national day 2011 !

k, today is the 8th! aka the day we all celebrate national day , which is tmrw.

hurried to sch , today i didnt walk my usual route, took a long cut. but still managed to catch the 630 bus. the bus was so red, so lively. cos red represents life ! hm k then what? khai kept rushing me. then i almost got irritated cos orang tengan sakit perut , susah jugak sey nak jalan cepat .

k then i saw him , made me damn bloody happy sia. then he passed me camcorder, taught me to press this and press this to record, to stop, then he had to go. tak sempat say all the best/i love you sia...

k then i went canteen alone to slack on my own, playing with corderie before making my way up to third floor cos thts where 4/2 was supposed to be. i took my time gg up , cos still had a little stomachache. but i was still first in 4/2 , wow.




blah3, when khai was like baru start giving commands, tht horrible stomachache came back. but i endured! hahaha i strong girl . i just Stayed rooted, then before i knew it , it was like gone.

aaaaah khai so hot eh. ♥

he give commands so loud , i also got occasionally terpranjat. my 4/2 peeps kept making fun of me , disturbing me haha. cos he's my khai.

blah3, i sang national anthem and said pledge with pride u know. oh, ncc girls damn cute. hahaha. their idk what drill it is called. damn cute. and also got my amirah dota ! npcc also, my khai damn hot.

i was chanting his name in my head all along . then for one sec , for ONE sec when i didnt, he dropped his rifle. i was shocked lah sia . but then i just Continue look at him, but this time never chant his name.

he also didnt manage to do the around his back part properly uh, but i still find it beautiful :D

k then we went hall ! camwhored while waiting for stuff to start .






idk why my left antenna today like so long.

sat at the side cos i thought got possibility to sit next to khai keper. but then tak, boohoo. oh well, k then what? yes, camwhored, camwhored, camwhored. the whole class camwhoring away sia! i only record, i dont snap.




blah3, i very hyper uh. then asleah kept making me laugh! the part where mrs woo was giving speech, then she said good morning principal, hahaha ! eh i find it funny ok?

when i saw part of dhiya's video being shown uh.... i damn jealous sia! IF you were to compare us tgt , im like nowhere near him uh. duh, he use some kinda software tht needa be paid to be used.

tried to spot my khai but he was so faraway!

the ncc boys perform also nice eh. haha, like so cool. i kept gg all jakonist. then the hentak part like so fierce, i like sia.

aper lagi eh? i like the last part, i was like hyper alr, dancing abt and jumping like monyet kena belacan. then at one point saw khai. he so sweet sia, his smile! ♥ so i smile back lah haha.

blah3, went to parade sq area to camwhore with the girls, and whoever else who walkes by.












k, then when khai texted tht he's at gate alr, i told the girls tht i had to go. asleah started gg all, "oh ok lor, like tht lor, like tht." something like tht ah. i got a little bit pissed ah, a LITTLE BIT. cos i camwhore with them alr what, right? lamer pulak tu.

then another thing tht upset me was tht, didnt manage to take photo with khai in his light blue uniform sia. sigh. then he took with other ppl, i sad sia, i jealous eh. he said cos i didnt go to him. but it's cos i saw him ushering ppl then i thought he budy mah... hm, oh well.

went home with khai as always , slacked awhile and camwhored !





...and then we parted ways . the parting was sad. and then on my walk home, i suddenly remembered how i wasnt able to take pic with his light blue uni ... and then my eyes were tearing again.

yes, i know you may find it a silly reason to be crying abt, but udk how much it really meant to me. oh well. what's over stays over.

and khai so hot in this!



♥
whenever he sends me a pic via msn, i just Cant help pressing the Save button.

one gossip session !

i suddenly feel like gossipping abt shahirah khair eh.

idk, i suddenly remembered aisyah A H telling me, tht there was one time she put smth abt me as her status ah. so earlier on i got bored, then i went to see friendship between her and irshad noorhalim, cos confirm he would have commented on it lah, right ?

k, then i scroll all the way , then i found it. then she said i attention seeker eh! D: i see her like more attention seeker leh. she's the one who's always putting emo statuses, all the act cute ones, THT'S what i call attention seeker eh.

then muzzy commented on it and agreed with her. sedih per, my own best friend sia. then he said what, idk what his bandmates sided me. wth? it's true sia, it's his drummer added me eh , then muzzy said i stalked him. sedih per.

then she said she hates me. i never before said i hate her tau. then she said i hate me before even knowing me. marah ah. and sedih. then she was the one who fb messaged me like not even one month ago , saying she dk why i hate her and all tht. i hate her ah ? sejak biler eh.

k dah. i lazy alr, hehe.

went w/s with nazriq earlier, terserempak with khai. idk ah, i like so damn happy to see them talking to each other :D i love them both.

i dont want to lose him either.

ok, this morning's dream! had a nap at like 7 plus .

there was a fest of some sort in the sch hall uh. then i was with asleah and siying , or was it shushan and siying ? k i think it's asleah and siying. we were all like eating (even though i rmb tht it was fasting month) , i rmb eating chocolate eggs .

hm then at one point the host told us to get up and dance uh. i rmb dancing with jingyu . then, i was like walking abt holding up a thumbs up , whens some guy slapped my hand tht was doing the thumbs up .

i straightway not happy , and siying told me to chill. i said to her , "people over here happy right?! if he not happy dont stay here lah!" then i started kicking random stuff around. i rmb taking a chair and flinging it upside down.

i saw khai , with dan and ham and dhiya i think . he was staring at me , then i saw tht he texted me, saying smth like "i saw.." then idk alr. yeah tht's it.



another part, there was a sort of flashmob meeting. i rmb all the flashmob ppl around , then we were like rehearsing or smth like tht. the MT room was the sch hall, as in the sch hall was in the place of the MT room .

i rmb slacking one corner with khai while watching someone (whom i cant rmb alr) rehearse her part. fast forwarde, i dont rmb much alr, but then i rmb us flashmob ppl gathered and seated at the lane from classroom block towards hall.

i think it was mr syafie, he was punishing us, but i dont rmb why. he told us to stay there, which we all did. then i move to khai then sempat cuddle abit :D oh and i rmb his specs frames were black! so hot, hehe.

and another part when i went to guillemard, but there was no sign of any of the 6 cats . i asked my grandma, then she said tht all of them have been sent away or smth like tht. sedih sia!!!

and yeah, tht's it.

fell asleep on my notebooks cos was waiting for khai to wake up so tht he could go offline. i spam him sampai nak mampos , cos if not his bbry battery low sey! but i feel so silly cos in the end i fell asleep myself. and my comp shut itself down cos its battery died.

phew. had 3 papers in a day today . yes, today was the start of my prelims !

went to sch with khai , he sent me to class (kinda) before the start of my second paper , and we took the same bus tgt home. hehe , happy ah!

aft sch , stayed back in class for awhile to put up ndp deco. somehow we were all so enthu haha. occasionally watched khai shout , cos he parade commander. everyone was coming to me and saying , "hey ur khai has a super loud voice uh!" then i so proud of him :D

k bottom line is i love him ok ?

oh, and i had fun staying back with my beloved 4/2. namely asleah, siying, amirah, eli, shihying, wanxuan, farhan, faiz tarmizi. hehehe . i love them all so much :D

btw , something tht happened today triggered 2 things in me. firstly, i might wanna start writing letters to ppl again . secondly , i love khai alot more now. so much more than ever before.

im gg to take care of him until it's time for me to go . which wont be anytime soon, cos i alr told myself tht i wont leave him anytime soon . not yet. sigh .

good news , i've gotten one thing off my chest. i've finally told him what i've kept to myself for months . all this while. sigh. k , i'm happy . like finally told him lah.

if just Her name was enough to make me shiver and go down on my knees , how would i react if i were to look at her face to face ?

