i dreamt of khai . if i aint wrong i was trying to sneak into his camp place, smth like tht . i either got caught or i fell down somewhere , and i was sent to the sick bay at his campsite . i was lying down on the bed when i saw tht khai was in the sick bay as well , cos he was sick.

he lied down on the bed next to mine and i rmb staring at him as the woman who brought me there was like standing in fronta me lecturing me . when she was gone i said smth to khai and we talked , but i cant rmb our words.

and then i woke up , and it was like 4.
mm hmm , mm hmm. i wonder how khai is doing . he hasnt replied me since like 2pm ytd . i think his phone batt died.

in any case, i've editted and uploaded a short viary for 6th july. not gonna edit ytd's so soon , cos my prep exams are flooding my entire week from the 11th to 15th. having english paper 1 and my social studies paper , so.. wish me all the best !

Useless

i feel really useless right now .

i wish i'm more like a girl so tht i can help out for my mom or something . she's always busy with the housework when she's home , and she never asks me to help out . she only expects me to do well in my studies . so it makes me feel tht i'm useful only in sch .

another thing , khai's ex .
idk , i see her all the time. i recognize her, yeah. she's decent-looking and pretty , but she looks so sad like most of the time. i dont know her tht well , so i cant say much . but ive been in a similar situation as her , so i kind of know her feelings. not understand , but know.

so i'm guessing tht she dislikes me right now . it's what i predict , but it aint something i hope for . if she does, then tht's a boundary from me wanting to talk to her. yeah tht's right , i wish i could talk to her but i'm afraid of being shut out .

and i forgot to pass siying her SS notes too sia. but our exam 's on monday alr , so this is the least i can do for her . and for anyone else who is also weak in Healthcare .






if it's slanted, dont worry cos none of the words were cut off . i alr checked.
alrightyy , i feel so useless right now.

today was not really one of my favourite days .

in the morn , walked to khai's place cos we were gonna take the same bus to sch tgt. when walking there i saw a cat , and i wanted to pet it when it just Stared up at me before running off . blah3, let's just Fast forwarde an inch .

managed to hold hands with my khai on the bus ♥ slacked at canteen for awhile with him too , he makes me so happy, hehe. went to his classroom later on , then he insisted on sending me back to mine, which i didnt want to cos i wanted to walk around.

alrighty, let's get straight to the point(s).

-khai left for camp. so he's gonna be way away right smack-dab on our first month of our relationship. and i went home alone today . what irritated me was tht my friends kept asking me why nvr wait for khai and all tht , then jaslyn even asked me if it's cos we broke up alr.

-my art is screwed. i kept smudging the ink and i'm a mess right now. but tht aint a problem, the prob is tht my canvas is ruined in many areas .

-stepped on some dried ice cream in sch earlier , and right now my shoe sole is sticky . i kinda dislike walking with sticky soles , yeah?

-my toe was bleeding and i didnt know until i noticed a horrible trail of blood around my house, and especially my room . tried to wipe it off but they are apparently stubborn stains , and the floor has bits of red here and there right now .

mm hmm, mm hmm .
i think khai's my lucky charm of some sort . once he was gone , so many things went the opposite of what i expected . like ugh . like ugh you, you lan !

it's ok , at least there was today .
and there's still gonna be tmrw.

the past 3 sch days have been peanuts. just Posting to let you guys tht i'm still alive .
gonna do some maths on my own now ... had first session of maths tuition ytd . u can see tht no matter how much i hate maths , i'm still trying very hard .

oh, and another update : had my N level english oral today . went off quite well , had alot to say and when i ran out of words i just Gave a stupid face tht the examiners couldnt help smiling at .

i almost died trying not to breathe in your scent ; the scent so familiar yet so strange.

sup peeps . today was awesome! it started off boring but it ended off with a bang .

woke up to see many texts , three from khai and one from maya . replied before gg back to sleep and then waking up again at around 8 plus i think . blah3, jumped on my mom's bed to wake her up cos she had to bring me to my check up appointment at KK .

