okay, good. i have settled my broadband. now all tht's left is to pay for tys and irshad's money.
been reading irshad's texts from nov last year. somehow, we're so distant nowadays. and we've gone further apart ever since sch started for him. i dont know what to feel towards tht. i understand the situation. but it still saddens me .
the book i am reading . this girl, she'll get pulled into other ppl's dreams if they sleep near her, whether or not she's awake. she's now telling her boy tht they can't sleep tgt , or she'll always be interfering with his nightmares. tht's just sad.
and fruits basket, remember fruits basket? they'll all turn into animals when hugged by ppl of the opposite genders. it'll take them a long time to find someone who accepts them for who they are, and it's just sad, that they cant even find solace in a simple embrace...
it's like being with the one you love, but separated by a glass wall. just imagine tht. you can see each other, but it's just... not the same. you guys can't hold each other, or kiss, or touch his/her face. and if he/she cries, you can't hold him/her and say tht everything's alright.
because it's not.
and even if you put your palm against his/hers, the glass wall is... cold. there's no sign of warmth, and it just makes you cry a lot more harder doesnt it ?
i feel tht way now. there's smth missing . so very missing, but i have no idea what is it. once again, i'm having tht feeling of being afraid to be near the person i love. and yet, i so desire to be next to him right now.
what is this madness? i do not understand it. i am not used to it. i have never in my life felt an unidentified feeling as strong as this . is this what it really feels like to be 'in love' ?
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