heidiho! today, i had a short nap from late afternoon, waking up at like 6 plus? woke up with the sun in my face via mirror, which made me wanna fall back asleep . i sat up in the middle of my bed and stared.
hm, then at night, thought of gg to hunt for some chemicals. thought of gg ehub, cause wanted to stop by EK. but i got lazy, so i just went mac's. took these photos before i left. was randomly holding the chain when i realised i was holding it in quite an artistic manner. (;
it is not perfect. but the memory is beautiful enough.
when i got home, was slacking in my bedroom when my bro called out to me. he said spike was outside, so we quickly unlocked the gate and went over to him. havent seen him for a really long time since he got hospitalized due to a fall from the 8th storey...
spikey had his right arm bandaged. and most of his fur had been shaved off. he sat quietly in the corner, staring at me. then he meowed. he started walking towards me, and tht was when i felt so damn sad.
he limping sia , no not really limping. it's like much worse. i nearly wanted to cry , but i held it in. spikey made his way towards me and i bent down so i could pet him.
what a hearty reunion. T.T
he made his way to our house , struggling to go up tht one little step. he walked around the house like how he always used to. this time i made sure all windows were closed so he couldnt climb out.
in the end, he sat on the couch, smth which he had never done before... he looked so tired. it made me love the cat more. (o to be honest i still dk whether spike is female or male)
nowadays the water in the bathroom has been hot. i love it ! i love the heat. it's so hot tht the mirrors get fogged up every time. and i always trace song lyrics onto the fog, lyrics tht would mean a lot to the ppl in the house, or to anyone actually...
but too bad. i'm like the only one who uses tht toilet in the kitchen. so nobody ever gets the chance to read those lyrics. apart from myself.
like i said... the only one who'll ever be with ya is you and you alone. the ppl who were there at your birth aint gonna be around when you die. the ppl who are around when you die werent there when you were born. think abt it ... (imho of course)
im almost done with my current diary. as in, it's gonna be filled up pretty soon. which means i can start writing in my new notebook very soon alr! "keep writing like there's no tmrw so you could write in the next beautiful notebook."
my notebook has become my sorta like trademark at EK. everyone's like asking me you like to write diary isit? im like yes, and theybe like, i always see you in the corner writing by yourself. hahaha, i dont mind tht. i dont mind the grinch or violet as well !
well anyway . i'm currently listening to a little bit of Faktion, despite them breaking up a few years back. and texting irshad abt some shit. he da 'douche yang bertanduk'.
the things tht make us deep are the things tht we dont speak.
kotoko is sho pretty!
damn, i wanna make a short film sia. but there's many things to think abt, like the story , the people , the places, the angles. i've got the story. but the people? tht'll be difficult. the angles should be simple. hmmmnnnhhhmmmmnnn.
anyway, a very good morning to you all. or more like you both because for all i know siying and irshad are like my most frequent readers. o well, i am grateful for you both.
i see my dream, but ive no idea how to put most of it in words. i was invading the territory of some foreign family. the kids were two young boys, they kept asking me to play with them. tht was when my tooth dropped out, and it was blue.
at some point i tried to run away i think. the outside world was damn unfamiliar. think it was a different country altgt . ok nevermind.
i am afraid. most of the time, i am afraid of the future... but i know i shouldnt be. the only thing tht can scare me is the times where i show a great amount of courage, tht i never thought i had. and the same goes for all of you (in my humble opinion)
but still, i cant help but be afraid. and im afraid of change as well. maybe tht's why i fear the future. cause i dont want things to change..
i dont want people to leave, i dont want places to be demolished. i don't like it when my watch ticks right into my ear. i've never liked wearing a watch anyway. yeah, why am i wearing it ? and why did i make it move?
i know change is irrevocable, and i have to accept the fact when something doesnt stay the way it is. i will eventually graduate and grow old, i know all of tht. i guess i just aint tht ready yet...
well, nevermind. all tht matters is the present. it is today, so why care abt tmrw or ytd ?
shoot, my ankle itchy like firetruck. i dislike it when it's itchy like firetruck !
you know aye, if you noticed, i seldom put the face tht goes like >< in my blog posts, altho i always feel tht a lot. you know why? cause tht face will spoil the codes. they're like considerably the important parts in the codes la.
in fact now i am pretty scared to type tht face in this post... k nvm . i am bored. it is a boring monday morning......
my twitta screwed sia. idk whats wrong with it , i cant go my activity thingy or retweet, and i cant even tweet. annoying shit .
Sunday, December 11, 2011
shit, i needa pee real bad .
k dah, heidiho! just got back from a family outing. woke up feeling unwell , with a terrible nausea... must have been my dream. yeah , irritatingly, i always blame the start of my mornings on my dreams, be it good or bad...
i know it's a bad thing to do , but i cant help it.
well anyways, was still dragged out, turned out tht we were gg to USS ... i was quite shocked ! didnt have the mood to play. but i didnt want to waste the moolah (it aint firetrucking cheap sial) so i tried my best not to be the spoil sport.
k lah, overall the day was fun. but im too tired to go into details. just tht, the transformers one was FIRETRUCKING AWESOME SHIT !!!! the 2h queue was worth it (kinda) , cause it's just damn awesome la sia.
wanted to ride the rapids adventure one. the one at jurassic park , the wet one. but it was closed. i was like hopping my way there, pulling Naz with me. but got so damn bummed when it aint open. o well.
and, aft watching the steven spielberg thingy , i was suddenly so very sure tht i wanna be a filmmaker!
i am shoooo sleepy. i still feel a little unwell. think better get some sleep soon ....
DA-MN ! my mommy just said "i love you sweetheart darling honey!" !! to me!! cause i helped her download song . heheheheh!
so today i woke up thanks to the kitties at guilley. namely halia, tilda and zorro. they came into the room and started running like firetruck, the bells ringing into my ears. and they were meowing non stop siaaaa .
spent the morning watching some fruits basket . i loved the episode where uo and hana slept over at the sohma house! funny like shit, tanda stared at me laugh to myself. o yeah, i seemed to have melted the heart of tht little boy. he doesnt hiss at me anymore!
uncle gave me some sweets from taiwan.
eh actually i am quite lazy to blog . but, i expected my mommy to throw a bad tantrum at me when she got home. you know what happened ?
she burst open my bedroom door when i was looking at myself in the mirror. cause i was trying on the new skirt , with stockings. she shocked the shit out of me, and i think i shocked the shit out of her too .
she was like, when did you buy tht. i was like, two days ago. and she's like, it's nice.
and then she left without saying anything abt my running away from home .
as her dear old daughter, i know what's on her mind i think. most probz she was happy tht i bought a skirt on my own accord. cause all the dresses/skirts tht i have existing in my cupboard, all of them were bought by her...
well. tht did the trick , so nth bad happened. hopefully ruby won't keep throwing pokeblocks at his feebas aft it becomes a milotic.
here's the skirt, but it is not very clear. and the effing tee doesnt match with the skirt i think. does it ? idk, what does siying think ? does she wanna follow me shopping again? to find smth to match with it ?