remind me to confess something to you one day .
in person.
right place, right time.

thanks , i love you khai .

why is it tht he never falls when i'm right next to him ? why is it tht he always crack only when i'm alr so faraway from him ? i wish i can run to him right now and hug him tight with no intentions of letting go .

not an awesome day

today wasnt another one of my fave days .

first things first, woke up late. thanks to me , all my other family members didnt manage to sahur. cos i'm their alarm clock ; if i dont wake up, they dont. yeah, something happened to my alarm and i didnt wake up at 530.

woke up at 6 , thus causing me to rush. tied my hair anyhow , before making my way to the bus stop . blah3 , slacked at canteen with my khai for awhile. halfway thru i realised tht i forgot to bring my entry proof !

the funny thing was tht when i banged the table , the kid next to me was like so shocked ! ask khai , he was like smiling to himself hahaha . hm k then what?

aft flag raising i went office to get permission to leave sch. the office staff asked me to ask mr singh, and mr singh asked me to ask mr syafie , and aft finally finding mr syafie, he told me to go office to sign some thingy .

i just Went to normal lessons , then blah3, had to stay back aft MT cos i didnt do my work. uh huh, then when i was finally dismissed i went to office again . turned out tht i needed mr syafie's signature on the bloody form and he was in a bloody meeting .

waited there for idk how many donkey minutes, but in the end the office staff was like, "think u come back here at like 1110." so i went off again .... but i didnt go back at 1110.

fell asleep during maths again. sigh. i tried ok ? mrs woo passed by when i was sleeping , grace and timothy tried to wake me up but it was too late. the princi dragged me out of the classroom and gave me a lecture before asking me to go back into classroom and to pay attention.

next , had ss. i had a tummyache since like the whole morning , and at tht period i couldnt take it anymore. so i asked ms poh if i could go to toilet. she was like , "during my lesson u always find an excuse to get out of class . either tht, or you'd be sleeping."

like wtf ! i rarely go toilet in her lessons sia! and i've never slept in geog before sey! of course i had to stand up for myself so i was like , "eh wahlau, i don't sleep in ur lesson sia." then she was like, "oh really? i must have been seeing a ghost then."

i wanted to jawab but asleah gave me some signals telling me not to show attitude. so i just Remained quiet although i was like boiling . i was like a spoilt kettle, my water inside is boiling but i'm unable to make a sound .

so of cos it left her to add more stuff to say , talk abt my hair , and then suddenly picked on my skirt. like wtf! whats wrong with her sia! like suddenly pick on me eh . tak buat aper aper langsong sia , mintak nak gy tandas je! and i was having tht horrible pain since morning sia.

a few mins later us malays were dismissed to go to coral for our oral. asleah followed me home to get my entry proof, since i couldnt be bothered with the office system anymore. we only had one hour.

when i got home i couldnt find the bloody entry proof sia. the last place i put it at was on my desk sia! i carik sampai nak mampos , and the fan wasnt even turned on and i was sweating like shit. finally found it among a mess of random papers, like wtf. idk how the f it got there.

discovered tht i was late, ended up taking taxi and wasting my god damn money , and then blah3 i think tht's the end of my horribe-lity.

my MT oral went ultra smoothly i tell you. while waiting my turn , talked alot with the other girls, namely nabilah , asleah, fazerah, khairiana, syazana and amalina. abt relationships, and then i started missing my khai a lot more sia ):

k then what? waited for each other at the canteen . blah3, when amalina was done we all made our way out.

at 5 plus went out again, met up with asleah. blah3, then went to buy food. blah3, parted then i slacked at east cc awhile, just Like in the mornings when waiting for my priscilla. i miss tht so much.

blah3, khai was done, walked to sch , but i surrendered and stopped at ish bus stop. was too tired. had a long day. seeing khai energized me a little, but sadly it didnt last cos halfway thru the bus ride he got upset at me , cos i looked at his friend when he was talking . sigh.

when i got home, straightway helped my mom to siap the makanan. ended off the day with eating at the dinner table with my mom and BOTH my brothers, which was so much of a rarity.

i'm so tired.
so very the tired
but look at this!



wowee. he's so handsome. ♥

today was first day of bulan ramadhan! aka bulan puasa. aka fasting month. k im sure nobody here needs an explaination.

started off the day good, went sch with my khai. he smells so good in the mornings can? alighted at es paris to walk to sch. alot funny crap lah, i love him so much . in sch, walked around cos we didnt really slack at canteen .

sigh, he's so cute can? i'm so glad he's mine!

today was the art deadline. went art room for recess , and aft sch as well. idk why but i slept alot today. was made to stand during english and physics seemed to last for like 4 seconds only. locked eyes with khai across the building, heh.

geog , and then maths. maths was boring. think ms huang cant be bothered abt me alr sey... idk why i just Cant stay awake ok ? sigh.

pc was fun , one half of the class did the class deco and the other half did some other ndp stuff. i was there recording footage, until the bell rang. made my way to art room with siying, slept awhile.

when i woke up, the sec 3/2/1s were done with their common test . blah3, khai is so cute when he yells Oy, haha.

blah3, art was so intense! everyone was rushing like shit. i was there recording stuff , cos i was done with mine hahaha. hm, aft art, waited at canteen for khai, cos it was empty. for once nobody sent no one home , which is a nice change once in a while?

k then what ? buka-ed with my mom and adek . mm hmm... i'm grateful .

THREE DEARS IN ONE DAY ♥

sup my lans ! past few days were awesome. asleah and i are together again hehe. it's thanks to siying haha . k so what happened ytd eh?

k, self study was so empty. cos most of the chinese had their MT n level oral , and the malay guys were off to the masjid, so it was like, mostly malay girls left ah. did some chem. halfway thru got despo for the chemical symbols of nitrogen oxide.

ok , p.e., asleah had to leave halfway for nyaa . played basketball with zharfan, fazerah, phyllis and syafiq. the girls kept getting awed cos i kept getting the ball into the hoop, hehe. then i played badminton with titus and irshad, against 3 other guys from 4/1.

yeah, with irshad. "douchebag". but i've moved on ok?

then watched farhan and the faizes play sepak takraw with zak . yeah, fun ah. first time played alot of P.E. with alot of ppl. oh, and there was one part where mr ong and ms adimah came out from the store , then we were all like , "oooohhhhhhhh!" hahahaha! i've got footage.

k , did art til like 630 plus, when the classroom started getting flooded with sec 3s aft their nyaa ceremony. walked down with siying and hafiz . we were the only ones in the art room , kept playing song aft song aft song aft song .

was waiting for siying to come out from toilet when hafiz had to go as well. some dude bumped into him , then hafiz face like black sia. i was like, shit. then blah3, they had a fight, had to hold hafiz back.

siying grabbed his bag , but then he just Let it off his shoulders. tht made siying laugh , sempat sia she! then i stood between him and the dude , then blah3, ppl were yelling (siying, hafiz and me) then blah3 , he went toilet with tht black face then we walked out of sch tgt.

bonded lah, thru tht incident.

and then right now i'm leaning against the wall with my comp , and typing away. aw damn, this is quite a comfy position !

k, as for today. went to eat brekkie with siying and amirah azhari, my daughter . talked, laughed, gossiped, walked. then blah3, amirah's friend came then siying and i made our way to sch. did abit of art , i really appreciate hers and pearl's help!

k then what? oh, i watched the npcc do their pds. khai so hot!

went central at 1230 plus, with siying, bought food then bubble tea , and then i waited at the bus stop for my khai. he came, then we walked to the previous stop. talked alot crap as always , then he made me laugh when i was drinking, ish,.

took bus , walked him home , then went to his usual place then he asked for hug haha. then in exchange we kissed, then blah3. met again at like 4 for awhile. slacked at carpark rooftop .

