, khai just Told me to sleep -_-
my father: Md E'esa Bin Nordin
my mommy: Nor Azlina Bte Md Arif
my older bro: Muhammad Naqib E'zuwan Bin Md E'esa
my younger bruh: Muhammad Nazriq E'irfan Bin Md E'esa
k dah. what else? hm.......... did you know tht i was last in class in sec 1 and 2? k nvm this is more towards my past. i think this is all for today, khai just Told me to sleep -_-
busy, busy! so many things to do, so little seconds on the clock. deadline for project SFS is on friday!! friday ! ah! got so pissed this morning cos of the weather. yes, i disliked the weather, but i still appreciate it.
tmrw, it better not rain tmrw! i sooo need to do this ok. ive been wanting to do this for an extremely long time, too long! i needa focus. *determined face*
so right now, all i can do is listen to its song on repeat, and tryta imagine first. which... is smth tht i alr have been doing since i first heard this song. oh well! familiarize.
tmrw, it better not rain tmrw! i sooo need to do this ok. ive been wanting to do this for an extremely long time, too long! i needa focus. *determined face*
so right now, all i can do is listen to its song on repeat, and tryta imagine first. which... is smth tht i alr have been doing since i first heard this song. oh well! familiarize.
i've been looking at some 2010 photos. i really miss the times when all eight of us were like camwhoring in the classrooms during recess and all tht. damn. effing miss the girls. this the first pic we all ever took tgt as a whole, and with no extras (eg phyllis and qianying)
and all the outings with any of the girls, cos tht time i didnt have any preferences for anyone. and the birthday bash for siying, and when we played water and picnicked at prp, and played by the beach. and went to pearl's house to watch movie aft monopoly.
and the best was megamind! we all planned tht tgt. like shit pulak tu. we worked hard, and then we played hard ^^ i still rmb how excited we were over Movie Day! and i rmb tht i even announced it during flag raising haha. and, it was my first day with new specs!
oh yeah..... cliquey movie day was awesome.
i better plan another outing before it becomes a year since all 8 of us went out tgt. yes, it's all up to me now!
and all the outings with any of the girls, cos tht time i didnt have any preferences for anyone. and the birthday bash for siying, and when we played water and picnicked at prp, and played by the beach. and went to pearl's house to watch movie aft monopoly.
and the best was megamind! we all planned tht tgt. like shit pulak tu. we worked hard, and then we played hard ^^ i still rmb how excited we were over Movie Day! and i rmb tht i even announced it during flag raising haha. and, it was my first day with new specs!
oh yeah..... cliquey movie day was awesome.
i better plan another outing before it becomes a year since all 8 of us went out tgt. yes, it's all up to me now!
Friday, October 07, 2011
this is in response to khairul's blog post.
i've told you many times, i wont leave you. i've still got one more year in this sch, you can have ur eye on me, and aft my O's, ill take care of myself. i wont go anywhere. you'll say tht it's what i say now, but ive told u many many times tht i wont leave you for anyone else.
cos, there's really this smth abt you, tht makes me very very sure tht i wanna be with you for the rest of my life. ive said it a lot of times, and im very sure of it. very, very sure. you changed me, i discovered many things tht i never knew i was, i became someone tht i should have been a long time ago. and i am not just Saying this.
k, this is all tht i will say now. if ive got anything else, they would all be in diary. the little red notebook tht one of my best friends got for my 16th bday~
i've told you many times, i wont leave you. i've still got one more year in this sch, you can have ur eye on me, and aft my O's, ill take care of myself. i wont go anywhere. you'll say tht it's what i say now, but ive told u many many times tht i wont leave you for anyone else.
cos, there's really this smth abt you, tht makes me very very sure tht i wanna be with you for the rest of my life. ive said it a lot of times, and im very sure of it. very, very sure. you changed me, i discovered many things tht i never knew i was, i became someone tht i should have been a long time ago. and i am not just Saying this.
k, this is all tht i will say now. if ive got anything else, they would all be in diary. the little red notebook tht one of my best friends got for my 16th bday~
Monday, October 03, 2011
Saturday, October 01, 2011
Last Day of 4/2 ):
hello! ytd was last day with 4/2. boohoo. as in normal sch day. next week are n levels' remaining papers. sigh ! i am freaking out sia. damn stress.
