i thought of a few theories as to why i was insomniac for the past few days then. i shared them with you, which was , i was insomniac only if i sleep alone or in another room. you told me to sleep with someone, to which i said none of my family wanted to sleep in my room.

you were like, "wow. sleep with me then." i showed a face, and you sighed, "if only it's possible." i was surprised tht you were willing, cos "my room is damn scary at night", i said. you answered, "how to sleep at ur place anyway. if your family finds out, jialat." you sounded so serious, and i was alr thinking things.

i left you alone aft tht, and then you suddenly said; "Dek. i love you."

and i knew tht the great feeling i had wasnt anything to do with our sibling-ly love.

i told you tht i was restless when you didnt text me at all the whole day the day before (you were on an EBS trip to singapore poly or something) , you kept pestering me to admit tht i missed you. when i finally gave in to you, i admitted something to myself too. ....but i kept trying to deny it.

you suddenly asked me if there was anything i wanted to tell you. i asked myself if you were an esper, but i said to you No? with a question mark. i asked you if YOU had anything to tell me. to tht, you said; "yeap. i love you dek! *chuckles* kay tht's all."

and then i admitted it to myself again.
but then i denied it again.