seriously i love him so much sey :D
blah3, went w/s, then i went home.


me and my amirah dota xD

i've got a confession to make .

i'm in love .

and i'm not just Saying it, i really am.
with Muhammad Khairul Irfan.

no matter what happens , i'm gg to stick with him. there's no one else like him. there's no other for me . i want him, i need him, and i know he wants me , but most importantly is tht he needs me. i'll do whatever it takes .

i'm willing to wait til he completely forgets the past . i'm willing to stay with my hands around his , my head on his shoulder , occasional kisses . and periodically he's gg to remember stuff and get upset . but no matter how much he shakes and shivers , i'll hold on tight .

i'm willing to listen to him , his whines and complains, his stories . i'll listen to them all. and no matter what , i'm only gg to express my own feelings when he's finished talking. his feelings would be more important when the spotlight's on him .

i may not predict it if he breaks one day . but i'm gg to be there to hold his pieces together. if i let go of him , his pieces would fall to the ground and shatter , so i'm just Gg to hold them in one hand while i struggle with the glue using my other. it may be difficult , but my struggles will be worth it when i see him as one again .

i'll walk together with him. for as long as he wants , and to go as far as he wishes. when he gets tired , i'll stop and stay with him , and await until he gets his strength back or give him some of mine, no matter how little i have left for myself .

if he's hyper though i'm very tired , i'll keep up. i'll pick up speed if necessary , i just Wont stop or slower my speed , bcos all i want is to just Stay by his side .

khairul irfan , i love you .

i want you to know tht, and to remember tht always .

tears .

sup my lans . syafie gave us sec 4 girls a lecture this morning. now for every one time we get caught for hair etc, we'll be given detention straightway. thanks a lot eindah.

k i stayed for art til 620 today ! but still felt like shit halfway , as always. had a very motivational song playing on repeat though. hehe.

went home with khai and naim , sent khai to his house , chit chatted at his place before he finally had his chance of showing me his way of kissing. reached home at like 8.

nowadays i only have him and siying . and a little bit of amirah occasionally.

he left me wanting more

sup my lans ! today was awesome cos i bonded with both my darlings Venusys Si Ying and Khairul Irfan :D !

asleah was still giving me some attitude . i didnt counter attack though, i did try to talk to her like normal. blah3 , aft sch went home and changed before gg out again to meet siying ! got cup walker , then went to asli village!

while waiting for our satay we saw cameras and suhaila salam (siying didnt know her name lah of course), like 2 tables away . like i was in camerashot , i kept on act shy shy but i was actually damn jakonist .

walked to ws next , got the iced egg . i got chocolate this time , while siying got apple lime. i was disappointed cos siying's didnt burst like my first one did , cos she didnt get to experience. almost cried sia.

went basement to buy pancake pulak . at least siying satisfied 2 of her cravings ! k then we walked to sch , went to our old slack spots of 2009 . so many of the cats grown up alr !

oh aye, at one point there was a bee smack dab in her face , and she started screaming and then a nearby cat got so stunned and ran away , omg tht whole scene damn bloody amusing sia!!

i didnt see blink today , but saw 3 and 4 , both of whom i still cant tell apart and whom i still havent given official names too . k , walked to sch's 17 bus stop , stopping by spc for aircon. took 17 for one stop with siying , went east cc awhile .

blah3 , went sch bus stop , walked back, and met khairul pulak. on the bus , he held my hand as he slept on my shoulder , aw... then at his house , hugged and sempat 2 (very brief!) rounds of french kiss . hehe. to say the truth he kinda caught me by surprise.

k then went to compass point with my mom , saw aidil and aimi ! dah lamer tak jumper, miss them siol . boohoo.

k dah tht's all.
i kinda despo to RD now! with my bestie Siying :D
think she's my only bestie right now. /: idk what's wrong with the rest.

guess what , i'm stressing out over the 4/2 surprise .
and abt the grad night vid too .

when will i be done ?!

he always end the sch week .

i love fridays !

alrighty , let me just Go thru today . went sch with khai , slacked at canteen before slacking at mt place , and then walked one round second floor before he sent me to 4/2 , which he insisted on. then blah3 , during cme was kinda slack .

did project with siying and shushan , before gg around class to record random moments . and then blah3 , it was maths which was boring as always . aft tht was lunch , went canteen on my own cos asleah walked on ahead again .

halfway thru lunch went off with siying to slack off at old places , and chit chatting abt random stuff. she told me tht asleah said to her , "i dunno why eindah not talking to me." banyak! i was so angry when i heard tht sia , serious.

played with the girls during pe including asleah , and i did try to joke with her again but to no avail, still .

went w/s with siying , alot of funny stuff tht i did laugh abt ! and then went back to art, did some before gg to play piano at canteen cos siying despo haha . but i played a little too , the few songs tht i knew.

yah timothy liar !

k, what next ? siying went off at 6 , and i was like sitting peacefully, listening to my songs when afnan they all came and kept hentak hentak the table tht i was sitting at, like wtf... and then syafie came along and was like , telling all of us to leave .

i stared at him , like glare ah, then he was like, "what , are u deaf ?!" -.- blah3 , went to bus stop and then khai came, walked to central , i sempat buy prepaid card while waiting for 358 . oh and when khai was running tht time so cute !

blah3, sent him home as always . dan danial dan was on the bus in front of us , i think i kinda narrowed the distance between us alr, i hope. hmm, then at the lift there khai and i hugged , like finally, hahah . i loved it.

yeah k dah.

asleah was like showing me some shit attitude today . i do know why i think , tht's why this morning i just Talked to her like normal hoping i could like lighten up the situation or what . she sits next to me in parade sq every morn .

so as always i told her all my random comments ah . then she kept on like, saying "oh." and nodding her head and avoiding eye contact with me. which is obviously like smth wrong ah . i know her ok -.-

tu takpe ah , i still talked to her like normal but getting ignored totally , yet i wasnt tht pissed . but then ah, during maths . you see ah, among our clique, the 8 of us are like split into 3 different classes . asleah and i happen to be in the same one. so since she didnt talk to me , i just Slept thru out the relief period ah.

so the thing is , nobody woke me up when the bell rang . including asleah. so i missed my lunch period, only waking up when it was like mother tongue alr. it pissed me off ah ! like i kept asking myself wtf was wrong with her sey .

so i stomped off to my MT class , angry and a little bit wanted to cry too . saw khai at the end of the classrooms corridor , tried to smile but i didnt have the strength . my lips were trembling .

when i was sitting at my place in the 3rd level spare room , i suddenly got real pissed at the neatness of tht classroom. stood up and started banging the tables, and kicking and throwing them across the room .

and then i just Sat back down and started shivering . i heard someone call my name , turned out to be khai and he asked if i was ok , so i just Nodded and looked back away .

then when he was gone i went back out to go to the toilet cos ppl were saying tht my lips were bleeding . came out to bump into faris and irshad . faris said hi to me and i naturally just Ignored without bothering to even glance at him .

then faris was like , "eh dont emo ah." i heard irshad gg all, "asal ngan dier sia?" like what does he care? then the tone also, like as if my anger irritated him like tht . what a douche!

k im done for today . tmrw then i share the few funny stuff tht i witnessed today .
and a little reminder , people have good intentions behind their actions .

gosh, today was another one of my not-so-fave days .

awesome moment !

hi , today was very very tight! had so many things booking me and bogging me down today, aft sch . there was MT remedial , MTL fortnight karaoke thingy , meeting , slack with khai , maths tuition. but it was all worth it !

mm hmm ... guess what ? today was amazing ^^ i love khai so much. u did awesome lah babe. haha. i loved it , and i love you!

today was awesome , spent the day with my khai . hehe. and he kissed me on my lips today ! i love his lips haha . then he said mine like marshmallow -.-
k, i love him .

