A new beginning

No more drowning, but a spirit is still latched on my back. 

Petals still linger, but a new seed has been planted. 

No more gentle breeze. I am gone with the wind. 

I am high in the sky along with the eagle, arms wrapped around his neck as he brings me to places old and new. I've held onto this pair of wings before, yet it all seems like a new world. 

Half a year was enough to change someone. But right now, I am the only one who is changed. I wish I had brought him along during that period, but it was he who had left. Now, he is the one lingering behind.

I have to adapt to the change of having many people at once; when I was with him before, I didn't have friends of my own, and I didn't have my parents. Right now, just as I was adapting to having both of those, I have to live with him too. 

Don't get me wrong; I'm more than happy to have this wind in my hair again. It's just difficult to adjust to this lifestyle, of being wanted by many loved ones at the same time. 

I'm proud of myself for not being clingy anymore, for having friends of my own and not forcing you to meet me everyday, but I am sorry if I am negligent. 

I'm taking your hand and allowing you to bring me where you want to, but remember that you are not only bringing me, but my friends and parents too. 

I hope you can adjust to the changes I've made within myself the period you were gone. 

I didn't mean to change; if I'd known you wanted to come back, I would have stayed where I was. 

Now, you have catching up to do. And I'm sorry for that. 

I am willing to fly with your wind even though I'd drop dead to the floor if you decide to let go of me again.

I am willing to plant a new seed, right next to the flower where you used to live with.

I am brave enough to try again. 

I hope it goes well this time. I hope I do not burn you or tire you out, and just keep you warm instead. I'm a little scared, but I'd do anything to keep this fire burning. 

An old flame, a new beginning.