ytd was damn touching. ive got footage, but i have yet to edit. because i have no time, cant afford to lose anymore seconds. i'm allowing the clock tick in my face..
pictures from ytd !
and i got suspended from class ytd. siying told me everyone asked abt me, like sho shweet!
then during self study, everyone was camwhoring but i was at my desk with one black face. manfred came to me and was like,"eh last day of sch eh. can dont be so sad or not? be happy eh, smile eh. and stop being so bloody stubborn can or not? oy smile lah, go there join them take picture." sho shweet, hehe!
timothy injured his foot and couldnt walk, and nicholas piggybacked him , damn bloody shweet sia. felt as if the whole sch was ours, cos it was damn empty and our class was the only used one at the second level. so yeahh.
aft p.e, we all camwhored like shit, only left the sch at like one hour aft the final bell rang. damn bloody shweet. i'm gonna miss them all like fuck.
we shall let the vid do the rest of the talking, here u go !
ytd was damn touching. ive got footage, but i have yet to edit. because i have no time, cant afford to lose anymore seconds. i'm allowing the clock tick in my face..
pictures from ytd !
and i got suspended from class ytd. siying told me everyone asked abt me, like sho shweet!
then during self study, everyone was camwhoring but i was at my desk with one black face. manfred came to me and was like,"eh last day of sch eh. can dont be so sad or not? be happy eh, smile eh. and stop being so bloody stubborn can or not? oy smile lah, go there join them take picture." sho shweet, hehe!
timothy injured his foot and couldnt walk, and nicholas piggybacked him , damn bloody shweet sia. felt as if the whole sch was ours, cos it was damn empty and our class was the only used one at the second level. so yeahh.
aft p.e, we all camwhored like shit, only left the sch at like one hour aft the final bell rang. damn bloody shweet. i'm gonna miss them all like fuck.
we shall let the vid do the rest of the talking, here u go !
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
some random quiz !
the person i like and why i like them.
khairul irfan. why? hm i dont want to make this post panjang lebar (; but i like cos i love!
a famous person i’ve been compared to.
this bitch named eindah wrister.
5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex.
hm dont really have any. i appreciate the way God created us.
the best thing that has happened to me this week.
the fact tht i have woken up to a brand new day for 7 mornings.
weird things i do when i’m alone.
dance randomly to songs tht is either playing or stuck in my head. k actually a lot, esp when im like alone at home. hehe.
how i’d spend ten thousand bucks.
i'd buy all the videography equipment, and the rest most probs on food.
things i like and things i don’t like about the way i look.
i like everything. i dislike nothing.
my last night out in detail.
i shall do this later.
something that makes me sad when i think about it.
the fact tht i cause ppl problems all the time.
something i’ve lied about.
i have never lied in my entire life before.
:p
would i rather be stranded on a desert island with someone i love for ten years or someone i hate for a month? explain why.
someone i hate for a month. because, we shall take tht chance to bond with each other, get to know each other better, and eventually we will love each other. instead of being with someone i love for ten years, cos who knows what might happen?
something i’m currently worrying about.
khai leaving me.
something i do without realising.
upset people/make them angry.
lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood.
Third Eye Blind's "Semi-Charmed Life" !
something i regret.
having called my bf an asshole.
post a picture of myself.
*shall post later*
my longest relationship and who it was with.
from june 2011 to current, khairul irfan.
post a bit of my last IM convo.
*shall post later*
5 things i want to change.
nothing. i dont want anything to change.
someone i’d like to be for a day and why.
i'd be the love of my life, and think the way he thinks.
5 things within touching distance.
asleah's wallet. the mouse. my sch bag. the sch printer. the comp lab door.
story of my first kiss.
the first one with MKI , was at cc before my maths tuition. he had my hoodie wrapped across his eyes, so hot!
khairul irfan. why? hm i dont want to make this post panjang lebar (; but i like cos i love!
a famous person i’ve been compared to.
this bitch named eindah wrister.