short update only !

khairul irfan ♥

alrighty , went to kfc with siying and shushan earlier. alot of shit we laughed abt! esp. siying, the girl laughs a hell lot ♥ "ambek kau!"

blah blah blah , went to meet up with khai. he so cute !



went carpark rooftftop, and guess what.
it had exactly the same shelter as like the one on 500A sia !!!!! i got so happy, immediately climbed the little shelter. almost cried !!

k and then khai and i camwhore .





he and i are inseparable for now!

truly amazing videography and editting .
such intricate detail .

last night !

yesterday was peanuts . went to dte with my mom, nazriq, and my grandma . to eat ! i got curry rice, which was like smth i've always wanted to eat. straightway announced on facebook sey, hehe. (which is smth quite rare)

ok , so we ate, and it was my first time using facebook with khai's phone . blah3, nazriq and i sat at the pond thingy near the popeye's , just When this huge fish swam near us , and we were like, "eh woah!" damn bloody big sia the fish !

i saw it swim around like fwoosh! not only was it the biggest , it was the fastest sia! what else, jakonist mode ah.

made our way to mccafe , and got jakonist over the cakes . and then my mom ordered some hot chocolate where the guy draws smth on the fluffy stuff . damn awesome sey! yeah lah, jakonist lah. as for cake , nazriq and i got the oreo cheese cake one .

heh, both were faboulous! ytd was tiring as well though , kept getting frustrated and stressed over the slightest things . mm hmm ... k im hungry right now.

i'm a zombie right now.
guess what? when i closed my eyes and dozed off for awhile, i heard a little girl's voice in my head saying, "i'm sorry papa." and then i saw this girl sitting on a chair in a little victorian dress, head full of blonde curls .

just Like a doll .

For Khai ♥

song used: Lost In You - Three Days Grace
just A kind of teaser. a vid for khai coming soon ! more towards the coming, but not the soon. it's coming. but not soon. k u get it.

quick update !

hey lans ! hahaha. alrighty. currently editting footages tht i've collected the past week , so im just Gonna do this one quick update . first things first, prep exams are over! hehehehe. but prelims are starting on the first of august , and then there's MT n level oral.

ive finally gotten the chance to video edit ! gosh.

some funny stuff from this week !

asleah and i were walking past a table and were like talking when a girl from tht table yelled real loudly "ow !!!" asleah looked at the direction with a shocked face and was like, "terpranjat sey , aku ingat kau pijak kaki dier !"

i started laughing like shit and then we parted to do our stuff awhile . halfway thru i started snorting cos i tried to hold in my laugh . when we reunited, we told each other abt how we tersenyom sorang ! hahaha. hooboy, funny shit sia.

and then there was the farhan banging his canvas today during art... kelakar giler babz sia!

spent time with khai alot these few weeks. hehe. ive been trying to open up to his friends more, i wanna be the friendly one. k tht's too much, i just Wanna be friendly full stop. hehe.

khai is so cute in here ! hahahaha, i love him ♥

Being Khairul Irfan 's

aw, my evening was awesome ♥

alrightyy , slacked with khai at cc before gg for my maths tuition . both went extremely well. i love my khai so much ! but im sure he has his own problems despite tht flawless smile of his . problems tht he hides .

oh yeah , and as promised im supposed to talk abt the experience of being his gf . alrighty , here we go .

first things first , ppl are looking at us weird just Cos im older than him . isit such a WTF thing ? pfft , i dont get it. is love measured by age? really? i prefer younger guys anyways.

another thing is basically our personalities . to ppl who dk me , i am deemed as "emo" , cos my hair covers half my face and im always like looking down . and then khai is the happy-go-lucky one whom everyones knows and likes.

so he's always saying hi to ppl and vice versa when we're like at the sch bus stop waiting for the bus , or on the bus , or just Slacking around random places . it's like wherever we go, he's bound to know somebody. somebodies .

maybe it's our cca lah , cos i quit fencing in like 2009 and he's been faithful in his npcc , so he knows lots of ppl . whatever it is , im quite envious . envious tht he knows and is liked by so many ppl . compared to me .

he's like always talking to his friends while i stand aside and stare or do my own stuff . and when i'm in the mood to say hi to his friends or wave or what , they never look at me. it's like im almost invisible. so i dont bother anymore , which makes me quickly labelled as sombong .

and most of his good friends doesnt seem to like me very much . eg dan danial dan . he always looks at me and we lock eyes , but he never smiles or waves or whatever . idk ah. gosh .

yes , this is how i feel . but idk what to do. what do i do?
right. eat.

there's three papers tmrw !
maths paper 2 , geography, art. three painstaking subjects . but it's alright , cos i am hardworking.

had physics and english paper 2 today . both were smooth , but i aint entirely confident. k, this is just One very quick update. gg to meet with khai before gg for maths at 530 . see, im seriously trying very very hard. i wanna go to O levels .

alrightyy , once i get back , imma be talking abt my experience being khai's gf .

My good deed !

went out in the evening earlier, and i was like late in meeting my khai . and i still had to go get food before gg to sch's bus stop. at my house bus stop , while waiting for the 358 , i took a seat next to a blind man .

he must have sensed my presence cos he turned and look at my face . and then he said, "excuse me , would u let me know if bus 359 comes?" i was like , "oh sure !" and then i stayed there til the 359 came so tht i was able to play out the promise .

i didnt realize the good i did until i was like on my own 358. cos while waiting for the 359 , two 358s passed but i didnt seem to bother ,cos i was so intent on making sure tht the blind man got the right bus .

hehe , i feel so proud of myself sia.

Orange and Water .

oh, last night's dream .

i remember many classroom scenes . there was one in MT , but jaslyn was there for some reason. cikgu fatimah was like asking us to fill in the blanks , then we were all guessing and laughing at stupid answers .

farhan was in front of the classroom staring up at the screen when syafiq came over to my area (where jaslyn was at) and yelled at her , "eh why nail polish !? i was trying to record and u shifted my camera to ur nail polish !?" and then he took his cammie and walked away mumbling "douchebag."

and then there was another part where i heard farhan shouting , "chey, eindah stead dengan (stalker's name) sey !" and for tht moment , my dream self forgot who i stead with sia. i could hear my dream self wondering to herself. in the end then she was like , "oh i know alr! khairul irfan!" omg seram giler babz per.

k , and then another part was , i was staring at my hands . they were full of blood , and i rmb repeating to myself (my dream self lah) , "i dont wanna know whose blood is this , i dont wanna know whose blood is this" .

but the scariest has got to be this :

it was a sort of class excursion i think . i'm still hazy abt this part but we went into a tunnel of some sort when the whole place got flooded and most of my classmates were no longer in the dream. only me , siying , manfred , timothy .

we climbed out of tht tunnel and out onto the rocks . everything was just Water. water, and orange. the flats had all turned into cliffs , and they were as orange as can be . it was beautiful , truly beautiful. there were a few holes etched onto the cliff tht was like on the diagonal right of us , and the holes resembled a clock .

everything was in different shades of orange . truly spectacular. idk how to describe it other than orange and water .

the 4 of us laid there watching the orange , and talking . i rmb where the dream at this point was located. it's at the lane from the 358/17 bus stop towards the 3 bus stop near my sch. so yeah .

we were all like talking abt our classmates and saying how we miss them . i rmb how cozy we were , like knowing we only had each other left. sad aint it.

suddenly there was a strong gust of wind and the water went crazy with waves and it was like a storm lah. the 4 of us immediately stood up . manfred and timothy proceeded to gg back into the tunnel , and they were yelling "shit ! shit ! we're gonna die!" , but siying yelled at them , "no, shut up! i know tht we'll make it out!"

and then i woke up .
what's scary was tht , the first thing i noticed when i woke up was tht , my room was very very windy . my curtains were like totally open cos of the wind , if u know what i mean. what else? straightway ran to my parents' room sia .

scary shit sia . this was what greeted the corner near my window .