i havent even put on my pants then khai called me alr, lol. but i still had lots of fun talking to him, i just Love him so much.
and yeah , wore my new shoes out for the first time today !



i was like trying them on and taking photos of myself when nazriq walked in and was like, "ah, dah, dah berangan." hah!




hm, check up was usual, took my xray before gg to buy some tuna mayo waffles at the hospital and gg to eat nasi beryani near masjid sultan , hehe! went with my mommy by the way.aft tht we were walking out when we passed this little shop tht sold some souvenirs kinda stuff.

spent lots of time there , my mom walking abt and talking to the owner lady , while i was standing at the corner staring at these notebooks... gosh, i really wanted one.

eons later went to nex pulak ! hehe! like, finally! so yeah , mm hmm it pretty sure was crowded. saw a shop tht was selling angry bird stuff , immediately went jakonist over the soft toys! my mom asked me if i wanted one and i must have looked like an idiot nodding my head off .



and bought a mug too ! hehehehehe . ate swenson's aft tht , ate ice-cream. i got this mudpie thingy tht was so chocolatey like eughhhh . some time later mom took the chance to drag me to hair salon to get a fringe trim. had to obey , for the sake of tht angry bird...

and yeah, tht's it. i love my mom !

Waiting

i've yet to start on the grad night vid tht ms junainah assigned me some months back .

i'm waiting for my phone batt to die so i can charge it. and also waiting for my khai to finish his tuition. waiting , waiting , waiting . i never really liked waiting. we all dont . but we dont have a choice, and sometimes the time wasted is just Worth it when u get what u want.

currently i'm waiting to get my N levels over and done with. i'm waiting to go poly so i can do some media course thingy. i'm waiting to grow old enough to get a permanent job. yeah in short , i'm waiting for my future.

i've also been waiting for my brother to treat me like his little sister again.



and i'm waiting for more classroom memories to get tht video done.

last night's dream was abt this slope and an airplane. this slope was kind of like a tourist attraction (yeah i was in another country again) and ppl were gg there in the middle of their flight, cos their aeroplane was passing by , smth like tht.

first thing in the morn , my khai called, hehe. good way to start the day indeed ! i'm so glad he's mine ♥

went back to sleep awhile aft , waking up at 10 cos my phone was unfortunately right next to my head. so texted my khai , and then i went out to talk to my small bro awhile. told him tht i want sit between him and my older bro when watching transformers 3 later , hehe.

but guess what .

not even 20 minutes aft tht, nazriq told me tht naqib aint gonna watch with us aft all . cos he's watching tmrw. with his muddafarking girlfriend .

you have no idea how upset i was ! and i still am.

hi , today was another day filled with double happiness ! hehe. at 5 plus went to meet my khai , cos he wanted to pass me white chocolate . made my way there at my normal speed , blah3 then he surprised me with his arms around my waist , or at least thts what i thought lah.

i actually jumped sia . ok, then we talk talk talk , play with his DSLR , and then went to bus stop to wait for the bus tht brings us to interchange. at one moment he took my hand suddenly and we look at clouds, hehe.

went to bedok with my dad to buy my shoes! so happy, i saw tht pair when i was still just Good friends with my khai , which u can see was such a long time ago. hehe. imma size 8!

alrighty , parted with my dad at bedok interchange cos he wanted to go my grandma's house. i didnt want to cos later my grandparents will confirm gimme money , which i always try not to accept but they insist . so yeah , took the train on my own .

took the 358 , but the bus driver spaced out and went to the right instead of the left. so he had to go for one round before i was able to go to my khai's place , where he was waiting with a sad face. he walked me home holding hands , and i purposely walked the long cut , hehe.

he kissed me somewhere on the right of my right eye , considerably the middle of my forehead and cheek . he blamed me for putting my head down!

so yeah , time well-spent once again . with my khai ♥
i love him so much. cant stop thinking abt him alr !

it's friday !

yes it is !

wanted to go sch tgt with khai but i had to reach at 745 , cos of some class thingy tht we had to get done. it's this game thingy where u have to answer questions abt singapore and build some sorta city . everyone was doing fine until timothy said tht we have to restart the level if we get 9 questions wrong.