ok, shady is at his cousie's place right now. and me at home... good ole home? maybe .
i want to run. i want to stomp thru puddles , in the rain. and then aft tht, i just wanna drop to the ground and stay there for the rest of the night . ....i must grow accustomed to the cold .
like most nights, i am sleepless. unlike most nights, i am at guillemard.
i am sitting in the kitchen on my lappy right now . tilda's here staring at the water bowl. she's been doing tht from just now, i really have no idea what's on her mind. tanda is under the table i think. halia woke up to take a dump. hometown is sulking because my aunt aint home. i just fed katie her posh feline food. and zorro? idk, probably tearing apart some curtain right now.
ive not told you what is it abt my mommy eh. some other time? maybe i should go try to sleep now. altho tilda and halia would start disturbing me very soon aft my head hit the pillow. or maybe i should watch fruits basket. k , i shall do tht .
what!? feebas is evolving! (press B to cancel) *presses B* evolution cancelled.
this song was a hit from 2007, or maybe even earlier. i rmb it's abt courage.
was typing away at mccafe when some dude outside the window next to me stared at me. it was z handsome boy irshad, and he looked so fucking hot with the messy hair sial.
so he came in and he had butt cramps? talked abt work and bike stuff, and then he wanted 100+, so i ran to cheers to get a bottle of tht. talked to jiajing , and then many eons later shad and i made our way out.
decided to go to prp , to walk around. which is an 'as always'. he had his bikey, but he was kind enough to walk and push it, instead of cycling. but he started cycling halfway cause of the puddles i think. but he was still sweet enough to hold my hand . so he was cycling with only one hand .
i enjoyed the part where shady jawab the unsuspecting mats with the annoying sound effects . my gosh. tht was fun sia.
stopped by the place where we had our first kiss. ive not gone there on my own , the very last time i went there was the very first time which was our first kiss. but we couldnt stay long, unfortunately, bcos of bloody aggas (idk how spell)
went to the kitchen garden (rmb on 18th may 2009 siying? when we were despo to go there but in the end it wasnt what we expected) and talked a little more , just a little more. and then started kissing :3
i like the positions tht we sat in. like so comfy with each other. like couple who go over to each other's house just to play ps3.
when we were kissing, irshad held me toward him via my right shoulder. altho it did hurt, i kinda liked it when he did tht. kept each other close, altho we were as closest as can be :3 hm what next eh?
todayy was indeed a day of Courage . altho i took my own sweet time and still didnt do a good job, he still told me it is ok cause it was just my first time giving it a shot. THAT WAS FIRETRUCKING SPICY .
o and i removed the hoodie tht i was wearing. to suffer with irshad, despite it being another chilly night. tht took guts , for someone who aint used to the cold :3
when we went off aye , i suddenly felt like running. so i did. tht felt firetrucking GOOD . altho i was tired like fuck, tht run made my whole life flash before me. got a little nauseous aft tht. and then shady asked me why was i sleeping at guillemard.
simple. family probs. the good ole family probs.
i told him it was my brothers tht made me upset. im sorry , but tht was a lie. aft i told tht lie, i kept quiet cause i felt guilty. aft thinking abt it , i was like, "....can i tell you smth?"
i wanted to tell him. but i didnt know how to put it. it wasnt simple. i was afraid tht he wouldnt believe me. it took me a while to get it out . i thought i was prepared. so i told him. i told irshad abt the most beautiful woman on earth .
bloody hell , halfway thru my voice changed , i think cos of my throat, i felt it clog up. and yes i broke down and started bawling. tried to finish what i was saying but my voice was alr breaking down like fuck.
i just kept talking. tears were falling but i wanted to pour out words to irshad as well and not just tears. come to think of it , it was pretty embarrassing. but then again , including tonight, shady has seen me cry thrice ina month .
i love it when he whispers, and i love it so much more when im able to hear him clearly. it was a full moon. the park was dark and deprived of human life . in the midst of my sobs, he stopped cycling and pulled me into a hug . he said it's alright. he shushed me and wiped my tears away.
thus, this boy named irshad. i love him with all my heart and soul.
we parted at the dte bus stop. i crumpled the letter i wrote my mom , and stuffed it into the pouch of shad's bag .
i felt so much lighter. aft the run , aft telling someone this pain of 16 years, aft being comforted by the love of my life. and yeah.....it did feel kinda.... free.
and yeah tht's a fucking picture of me ok .
heidiho! currently at mccafe dte, awaiting the handsome boy irshad. he will be coming in like another 15 mins? cause he's currently at ikea. here i am sitting with muka steam , concentrating on my dear ole computer and typing, my fingers flying like hell away .
you're most probs wondering what the hell eindah is up to today. well , i just finished a day at work. and today is special because i came from my aunt's place aka guillemard. woke up at 7 thanks to my lovely grandmother (woke up at 4 before tht, with no thanks to tilda) .
o yeah! last night , my grandmother had an argument with my mommy over the phone. my grandmother was like, "budak tu pegi makan la! lepas tu dier pegi shopping, kasi la dier pegi shopping, baru dapat gaji! abeh dier naik mrt pon bukannyer cepat per!" i was like HEHEHEHEH .
well. parents told me not to sleep over for two nights. but my grandmother was like, "eh, dier dah bawak baju untok 2 malam. kasi dier tido dua malam, kalau tak buat susah je." HEHEHEHEH.
hm what else? played with them 6 felines last night, they were all in the kitchy ,, thts why i couldnt sleep. even when i tried to , tilda and halia would come and bite my ears off. and their effing bells =___________=
abt today, or this morn, i left guilley at like 745 , but i knew tht if i took myusual gg-home-from-guillemard route, i would be damn early. i ended up alighting at bedok , with the intention of taking bus no 17 .
but guess what ? the effing bus interchange was on renovation, and the sign read: "the bus services from here are at the temporary interchange" and im like, which is where... ?
hey! i see jiajing :3
k then then then , i finally found it, and then the freaking bus 17 was at freaking berth 9 . i was at 1.
so yeah, walked , which was a nice thing to do in the morn actually. and anyway it made me later a bit. as in, i reached not too early. o and i dropped off at spc to get myself a cuppa (can, actually) latte. saw shady's ex , i think she saw me uh.
i kinda miss sch. i miss walking tht path with pearl, priscilla and shushan, somehow. o well. imma go sec 5 uh.
k uh, i reached quite just in time at e hub. slacked at gr office awhile, and then blah3 actually i am kinda lazy to blog right now. but i need smth to do while waiting for the shady boy. o and i didnt realize my music player was set on repeat ?
today was not very fun as always. i mean at work uh. briefing was funny tho, i was listening to hayati and haryani convo . like kelakar, and cute sia hahah.
hm, at 12 , benna and farhan came! farhan said my style of putting the santa hat 'macam cute'. heheheheh! then he dk how to style his , cause he said he looked ugly.
well then what ? during break, sat at the gr office eating my KBW while reading . today was cold sia! the aircon must have been too low , i had to sit with my legs crossed under the little table in the gr office in order to gte myslf some warmth.
talked with benna a lot today , bonded with her. she told me abt ytd , she and haryani and syeera were like slacking to cut cake for jasleena , who only came at like 9. they were waiting from 4 sia. kesian sey!
when benna told me how syeera was like wondering what ice cream to eat the whole day , tht part made me laugh like shit sey! hahaah. o and i found out tht benna dislikes maths as well :3 and she's also an art student (this i know from last time) and art is like her life :3
where is shady i wonder :3
it is raining and i am freezing , but i only bought iced latte (stupidly) bcos it was the only thing i could afford. there's a girl studying on my diagonal left, she kept lookin at me with this irritated look. think my typing is distracting the shit outta her sia.
k, idk what else to talk abt. my dream last nite? i dont rmb much . only one part in sch , there was this thingy tht is like a fish pond but indoor? then an airplane dropped in and killed the fish tht it landed on.
shady o shady , where are you?
the thing tht i dislike abt myself a lot, is the fact tht whenever i miss someone, i will go their house area to loiter. idk. it's a very bad habit i know. nov 2010, i rmb always ending up at irshad's block whenever i go for tht stress walk of mine.
to be honest ah , of all the guys at EK , i kinda prefer yongheng to the rest. then of all the girls.... now tht u mention it, it is difficult to decide tht one. i think sery ? i guess. SO FAR LAH .
heidiho! currently at guillemard. good ole guillemard !
let me share on today. had am shift today. was gonna slack with irshad before tht, but i effing woke up at the designated meeting time. i was like HOLY SHIT ! and i rushed like eff.
later on, when i was searching for him, he shocked me like hell sia! i really didnt see him coming. well then we walked to pasir ris park, to slack there before sending me to work.
he kept insisting tht i stay on his right but i kept insisting tht he stays on my right. kept pulling him but kept failing also heh .
when we were slacking at ehub, saw benna and farhan when i was just wondering who's working today, heheheheh. eons later went off to work aft saying bye to z shady.
so today had last briefing with DMs sha and jasleena, cos they are leaving alr. i was assigned entrance today! i've been screwing up at entrance each time i'm there, be it a cover or assignment.
o and we all hafta wear little santa claus hats today. hahahah! all didnt wanna wear sia, should have seen the looks on everyone's faces. cute buncha ppl sia, them EK kids.
well so anyways, talked with sery before opening time. k ah, today not much actually. cause entrance per, alone pulak tu. it's like, cant talk to anyone or run around.
but i had my second test today. the probation one. meaning, imma be changing my uni right aft this! heheheheh.
o and i had break with benna today! baik per, first time spending breakkie with someone sey! i was sitting at the gr office munching on me kitkat chunky caramel while reading, when benna came in and said it was her break.
and then she invited me to accompany her go break :3
well , we talked abt the usual 16-year-old topics. from n level results to boyfriends to looks. and she encouraged me to wear dresses more. auntie jean came and joined us during tht topic, and she encouraged me too. heheheh.
made our way back eons later, and i went back to entrance where yongheng was covering me. o yeah, i forgot to say, some time before my break, jennifer OM called me to her office cause she wanted to 'have a word' with me.
yes, you guess it, it was because of my smile.
she asked me whether i am sad. and then blah3, tralked abt airlines and hotel services. and then suddenly, she asked me: "eindah, what do you wanna be when you grow up?"
i was like, "i wanna be a filmmaker."
and she's like, "ah. videography."
and i'm like, "yes ma'am."
i like what she said aft tht. she was like, "just because you're behind the camera, it doesnt mean you only have to care abt the image of what is in the camera."
and then started talking abt my horoscope. and perfection, individuality and sincerity. i must say, it was a really good talk. it all makes a lot of sense. came out of the ops office a lighter person (?) .
had to make myself think of random funny moments of my life, cause it was the only way i know to make me smile.
k well anyway, when it was nearly 4, the walkie announced: "jin to playguides. those who are not wearing the hat will have to wear santa claus costume. i'll be gg around to check right now." i quickly put on mine and saw tht the rest did too. i laughed sia! i really did !
saw jennifer OM coming outta the ops office, walking towards the slope towards the toilet, where most of the playguides were gathered at. i saw farhan not wearing his hat , and i was like, DIE.
and yeah, a few seconds later, he went to the ops office with a sulk. peeked in thru the little window at the top, and saw farhan putting on a red coat.
straightway dashed into the ops office (aft making sure there aint any new visitors) and stood by the doorway watching. i laughed, which made wani and farhan turn, and they were like, "you dont laugh , later confirm you kene!" heh.
haryani and jinghui came later, tho they aint working today. they stopped by cause it is jas and sha's last day rmb? yeahh, and then aft i clocked out i went to walk around the stations to disturb the pm playguides.
i was given a chocolate! wani gave me half of hers, and then benna gave me one more whole piece, so i gave wani half to be even. and then siying came along, said goodbye to sery who took over me at entrance, before gg to meet siying.
walked to central to take bus to nex. listened to a certain song on repeat to familiarize with it to make tht vid of mine. many eons later, reached .
walked around a lot , we bought sab's pressie, and then went to search for tht bloody shop where i bought the dress, but i couldnt find it. ate long john silva, and yes honey, i got the shrimp.
talked abt colleagues and boyfriends (mine) over the lunchey :3 shall tell you all what i told her. i cried when i told natalee two nights ago.
k , many many many eons later i found the effing shop. didnt buy anything tho, but went the shop opposite and tht was where we tried on these skirts. siying said the one i tried on looked cute, heheheheh.
decided to get it, and then she decided to get a top tht she tried on too. the best thing was , the salesgirl told us tht there'd be a discount for purchase of any 2 items in da store :3 happily bought our stuff, and happily walked outta the store !
ok ah , the skirt is cute. omg i bought a skirt. the one i wore on my bday was smth my mommy bought for me a long long time ago. bloody hell, this feebas is gonna be able to evolve into a milotic soon. i hope .
well yadda yadda blah, made my way to guillemard, and did i tell you i walked around with tht bloody heavy bag of mine? cause sleeping over tonight. shitzels, my shoulder is breaking. yes, the effing right one.
as promised, here is what i told siying just now, and what i told natalee crying.
my previous relationship.
i met him not even half a year aft i told myself to withdraw from the ppl around me. he opened me up, and i did like him. i really did like him. i got into a relationship with him, because i was sure of myself, i was sure tht i totally liked him and him alone.
you know what, not even ten days aft we got into our relationship, he was alr getting upset with me. we fought abt a blog post of mine. cause he freaking misunderstood what i really meant to say, and he got upset abt it.
actually to put it simply, he got upset with my opinion.
yes truth be told, he always did. whenever i am upset with him and i share the problem, he starts throwing a tantrum at me. eventually i just didnt bother giving tht shit anymore, so i stopped telling him anything abt him tht bothers me.
he had his own arguments. i was tired. but i hung on, cause i didnt want to run back to the past. i focused on the future. cause i really thought i had one with him. i kept hoping. i am one who really believes so much in hope.