Prep Malay and Maths P1

sup lans! (k tht's what imma call my readers from now on)

had malay P1 and maths P1 today. it's just My prep exams btw . aint prelims or the real thing yet .

a conversation i had with my dad last night :
me: i'm having exams tmrw.
dad: what exam !? n level ah !?
me: no lah , havent yet. this is just Prep.
dad: prep?
me: yeah, prep.
dad: why does it sound likea type of dance like tht , prep, prep, prep.
-.-

and earlier on met with khai awhile during recess cos needed him to teach me a little bit of sec 2 maths . told asleah i wouldnt be with them much during recess , then she was like, "uh yeah lah , dah in a relationship mah , jadi kawan tu letakkan ke tepi siket ... " ):

alrightyy , khai taught me factorisation thingy cos i really suck at it /dont understand it despite all the years .

surprisingly maths was really easy btw ! went thru it with a breeze . the setter was ms huang huiling , think she definitely had a motive for setting the paper so easy . wanna bet? she's gonna lecture us on the next lesson tht she sees us .

aft sch slacked at fnn room with asleah , nicholas and rayner . blah3 , went canteen and got ice cream. had to get green tea cos i didnt want vanilla. and to be honest , green tea aint to my liking either . i like its smell though , smells like leaves . which are not very pleasant to be eaten .

i ate alot today ! cos i brought money. hehe. and turned out tht there aint any extra lessons today so i didnt get to go home with my khai . meeting him later , though he doesnt seem very happy abt tht for some reason.

tmrw's physics and , uh, english p2. if i aint wrong .
let's dance prep to dubstep !



oh and khai's ex was like walking right in fronta me earlier. she was smiling :D didnt get to smile at her though /:

sup peeps! went nex with my mom and nazriq today to watch Transformers 3 . got jakonist with the theater , they've got a lounge! got popcorn (salted pls) and root beer for myself , which finished like halfway thru the movie .

omg , transformers is like damn bloody awesome shit lah. optimus prime is like so hot , and bumblebee is adorable, hehe! and... i prefer megan fox , i dont like the new chick .




k , i've got lots of stuff to say , but i wouldnt wanna drag this short update .
tmrw's my EL P1 and SS ! i can do it for sure , i shall get promoted with the rest of 4/2!

maya was in last night's dream . hm, idk the position of all the stuff tht happened though , so this might be a little messy .

if i aint wrong i was the one who went maya's house. and then her mommy (who is also my aunt) told her to send me back home, so she did. i dont rmb seeing her smile , or hearing her laugh. in fact i think we just Walked on in silence .

when i was alr at my house , i thanked her and off she went . but then i realized tht her phone was with me or smth , so i chased her ah. she had alr walked out of the gate tht kept my house and many other houses in , and as she was locking it i yelled at her to wait for me .

she looked at me and we had eye contact , but as i ran towards tht gate she had alr begun to walk again . her speed was slow , she was in a stroll. but unlocking the gate was very tedious , i was struggling with it , and again when i was trying to lock it .

i left the gate unlocked as i ran towards her , and i finally caught up with her when she was standing in front of a food stall . her face was emotionless as she looked at me when taking her phone .

this whole scene scares me alr. it scares me alot .

there was another part abt me walking to sch with the usual girls . i think yeah, it was pearl, priscilla and shushan. and then i was like staring at this void deck and remembering smth. i do rmb what i remembered in the dream , but it's not really tht important .

and anyways the thing tht i remembered didnt occur there .

when i woke up , i was thinking abt what i remembered and i almost forgot everything abt it! which would be a miracle , but then i was like , oh shit, i do rmb everything alr.

yeah, tht part only i will understand.

yesterday was hell but today i'll be fine.

i dreamt of khai . if i aint wrong i was trying to sneak into his camp place, smth like tht . i either got caught or i fell down somewhere , and i was sent to the sick bay at his campsite . i was lying down on the bed when i saw tht khai was in the sick bay as well , cos he was sick.

he lied down on the bed next to mine and i rmb staring at him as the woman who brought me there was like standing in fronta me lecturing me . when she was gone i said smth to khai and we talked , but i cant rmb our words.

and then i woke up , and it was like 4.
mm hmm , mm hmm. i wonder how khai is doing . he hasnt replied me since like 2pm ytd . i think his phone batt died.

in any case, i've editted and uploaded a short viary for 6th july. not gonna edit ytd's so soon , cos my prep exams are flooding my entire week from the 11th to 15th. having english paper 1 and my social studies paper , so.. wish me all the best !

Useless

i feel really useless right now .

i wish i'm more like a girl so tht i can help out for my mom or something . she's always busy with the housework when she's home , and she never asks me to help out . she only expects me to do well in my studies . so it makes me feel tht i'm useful only in sch .

another thing , khai's ex .
idk , i see her all the time. i recognize her, yeah. she's decent-looking and pretty , but she looks so sad like most of the time. i dont know her tht well , so i cant say much . but ive been in a similar situation as her , so i kind of know her feelings. not understand , but know.

so i'm guessing tht she dislikes me right now . it's what i predict , but it aint something i hope for . if she does, then tht's a boundary from me wanting to talk to her. yeah tht's right , i wish i could talk to her but i'm afraid of being shut out .

and i forgot to pass siying her SS notes too sia. but our exam 's on monday alr , so this is the least i can do for her . and for anyone else who is also weak in Healthcare .






if it's slanted, dont worry cos none of the words were cut off . i alr checked.
alrightyy , i feel so useless right now.

today was not really one of my favourite days .

in the morn , walked to khai's place cos we were gonna take the same bus to sch tgt. when walking there i saw a cat , and i wanted to pet it when it just Stared up at me before running off . blah3, let's just Fast forwarde an inch .

managed to hold hands with my khai on the bus ♥ slacked at canteen for awhile with him too , he makes me so happy, hehe. went to his classroom later on , then he insisted on sending me back to mine, which i didnt want to cos i wanted to walk around.

alrighty, let's get straight to the point(s).

-khai left for camp. so he's gonna be way away right smack-dab on our first month of our relationship. and i went home alone today . what irritated me was tht my friends kept asking me why nvr wait for khai and all tht , then jaslyn even asked me if it's cos we broke up alr.

-my art is screwed. i kept smudging the ink and i'm a mess right now. but tht aint a problem, the prob is tht my canvas is ruined in many areas .

-stepped on some dried ice cream in sch earlier , and right now my shoe sole is sticky . i kinda dislike walking with sticky soles , yeah?

