i love him a lot .
but i know i aint trying hard enough.

he's apathetic. i just Know it. i can sense tht he wants to leave, very very soon. and i'm scared. why do people become more clumsy when they're scared ? oh yes, they shiver so much tht they just Become butterfingers. dont you think so?

but i shouldnt be like tht... the more scared i am , the more i must have the courage to replace this fear.