then we all scared alr ah , scared to get any wrong questions . by the time it was 855 , most of us were alr done but some ppl still had to keep restarting. of cos we helped them, and there were 3 groups altogether, yelling answers and all tht.

i was with shih ying 's so-called group, and then when we saw tht she was completed , the ppl tht were gathering around her went on and cheered. and then the other groups were done too , and basically the whole class was cheering in the comp lab lah.

we all planned to go canteen to eat , cos we all didnt. farhan told us to give the NE quiz as an excuse , but in the end we didnt sia. instead we all went to parade sq where i enjoyed watching the NCC ppl march, hehe. i just Love to watch tht!

first period was english , where i had to stand again . cos i didnt do my work . blah3, idk why i was so sleepy today ! fell asleep in maths , and then was lunch . i kinda dislike lunch on fridays .

uh huh, and then we had self study where i did my ss work . i love self study lah . the sch's aim works. like seriously . on me lah. uh huh. had pe aft tht, where i played badminton with timothy against asleah and shushan , and then some time later against siying .

once the bell rang , gathered , and then blah3 eons later we were dismissed , so i went up to third floor to meet my khai , hehe. a little rendezvous , but we slacked there for the very first time actually . k next .

went to art eating my cookies , and then i started drawing my lines . so very the sressing, but its alright , im glad the sch did this thingy to make us stay back to get our work done . at one point in time i went out of class , and saw khai doing his npcc stuff . stood there watching before hearing ms chua calling me , so went back in and continued my work .

there were so many photographic moments today sia! but i didnt bring my cammie. how unfortunate.

waited at canteen with jaslyn and siying , laughing like shit , and then khai was dismissed . siying has been pestering me for her kinder bueno , so all 4 of us had to go 7-11 and take bus from the haising stop .

so yeah , spent my time with khai on the bus ride home again . to be honest i liked having our legs tangled. alighted with him to send him to his lift , and as always he kissed my forehead before we parted. what an awesome way to end the sch week , and to start the month !

today is a thurday
in the month after may .
i'm falling asleep in physics
wake me up with a kiss!

haha, a crap poem tht i wrote spontaneously to asleah during physics .

today was st john's day ! i just Love watching the UGs march. and farizah was so fierce during pledge taking . to be honest , i think st john's like the best UG . like, their lines are straight and their discipline and all tht stuff are better compared to ncc , npcc all tht. in my opinion lah.

had temperature taking aft tht , and we were all standing with the thing in our mouths , when i laid my eyes on daniel ah. he was looking over his shoulder suspiciously , and then he removed the themometer from his mouth and looked out the window with a relax face .

but a few secs later ms junainah was like , "daniel !" , then he terperanjat , he seriously jumped sia! i saw everything , and i couldnt help laughing my head off , which was difficult with my thermometer in my mouth .

had one period of chemy before gg for art all the way til recess . i fell asleep for awhile , and saw this image of a lane where someone was on fire . recess , some annoying sec two guys were pushing around and one of them bumped into siying . got so mad , but i held it in .

two periods of physics came aft , where i fell asleep when mr lim was scolding the latecomers. felt like hours but actually only a few minutes passed . you know what they say ; "in your bed at 545 , u close your eyes for 5 mins , you open them again and it's 7pm. at sch at 1230 , u close ur eyes for 5 mins , u open them again and it's 1230."

aft tht was boring old maths , so i went to toilet with asleah for awhile. when returning back to class she told me to walk one round of the second floor, but i told her tht i would rather walk one round third floor .

she was like , "aw too bad. .........eh, tu!" so i looked in front , and there was my khai walking past 2/2 . hehe. what a coincidence! so i gave him a smile then blah3 went for maths before gg for lunch when the bell finally rang eons later .

had MT aft tht , so i passed by 3/3 where i saw khai standing my the door . MT was fun , there were no teachers so we gathered and told scary stories , as always. (kinda an MT relief class tradition!)

