there's been a song playing in my head since ytd, but i cant tell whether it's trapt or trivium. ive listened thru all the trapt i have, none of them was the one tht was in my mind. then it must be trivium, but whats the problem now?

tht's right. trivium is tht boy's fave band. i cant bring myself to listen to any of tht. not yet, at least, cause im the strongest person ive ever met. we take it slow. im not saying trapt has no memories of him, tho. cause yeah... there is.

anyway, this was the very last picture i took of E'indah E'esa. 5th of feb 2012.



i think she's a really beautiful person, in her own way. she just never believed it, and only did when tht boy was the one who told her. tht's why when he left, she just decided to abandon her whole self, just believing tht her soul is ugly.

tht was stupid of her.
but it was also stupid of him.

To wake up
Knowing you've got a day
Is a blessing.
Make yourself unwilling
To sleep away
The Pain.
And run
Run
Without mercy
Because you've got
The choice,
And time of day.

hold on tight to the things you're given. because you never know when someone might just come over and snatch it all away from you. tht someone looks like you sometimes. you see yourself coming up to you, and you're thinking you look so beautiful, when you suddenly snatch your things away from you.

it's scary, isnt it ?