-my toe was bleeding and i didnt know until i noticed a horrible trail of blood around my house, and especially my room . tried to wipe it off but they are apparently stubborn stains , and the floor has bits of red here and there right now .

mm hmm, mm hmm .
i think khai's my lucky charm of some sort . once he was gone , so many things went the opposite of what i expected . like ugh . like ugh you, you lan !

it's ok , at least there was today .
and there's still gonna be tmrw.

the past 3 sch days have been peanuts. just Posting to let you guys tht i'm still alive .
gonna do some maths on my own now ... had first session of maths tuition ytd . u can see tht no matter how much i hate maths , i'm still trying very hard .

oh, and another update : had my N level english oral today . went off quite well , had alot to say and when i ran out of words i just Gave a stupid face tht the examiners couldnt help smiling at .

i almost died trying not to breathe in your scent ; the scent so familiar yet so strange.

sup peeps . today was awesome! it started off boring but it ended off with a bang .

woke up to see many texts , three from khai and one from maya . replied before gg back to sleep and then waking up again at around 8 plus i think . blah3, jumped on my mom's bed to wake her up cos she had to bring me to my check up appointment at KK .

i havent even put on my pants then khai called me alr, lol. but i still had lots of fun talking to him, i just Love him so much.
and yeah , wore my new shoes out for the first time today !



i was like trying them on and taking photos of myself when nazriq walked in and was like, "ah, dah, dah berangan." hah!




hm, check up was usual, took my xray before gg to buy some tuna mayo waffles at the hospital and gg to eat nasi beryani near masjid sultan , hehe! went with my mommy by the way.aft tht we were walking out when we passed this little shop tht sold some souvenirs kinda stuff.

spent lots of time there , my mom walking abt and talking to the owner lady , while i was standing at the corner staring at these notebooks... gosh, i really wanted one.

eons later went to nex pulak ! hehe! like, finally! so yeah , mm hmm it pretty sure was crowded. saw a shop tht was selling angry bird stuff , immediately went jakonist over the soft toys! my mom asked me if i wanted one and i must have looked like an idiot nodding my head off .



and bought a mug too ! hehehehehe . ate swenson's aft tht , ate ice-cream. i got this mudpie thingy tht was so chocolatey like eughhhh . some time later mom took the chance to drag me to hair salon to get a fringe trim. had to obey , for the sake of tht angry bird...

and yeah, tht's it. i love my mom !

Waiting

i've yet to start on the grad night vid tht ms junainah assigned me some months back .

i'm waiting for my phone batt to die so i can charge it. and also waiting for my khai to finish his tuition. waiting , waiting , waiting . i never really liked waiting. we all dont . but we dont have a choice, and sometimes the time wasted is just Worth it when u get what u want.

currently i'm waiting to get my N levels over and done with. i'm waiting to go poly so i can do some media course thingy. i'm waiting to grow old enough to get a permanent job. yeah in short , i'm waiting for my future.

i've also been waiting for my brother to treat me like his little sister again.



and i'm waiting for more classroom memories to get tht video done.

last night's dream was abt this slope and an airplane. this slope was kind of like a tourist attraction (yeah i was in another country again) and ppl were gg there in the middle of their flight, cos their aeroplane was passing by , smth like tht.

first thing in the morn , my khai called, hehe. good way to start the day indeed ! i'm so glad he's mine ♥

went back to sleep awhile aft , waking up at 10 cos my phone was unfortunately right next to my head. so texted my khai , and then i went out to talk to my small bro awhile. told him tht i want sit between him and my older bro when watching transformers 3 later , hehe.

but guess what .

not even 20 minutes aft tht, nazriq told me tht naqib aint gonna watch with us aft all . cos he's watching tmrw. with his muddafarking girlfriend .

you have no idea how upset i was ! and i still am.

hi , today was another day filled with double happiness ! hehe. at 5 plus went to meet my khai , cos he wanted to pass me white chocolate . made my way there at my normal speed , blah3 then he surprised me with his arms around my waist , or at least thts what i thought lah.

i actually jumped sia . ok, then we talk talk talk , play with his DSLR , and then went to bus stop to wait for the bus tht brings us to interchange. at one moment he took my hand suddenly and we look at clouds, hehe.

went to bedok with my dad to buy my shoes! so happy, i saw tht pair when i was still just Good friends with my khai , which u can see was such a long time ago. hehe. imma size 8!

alrighty , parted with my dad at bedok interchange cos he wanted to go my grandma's house. i didnt want to cos later my grandparents will confirm gimme money , which i always try not to accept but they insist . so yeah , took the train on my own .

took the 358 , but the bus driver spaced out and went to the right instead of the left. so he had to go for one round before i was able to go to my khai's place , where he was waiting with a sad face. he walked me home holding hands , and i purposely walked the long cut , hehe.

he kissed me somewhere on the right of my right eye , considerably the middle of my forehead and cheek . he blamed me for putting my head down!

so yeah , time well-spent once again . with my khai ♥
i love him so much. cant stop thinking abt him alr !

it's friday !

yes it is !

wanted to go sch tgt with khai but i had to reach at 745 , cos of some class thingy tht we had to get done. it's this game thingy where u have to answer questions abt singapore and build some sorta city . everyone was doing fine until timothy said tht we have to restart the level if we get 9 questions wrong.

then we all scared alr ah , scared to get any wrong questions . by the time it was 855 , most of us were alr done but some ppl still had to keep restarting. of cos we helped them, and there were 3 groups altogether, yelling answers and all tht.

i was with shih ying 's so-called group, and then when we saw tht she was completed , the ppl tht were gathering around her went on and cheered. and then the other groups were done too , and basically the whole class was cheering in the comp lab lah.

we all planned to go canteen to eat , cos we all didnt. farhan told us to give the NE quiz as an excuse , but in the end we didnt sia. instead we all went to parade sq where i enjoyed watching the NCC ppl march, hehe. i just Love to watch tht!

first period was english , where i had to stand again . cos i didnt do my work . blah3, idk why i was so sleepy today ! fell asleep in maths , and then was lunch . i kinda dislike lunch on fridays .

uh huh, and then we had self study where i did my ss work . i love self study lah . the sch's aim works. like seriously . on me lah. uh huh. had pe aft tht, where i played badminton with timothy against asleah and shushan , and then some time later against siying .

once the bell rang , gathered , and then blah3 eons later we were dismissed , so i went up to third floor to meet my khai , hehe. a little rendezvous , but we slacked there for the very first time actually . k next .

went to art eating my cookies , and then i started drawing my lines . so very the sressing, but its alright , im glad the sch did this thingy to make us stay back to get our work done . at one point in time i went out of class , and saw khai doing his npcc stuff . stood there watching before hearing ms chua calling me , so went back in and continued my work .

there were so many photographic moments today sia! but i didnt bring my cammie. how unfortunate.

waited at canteen with jaslyn and siying , laughing like shit , and then khai was dismissed . siying has been pestering me for her kinder bueno , so all 4 of us had to go 7-11 and take bus from the haising stop .

so yeah , spent my time with khai on the bus ride home again . to be honest i liked having our legs tangled. alighted with him to send him to his lift , and as always he kissed my forehead before we parted. what an awesome way to end the sch week , and to start the month !

today is a thurday
in the month after may .
i'm falling asleep in physics
wake me up with a kiss!

haha, a crap poem tht i wrote spontaneously to asleah during physics .

today was st john's day ! i just Love watching the UGs march. and farizah was so fierce during pledge taking . to be honest , i think st john's like the best UG . like, their lines are straight and their discipline and all tht stuff are better compared to ncc , npcc all tht. in my opinion lah.

had temperature taking aft tht , and we were all standing with the thing in our mouths , when i laid my eyes on daniel ah. he was looking over his shoulder suspiciously , and then he removed the themometer from his mouth and looked out the window with a relax face .

but a few secs later ms junainah was like , "daniel !" , then he terperanjat , he seriously jumped sia! i saw everything , and i couldnt help laughing my head off , which was difficult with my thermometer in my mouth .

had one period of chemy before gg for art all the way til recess . i fell asleep for awhile , and saw this image of a lane where someone was on fire . recess , some annoying sec two guys were pushing around and one of them bumped into siying . got so mad , but i held it in .

two periods of physics came aft , where i fell asleep when mr lim was scolding the latecomers. felt like hours but actually only a few minutes passed . you know what they say ; "in your bed at 545 , u close your eyes for 5 mins , you open them again and it's 7pm. at sch at 1230 , u close ur eyes for 5 mins , u open them again and it's 1230."

aft tht was boring old maths , so i went to toilet with asleah for awhile. when returning back to class she told me to walk one round of the second floor, but i told her tht i would rather walk one round third floor .

she was like , "aw too bad. .........eh, tu!" so i looked in front , and there was my khai walking past 2/2 . hehe. what a coincidence! so i gave him a smile then blah3 went for maths before gg for lunch when the bell finally rang eons later .