at one point we were all like concentrating on johan's story , when amalina (who was sitting by the window) told us tht she saw syafie. we all panicked shit sia , and straightway grab the assignments tht we were supposed to do , sat at a table and pretended to look at the piece of paper. funny sey!

aft awhile we gathered back tgt , and continued with the story . johan's story was the scariest ! haha . was abt a malay girl with green eyes .

when walking back to class , was passing by 3/3 when i saw khai's friends in the classroom along with him , then i saw him dancing.

during english , which came aft , mr syafie talked to us abt this indian teacher whom many boys couldnt take their eyes off when she was their examiner for oral , cos her eyes are green. teros, all the malay ppl stare stare at each other with wide eyes! haha .

aft sch went home with my khai , on the way to the bus stop , his classmates were at the other side of the road and they were like , "bye eindah!" then i stare at them, then they were like, "last long !" so sweet ! amirah bakar ah her name?

as always khai made me laugh alot lah. he's so awesome lah, i love him so much. so he sent me all the way to my lift for the very first time, kissed my forehead, and then i smiled to myself at the corner of the lift.

last night's dream was disgusting .
in more ways than one .

woke up at 12 plus, cos some ppl were screaming , though i cant rmb whether it was in my dream or in reality . couldnt go back to sleep aft tht , called khai though obviously he was alr asleep.. so today morn , ...i dont rmb much. but there's this thingy for 4/2 to dominate a whole page in the yearbook . smth like tht.

had 4 periods of art where i just Continued my line drawing with the sun in my face.

didnt really eat at recess , but had fun joining sabrina and shushan's conversation , talking like as if i understood what they were talking abt , and also disturbing siying who was on her i-something . (i aint so familiar with Apple)

maths followed soon aft , then two periods of english where i had to stand along with many others cos we didnt do our work . ate during lunch , and then it was two periods of ss , where i was scolded again for not completing tht assignment . had chemy for the last period and then we were dismissed.

for some reason today was kinda quiet . not much funny stuff tht i can rmb sia.

went to canteen , sat with hafiz , timothy and zharfan cos they hadnt completed their ss as well , and apparently all of them didnt have the question paper . zharfan completed his first , which left the 3 of us to struggle , asking 4/3 peeps for help and all tht , but i did mine myself *smiles*

eons later i was done , said bye to everyone at the table (including nuraini, edmund and michelle, they were there too) , and then walked out of the canteen with my khai, cos gg home tgt. hehe. have i told you tht i received my N level entry pass ytd ? it just Goes to show how near my national exams are!

and the whole day , i was just Thinking of the dream i had .
so yeah, i do rmb it right now. so very clearly detailed.

i hate it when dreams remind u of smth tht was so difficult for u to forget. and it felt so real tht i think my dream-self travelled back in time last night.

second day of the second semester

sup peeps .

uhm , as u can see from the title it was the second day of sch today . but i aint gonna title my posts all the way to tenth day of the semester and so on and so forth lah , if u get what i mean.
without further ado let us run thru today .

khai was the commander today , i was reading peacefully when asleah came , i was like, shit she confirm will make me laugh like shit abt khai sia . and i was right , at first she didnt notice but when she did she was like, "eh !" just As he was abt to give the command .

so yeah, she like lip-sync his command dengan muke muke sekali ... what else , i laugh ah! then thru out national anthem i couldnt stop laughing to myself sey !

when we were all seated and listening to mrs woo's speech , laughed alot again . and then my eyes started wondering around and i saw tht my khai sat in the same line as me. like, literally! cos there's a long white line painted across the parade square and we're both seated on it. (i just Asked him)

hm , then seconds later asleah was like , "eh kau boleh nampak khai kau dari sini !" i showed her a face and was like, "dari tadi sey aku tengan tenung dier! xD" so yeah .

first period chemy , and we went to the comp lab . did a bit of facebook, some spams with timothy , edmund, syafiq and occasionally siying , but i did lots of chemistry just To let you know!

when gg back to class , had a chance to pass 3/3 so tht's what i did , but my khai was doing his work. so proud of him ! saw dan danial dan staring at me tersengih-sengih though . aft tht was mother tongue , so i had the chance to walk past 3/3 again . (x

most of the ppl from the sch was like loitering outside their classrooms when the bell went , but sadly khai wasnt one of them . so i went ahead to 3/7 where i saw someone staring at me from the corner of my eye .

was nurul hazirah , so i was like, oh ur sana tix! then blah3, filled the thingy before gg back to her class when they were preparing to greet their teacha ms karin wong (who was my home tutor in sec 2) , so naturally she was like "now is not the time to do ur sana -.-" so yeah .

recess didnt really ate , just Listened to some dubstep before gg for maths when the bell signaled the end of recess . i sat right at the front again today right next to ms huang , cos i wouldnt mind paying more attention to maths . see, i can be a good girl when i wanna .

had health check up during ss , which was good cos i owed ms poh the assignments. but , when we were all sitting outside the library she came up to me suddenly and held her palm out to me. i stared back at her , and wanxuan must have thought tht i was using my phone , cos she was like, "cher give chance lah cher!"

so yeah , ms poh told me to give it by today , so i nodded , and then blah3 i got scolded by the nurse for squinting my eyes when reading them letters with my right eye .

i didnt have to do the spine check cos i was doing the follow up sessions on my own alr i think , so i went ahead to class , looking at the clock cos everyone was at geog/hist. classroom was dark with only the sun shining thru the curtains , so eventually i got bored and walked out .

saw shushan and siying at the library , but when i got there i saw tht they were at the second floor of the building , so to chase them , i had to run all the way , and i think khai must have seen me cos during lunch i saw tht he texted me cos he saw me like marah.

hm, then what else ah?

during the geog remedial aft sch , went around the sch to do some hunt thing , with asleah and siying in my group. we were the first to find it , but ms poh told us not to slack there cos later the other groups would know where the thing was , so we immediately went to where the others were and pretended to look lost as well.

saw khai at npcc , and then blah3 , had my art til 630 , and then i slacked at bus stop with him , talking abt random stuff tht came into our heads . i like the way he saw afnan, fadhli , and was like "......shit." k, im smiling in remembrance . funny sey!

on the bus , at one point i was abt to rest my head on his shoulder , but idk why i didnt. so yeah ... aw i'm so glad tht he's mine, really. hehe ^^

my dear brothers .

something just Made my day even more awesome!
i looked out the balcony standing between both my brothers .

it may seem nth to you , but it's been such a long time since i last stood between them. i've searched all albums and there seemed to be only one picture of the 3 of us . i rmb crying as i stared at tht photo in a frame , on the day tht they both disappointed me. uh huh...

and we were staring out the balcony window cos we heard smth like an accident .

you know what , since we are bored right now , let's talk abt my brothers .

older brother : Naqib



he's turning 20 this august , but he's still very much like a child . a spoilt brat is my most polite term. i dont wanna start gossiping abt him right here, but let me just Tell you tht if u were to be on the same bus as him and me , u would have never thought tht we were siblings .

ask any of the seniors from our sch , they most probably know him but doesnt know tht he's my brother . yes, it's our differences. he dropped out of sch at sec 3 , and to put it bluntly he's much like a mamat.

but i'm grateful tht he ain't rude to my grandparents . i'm really grateful for tht, i just Wish he'd visit them more. the only times he ever went over to my aunt's (where my grandma lives) , was to collect money tht he had asked from my aunt .

hm , i aint gonna go personal here either . but he is alot like a spoilt brat , throwing tantrums when he's hungry (he cant cook and he gets lazy to buy stuff on his own) and when he has no money (the dude has big problems with budgets and stuff like tht) , so yeah. he ain't as independant as his lil sis .

i'm sure you've all heard tht he left me for a girlfriend of his , so we ain't gg there either here. just Wanna let u know tht i think i'll just Hate whatever girlfriends he get from now on , whether or not i've actually met them.

hating someone tht u barely know is too much .
but so is leaving someone of ur blood bond , for someone tht hasnt even taken up half ur life.

