ohhh i love my job !

had this song stuck in my head all day today.

heidiho lans! i just realized tht if you guys dont mind being called a lan, then you really deserve being the rare few who know this bloggie of mine. k. nvm, let's get started !

didnt get much sleep, idk why. and for some reason i was damn scared, though idk of what. i shut my eyes damn tightly as i tried to put myself back into temporary sleep, but i couldnt.

one reason was probably cos i had the light on. another reason was cause i wasnt sure if my door was properly closed shut or not. tht little gap leaves a huge amount of insecurity. and i tell you, my imagination during the middle of the night is horrible.

well. i survived la. i fell asleep eventually, but in the middle of shogun, my phone vibrated due to low batt, and i jerked awake. the phone was beautifully right underneath my cheek sia.

the sun was in my face, and i sat up to bask in its radiance. its warmth. got started reading diary of a wimpy kid:dog days, cos my bro randomly lent it to me. and anyway i was done with my library books alr, so why not?

aaaand surprise surprise, halfway thru i fell asleep. tht was like, 6 plus? woke up just nice at 930, went to mandi, took my time, basking in the warmth - of the hot water this time, damn i just love warmth. or heat. i love anything as long as i dont shiver from it. but ice cream is awesome!

well then. went to mac's but it was crowded so went to 7-11 instead, i was craving pao anyway :3 siying came a few mins aft i arrived there, she went to sit down while i took the biggest pao there was, heh. paid and then sat with her and she started ranting.

glad i could lend her a listening ear, cause at the end of our talk session she was like, "ive not talked like tht for such a long time." glad i was of some use, heh.

she sent me to work, the sweet thang. saw some ncc girls from our sch, amirah was there but i didnt say hi to her... it's alright, get rid of the past to make space for the future right? new boyfriend new family right? -.-.-.-

hayati and jennifer were in the office when i clocked in, went to check out to see what station i was assigned, since there was no briefing. i got megaplay!

so went over, suriani was at ballocity, chatted with her, and then when she went for her break, chatted with azura pulak. she's the pretty one i saw the other day, and woah, her voice is deep sia. k not deep like guy la, but not high like girls either. damn hot sia this azura.

1. i am not a les. 2. i am with irshad. 3. i am in love with irshad, i will not scandal with a co-worker.

chatted with her, she was also an NA student, so asked her abt her decision between sec 5 and ite. said she went to ite, and tht a friend of hers went to sec 5 but wasted tht one year cos her friend still ended up at ite. soo yeah, idk, i really dk.

today was quite boring uh. but chatted with suriani and farhan a lot today, heh. like bonding. i didnt know farhan is a sec 4NA student too sia. he showed me his and benna's art stuff, like woah, they were art students even! amazing, the world is full of mysteries...

i like benna's eyes. the way they turn at the corners, damn gorgeous. always taken in by them whenever i talk to her.

suriani, benna and farhan were the AM people, so when their shift ended, i went to chat with the PM ppl pulak, cos i was doing midshift. talked with the new guy, whats his name? idk. farhan say he muka selenge, right in fronta him, kurang ajar! mentang mentang dier chine, lol wtf. but funny.

talked with chang yuan too, although not really got to know him more. just talked abt handover stuff, cos when i was gg off, he had to do my station. ive seen him like on my first day of work but ive never talked to him before. must summon courage to socialize with him one day.

when i clocked out, asked jin for my pay, pretended to look at the schedule while waiting for her to show up with ma moolah, and when she did, said bye to her and went to gr office to grab my stuff.

chatted with wani , she made fun of me as always, she like big sis sey , she said im very funny cos its been a month since ive started working but i dont have any of them as friends on facebook cept azreenie, who has been fired anyway -___-

and then said bye to her and the GROs who were there, before walking to bus stop to go to library :3 the teen romance book i borrowed, it wasnt tht bad. i borrowed its sequel today, and also a book by the crossing places' author. heh, i love books a lot, dont you?

wrote this at work earlier:
"she sits in solitude
with pen and paper as company substitute
she doesnt mind trading the world
for the ability to remain with words.

being abandoned by society
leaves her no impact for entity
all tht matters is her ability
to turn her mistakes into philosophy

as long as she can generate positivity
from the slightest lack of energy
theres no space left for negativity
and she can release herself from captivity."

what does it mean? ask yourself !