Morons.

been skipping bridging for 5 days alr . and ive no mood to study myself at home alr. i know i am being a moron for allowing his leaving to affect me so greatly, but he's also a moron for leaving me at an incorrect time over smth unreasonable!

this is the whole story.

ok. it was over my new job. he says i dont listen to him and tht i dont understand his intentions. he says he worried tht i would fail my Os bcos i would be taking them next year, and he didnt want me to juggle studies and work, cos he doesnt trust tht i would be able to do it.

i understand the shit, i really do. but here's my bloody argument.

they asked me abt it in the interview. they asked me how would i cope with studies and work. so in other words i alr knew abt this problem between studies and work waaay before he mentioned it to me.

when i got the job, i started reading up sec 5 stuffs at around the same time. it was alright sia, i didnt have any stress. and i even went maths tuition. i effing started early sia. wtf do you think i went to bridging for? (i went for the first two days)

and i was also thinking of quitting next year before april around there. the effing Os are next year. he told me to quit one month aft my first day like wtf, does he think it's tht simple? and has it been written in stone tht i would be gg sec 5?

and the job damn slacky sia. all the part timers there always read books on the job, all of us are always carrying books around sia. if we can read, why not study? i sempat write diary also sia.

and does he think tht leaving me would help me in my studies? no it effing doesnt, it makes me feel like shit. and the fact tht he says he doesnt trust me makes me feel more like shit.

i fucking told you a lot sia. cos i expected you to be with me through all the shit. and then suddenly you left me for smth so stupid. smth which ive alr explained my own side of the story and all the shit blah blah blah.

and when you gave me tht chance, you didnt give me enough time to make use of it properly. it's true sia, you're bring unreasonable. but i tell you, i aint gonna give up la sia. bloody hell, fucking "decide on it and see it through" !

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