younger brother : Nazriq



i used to dislike him when he just Arrived in our family . the very earliest memory of him was when i was standing outside the master bedroom with my parents , older bro and grandma (she was living with us at tht time).

my mom was rubbing her tummy and i was looking at it , and everyone was laughing and i saw many happy faces . i recall putting my ear to her tummy and my older bro telling me to be careful , or not my face would get kicked. i immediately withdrew my head back .

he recently turned 11 in march, but idk why he's still considerably short. we got into fights alot when i was still in pri sch , and one of my most effective attacks was pulling his hair hard. he'd burst into tears and i always got it from my mom.

i didnt really like my younger bro when he was just Born into the family, like how my mom says my older bro didnt like me when i was new. so yeah , i dont have alot to complain abt my lil bro , just Tht he doesnt admit when he knows he pwned alr.

one thing is , my bond with him grew alot stronger when he just Sunat. i rmb peeking at him from the door when he was lying on bed. and i saw tht sad look on his face . he was alone and wanted to cry . i stared at him for some time before he saw me and smiled .

but overall , i do love my brothers to the max .



my God younger brother is my boyf now , and my God older brother is a douchebag now . i guess i should be grateful for the blood brothers tht i have alr. hehe.
♥ your siblings .

[sorry for blur pics , i lazy scan]

went central with asleah , meeting her at sch bus stop cos she needed to put some assignment into ms poh's pigeonhole (actually i have to too , but you know me.) . sat at the bus stop with sabrina tan and staring at celine ong , before making my way to central with asleah .

on the way , she told me some councillior friend of syahirah khair's was like staring at me when i was walking past her at the hall , and tht she was staring at my nametag. i absolutely dislike it when ppl stare at my nametag , it's like they know u from facebook, it's like , "is tht eindah wrister? looks like eindah wrister. oh yeah, name tag is eindah. ok she's eindah wrister." get it?

took random pics on the way , cos i brought along my khai's cammie.




hm , too many funny things in the evening alr . i once mentioned tht there are some ppl tht always make me wanna laugh just By looking at them right? yeah, one of them's asleah. mm hmm, truth be told she's one of the funnier ppl from our clique.

then what ah? oh aye , at the counter there alot of funny things , i also made asleah laugh cos she has a good sense of humour tht is similar to mine, hehe. i was damn selenge when buying the food ah, run here run there call her text him.

i went central to get the $3 porridge for my adek , mom and i. but porridge ran out so i just Bought food for them cos i brought like only 12 dollars . had enough left for some choc milk tea, which was just What i bought.

on the bus trip home , texted khai , and he told me tht dan danial dan was like on the same bus as me. i had tht feeling sia , but i didnt bother abt it. hm, and then khai said tht dan said to khai, "eh khai , girlf kau dalam bas 358". and tht made me happy sia. ....entah.

but alas, when i got home, the first thing tht happened was tht my adek yelled at me. got pretty upset but it was good tht i didnt react when he threw a tantrum at me , cos it would have only made things worse. some mins later he came to my room gg all , "thank you, sorry." and so all was fine with him again .

hm i still dont see the reason why i feel so awesome.
but guess what ? i tend to forget the world when i'm in love .

first day of the second semester

truth be told , it's not very common of me to remember dreams tht i had on sch days. i do rmb in the mornings, but i forget by the time it gets to flag raising , unless i jot it down before i leave home. i've tried repeating my dreams in my head over and over again , but i get distracted for a minute and poof it disappears ; without a return promise.

well anyways , here's how the first day of semester 2; term 3 went.

i cant rmb the last time i tied my hair , which was why i got so frustrated in the morning . i told myself tht it's ok though. wouldnt want smth like tht to ruin my first day of sch. so went on, went on, went on to the bus stop texting khai and listening to some AAR .

my phone time was messed up ever since bali , so i wasnt so sure what time it was. (i usually leave at 6:24 phone clock) but then i saw the usual ppl at the bus stop, and as i watched them board their usual buses (which came accordingly like before the june hols...) , i alr knew what time it was, so yeah .

one month sure felt like one day .
and it was so dream-like , like as if the holidays never existed .

english teacha changed from ms foo to mr syafie. aside from tht , every other subject has the same teachas. first period was mt , and i was looking forward to walking past 3/3 to see my khai , but ms junainah lectured us until tht one period was over, and then it was english.

mr lim didnt seem too happy at physics cos we all never did his hols hw. in fach he was pretty pissed i might say .

recess was normal as always , listened to some dubstep in mega bass , and the experience is just... Woah. like really, woah. try it! it's so WOAH !

ss was alright , just Tht i didnt understood map reading. sometimes i get really upset at the fact tht i'm not a normal-speed learner. it never bothered me as much , but i'm getting really frustrated. like teeth-gritting , heavy-breathing kind of frustrated. n levels is on its way , for god's sake.

for once maths was humouring , cos ms huang was swinging her hand showing us the stuff on the board when her hand whacked the whiteboard ledge. and it was loud! i was sitting right in front of her , and im sorry tht i seriously laughed like shit at her. X:

blah3 , assembly , not much, just Tht i hit jonathan lee (who was sitting infronta me) and qianying (who was sitting behind) alot of times, hard, and didnt bother saying sorry . and i saw tht khai had to stand up xD

aft sch i was walking at the stairs , turned the corner and the first thing i saw as khai . i immediately smiled , like i really smiled sia i tell you. then he told me he go eat first , so i waited at canteen , then idk what happened and i was at the bus stop with lots of ppl.

i actually said straight to khai , "i love u" , and im so proud of myself for tht . sure it may seem like nth but i gathered lots of guts to do tht and he had a bad day so it might have lightened his spirits , idk. i hope tht was the case though, hehe.

a simple word won't turn back the hands of the clock.

i went back to pri sch in last night's dream.

i was in my P6 classroom , along with two other ppl whom i cant rmb alr. there were many cockroaches scurrying around the floor , tables and windows. the ppl i was with were saying smth abt some douche leaving them behind as experiments.

i saw glass jars on the tables, with roaches inside them as well . one of the ppl i was with, let's name them Z and X , Z said, "omg why did he leave these pearls in with the cockroaches?" , to which X replied; "they're eggs." my dream self thought to herself, "and each egg contains 40 more baby roaches..." uh huh, can u imagine?

and then what ah? they stayed in the classroom while i walked out to the stairs near the toilets. i bumped into some pri sch friends, one of them being the infamous darrell kong. we both talked and walked down the stairs holding hands, though idk why, and when we got at the bottom laughing , he pulled my face down and kissed me on the cheek .

as i walked to the canteen alone i wondered to myself, "why the hell did so many ppl kiss me today?" cos if i aint wrong many of my pri sch friends , female and male , kept kissing me on the cheeks in tht dream. uh huh.

next , i walked out the gates and started walking the route tht i always took back then when gg home. alot of ppl were at the basketball court near my house when i was passing by it, including maya. she was barefoot ; she came over and told me tht she wanted to put on shoes.

followed her into my house lift , where i got scolded for pressing the 13th floor button. it resulted in her refusing to get off my own house floor , idk why. but her face seemed pissed .

hm, and then i rmb being in a shop and looking at some chocolates , think was deciding to buy for someone or smth like tht.

so yeah , i think tht's all for last night/this morning. woke up with the piano dubstep tht i was last listening to playing in my head.

cosfest 2011 !

yeah, the title says it all.

went to downtown east to go to the annual cosplay festival (tht should be what CosFest stands for right?) with siying , timothy and syafiq . for once i was the one waiting for siying, and im proud of tht. waited a long time too!

texted syafiq to find out his whereabouts, and we got it but we didnt get him. timothy came before we found syafiq , and we were all asking each other "where is he sia ???" when i saw him strolling right behind timothy.

so, yeah, took as many pics as possible, siying was gg crazy cos there were so many ppl cosplaying her vocaloid twins.