had MT aft tht , so i passed by 3/3 where i saw khai standing my the door . MT was fun , there were no teachers so we gathered and told scary stories , as always. (kinda an MT relief class tradition!)

at one point we were all like concentrating on johan's story , when amalina (who was sitting by the window) told us tht she saw syafie. we all panicked shit sia , and straightway grab the assignments tht we were supposed to do , sat at a table and pretended to look at the piece of paper. funny sey!

aft awhile we gathered back tgt , and continued with the story . johan's story was the scariest ! haha . was abt a malay girl with green eyes .

when walking back to class , was passing by 3/3 when i saw khai's friends in the classroom along with him , then i saw him dancing.

during english , which came aft , mr syafie talked to us abt this indian teacher whom many boys couldnt take their eyes off when she was their examiner for oral , cos her eyes are green. teros, all the malay ppl stare stare at each other with wide eyes! haha .

aft sch went home with my khai , on the way to the bus stop , his classmates were at the other side of the road and they were like , "bye eindah!" then i stare at them, then they were like, "last long !" so sweet ! amirah bakar ah her name?

as always khai made me laugh alot lah. he's so awesome lah, i love him so much. so he sent me all the way to my lift for the very first time, kissed my forehead, and then i smiled to myself at the corner of the lift.

last night's dream was disgusting .
in more ways than one .

woke up at 12 plus, cos some ppl were screaming , though i cant rmb whether it was in my dream or in reality . couldnt go back to sleep aft tht , called khai though obviously he was alr asleep.. so today morn , ...i dont rmb much. but there's this thingy for 4/2 to dominate a whole page in the yearbook . smth like tht.

had 4 periods of art where i just Continued my line drawing with the sun in my face.

didnt really eat at recess , but had fun joining sabrina and shushan's conversation , talking like as if i understood what they were talking abt , and also disturbing siying who was on her i-something . (i aint so familiar with Apple)

maths followed soon aft , then two periods of english where i had to stand along with many others cos we didnt do our work . ate during lunch , and then it was two periods of ss , where i was scolded again for not completing tht assignment . had chemy for the last period and then we were dismissed.

for some reason today was kinda quiet . not much funny stuff tht i can rmb sia.

went to canteen , sat with hafiz , timothy and zharfan cos they hadnt completed their ss as well , and apparently all of them didnt have the question paper . zharfan completed his first , which left the 3 of us to struggle , asking 4/3 peeps for help and all tht , but i did mine myself *smiles*

eons later i was done , said bye to everyone at the table (including nuraini, edmund and michelle, they were there too) , and then walked out of the canteen with my khai, cos gg home tgt. hehe. have i told you tht i received my N level entry pass ytd ? it just Goes to show how near my national exams are!

and the whole day , i was just Thinking of the dream i had .
so yeah, i do rmb it right now. so very clearly detailed.

i hate it when dreams remind u of smth tht was so difficult for u to forget. and it felt so real tht i think my dream-self travelled back in time last night.

second day of the second semester

sup peeps .

uhm , as u can see from the title it was the second day of sch today . but i aint gonna title my posts all the way to tenth day of the semester and so on and so forth lah , if u get what i mean.
without further ado let us run thru today .

khai was the commander today , i was reading peacefully when asleah came , i was like, shit she confirm will make me laugh like shit abt khai sia . and i was right , at first she didnt notice but when she did she was like, "eh !" just As he was abt to give the command .

so yeah, she like lip-sync his command dengan muke muke sekali ... what else , i laugh ah! then thru out national anthem i couldnt stop laughing to myself sey !

when we were all seated and listening to mrs woo's speech , laughed alot again . and then my eyes started wondering around and i saw tht my khai sat in the same line as me. like, literally! cos there's a long white line painted across the parade square and we're both seated on it. (i just Asked him)

hm , then seconds later asleah was like , "eh kau boleh nampak khai kau dari sini !" i showed her a face and was like, "dari tadi sey aku tengan tenung dier! xD" so yeah .

first period chemy , and we went to the comp lab . did a bit of facebook, some spams with timothy , edmund, syafiq and occasionally siying , but i did lots of chemistry just To let you know!

when gg back to class , had a chance to pass 3/3 so tht's what i did , but my khai was doing his work. so proud of him ! saw dan danial dan staring at me tersengih-sengih though . aft tht was mother tongue , so i had the chance to walk past 3/3 again . (x

most of the ppl from the sch was like loitering outside their classrooms when the bell went , but sadly khai wasnt one of them . so i went ahead to 3/7 where i saw someone staring at me from the corner of my eye .

was nurul hazirah , so i was like, oh ur sana tix! then blah3, filled the thingy before gg back to her class when they were preparing to greet their teacha ms karin wong (who was my home tutor in sec 2) , so naturally she was like "now is not the time to do ur sana -.-" so yeah .

recess didnt really ate , just Listened to some dubstep before gg for maths when the bell signaled the end of recess . i sat right at the front again today right next to ms huang , cos i wouldnt mind paying more attention to maths . see, i can be a good girl when i wanna .

had health check up during ss , which was good cos i owed ms poh the assignments. but , when we were all sitting outside the library she came up to me suddenly and held her palm out to me. i stared back at her , and wanxuan must have thought tht i was using my phone , cos she was like, "cher give chance lah cher!"

so yeah , ms poh told me to give it by today , so i nodded , and then blah3 i got scolded by the nurse for squinting my eyes when reading them letters with my right eye .

i didnt have to do the spine check cos i was doing the follow up sessions on my own alr i think , so i went ahead to class , looking at the clock cos everyone was at geog/hist. classroom was dark with only the sun shining thru the curtains , so eventually i got bored and walked out .

saw shushan and siying at the library , but when i got there i saw tht they were at the second floor of the building , so to chase them , i had to run all the way , and i think khai must have seen me cos during lunch i saw tht he texted me cos he saw me like marah.

hm, then what else ah?

during the geog remedial aft sch , went around the sch to do some hunt thing , with asleah and siying in my group. we were the first to find it , but ms poh told us not to slack there cos later the other groups would know where the thing was , so we immediately went to where the others were and pretended to look lost as well.

saw khai at npcc , and then blah3 , had my art til 630 , and then i slacked at bus stop with him , talking abt random stuff tht came into our heads . i like the way he saw afnan, fadhli , and was like "......shit." k, im smiling in remembrance . funny sey!

on the bus , at one point i was abt to rest my head on his shoulder , but idk why i didnt. so yeah ... aw i'm so glad tht he's mine, really. hehe ^^

my dear brothers .

something just Made my day even more awesome!
i looked out the balcony standing between both my brothers .

it may seem nth to you , but it's been such a long time since i last stood between them. i've searched all albums and there seemed to be only one picture of the 3 of us . i rmb crying as i stared at tht photo in a frame , on the day tht they both disappointed me. uh huh...

and we were staring out the balcony window cos we heard smth like an accident .

you know what , since we are bored right now , let's talk abt my brothers .

older brother : Naqib



he's turning 20 this august , but he's still very much like a child . a spoilt brat is my most polite term. i dont wanna start gossiping abt him right here, but let me just Tell you tht if u were to be on the same bus as him and me , u would have never thought tht we were siblings .

ask any of the seniors from our sch , they most probably know him but doesnt know tht he's my brother . yes, it's our differences. he dropped out of sch at sec 3 , and to put it bluntly he's much like a mamat.

but i'm grateful tht he ain't rude to my grandparents . i'm really grateful for tht, i just Wish he'd visit them more. the only times he ever went over to my aunt's (where my grandma lives) , was to collect money tht he had asked from my aunt .

hm , i aint gonna go personal here either . but he is alot like a spoilt brat , throwing tantrums when he's hungry (he cant cook and he gets lazy to buy stuff on his own) and when he has no money (the dude has big problems with budgets and stuff like tht) , so yeah. he ain't as independant as his lil sis .