but it really all was for nought. he controlled me. he told me not to go for walks at night. i was fine with tht, because i understand tht he's afraid if i, being a female bump into unnecessary trouble or what. so i didnt. and he didnt allow me play ps3 which i also understood because it was n level period.
but then one day, he told me not to go for walks at all . tht sucked. tht really sucked. i mean, walking is like my way of relieving stress. and he was always giving me stress, and it was bloody n level period ffs. of cos i'd be fucking stressed .
i fucking needed a walk, but he told me not to. we'd have a convo like this:
me: gg out for a walk now! he: alone? me: yupp! he: ok. take care. me: ok! he: actually i dont like you walking alone. me: oh dont worry, ill take care of myself. he: so u still gg? me: yupp! he: oh. ok .
and then hebe like talking in tht irritating tantrum tone . and then one day he just told me tht i aint allowed to go for walks alone, or at night, or to sch. i was like what if i get stressed? he was like, you stay home and write in ur diary.
honestly it didnt help when he tags along on my walks. and he also didnt like me walking in the rain at all. even when im like walking to the bus stop in the morn and it suddenly started pouring (so it aint my fault) , he'd be like yelling at me, saying things like why the fuck are you so dumb to walk in the rain when you know you're alr unwell.
he forbade me from making contact with irshad. when shad came over for raya, he got so damn angry when he found out. we got into an argument which sent phones flying against the wall, and botha us nearly got knocked down by car .
he didnt like me gg out with natalee, just cause his classmates have got smth against her. tht was firetrucking stoopit. he also got damn angry at me when i went ahead with the plan to study with her even aft he told me not to.
the last straw has got to be when he told me to quit my job .
first: he was the one who allowed me to apply. second: he was the one who persuaded me to go for orientation. i liked the job alr . and he told me to quit in mid nov cause he said i wouldnt be able to cope with studies and work .
his expectations were high, tht is all i can say. he said i treated him like shit. thts because i was trying not to. people become more clumsy when they try to be careful. just by saying tht, he made me feel like shit.
well , i do declare tht i didnt love him enough to try again. i was brainless . i stupidly went along with all his fucking high expectations , his orders .
i was never meant to be with him. but it did lead me to my current relationship, the true love of my life. it feels like ive never met him before. i look at his face and i dont feel for all those times ive had with him.
my being with irshad has burnt the book of memories with khairul.
but guess what? i still got butterflies whenever i see the boy in sch despite walking and smiling right next to the boyfriend. in other words... when i was with khairul , i never forgot irshad.
tht is the irrevocable truth. i lied khai . i lied to you. i am not gg to say sorry. because i will not apologize to you for having feelings. not anymore.
there was once a time, on the walkie at work, like around 9 plus to closing time uh, sery and her then colleague were picking up balls at ballocity. they placed their walkies on the fountain. then suddenly there was a very loud scream coming from the walkies .
sery told me , hayati DM came running outta the ops office ! she was like, what the fuck was that !?!?!?
hahaahhahahahah funny shit! i can imagine! hayati sia ! not some playguide you know. hayati ! funny shit. omg . i laughed like shit when sery told me. hooooo .
today, i went shopping with my mommy. SHOPPING. MOMMY.
first we went to century square cos she was looking for some long sleeved shirt to wear on the airplane. cos she's gg KL this thursday. to attend some airasia function.
so yeah, while she was trying on some stuff, i decided to walk around on my own... was abt to go to the vans section , was passing by the dresses when somehow, i got attracted to them. idk lah eh, but i actually thought the dresses were nice .
i terpikat with one particular one, and the price was like , 70. i was like =___= and then my mommy came out and then we walked out and made our way to taxi stand cause she wanted to go Nex next. haha, get it? nex next. omg.
k, so when we arrived, first thing we did was go to the toilet cos mommy was urgent. for a minute, i had my hair tucked behind my ear . but i let it down again .
walked around many random clothes shops. damn a lot of dresses. somehow, ... i couldnt help staring at the nice ones , and becoming attracted. damn. i am growing up arent i ?
mommy made me laugh a lot. hahaha. this is why i dont like gg out with her if bro is there too, or bros. cause she wont focus on me . yes, no matter what, i am still a child who wants her mother's attention.
we ate mad jack's. i got choconana for dessert ! happy happy happy , and then walked around some more . she looked around a lot . she only bought herself a belt.
and, she also bought me a dress. it's polka dot . black and white. the top is like siying's dress on grad nite... and then mommy bought me black stockings as well. damn black. and im like O:
i love my mommy no matter what. dont you love yours ?
well anyways. i have got another dare. or more like my current dare has been expanded. now i hafta be wearing like formal get-up for some special event one day. BEFORE THE END OF THIS YEAR .
and so. sorry for the short post.
this is the dress, upon request from irshad the boyfriend .
better blog abt last night's dream before i forget !
uhm, damn i am forgetting some alr. i dont rmb the exact positions. i do see what happened, but i dont rmb the order in which the shit happened.
it was grad nite. i think it was a second one, cause i rmb someone saying "good thing we have two grad nites. at least we have got a second chance to be prettier than our first grad nite." think it was siying.
the sch building was totally different. there were many buildings on the sch area , i think it was almost like a campus thingy, there was a mac's and there was a hair salon, but it was indeed our sch.
i was eating at the mac's with asleah, farizah and siying. asleah was talking abt gg to the hair salon aft eating. i said i wanted to as well, but i rmb tht i didnt have money cause i bought a bloody mcnuggets meal .
when we were eating aye, i looked out the window cause we were sitting by the glass. there were many cambodian kids , and npcc kids were next to them. then i rmb smth like a field trip/exchange programme aper entah.
oh, and then there was one part where i climbed this flight of stairs alone , with shad's hoodie around my arm. at one point someone screamed at me, and i got scared, i actually jumped down. idk how many effing levels there were, but i jumped off the building.
i effing survived sia. but then shad's hoodie got tangled somewhere, then i saw tht it caught onto some other flight of stairs uh.
the layout of tht building was weird. it's like.... k i can see it but i cant put it in words. kinda scary tho. i was wondering how the hell do i get up tht place where shad's hoodie was at. i stared up tht building for very very long.
i forgot how i got it uh.
but another part, i was with sabrina. there was another sch opp our sch , and a really big road divided these two schs. sabrina didnt know her way across cause there were so many cars. at one point i just dashed and pulled her with me, and we effing survived.
grad nite in the dream was boring. but it was similar to the one we had in real life, altho more boring. and my effing dress was effing woah. not WOAH, just woah. was it red? or was it black? i cant rmb.
i rmb being in a lift with 4/1 dudes. of cos, irshad was there, and he was right in fronta of me no less. i dont rmb what happened in tht lift tho.
i saw many crestians sprawled across the buildings tht we saw earlier. k, then i dont rmb alr. i like the parts where i jumped off the building tho. the feeling was like WOAH. not just woah, but WOAH. and i survived.
-end-
well tht was the dream tht i had aft i ran to my parents room. before tht, it was another dream of cos. come, the dream tht i had before i terbangon at 3.
i was at EK . ballpool area. it was almost closing time. i was arranging the cushions ah, which is what i always do in real life. a boy came and started playing. i thought to myself, let him play first before i go clean up uh.
you know there's like 2 sections at the toddler area? the one where the circle is at, and the one on its right? i went to the right , and i had my back at the circle area. suddenly heard the sound of a cushion being throw onto the floor.
turned. nobody was there. searched like shit, there was nobody around.
-end-
when i woke up, i ran to my parents bedroom and slept next to my mommy.
i kept thinking tht was the story tht aqilah never got to tell me. she once told me there's also smth at ballpool , but she never got to tell me tht story cos she got interrupted, and i never got the same shift as her alr.
anyway, this is what i have been listening to all morning.
just so you know, i rarely reply someone with a K . and i am irritated. i dk whether it is the phone tht did not receive the text, or the other phone tht did not send the text, or the boy tht did not reply .
finally had another day of work today! suriani had a fever and needed someone to replace her. so i offered, cause mommy didnt have any plans today aft all. glad tht i could help her!
woke up in the morning to a 1K text from maya cousie, it made me cry. aft i replied her i ws crying my eyeballs out T.T til i fell back asleep.
when i woke up, saw a text from shady asking if i'd like to meet at 10.30, so i was like yes please! and tht gave me the strength to get out of bed and get ready and all. i had planned to be early, when shady texted me "leave in 5 mins", i was alr putting on my shoes :3
but, alas, irshad was still the first to arrive. when i saw him there i sulked a bit, but then again his face is just so cute tht i had to smile, so i did. and he smiled back but im like why must you come before me all the time -_____________-
walked as always, and talked as always, irshad with his many many stories. i love listening to him :3
me: *stomach grumble* irshad: eaten alr? me: T.T no.... irshad: wanna go get smth to eat? me: it's ok. *silence* irshad: wanna go get smth to eat? me: ? it's ok... *silence* irshad: wanna go get smth to eat? and im like =______________= and he's like, you hafta eat before you work. eat before you work. even smth like a chocolate. it should do til your break time. i survived on a chocolate for a whole day before *story mode*
so stopped by ws to get some food.
i got a strawberry roll cause polar was open! i love them strawberry rolls. saw the junhong guy, he stared at me when i was buying me rolls. at first i was like =_= and then when i saw him i was like O_O and then im like :D
k, then met back with shady who was buying chocolate , and continued our way to ehub. halfway thru, he suggested we play swing. i was like, O: are you serious? the swing? the swing?? the SWING!? you're letting me play on the SWING !? and he's like =.=
heheheheheh, got so damn happy. then he said, but you finish your food first!
but then but then, there was one big effing puddle at the swings. damn. i love puddles, but i dont like tht one. cause then we couldnt play. damn it !
slacked somewhere nearby eating our stuff, and then talked some more. when he asked me to guess what skin his keychain was, i was like, crocodile. i liked the look on his face when he was like, "MM! not bad!"
he dared me to tuck my hair behind my ear (on the left side) for one whole day. yeah, he dared me. im like, what do i get ? and he's like, what do you want? and im like, i wanna go to florida. and he's like =___________________________=
in the end, settled for a 32gb memory card for cammie. i know what to do for the dare alr, ehheheheheh.
walked to e hub, talking some more. wanted to buy sweets but i realized tht if i did, i wouldnt have any money for break. told irshad i aint buying any anymore. but didnt expect tht he'd buy for me. sob. sho shweet T.T
he sent me off to work , exchanged byes and loves you before making ma way to ops office.
said hey to haryani , who was doing ticketing. hayati was in the ops office , she was surprised to see me cause suriani didnt tell her tht i was replacing her =_= so told hayati, and then nasrul came along, who was replacing syafiq, and also didnt tell hayati, so she had the same reaction to seeing nasrul . hahaha.
clocked in and did all the usual stuff, then went to cover break for changyuan who was at entrance. syeera and farhan came along, and started dancing and singing, respectively. gave them a face but i just laughed in the end.
today, i met sery. she's so pretty! i like when she smiles, and she's always laughing. she's funny also sia. i think eventually she's gonna be one of those ppl in my life who can make me laugh just by looking at them.
i like this part ! me: *telling ghost story* then jocenda kater dia nampak ader budak tengan duduk kat computer, tengan-- sery: tengan main computer?
omg, for some reason i laughed like shit sia! i couldnt stop laughing when she said tht ! the way she said it is like, funny shit la.
talked a lot with her, cos she was at megaplay while i was at ballocity, so our stations were side by side. i seriously laughed a lot with her sia!
but i couldnt stay there for long cos i was floater. decided to walk around the stations, talking to all the other ppl. first, went to ballpool where syeera was at. talked many randoms as always ah, hahahah. then went entrance, where changyuan was at.
finally managed to converse with him! he's also an NA student, from dunman. i was like, hm not bad. then went to AH, where nasrul was at. talked abt NA stuff too.
o yeah, at one part, syeera, sery and i were at ballpool. i forgot what were the circumstances tht made all 3 of us in tht station. but tht part was funny ah, syeera telling us abt the adult who buried himself in the balls. omg. we were laughing like shit sia!
eons later came the pm ppl. yongheng came and sat next to me, then sery was like talking in malay to me abt how weird the dude looked.
me: deni selenge tau. *with yong heng right next to me* sery: *smiling away* *turn to yongheng* you understand malay? yongheng: huh? no.
then sery started laughing like shit sia! funny ah, the way we were like making fun of him, right next to him, but then he's like so clueless. i'm such a douche arent i.
then yongheng showed us the rifqi dude. earlier on sery and i were wondering who's rifqi. i heard he's a male but his fb pic was female. so we were talking abt tht. he looks so damn chinese sia! like some ahbeng look. honestly ah.
sery cabot to ballpool aft tht, cos she was stationed to tht for the pm shift. (she was doing full shift) i was also stationed there, but i wanted to hang around for awhile. at 430 i had my breakkie.
ate at gr office for the first time ever, was reading my teen romance while snacking on me chicken from ock and all was peaceful and im like =_= when the door suddenly burst open. tht shocked the shit out of me and i jumped sia!
turned out to be syeera and farhan, who were wearing masks and gloves. i was staring at them like O.O they were yelling abt being doctor and nurse, and i was like WHAT HAPPENED !? i laughed like shit when farhan said, "changyuan beranak!"
hm what next ah? k ah, we just fast forward la. at 8, went to clock out. no, actually i walked around some more before clocking out, disturb the rest. wani and gin were in the ops office, when i went in, wani was like, HI EINDAH !!! and im like O.O
blah3, went paya lebar, blah3, blah3, blah3, blah3, blah3, i am home .
thinking abt my previous and current relationships,i was really deprived of a lot during the previous one. i know MKI cared for me uh, but if he really understood me he should have at least allow me to go for walks. occasionally pon jadi la sia.
i'm glad i chose my job over him then . i'm really very glad. the people here are just... i just... i love them all so much! T.T
Sunday, December 04, 2011
found GIFs of this vid on tumblr. thought i'd share the vid with ya, cause it means more than airlines doesnt it? (;
heidiho to you all my lans. I HAVE FINISHED READING THE JANUS STONE! yet another amazing book from elly griffiths (altho i've only read her first two books, inc this one) , whose genre i still have not confirmed...
anyway, i came here to share with you more interesting stuffs. (at least to me they are) i was reading my jan 2011 diary. and here i quote from an entry: and the he refers to none other than irshad noorhalim :
he positioned himself until i was seated between his legs, and hugged my waist from behind.
just like old times.
i actually cried in the dream. i cried like shit. to which he said, "don't cry lah... say Alhamdullilah." and then he hugged me, so i hugged him back.
oh, and before this part there were many more details, but im lazy so i just put the main points. the most significant part. i guess?
just like what happened on tht night at prp :3 well tht's what i thought. i happen to take my dreams seriously ok? i've had many other incidences where smth happens in real life tht is so damn familiar to a dream i once had. most of the time many months or years aft i dreamt it.
do you know why i take my dreams seriously? because, they teach me lessons. very important ones . though they dont really happen , certain incidences do happen tht teach me the similar lesson, if you get what i mean.
for example, i once dreamt where i ignored things tht were from my past. the island tht i was on was things of the past, and i was trying to run away from everything. and then when i found some, i only interacted with the things of the present/future.
dammit la, i dont rmb the details, but i told it to MKI before. needa check my msn history then, but im lazy. so nvm. but you get what i mean i hope.
so, another topic tht i wanna talk abt.
click on the piccie to see da words.
in case you were wondering, i just got bored ok, tht was why i was on random ppl's twittas. clicking random links. i ended up on hers, so i just read uh. and THIS. heheheeh. she's referring to us! she's pissed by me! heheheheh.
i think it's pretty silly for her to be making a big deal out of mine and shad's first month tgt when we're not.
but the thing tht bothered me the most was the tweet tht i zoomed on, which is the one on the right. "dont u feel hot wearing that" . it bothered me. T.T it is not my fault tht i have this condition tht makes me hafta wear hoodie all the time T.T
o well, im bored. and, i took tht pic with cammie cause screenshots are just too troublesome and laggy.
what are my plans for tmrw? idk. i hope i can replace suriani for midshift tmrw. cause i wanna help, and ive not been working for days alr and she's having a high fever, and mommy doesnt seem to have any plans for tmrw but im not so sure... i wanna help suriani !
=__________________________________= i am z bored.
you know the feeling of time going so quickly? do u know how i felt when i was reading my jan 2011 and i am in dec ? the feeling is like WOAH. not just woah, but WOAH. it's like, time flies.
but sometimes, i think to myself, "if time is really very fast, why am i still 16?" cause it just seems like such a small number. altho ive been thru so much shit all my life, it still feels like an extremely short time. yayaya i know i am young. but its not really like tht feeling.
december 2011 : what do we have here?
first things first, sabrina's 16th birthday. and then , bbq with the EK kids. followed by bloody n level results. i almost forgot abt the last. on tht last paper of the exams, when everyone literally ran out the hall , i thought the nightmare was all over.
yeah, i considered it a nightmare. and i really thought it was all over. tht i wouldnt have anything to do with it anymore. but nope, the nightmare just started. i hafta make the right choice now between sec 5 ... and ite.
i still dk. i really dk.
now i just wanna go drown myself in paragraphs of words. dont disturb me, shush. and im still waiting for the boy to wake up /:
this song, the singing one is Maika Maile from TFT (; and the background is also from his song. he does dubstep.
it was my birthday last night.
i was in a classroom tht was like joined with another classroom, and 4/2 was in my half while 4/1 in the other. and then halfway thru, some express dude came in and the teacha announced tht he was gonna make some announcement abt ocip.
aft all tht was done, he took a seat somewhere in the middle of the two classes, and then all the ppl started gathering around him and asking him all sorts of questions. i heard tht he just came back from making announcements at greenview and coral sec.
us 4/2 were all doing our own work, when suddenly the girls from 4/1 started screaming. apparently irfan said had picked up a roachie by its feelers and was like swinging it around the classroom. and it was still alive ....
we 4/2s were all staring when the bell rang, so all of us got up immediately cos i think tht was the last period for the day. i was standing around talking to the girls from my class, when irshad came along and told me smth which i forgot.
i said "sure!" and followed him out aft saying bye to the girls i was conversing with. but outside, i bumped into sabrina, shushan and siying, so i stopped to chat awhile. irshad said he'd go on ahead, so i said ok and said bye to him.
when he was gone, the three girls and i were like staring at one another, and i rmb sabrina saying "now what?" i had a lot of nuggets in my pocket you know, i rmb i kept taking one and popping it into my mouth. there was like unlimited supply in there.
blah3, i walked to canteen with siying. saw irshad sitting by the bookshop, and then he said his twin wanna eat first. so i was like, ok and then i said bye to siying and sat next to irshad.
apparently, the twins wanted to celebrate my bday with me :3 and i recall tht it was my 16th. i rmb thinking to myself, "time is so fast, i could have sworn tht my 15th bday was just ytd." , smth like tht.
it started raining. irshad told me to go home first and change, smth like tht, so i said ok and went on ahead. k this part i dont rmb alr, but i rmb another part tht i was walking back to sch.
ppl from our sch were like playing their ccas by the roadside. i was walking the t junction where the sbs buses would go into the interchange, when i walked in the middle of softball ppl. the ball hit me, and they told me to toss it back to them, but somehow i couldnt get a grip on the ball at all.
and then irshad texted me, saying tht there were ppl from our sch who were not happy with what ive been writing in my diary. was it diary or blog, idr. he said three girls, and he gave me names, but i only rmb aleena soenarto and syaza nazeirah.
when i got to sch, i was so cold tht i put on irshad's hoodie (yes i was wearing it) the same way i cuddled under sha's jacket the other time when i was freezing at work. i was wearing skinnies in the dream , i rmb. but i still walked into sch.
i was walking the lane from the mirrors at the canteen to the toilet , when i saw syafie scolding some kids. tried to sneak past, but in the end i heard him call out, "eindah! clip up your hair ! your hair is tied up so wrongly!"
i didnt look back and just dashed to the girls toilet, still wrapped up in shad's hoodie. when i got to the toilet, i looked at the mirror. my hair wasnt even tied up.
sneaked out of the toilet some time later (o and the toilet cubicle doors were so low - they always are in my dreams...) checking for syafie. didnt see him, so dashed to where irshad and his twin were sitting at earlier.
some npcc dudes were seated at the canteen. i saw khairul irfan staring at me. like, his glance obviously followed me as i was running past. i stopped by tht particular pillar by the lane, and glared back at him. and then there was a staring competition.
secs later i just shook my head and ran to where i was running to earlier. i dont rmb this part alr...
but guess what, when i got home, which was at night, my father said he's heard of the stories abt the girls who were not happy with what ive been writing. he lectured me in my bedroom, and then he said i dont deserve to have a lappy.
