nobody can find me here .

hey. as you can see, i am on the internet. where am i, you ask? i'm somewhere where nobody can find me. nobody. no-body.

shall i share with you ytd as well , or just share z today? okay, both days it is.

i didnt go to sch ytd, cause i woke up feeling downright pathetic, physically and emotionally. stayed in bed the whole morning and afternoon, til abt 2 i think, when i got out of bed to shower and to meet with siying and timothy.

brought some extra stuff, cause the plan was to go to work at 6, and then head to guilley aftwards. for a sleepover.

met with those 2 awesome ppl at mini toons, and they both got a bunch of sweets/marshmallows. both of them hurriedly offered me some of their candy, and when i had siying's in my mouth, tim offered me his, and i was like, wait. and then he gave me this sad face.

made our way to long john silver to have lunchey, where i didnt eat much. i just bought dessert and beverage, and then siying gave me 2 of her shrimp, the darling. and some fries, which i gladly took.

timothy bought many 'potatoes', and then he asked me to try the potato salad, which was what i did. i was like, "tastes like pineapple." siying took a look and what i took, and she was like, "yeah, it is pineapple."

while eating, laughed a lot too. talked abt sch (for them) and then we decided to go to the library. i was hopping up the stairs and then timothy was like, "why are you rushing??" and then siying was like, "because she likes libraries." smth like tht, somehow i found tht sweet.

my shoes were damn squeaky, annoyingly. siying and timothy kept staring at my nikes and gg all, "annoying." (siying) and ".....nice squeaky shoes." (timothy)

in the end, i borrowed another book. i really cannot leave a library without borrowing at least one book sia, serious. is tht a good or a bad habit? you decide.

i borrowed an elly griffiths! the sequel to the janus stone, which was the sequel to the crossing places, which is titled "the house at sea's end" . hehe!

made our way to bus interchange, where we took 3 and then we all just slacked on the bus. siying alighted first, at her house, and then i alighted at dte, where i made my way to work. saw fatin and haryani, who waved at me and i was like squinting and then i was like o hey!

rushed to work. and i got BP, which aint half bad la. some eons later shahrul came along and we had this convo:

him: eindah~ asal tadi kau dtg lambat?
me: o, sekolah.
him: bedek ah! aku nampak kau kat whitesands sey!
me: oops.
him: hahahahaha! nak tipu tak agak-agak sey!
me: (x

yeah, i did see him too, along with hanah, but they didnt seem to have seen me so thats what i presumed.

nth much happened, except tht i was damn bored out of my wits. first of all, i had my diary but my pen ran out of ink! (tht's like the worst disaster ever) secondly, i placed my phone in the gr office so i could neither text nor tweet. and there were so little ppl, in terms of customers and the colleagues.

i wrote this poem. see if you can depict its meaning or not, or, its place.

she kicks her feet off the sand
gets her whole weight in the air
the chains creak
she stays put despite feeling weak

her toes pointing to the direction
where freedom and suicide come in union
she ignores the temptation
by continuing to stay in motion.

dadadoo, ended shift at 10. chit chatted at the ops office for awhile before making my way to gr office where i talked with mazni and then i made my way to ntuc to buy stuff. got milk tea and chocolate. (guess what chocolate? nope, not kbw. surprising right?)

took 17 all the way to the end, before taking 7 , cause i was gg guilley. reached there around 11.30 smth, where not only my granny greeted me, but zorro, hometown, katie, and tilda. all of them crowded by the door.

blah3, fell asleep only at 12.30 cause granny insisted tht i eat first before gg to shower and then to sleep. damn difficult to sleep with all the bells ringing in my ears. but then again, tht's just what i love abt guilley: the pleasant noise.

every little sound is just... so very precious.

let's move on to today.

woke up at 745, and then went to shower. when i was inside the toilette i realised tht i forgot to take along my underwear so i wanted to go get them. when i opened the door, zorro, tanda and halia were all crowded right outside, staring up at me.