i'm sure you've all heard tht he left me for a girlfriend of his , so we ain't gg there either here. just Wanna let u know tht i think i'll just Hate whatever girlfriends he get from now on , whether or not i've actually met them.

hating someone tht u barely know is too much .
but so is leaving someone of ur blood bond , for someone tht hasnt even taken up half ur life.

younger brother : Nazriq



i used to dislike him when he just Arrived in our family . the very earliest memory of him was when i was standing outside the master bedroom with my parents , older bro and grandma (she was living with us at tht time).

my mom was rubbing her tummy and i was looking at it , and everyone was laughing and i saw many happy faces . i recall putting my ear to her tummy and my older bro telling me to be careful , or not my face would get kicked. i immediately withdrew my head back .

he recently turned 11 in march, but idk why he's still considerably short. we got into fights alot when i was still in pri sch , and one of my most effective attacks was pulling his hair hard. he'd burst into tears and i always got it from my mom.

i didnt really like my younger bro when he was just Born into the family, like how my mom says my older bro didnt like me when i was new. so yeah , i dont have alot to complain abt my lil bro , just Tht he doesnt admit when he knows he pwned alr.

one thing is , my bond with him grew alot stronger when he just Sunat. i rmb peeking at him from the door when he was lying on bed. and i saw tht sad look on his face . he was alone and wanted to cry . i stared at him for some time before he saw me and smiled .

but overall , i do love my brothers to the max .



my God younger brother is my boyf now , and my God older brother is a douchebag now . i guess i should be grateful for the blood brothers tht i have alr. hehe.
♥ your siblings .

[sorry for blur pics , i lazy scan]

went central with asleah , meeting her at sch bus stop cos she needed to put some assignment into ms poh's pigeonhole (actually i have to too , but you know me.) . sat at the bus stop with sabrina tan and staring at celine ong , before making my way to central with asleah .

on the way , she told me some councillior friend of syahirah khair's was like staring at me when i was walking past her at the hall , and tht she was staring at my nametag. i absolutely dislike it when ppl stare at my nametag , it's like they know u from facebook, it's like , "is tht eindah wrister? looks like eindah wrister. oh yeah, name tag is eindah. ok she's eindah wrister." get it?

took random pics on the way , cos i brought along my khai's cammie.




hm , too many funny things in the evening alr . i once mentioned tht there are some ppl tht always make me wanna laugh just By looking at them right? yeah, one of them's asleah. mm hmm, truth be told she's one of the funnier ppl from our clique.

then what ah? oh aye , at the counter there alot of funny things , i also made asleah laugh cos she has a good sense of humour tht is similar to mine, hehe. i was damn selenge when buying the food ah, run here run there call her text him.

i went central to get the $3 porridge for my adek , mom and i. but porridge ran out so i just Bought food for them cos i brought like only 12 dollars . had enough left for some choc milk tea, which was just What i bought.

on the bus trip home , texted khai , and he told me tht dan danial dan was like on the same bus as me. i had tht feeling sia , but i didnt bother abt it. hm, and then khai said tht dan said to khai, "eh khai , girlf kau dalam bas 358". and tht made me happy sia. ....entah.

but alas, when i got home, the first thing tht happened was tht my adek yelled at me. got pretty upset but it was good tht i didnt react when he threw a tantrum at me , cos it would have only made things worse. some mins later he came to my room gg all , "thank you, sorry." and so all was fine with him again .

hm i still dont see the reason why i feel so awesome.
but guess what ? i tend to forget the world when i'm in love .

first day of the second semester

truth be told , it's not very common of me to remember dreams tht i had on sch days. i do rmb in the mornings, but i forget by the time it gets to flag raising , unless i jot it down before i leave home. i've tried repeating my dreams in my head over and over again , but i get distracted for a minute and poof it disappears ; without a return promise.

well anyways , here's how the first day of semester 2; term 3 went.

i cant rmb the last time i tied my hair , which was why i got so frustrated in the morning . i told myself tht it's ok though. wouldnt want smth like tht to ruin my first day of sch. so went on, went on, went on to the bus stop texting khai and listening to some AAR .

my phone time was messed up ever since bali , so i wasnt so sure what time it was. (i usually leave at 6:24 phone clock) but then i saw the usual ppl at the bus stop, and as i watched them board their usual buses (which came accordingly like before the june hols...) , i alr knew what time it was, so yeah .

one month sure felt like one day .
and it was so dream-like , like as if the holidays never existed .

english teacha changed from ms foo to mr syafie. aside from tht , every other subject has the same teachas. first period was mt , and i was looking forward to walking past 3/3 to see my khai , but ms junainah lectured us until tht one period was over, and then it was english.

mr lim didnt seem too happy at physics cos we all never did his hols hw. in fach he was pretty pissed i might say .

recess was normal as always , listened to some dubstep in mega bass , and the experience is just... Woah. like really, woah. try it! it's so WOAH !

ss was alright , just Tht i didnt understood map reading. sometimes i get really upset at the fact tht i'm not a normal-speed learner. it never bothered me as much , but i'm getting really frustrated. like teeth-gritting , heavy-breathing kind of frustrated. n levels is on its way , for god's sake.

for once maths was humouring , cos ms huang was swinging her hand showing us the stuff on the board when her hand whacked the whiteboard ledge. and it was loud! i was sitting right in front of her , and im sorry tht i seriously laughed like shit at her. X:

blah3 , assembly , not much, just Tht i hit jonathan lee (who was sitting infronta me) and qianying (who was sitting behind) alot of times, hard, and didnt bother saying sorry . and i saw tht khai had to stand up xD

aft sch i was walking at the stairs , turned the corner and the first thing i saw as khai . i immediately smiled , like i really smiled sia i tell you. then he told me he go eat first , so i waited at canteen , then idk what happened and i was at the bus stop with lots of ppl.

i actually said straight to khai , "i love u" , and im so proud of myself for tht . sure it may seem like nth but i gathered lots of guts to do tht and he had a bad day so it might have lightened his spirits , idk. i hope tht was the case though, hehe.

a simple word won't turn back the hands of the clock.

i went back to pri sch in last night's dream.

i was in my P6 classroom , along with two other ppl whom i cant rmb alr. there were many cockroaches scurrying around the floor , tables and windows. the ppl i was with were saying smth abt some douche leaving them behind as experiments.

i saw glass jars on the tables, with roaches inside them as well . one of the ppl i was with, let's name them Z and X , Z said, "omg why did he leave these pearls in with the cockroaches?" , to which X replied; "they're eggs." my dream self thought to herself, "and each egg contains 40 more baby roaches..." uh huh, can u imagine?

and then what ah? they stayed in the classroom while i walked out to the stairs near the toilets. i bumped into some pri sch friends, one of them being the infamous darrell kong. we both talked and walked down the stairs holding hands, though idk why, and when we got at the bottom laughing , he pulled my face down and kissed me on the cheek .

as i walked to the canteen alone i wondered to myself, "why the hell did so many ppl kiss me today?" cos if i aint wrong many of my pri sch friends , female and male , kept kissing me on the cheeks in tht dream. uh huh.

next , i walked out the gates and started walking the route tht i always took back then when gg home. alot of ppl were at the basketball court near my house when i was passing by it, including maya. she was barefoot ; she came over and told me tht she wanted to put on shoes.

followed her into my house lift , where i got scolded for pressing the 13th floor button. it resulted in her refusing to get off my own house floor , idk why. but her face seemed pissed .

hm, and then i rmb being in a shop and looking at some chocolates , think was deciding to buy for someone or smth like tht.

so yeah , i think tht's all for last night/this morning. woke up with the piano dubstep tht i was last listening to playing in my head.