5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex.
hm dont really have any. i appreciate the way God created us.
the best thing that has happened to me this week.
the fact tht i have woken up to a brand new day for 7 mornings.
weird things i do when i’m alone.
dance randomly to songs tht is either playing or stuck in my head. k actually a lot, esp when im like alone at home. hehe.
how i’d spend ten thousand bucks.
i'd buy all the videography equipment, and the rest most probs on food.
things i like and things i don’t like about the way i look.
i like everything. i dislike nothing.
my last night out in detail.
i shall do this later.
something that makes me sad when i think about it.
the fact tht i cause ppl problems all the time.
something i’ve lied about.
i have never lied in my entire life before.
:p
would i rather be stranded on a desert island with someone i love for ten years or someone i hate for a month? explain why.
someone i hate for a month. because, we shall take tht chance to bond with each other, get to know each other better, and eventually we will love each other. instead of being with someone i love for ten years, cos who knows what might happen?
something i’m currently worrying about.
khai leaving me.
something i do without realising.
upset people/make them angry.
lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood.
Third Eye Blind's "Semi-Charmed Life" !
something i regret.
having called my bf an asshole.
post a picture of myself.
*shall post later*
my longest relationship and who it was with.
from june 2011 to current, khairul irfan.
post a bit of my last IM convo.
*shall post later*
5 things i want to change.
nothing. i dont want anything to change.
someone i’d like to be for a day and why.
i'd be the love of my life, and think the way he thinks.
5 things within touching distance.
asleah's wallet. the mouse. my sch bag. the sch printer. the comp lab door.
story of my first kiss.
the first one with MKI , was at cc before my maths tuition. he had my hoodie wrapped across his eyes, so hot!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
an indigo feline?
i hope he tells me everything. i'm alr upset tht all along he had been sleeping with smth she gave him , but i let go of tht. i wasnt happy with the fact tht he refuses to throw them away bcos they are memories, but i let go of tht.
well anywayys ...
i'm desperate for so many things tht i'm deprived of ! T.T oh except food, yes food. kk, let's do a little bit more researching for art before hunting down for chemicals.
jenny always makes my day aft a long day at sch, hehe. when khai doesnt send me home ah, cos when he does then we usually dont walk by jenny's spot. jenny is a cat at elias btw. up to now i still have no idea what color she is, but i like to say tht she's purple.
imagine tht! a purple cat. beautiful isnt it ?
well anywayys ...
i'm desperate for so many things tht i'm deprived of ! T.T oh except food, yes food. kk, let's do a little bit more researching for art before hunting down for chemicals.
jenny always makes my day aft a long day at sch, hehe. when khai doesnt send me home ah, cos when he does then we usually dont walk by jenny's spot. jenny is a cat at elias btw. up to now i still have no idea what color she is, but i like to say tht she's purple.
imagine tht! a purple cat. beautiful isnt it ?
Sunday, September 25, 2011
September ppl !
hello! i am studying now. but will do a very quick update before gg back to my physics.
ytd had bday celebration with father's side relatives at cik o's house . as in, a void deck near his house. dress code was casual , so i wore my usual tee+hoodie+skinnies combi , but this time with me nike shoes .
my dad told me to wear them cos my cousins hasnt seen me in those before , and tht he wants me to show off on this occasion. yes, tht shows how not-rich we really are, if u were to compare my father's family with his siblings.
well anyways . upon reaching, salam everyone, then my dad and i straightway went to rivervale mall to use the toilet. he told me stories as always, which proves his blurblock-ness. at the end of it, i was like, "oh nowanda i so blurblock, cos i follow you."
then we reached the toilets, the female and male were like next to each other. we were both like, "eh yours is tht one! dont go wrong way ah! cos u blurblock." hahahaha. k u dont get it. but i was laughing to myself in the cubicle haha . i love my father sia.
when we got back, everyone had started eating so we joined. i ate a lot, and then i ate desserts too. hehe.
okokok, let's just Summarize a little. laughed at my uncles and aunts a lot, with all my cousies, and camwhored a lot too . every family gathering is always damn chaotic, cos my dad has like 12 siblings. so it's fun!
k here are some random camwhore pics...
went off somewhere to camwhore with maya, so many failed jumpshots.
kk, seriously gotta go back to summarizing.
in short, i had a lot of fun with my relatives. they were also celebrating my birthday, as belated. ^^
btw! imma be posting on 19th sept. so look down to check if there's any edits to my 19th sept post. imma go back to my studying now. 3rd oct - physics/chemistry. 4th oct - maths p1/art. 6th oct - maths p2/geog. wish me all the best. imma put in a million efforts for the ppl around me.
i let it all out to khairul last night. i'm so glad i did. i feel so much better now, i dont feel affected by the past anymore. thank you khairul. thank you for listening to me. i love you so much .
ytd had bday celebration with father's side relatives at cik o's house . as in, a void deck near his house. dress code was casual , so i wore my usual tee+hoodie+skinnies combi , but this time with me nike shoes .
my dad told me to wear them cos my cousins hasnt seen me in those before , and tht he wants me to show off on this occasion. yes, tht shows how not-rich we really are, if u were to compare my father's family with his siblings.
well anyways . upon reaching, salam everyone, then my dad and i straightway went to rivervale mall to use the toilet. he told me stories as always, which proves his blurblock-ness. at the end of it, i was like, "oh nowanda i so blurblock, cos i follow you."
then we reached the toilets, the female and male were like next to each other. we were both like, "eh yours is tht one! dont go wrong way ah! cos u blurblock." hahahaha. k u dont get it. but i was laughing to myself in the cubicle haha . i love my father sia.
when we got back, everyone had started eating so we joined. i ate a lot, and then i ate desserts too. hehe.
okokok, let's just Summarize a little. laughed at my uncles and aunts a lot, with all my cousies, and camwhored a lot too . every family gathering is always damn chaotic, cos my dad has like 12 siblings. so it's fun!
k here are some random camwhore pics...
went off somewhere to camwhore with maya, so many failed jumpshots.
kk, seriously gotta go back to summarizing.
in short, i had a lot of fun with my relatives. they were also celebrating my birthday, as belated. ^^
btw! imma be posting on 19th sept. so look down to check if there's any edits to my 19th sept post. imma go back to my studying now. 3rd oct - physics/chemistry. 4th oct - maths p1/art. 6th oct - maths p2/geog. wish me all the best. imma put in a million efforts for the ppl around me.
i let it all out to khairul last night. i'm so glad i did. i feel so much better now, i dont feel affected by the past anymore. thank you khairul. thank you for listening to me. i love you so much .
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
i really really need him right now. vomitted, and all the while i just Wanted him by my side. idk why but my stomach was the one who got upset aft khairul went offline. now it's torturing me, i'm so in pain, but i cant do anything abt it.
it's just Nausea i think. i hope tht's it . and i hope it'll be gone very very soon.
it's just Nausea i think. i hope tht's it . and i hope it'll be gone very very soon.
Monday, September 19, 2011
my 16th birthday! *editted*
i have promised khairul to blog abt today. but idk whether he wants in details or what , so imma just Put it on hold til tmrw.
today was awesome :D
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k hi, yes i have editted. i shall pretend tht i am typing this on 19th sept.
aft sch, went sab's house cos she wanted to pass me bday pressie. had a lot of stuffs to carry, took bus with my khairul.
hm first went to eat domino with siying. asleah and shushan came as a surprise! so shweet sey, i nearly wanted to cry.
and then khairul came along, and he smelt good sia. ran for the 358, tht was funny! and he was carrying a can of coke! went to ehub to watch johnny english :D in the midst , khai got thirsty, passed him the coke and i was so damn scared to watch him open it sey!
aft movie went to the carpark rooftop to take a few photos . khai is so damn bloody handsome sia...
bought cup walker while waiting for khai to come out from toilet, was struggling to take out my wallet cos my stockings didnt hsve pockets and i was carrying lots of stuffs =.=
went prp, sat on his hoodie, i felt really bad abt tht. i was really fine with sitting on the grass but khai persisted. chatted abt random stuffs , and did a lot of stuffs (;
wrote "i love u" in the sand again. for khairul. at night, we played on the sand and he lifted me up and swung me around. tht was fun sia! and yes we kissed in the darkness as well ^^ by the waves. aaahh~
around 9 plus went out of the park. hahaha. i love my 16th bday so much. :D
today was awesome :D
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k hi, yes i have editted. i shall pretend tht i am typing this on 19th sept.
aft sch, went sab's house cos she wanted to pass me bday pressie. had a lot of stuffs to carry, took bus with my khairul.
hm first went to eat domino with siying. asleah and shushan came as a surprise! so shweet sey, i nearly wanted to cry.
and then khairul came along, and he smelt good sia. ran for the 358, tht was funny! and he was carrying a can of coke! went to ehub to watch johnny english :D in the midst , khai got thirsty, passed him the coke and i was so damn scared to watch him open it sey!
aft movie went to the carpark rooftop to take a few photos . khai is so damn bloody handsome sia...
bought cup walker while waiting for khai to come out from toilet, was struggling to take out my wallet cos my stockings didnt hsve pockets and i was carrying lots of stuffs =.=
went prp, sat on his hoodie, i felt really bad abt tht. i was really fine with sitting on the grass but khai persisted. chatted abt random stuffs , and did a lot of stuffs (;
wrote "i love u" in the sand again. for khairul. at night, we played on the sand and he lifted me up and swung me around. tht was fun sia! and yes we kissed in the darkness as well ^^ by the waves. aaahh~
around 9 plus went out of the park. hahaha. i love my 16th bday so much. :D
Sunday, September 18, 2011
appreciation.
the floor is a beautiful thing.
aha! made u look. made u look and made u think abt its beauty.
the pieces of the floor are beautifully pieced together arent they? even if ur floor aint tiles, it still is a work of art isnt it? you sit , lie down, step on the floor. the floor is always there to give you support. if it isnt there, you'll fall below.
it's a work of art, and a pillar of support. yet why isnt it appreciated? you step on it every day, you stamp ur feet when you're angry, you jump on it when you're happy. the least u could do is lie down on it from time to time and stare at the light together with it.
yeah thts right. the light. the floor looks at the light everyday, tht is where it gets its hope from. we've got the sun, but some ppl dont appreciate tht either.
if u listen very carefully, the floor has a heartbeat. i know the one tht i heard was mine, but i pretend tht it's the floor. its heartbeat is steady. it assures me tht the floor is fine. it saddens me if i get reminded tht the floor actually has no heartbeat...
so, every now and then, lie down on the floor, on your stomach, and just Listen. the floor would be very happy to have you looking at its source of hope tgt with it, bcos im sure tht u seldom look at ur ceiling light as well, right?
when u lie down at first, it's cold, yes. but when u get up, feel the area where u lied down on. it's warm.
and the floor is contented.
from time to time, do things tht show ppl/pets/objects tht u appreciate them. just Imagine how life would be like without them at all. and appreciate the fact tht others appreciate u as well.
appreciation is just Important to let others know u regard their presence and are glad tht they are there.
aha! made u look. made u look and made u think abt its beauty.
the pieces of the floor are beautifully pieced together arent they? even if ur floor aint tiles, it still is a work of art isnt it? you sit , lie down, step on the floor. the floor is always there to give you support. if it isnt there, you'll fall below.
it's a work of art, and a pillar of support. yet why isnt it appreciated? you step on it every day, you stamp ur feet when you're angry, you jump on it when you're happy. the least u could do is lie down on it from time to time and stare at the light together with it.
yeah thts right. the light. the floor looks at the light everyday, tht is where it gets its hope from. we've got the sun, but some ppl dont appreciate tht either.
if u listen very carefully, the floor has a heartbeat. i know the one tht i heard was mine, but i pretend tht it's the floor. its heartbeat is steady. it assures me tht the floor is fine. it saddens me if i get reminded tht the floor actually has no heartbeat...
so, every now and then, lie down on the floor, on your stomach, and just Listen. the floor would be very happy to have you looking at its source of hope tgt with it, bcos im sure tht u seldom look at ur ceiling light as well, right?
when u lie down at first, it's cold, yes. but when u get up, feel the area where u lied down on. it's warm.
and the floor is contented.
from time to time, do things tht show ppl/pets/objects tht u appreciate them. just Imagine how life would be like without them at all. and appreciate the fact tht others appreciate u as well.
appreciation is just Important to let others know u regard their presence and are glad tht they are there.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
i love his eyes.
hello . asleah and siying had gone home ages ago. we slept at 5 aft rounds and rounds of DW7, only to wake up at 530 cos we wanted to go to mac's. i was talking in the dark with siying without even realizing. it felt so much like a dream!
smth happened to khai. i can tell . but he's not telling me and im wondering why.
hello . asleah and siying had gone home ages ago. we slept at 5 aft rounds and rounds of DW7, only to wake up at 530 cos we wanted to go to mac's. i was talking in the dark with siying without even realizing. it felt so much like a dream!
smth happened to khai. i can tell . but he's not telling me and im wondering why.
SLEEPOVER .
hello ! asleah and siying are over at my house right now. yes, they're sleeping over. fun sey! first time had a friend over for sleepover. friends.
so far we've chatted, talked abt boys, camwhored, laughed and played ps3 :D oh and studying of course. right now si ying is asleep and i am accompanying asleah to the toilet. supposedly gg to mac's at 530, but ive not slept yet.
i love these two so much sia. seriously. glad tht they were able to come over to spend time with me. ohh asleah is done!
well anyways, today had p.e. which was fun as always. i recorded as usual , but this time i joined halfway. i had a lot of fun sia defending, haha.
kk nak sleep. shall update u more on my life very very soon. hahah nights :DDDD
yes im having a lot of fun, but i still miss my khairul .
so far we've chatted, talked abt boys, camwhored, laughed and played ps3 :D oh and studying of course. right now si ying is asleep and i am accompanying asleah to the toilet. supposedly gg to mac's at 530, but ive not slept yet.
i love these two so much sia. seriously. glad tht they were able to come over to spend time with me. ohh asleah is done!
well anyways, today had p.e. which was fun as always. i recorded as usual , but this time i joined halfway. i had a lot of fun sia defending, haha.
kk nak sleep. shall update u more on my life very very soon. hahah nights :DDDD
yes im having a lot of fun, but i still miss my khairul .
Thursday, September 15, 2011
hello! been a while since i wrote abt my day. i shall do tht right now.
today, went to sch and then it started to get chaotic cos everyone was moving to the hall for morning assembly. waited for siying before making our way , then blah3, sec 4s had to sit in front, confirm cos of national anthem stuffs haha .
hm. not much ah , exam stuffs. at the end of it, syafie was like, sec 4s and 5s had to stay back, then the whole area where i was at moaned like shit. sian ah , kept talking abt our national exams and how we're running outta time blah3.
i was a good girl in art today . did my mindmap and sat there at the corner doing my sketches. hehe. kept looking at the opposite buildings cos looking for my khairul.
recess, i didnt want to eat cos wanted to share the hunger with him. he didnt bring money, but didnt want to borrow from me. but he told me to go eat, and in the end he won.
aft tht was physics, and we were late! we were walking at the parade sq when the bell rang, and i was like, "shit! we're late! we're late!" then like exaggerate lah, but i didnt rush for class either. and we all ended up late and getting lectured.
aft tht was one period of maths, which was relief cos ms huang didnt come. i did geog since i totally forgot to bring any maths stuff (apart from calcu) and then halfway asleah wanted to go toilet , so i just Followed her.
lunch, then mother tongue. mt was supposed to be slack cos there was no teachas relief-ing us for the rest of the year. so the 4NA malay peeps were like gathered tgt happily playing games when suddenly , 4/3's CL teacha came in.
she told 4/3 malay peeps to go back class , which they reluctantly did aft farhan and faiz tried to argue. then we continued playing, and like around 10 or 15 mins later, tht CL teacha came back -___- we were like, "alamak..."
this time we really argued like shit sia.voices were rising and everyone was just Joining in the argument. baik sey! but in the end we gave in. then all of us walked back to 4/2 classroom. we tried to loiter but she was watching from the 4th level -.-
we like homeless kids eh. thts one way to summarize the situation, kesian kan?
slacked with asleah and siying during 2nd period of mother tongue. i laughed a lot, but cant rmb why. i love those two, heh. then english, went comp lab to play as well :D
in other words, if we had just Gone home aft maths , our time would have been better spent -_-
during english funny sey. everyone was like damn kecoh sia. hm, then aft the last bell for the day rang, went to wait for my khai at the bus stop to go home tgt. talked random stuff at bus stop, then on the bus.
then went to his lepak place and kissed, and during tht final hug for the day , i wanted to cry. yes, it did feel like a long time ago. we progressed so much :D
oh yes. when i was walking home, a leaf dropped from its tree, and it floated right in front of me as it was falling. i watched it ah. i watched the wind blow it to the road divider. and the leaf got stuck there. it wasnt able to go over tht wall, but it still kept slamming itself against tht wall with the help from the wind.
but eventually, the wind just Stopped blowing.
and the leaf was stuck there, for the rest of its little life.
i was sad. i almost cried on the spot, but i just Started walking again, and told myself not to cry. so i didnt.
today, went to sch and then it started to get chaotic cos everyone was moving to the hall for morning assembly. waited for siying before making our way , then blah3, sec 4s had to sit in front, confirm cos of national anthem stuffs haha .
hm. not much ah , exam stuffs. at the end of it, syafie was like, sec 4s and 5s had to stay back, then the whole area where i was at moaned like shit. sian ah , kept talking abt our national exams and how we're running outta time blah3.
i was a good girl in art today . did my mindmap and sat there at the corner doing my sketches. hehe. kept looking at the opposite buildings cos looking for my khairul.
recess, i didnt want to eat cos wanted to share the hunger with him. he didnt bring money, but didnt want to borrow from me. but he told me to go eat, and in the end he won.
aft tht was physics, and we were late! we were walking at the parade sq when the bell rang, and i was like, "shit! we're late! we're late!" then like exaggerate lah, but i didnt rush for class either. and we all ended up late and getting lectured.
aft tht was one period of maths, which was relief cos ms huang didnt come. i did geog since i totally forgot to bring any maths stuff (apart from calcu) and then halfway asleah wanted to go toilet , so i just Followed her.
lunch, then mother tongue. mt was supposed to be slack cos there was no teachas relief-ing us for the rest of the year. so the 4NA malay peeps were like gathered tgt happily playing games when suddenly , 4/3's CL teacha came in.
she told 4/3 malay peeps to go back class , which they reluctantly did aft farhan and faiz tried to argue. then we continued playing, and like around 10 or 15 mins later, tht CL teacha came back -___- we were like, "alamak..."
this time we really argued like shit sia.voices were rising and everyone was just Joining in the argument. baik sey! but in the end we gave in. then all of us walked back to 4/2 classroom. we tried to loiter but she was watching from the 4th level -.-
we like homeless kids eh. thts one way to summarize the situation, kesian kan?
slacked with asleah and siying during 2nd period of mother tongue. i laughed a lot, but cant rmb why. i love those two, heh. then english, went comp lab to play as well :D
in other words, if we had just Gone home aft maths , our time would have been better spent -_-
during english funny sey. everyone was like damn kecoh sia. hm, then aft the last bell for the day rang, went to wait for my khai at the bus stop to go home tgt. talked random stuff at bus stop, then on the bus.
then went to his lepak place and kissed, and during tht final hug for the day , i wanted to cry. yes, it did feel like a long time ago. we progressed so much :D
oh yes. when i was walking home, a leaf dropped from its tree, and it floated right in front of me as it was falling. i watched it ah. i watched the wind blow it to the road divider. and the leaf got stuck there. it wasnt able to go over tht wall, but it still kept slamming itself against tht wall with the help from the wind.
but eventually, the wind just Stopped blowing.
and the leaf was stuck there, for the rest of its little life.
i was sad. i almost cried on the spot, but i just Started walking again, and told myself not to cry. so i didnt.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
tonight, im sleeping in the dark. with the lights off and the door shut. i'll turn off the fan, put on socks, three layers of clothing, blankie over me, and curl like a foetus.
let's make believe tht i've never even been born yet... cos life was so simple.
first impressions really matter a lot. the world was beautiful when u first saw it. opening up ur eyes, was like, was like. it's indescribable. it's amazing . it's irreplaceable.
but u had to grow up. life had to show its true colours. it got ugly. it got unbearable. it became a monster. it was rainbows and sunshine at first, but it's become the dark alley in the wee hours aft midnight. why?
let's make believe tht i've never even been born yet... cos life was so simple.
first impressions really matter a lot. the world was beautiful when u first saw it. opening up ur eyes, was like, was like. it's indescribable. it's amazing . it's irreplaceable.
but u had to grow up. life had to show its true colours. it got ugly. it got unbearable. it became a monster. it was rainbows and sunshine at first, but it's become the dark alley in the wee hours aft midnight. why?
k, im upset.
my diary's not with me, so imma just Make do with my bloggie. i'm writing a letter to Muhammad Naqib E'zuwan.
dear older brother of mine,
you. are my older brother. yet, why do you not treat me like ur younger sister? when was the last time we had a hearty conversation full of smiles and laughs? yes, i dont remember too.
u used to make fun of me all the time. u used to laugh at me when i got scolded by mom. u used to smack me when i did smth wrong. u used to teach me maths. u used to play childish games with me. u used to tell me super lame jokes.
in other words, u used to love me.
when was the last time u appreciated my presence? i've wished u happy birthday every year, be it via mom or dad or cards slipped under ur bedroom door. i dont rmb having failed to wish u being one year older. only once.
idk why u changed. u had a girlfriend. ur hits got harder and harder. you became silent. u shut urself in ur room all day. at night, u shifted to ur own room aft years of sleeping next to me.
shit. right now, all the memories flashing in my head. i must have barely been 9. i'd like to list out all the memories i rmb right now, but they're too large in amt. and i'd rather u rmb those times on ur own rather than i remind u.
when was the last time i called u my bro? i dont rmb. we addressed each other as aku kau. i dont rmb being called Adik by you anymore too. only our little nazriq is addressed as tht in this house, but thts another story .
....i really really miss you. u're letting ur friends affect ur relationship with us; ur family. why? come on lah. i know u're way smarter than tht sey. i know tht u know how much we love you. u just Forced urself to forget. idk what makes u think our parents dont love you. they love u like hell.
i love you like hell. i love you like fuck. i miss you like fuck.
please regard me as your sister again please?
please regard us as your family again please?
please ?
my diary's not with me, so imma just Make do with my bloggie. i'm writing a letter to Muhammad Naqib E'zuwan.
dear older brother of mine,
you. are my older brother. yet, why do you not treat me like ur younger sister? when was the last time we had a hearty conversation full of smiles and laughs? yes, i dont remember too.
u used to make fun of me all the time. u used to laugh at me when i got scolded by mom. u used to smack me when i did smth wrong. u used to teach me maths. u used to play childish games with me. u used to tell me super lame jokes.
in other words, u used to love me.
when was the last time u appreciated my presence? i've wished u happy birthday every year, be it via mom or dad or cards slipped under ur bedroom door. i dont rmb having failed to wish u being one year older. only once.
idk why u changed. u had a girlfriend. ur hits got harder and harder. you became silent. u shut urself in ur room all day. at night, u shifted to ur own room aft years of sleeping next to me.
shit. right now, all the memories flashing in my head. i must have barely been 9. i'd like to list out all the memories i rmb right now, but they're too large in amt. and i'd rather u rmb those times on ur own rather than i remind u.
when was the last time i called u my bro? i dont rmb. we addressed each other as aku kau. i dont rmb being called Adik by you anymore too. only our little nazriq is addressed as tht in this house, but thts another story .
....i really really miss you. u're letting ur friends affect ur relationship with us; ur family. why? come on lah. i know u're way smarter than tht sey. i know tht u know how much we love you. u just Forced urself to forget. idk what makes u think our parents dont love you. they love u like hell.
i love you like hell. i love you like fuck. i miss you like fuck.
please regard me as your sister again please?
please regard us as your family again please?
please ?
i love him a lot .
but i know i aint trying hard enough.
he's apathetic. i just Know it. i can sense tht he wants to leave, very very soon. and i'm scared. why do people become more clumsy when they're scared ? oh yes, they shiver so much tht they just Become butterfingers. dont you think so?
but i shouldnt be like tht... the more scared i am , the more i must have the courage to replace this fear.
but i know i aint trying hard enough.
he's apathetic. i just Know it. i can sense tht he wants to leave, very very soon. and i'm scared. why do people become more clumsy when they're scared ? oh yes, they shiver so much tht they just Become butterfingers. dont you think so?
but i shouldnt be like tht... the more scared i am , the more i must have the courage to replace this fear.
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