i've finally got the guts to be on the comp.

somehow, it's always the most dangerous place. it's where people hurt you, and where you hurt yourselves. it's where you get hurt, basically. you see things tht hurt your feelings, be it enemies tht talk abt you, or exes tht are doing fine without you.

and you see things tht spoil your mind, be it the violence or the pornography. it makes you want to do things tht you shouldnt. on the other hand, it's where you can get inspired. you see things tht others do, the good things, like video diarying or blogging, letting out all your feelings.

but maybe it's not good. you see so many things tht so many people do, tht you just lose the interest in your main talent. you get undecided. spoilt for choice. sometimes, they are the wrong choices.

i'm still getting over the Being Left Behind. he was really the love of my life. why has my emotions towards his leaving not numb? aft all, he's alr left me behind three times. why do i not get used to it ?

currently planning my second MV which is to re:the world calling. the beginning would be easy, i can go on my own filming shit. but towards like near the ending of the 1st minute, i'd need someone to help alr.

well.
i shall get over this, and i will. i will move on. not to other guys, just to the future. if he and i meet again someday, then we are meant to be. he cannot avoid tht. no more excuses.

none for me too . because i am the strongest person i have ever met.
the weakest, but still the strongest.