they were all blocking my way and when i tried to walk, they all dashed in fronta me, so it was like i had them as my bodyguards, and while they walked in fronta me, all of them looked behind at me, if you get what i mean. alamak, damn irritating you know!

left guilley around 8.10 to head to work. took 7 to bedok, where i took 17. halfway thru the trip i realized i was gonna be late, but i managed to reach on time, just a little aft the briefing started. i got BOC.

talked with bennicker a lot today, his station was MP which was right next to mine. he aint half bad, he's a cool dude too.

yong heng was the mid shift, along with this new dude whom ive never seen before named sebastien. he covered me for me to go breakkie, where i went to get myself some twix and lingered at e hub entrance to soak in the heat.

when i got back to EK, i was walking into the gr office when i saw this dude whom ive never seen before. a party co i think, or a gro. heard him asking "siaper tu?", and then the gro whose name idk looked at me and was like, "o, she's a playguide." and the dude kept looking at me. his face so the chinese.

back at BOC, i was sitting on the stairs by my station and reading The Mark, (the book tht im currently reading, ive finished Fade) when suddenly one of the BOC balls hit me on the head.

turned, there was nobody there and i started to get pretty freaked. and then i saw yong heng walking sneakily away from my direction.

ran towards him, and when he saw me he started running too, and then bennicker was like, "eh woah! chill man, dont fight!" and then, hayati walkied, "hayati to playguides, PLEASE STOP PLAYING. the whole world can see you not dg your job." =_____=

the whole morning til my break aye, believe it or not, not a single kid came into my station. seriously! and then i managed to slack at MP with yong heng and bennicker. they saw the pic of irshad and i in my diary and asked to take a look .

heard yong heng saying to bennicker, "eh, eh, ta de nan pengyou not bad eh. *points to irshad's face* hen cute hor?" hahahahah, i find tht damn cute.

got so damn bored. o, o, this was damn funny.

hayati: yong heng , can check out the mound?
yong heng: huh, which mum?
hayati: the MOUND !! why would i ask you to check out mums for me?

omg tht was so funny sia. then eons later i was searching for yong heng.

me: bennicker, where's yong heng?
bennicker: o, he went to search for the mum.
me: oy serious la!
him: why??? you also want search for mum ah?

i find tht funny sia, serious. the way he said it. haha, he also one gerek dude la he. found yong heng at BP , and when he saw me he started running again, went thru the cave to corner him and then he was like T__________T

syafiq anuar was one of the pm shifters! been eons since i last saw him. waved like mad and then he also waved like mad and was like, "oy! dah lamer tak nampak!?"

saw tht he had a bowl cut. hahaha, cause, he's still in sec sch per. during the hols his hair was super long. pointed at his hair and laughed, and then i was like, "what happened to your hair?" and then he was like =______________= . HAHAHAHA.

bennicker and i , every few mins we would look at each other over the distance and signal the number of mins we had til dismissal, cause he was also am shift. when it was 4, we dashed to BP to say bye to yong heng before making another mad dash to the ops office to clock out.

of course, the time on the clock out machine was still 15:58 , so we all just slacked around first. when it was finally 16:00, shot my hand to take my check-out card but hanah beat me to it again, dammit!

she laughed and bennicker and i were like =__________= and then we all clocked out and went to the gr office, where i sat and chatted with fadzli (party co) before texting irshad. and yeah, he couldnt make it, aft all.

bennicker saw me with muka gembeng . he had this wide-eyed look on his face, and when i caught him staring, he looked all the more surprised and tried to look away, but i smiled and waved and he was like, "oh, bye."

there's a reason why i'm pissed.
there's a reason why i wanted to see him badly.
most of all, there's a reason why i came to guilley. only fools would believe me if i said there was no reason.

so here i am, somewhere where nobody could find me.
nobody.

just souls.
the right kind.

dammit. this sucks. i feel like i shouldnt have told anyone abt the MBWOE aft all.