i didnt have a whit of emotion when he took my lappy. not until he took my diary. i started screaming. i still can hear those screams, they were LOUD. i couldnt stop screaming, but my father just walked out with both my lappy and my diary.
i screamed "gimme back my diary! gimme back!" and i was crying my eyeballs out, and bawling like a baby. my father slammed the door and i heard a lock of some sort. i started banging on the door screaming and yelling for my precious diary.
and then i woke up.
a very very good morning to all of ya! how was your sleep? mine must have been good, cause if i had a super long continuous dream, most probz i didnt terbangon at all. i know my dreams, i know what i am saying.
i didnt know there are alr ppl living in the condo opposite my house. tht sucks. i dont like the way they look . (altho i only saw them from the ninth floor...) i dislike ppl who live in condo you know. you know tht ?
it is a beautiful morning and my older bro ordered mac's breakkie for his little siblings :3
but there seemed to be smth on irshad's mind.. i know he still busy man , but i still appreciate the fact tht we did manage to text a little this morn.
currently uploading the shit for 30th nov. not much footage but still wanna upload for them memories. cos timothy is a subber, he might wanna watch the vid for his chalet, heheheheh. i've few subbers, so i appreciate them all with all my heart.
ok, ive blogged abt my dream alr this morn. this is alr a long post. imma go read a book now ok? while waiting for the vid to upload. cant open twitta too much, or it'll affect the uploading. (yes it does, i observed)
ok, i shall blog again later in the night.
and yeah ,.... the dream is on my mind all morning.
went to ws with naz today. hehehehe. but we ate at home, so we didnt go anywhere to eat. slacked at the library reading, i was randomly browsing thru books and i ended up borrowing a teen romance again =_=
then we took the bus back to elias mall and i got myself some paos while bro went to stationery shop forawhile, and when we got back home, the incredibles was playing ^_^ i've always liked tht movie, heheheheh.
bro said i look like violet -____- i suddenly rmb in the past, a lot of ppl said so too . and on my second day at work, some of the EK kids also said so. and then just now when checking my fb, even my DM says so ! -___________-
and my DM even posted this pic on my wall .
the hair, the hair. they keep saying it's the hair =___=
well yeah, i admit the fact tht my hair covers half my face all the time. but i did cut it shorter ok! the last time i cut my fringe was on grad nite day , which was quite recent ok =___= and i cut bangs before. and i clip up during assemblies sometimes!
ah. i have been having contact with long-haired brunettes these days. first there was sunako nakahara, the girl in my dreams, and violet parr. mmhmm.
ok, what topics do we have today? oh yeah, DM jasleena says tht jennifer OM says tht anyone caught not smiling on the job will have to wear santa claus uniform. and im like, O: (you all know how jennifer always picks on me abt my lack of smile!!!)
o well. i can do it man. i can smile. see?
irshad has been busy man today. cos he got brownies to bake. now he's alr done, yay! but he needs his rest, so imma not be texting him much tonight uh. tho i miss him, i know i have to get used to not seeing him everyday.
i've lived without him for the first 13 years of my life. aft falling in love with him, even saying goodbye hurts a lot. cause each time i watch him walk away from me, all i can think of is when is the next time imma see you..?
each time he left my life, i survived the time without him. but each time he returned, i miss him aft each time he is gone for only a few mins. get what i mean? tho idk why we are discussing this :3
read siying's response post. actually wanted to cry, heheheheh! thank you Si Ying xD
i dont seem to have anything relevant to talk abt today. hmmm . oh yes, jasleena organized bbq for us EK kids on the 17th. potluck she says. everyone hafta bring a food, and i didnt know what to bring when irshad gave me the idea: his awesome brownies!
idk why i didnt think of it when he asked me if i wanted to buy anything. i only thought of it late evening.
these days irshad busy man sey. sigh. and ive no work til idk, cos i needa go over and see what available slots there are. i would wanna work on 8th to 10th uh.
hmmmhhnhhhmmmhnhmhnhmmnmhmhnmhmhnmhnh maybe we should go read a book now. goodnight to all of ya. i miss irshad, hopefully we'd be able to text tmrw morn, in bed. i miss tht, heheheheheh. no, sigh.
O______________________________O WHAT . THE . FIRETRUCK ?
so i woke up, to see a text from shady. replied it. and then i was waiting for him to reply back, but he didnt. and i'm like there staring at the ceiling with my palm on my phone like an idiot, just waiting. and waiting. but no text.
thought he'd be waiting online or what, so tht's where i went. but he aint. like whaaat ? i wanted to stay in bed, but i turned on my lappy cause i thought he'd be like waiting.
ok, nvm. shall not be pissed abt tht.
good morning to all of you!
couldnt sleep last night. got myself mac's at 2am, and tht was when all the wonders of the world came into my thoughts. and then at one point i was like, "why do girls make a big deal if they eat mac's in the middle of the night?" and im like is there smth wrong with it? seems fine to me.
so well anyway. i woke up at like 12 plus? fell asleep at 7 i think, when my room was getting brighter and brighter with the natural light. wanted to go down again to get food, but i was lazy.
i've always said tht waking up to have the beautiful sun in your face is like a sign tht you are gonna have a great day ahead. what if, with the sun in my face, i go to sleep instead ? would it mean a great dream ahead? cause tht'd be great.
woah, firetrucked, tht rhymed...
k, i am bored. it's a beautiful afternoon, tho i am very very hungry right now. i dont rmb my dreams , or not i would have shared them alr. still waiting for shady's reply, and siying's response post. sigh, o well. i am z used to z waiting.
2011 is coming to a close. but, i will not judge the year yet, because december just arrived. we've just been thru 11 out of 12 months, we cant say tht this year was the best, or worst. in my opinion of course...
i am bored. so, i shall show you pictures from 2010. why 2010 you ask? because, 2011 has not ended yet! k, idk la. just enjoy la eh? siying can reminisce.
mmmm. oreo is kinda nice when it's frozen.
oh, the memories of langkawi ! heheheheh.
okay. i am done for now. cant wait to get started on 2011 tribute vid, and to upload pics of 2011 on this here bloggie. heheheheh. yah, siying can reminisce.
i am bored.
so, i shall do a song analysis, if tht's what you call it...
i'm just going to depict what i think this song means. cause, i am bored.
k, we shall do Stories by TFT. *i skip some parts cos i somehow find them insignificant*
A cold night wasn't trouble enough for him Another swallow never seemed like enough for him
maybe cos this 'him' has been doing drugs, cause of the 'swallow'. a 'cold night' probably means a night in prison or smth, a prison cell. probz mean to say, to him it's nth cos he's probably been thru worse.
He couldn't ask for a better understanding of how What goes around comes back around twice as fast He's got no hope for a cure so he'll put himself to sleep
the 'he' in here is probably someone with a disease. maybe he doesnt want to trouble his family with this disease of his, so he decides to just kill himself.
Now we just sit back, we sit back While we watch all of them react
while we watch these ppl with problems tell us stories, we just watch their emotions unfold. react could also mean re-act.
