found GIFs of this vid on tumblr. thought i'd share the vid with ya, cause it means more than airlines doesnt it? (;

heidiho to you all my lans. I HAVE FINISHED READING THE JANUS STONE! yet another amazing book from elly griffiths (altho i've only read her first two books, inc this one) , whose genre i still have not confirmed...

anyway, i came here to share with you more interesting stuffs. (at least to me they are) i was reading my jan 2011 diary. and here i quote from an entry: and the he refers to none other than irshad noorhalim :

he positioned himself until i was seated between his legs, and hugged my waist from behind.

just like old times.

i actually cried in the dream. i cried like shit. to which he said, "don't cry lah... say Alhamdullilah." and then he hugged me, so i hugged him back.

oh, and before this part there were many more details, but im lazy so i just put the main points. the most significant part. i guess?

just like what happened on tht night at prp :3 well tht's what i thought. i happen to take my dreams seriously ok? i've had many other incidences where smth happens in real life tht is so damn familiar to a dream i once had. most of the time many months or years aft i dreamt it.

do you know why i take my dreams seriously? because, they teach me lessons. very important ones . though they dont really happen , certain incidences do happen tht teach me the similar lesson, if you get what i mean.

for example, i once dreamt where i ignored things tht were from my past. the island tht i was on was things of the past, and i was trying to run away from everything. and then when i found some, i only interacted with the things of the present/future.

dammit la, i dont rmb the details, but i told it to MKI before. needa check my msn history then, but im lazy. so nvm. but you get what i mean i hope.

so, another topic tht i wanna talk abt.



click on the piccie to see da words.

in case you were wondering, i just got bored ok, tht was why i was on random ppl's twittas. clicking random links. i ended up on hers, so i just read uh. and THIS. heheheeh. she's referring to us! she's pissed by me! heheheheh.

i think it's pretty silly for her to be making a big deal out of mine and shad's first month tgt when we're not.

but the thing tht bothered me the most was the tweet tht i zoomed on, which is the one on the right. "dont u feel hot wearing that" . it bothered me. T.T it is not my fault tht i have this condition tht makes me hafta wear hoodie all the time T.T

o well, im bored. and, i took tht pic with cammie cause screenshots are just too troublesome and laggy.

what are my plans for tmrw? idk. i hope i can replace suriani for midshift tmrw. cause i wanna help, and ive not been working for days alr and she's having a high fever, and mommy doesnt seem to have any plans for tmrw but im not so sure... i wanna help suriani !

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i am z bored.

you know the feeling of time going so quickly? do u know how i felt when i was reading my jan 2011 and i am in dec ? the feeling is like WOAH. not just woah, but WOAH. it's like, time flies.

but sometimes, i think to myself, "if time is really very fast, why am i still 16?" cause it just seems like such a small number. altho ive been thru so much shit all my life, it still feels like an extremely short time. yayaya i know i am young. but its not really like tht feeling.

december 2011 : what do we have here?

first things first, sabrina's 16th birthday. and then , bbq with the EK kids. followed by bloody n level results. i almost forgot abt the last. on tht last paper of the exams, when everyone literally ran out the hall , i thought the nightmare was all over.

yeah, i considered it a nightmare. and i really thought it was all over. tht i wouldnt have anything to do with it anymore. but nope, the nightmare just started. i hafta make the right choice now between sec 5 ... and ite.

i still dk. i really dk.



now i just wanna go drown myself in paragraphs of words. dont disturb me, shush.
and im still waiting for the boy to wake up /: