i've got a confession to make .

i'm in love .

and i'm not just Saying it, i really am.
with Muhammad Khairul Irfan.

no matter what happens , i'm gg to stick with him. there's no one else like him. there's no other for me . i want him, i need him, and i know he wants me , but most importantly is tht he needs me. i'll do whatever it takes .

i'm willing to wait til he completely forgets the past . i'm willing to stay with my hands around his , my head on his shoulder , occasional kisses . and periodically he's gg to remember stuff and get upset . but no matter how much he shakes and shivers , i'll hold on tight .

i'm willing to listen to him , his whines and complains, his stories . i'll listen to them all. and no matter what , i'm only gg to express my own feelings when he's finished talking. his feelings would be more important when the spotlight's on him .

i may not predict it if he breaks one day . but i'm gg to be there to hold his pieces together. if i let go of him , his pieces would fall to the ground and shatter , so i'm just Gg to hold them in one hand while i struggle with the glue using my other. it may be difficult , but my struggles will be worth it when i see him as one again .

i'll walk together with him. for as long as he wants , and to go as far as he wishes. when he gets tired , i'll stop and stay with him , and await until he gets his strength back or give him some of mine, no matter how little i have left for myself .

if he's hyper though i'm very tired , i'll keep up. i'll pick up speed if necessary , i just Wont stop or slower my speed , bcos all i want is to just Stay by his side .

khairul irfan , i love you .

i want you to know tht, and to remember tht always .