She always hoped for him to take her word for word Never knew what it felt like feeling this unsure She's got her eyes on the time but there's no use waiting there for him She's not in the world alone but she wanted to put herself to sleep
maybe this 'she' confessed her love for someone. but the guy didnt take her seriously. and she's like waiting for his answer. but it never came. and so, just cos he didnt accept her, she thinks she's got nobody else, and she just wanna kill herself.
k, this is just what i think la. i love to do this. like depict what songs are tryna mean. i may not be 100% accurate, but it doesnt matter. as long as i find a meaning tht teaches me smth, thts all tht matters .
altogether, i think Stories is a reminder tht out there, there is always someone who is willing to listen to your stories, to what you have to say, to listen to you. so instead of committing suicide (Christopher did say the song is abt teenage suicide), you should just tell ppl what's troubling you.
i've said this before, stories are very important. im not gg to repeat myself cos ive talked abt the topic stories before. so, do tell others your stories. and do listen to others' stories.
you simply must hear this! although, you wouldnt like it much unless you know the real song uh. which... i assume siying and irshad has not heard before. damn. o well. i like it though!
anyway, a very very good evening to you. i had a short nap earlier, heheheh. uhm, i do rmb the dream i had last night. i see it. but idk how to put it in words. damn, the best time to share a dream is always immediately upon waking up.
ok well anyway. spent the whole day reading. reading, and writing. reading, writing, reading, writing. my two first loves.
o yeah, when i woke up from my nap, texted irshad and then went back to sleep. and then i got a text from anonymous number, wishing me happy 1st monthsary. the number was shad's ex, cos i rmb him saying her number ends and starts with 9.
i was like ugh. she's been hell bent on getting a response from me or smth. how the hell did she get my number sey?
k nvm, ate sweet and sour fish today, twice! heheheheh. i didnt go out today, stayed home and slept. my bro was on the PS3 when i woke up, so couldnt really play tht.
you know aye, i have been texting with this anonymous number for quite some time alr. like, since prelim time. 17th aug. he/she texted me in the morn when i was sleeping, gg all "where are you? everyone is waiting for you!" accompanied by many missed calls.
tht made me panic. i thought there was sch, cos on tht day i had no exam, tht's why i stayed home. then the person told me to go to the AVA room cos all the prefects were waiting.
i was like, k, definitely wrong number. so i went back to sleep. then s/he called me again! spammed calls and texts. i fed up, i replied saying "ok! i'm on the way there alr." and tht seemed to do the trick.
over the next few days, i always just layan the texts. up til now, the person is still texting me, telling me abt meetings and attire and all tht. i just reply uh, sometimes asking stupid questions. cos apparently the identity tht the person thought i was, is a sec 2 prefect/councillior. which is what i aint, so sometimes when the person told me attire for sec 2, i would ask "then sec 4 leh???" things like tht. it always pisses her/him off sey!
i know it's very busted, but it's damn fun. it entertains me, although sometimes in the morn i get damn pissed when i wake up to see a text, hoping it is from boyfriend but it's from the person, whom i saved the number as Victim.
ok let's jump to the next lily pad.
i started blogging when i was in pri 5. during all those times, i blogged like mostly short stories tht i've read up abt. sometimes i made up stories too. my audience was my classmates and my teacher from my 2006 class. oh the memories.
but ughyouulan was only from late 2007, if you were to look at the archives. tht's cos i deleted my previous one and made a new one. truth is, ive had many different URLs before ughyouulan came abt. numerous. a lotta nonsensical ones too uh.
i hardly have any audience now. i only have, siying and irshad whom i know reads my bloggie frequently. i appreciate them a lot , it doesnt matter tht my bloggie is like so unknown now. altho, i'd like to have more readers... cos, i would like to have ppl read what i hafta say . hehehe.
uhm! k la, shall we jump to another topic or just stop talking alr ?
stop here uh.
but, time goes on even when you're sleeping. just cos someone aint there to give you motivation 24/7, doesnt mean you arent able to go on right?
heidiho. well. let's go thru the day now shall we? i've got pics but my cammie aint with me right now. shall get to tht soon.
so well anyways, went to tamp lib to meet up with azreenie. when she saw me she was like OMG eindah! and then she hugged me, aw! then we made our way to mrt station back to pasir ris cos she said she had to go to EK to take uniform deposit.
well i had to go too, cos i wanted to take my pay. so we decided to slack around dte/ehub before gg to EK, cos i could only take my pay at aft 530.
went to mccafe and slack awhile while talking and drinking. haryani stopped by, and her tongue piercing shocked azreenie like hell. when haryaniwas gone, azz kept repeating omg what happened to yani sia.
and tht was when we started talking abt all the ppl at EK. she told me some stories which i should not publish in here cos they are still personal shit. thank you for your understanding (:
when it was like 530, went up to EK to do our respective shit. izan talked to us while waiting for jasleena, i like it when i asked her is jasleena inside and she was like, yes darliiinggg. hehehe.
went to see who was doing entrance, jing hui ! haha, so went to disturb him, and ask all the usuals. said bye, then made our way to romantic place cos wanted to slack there. but halfway thru azreenie got tired so we just slacked somewhere halfway thru, heheh.
talked some more. confided all the shit, told each other all the stuff tht we never knew abt each other. talked abt what we thought of other EK ppl, and then talked abt our boyfriends, the current and the exes.
her story is so similar to mine. and she's been thru a lot of what ive been thru. at the end of it all, azreenie looked at me and said, "i'm thankful to have met you in life."
THAT made me so happy! they really mean a lot to me, those words. omg. i was so damn happy when i heard tht. she said cos she's never met anyone who's ever understood her like tht, or been thru what she has, or is able to be trusted by her.
well. bonded with her a lot today. and then we camwhored , cos no matter what we've been thru, we are still girls.
i like the way she laughs aft every shot. hahaah, damn cute sia. like so damn happy, hehehe. she said she's never tried posing/showing faces whenever camwhoring before. she said im cool, heheheheh.
o yes, and i love the fact tht our music tastes are similar. heheheh!
and then walked to ws cos needed to take train. k ah, we fast forward k?
met up with bros and mommy. BROS. im damn grateful with the plurality. but guess what, halfway thru, the whole outing got firetrucked.
1. nazriq merajok with me just cos i kept pestering him to buy either assassin's creed or uncharted 3. 2. my mommy met up with her airasia friend and they were like gg shopping tgt. 3. when she came back from trip with her friend, naqib's girlfriend pulak came along.
bloody hell, point #3 was the most firetrucked up. my mommy effing gave her money sia, idk for what sia. and i was there but i was invisible or what, the 3 of them chatting like i aint even there. the more i looked at her, the more pissed i got, so i just walked off.
i hate her. i hate her. i hate her.
headed home, and my mommy didnt text me. which meant she obviously didnt notice me missing at all, bloody hell. damn disappointed. i thought i could bond with them three, my brothers and mommy. but no, extra ppl just had to show up right?
texted my father. but he was still at work. sat at the mrt platform trying to suck in the tears. damn fucked up.
kk. dont cry now man. eindah's a strong girl. eindah's a strong girl. there there. it's all over, everyone's home alr. dont cry now. shhh.