i dont watch alot of the popular anime anymore, so i didnt see alot of cosplayers whom i recognized. these are just Some of the few tht i did. enma ai sia!







but guess what !? i saw a group of ppl cosplaying dynasty warriors sia! and one of them was wang yuanji ! i was like, "omg omg omg take take take! take the blue one!" and then i turned into jakonist fangirl mode.




abt some time later took a break and went ehub with siying , bought old chang kee and went to the 5th floor to slack while eating. there was a giant moth whose picture i tried to take, but as always my hand was shivering and most of the pics were blur until i eventually got one.



went back to d'marquee, where siying went crazy running around taking pics again. the dynasty warriors were still there, and i kept gg back to the area tht they were hanging around at.
wang yuanji has a nice back view.



went in the dome to slack at one corner with timothy and two of his friends, one of whom was cosplaying some naruto character whose name i have forgotten. everyone was gathering around him when he was asleep, cos yeah, he looked so cute.



hm, some time later, went out again and i finally took a picture with wang yuanji !



the biggest joy of cosplay is when u meet ur fave character and pretend tht it's really the person whom u admire so much in a video game.

walked around some more to see the sun shining down on the lawn in front of the dome. siying really took alot of pics , so much more than the videos i took.

just Before the event ended, stood there camwhoring with siying and timothy before gg fish and co to eat.
oh, syafiq went home early.





chit chatted alot at fish and co , and then walked to ws , said bye to siying at bus no. 12, took 358 with tim and then blah3 i am home.
today's viary!

a beautiful cat silhouette .

last night's dream was situated in another country again , and i think it was malaysia as well. i was in a hotel where the number 110 was a blessing . i cant rmb what room we got, but there were little shops by the lobby and shop number 110 had a lot of people.

at one point i was following my grandma around the little shops , when she said tht she wanted to go back to her hotel room. i went inside this sort of train station, thinking tht it would bring us back to the hotel rooms.

it turned out, it was a train , but a bus. i cant describe it. this bus went on all the way back to singapore, and i rmb sitting right at the back of the upper deck, and facing out the little window at the back . i recall tht the bus was on the highway .

u will never know how high i felt at tht point in time.

there were some other girls on the bus, other than me and my grandma, and those girls were in my way when i wanted to get down from tht seat. i remember pushing them off just When i saw a large black cat , sort of like tiger sized , out the window. tht picture is still very very clear in my mind right now. its outline against the sky .... so beautiful .

at another point i saw a tiger among the grass by the roadside , and aft the bus passed tht , it passed a tourist who just Fainted when we went past her . i rmb thinking to myself tht i wanted to get off and help her, cos of the tiger.

idk , a moment later my grandma and i got off at a bus stop tht resembled kallang mrt station. we went to its toilet, where i bumped into hafiz azhar and asleah . (uhm, the toilet was unisex.) hafiz was saying, "you know aye, if u were a nigga you would be smoking with me right now."

my grandma and i went thru the gantries and searched for the counter tht would sell us tickets to get back to the hotel tht we were at. but unfortunately, none of them did. it turned out tht tht wasnt the right stop to have had alighted at .

i got really frustrated and started to loiter , just Loiter around the mrt station, and then suddenly i was awake.

aw i spent the evening with my khai again ((: was kind of upset tht we canceled at first cos shan was too late. but in the end still met up! i walked to our usual place in my n-o-r-m-a-l speed. if u rmb what it is.

khai scared the shit out of me when he tapped my shoulder , and i actually jumped. and then as always stood there in the sun, talking and laughing over random stuff . today i didnt sit there though, i also dk why.

me: why can't we go to sch rooftops in singapore?
him: bcos they are scared tht ppl like you go up there and daydream.

ok tht really made me laugh! i still smile in remembrance. he made me laugh alot, i just Cant seem to rmb reasons. i jakonist with his DSLR , and at one point had to crawl under cos i dropped his lens cover thingy .

the sun was in our faces , to my joy but not to his.






and when we parted, he kissed my forehead as promised.
made my day!


aw ... he's my khai. ♥